Tomorrow
A/N: Some people requested I continue this story, I am doubtful of making it a full story, but regardless I have written a second and third chapter for those who wished it, with a possibility of a fourth and fifth. This one is inspired by the song Someday When I Stop Loving You by Carrie Underwood.
/Flashback/
Disclaimer: I don't own Hetalia.
Chapter 3: Someday When I Stop Loving You
Alfred watched Arthur get on the bus from the window at half past nine. This was it; he was really leaving this time. The two of them would no longer be a couple. Silent tears streaked down his face, but Arthur never looked back, after all, he had already called Francis. He contemplated extremes, perhaps going and walking in front of the bus, just to see if Arthur would get off for that.
In some ways Alfred felt that Arthur had already moved on from their relationship. Alfred had always silently wondered if he was the 'other person' in the relationship from their odd love triangle, especially since Francis had loved Arthur first.
Yet in his mind other memories stood out so clearly.
/Flashback/
Alfred lay next to Arthur completely content. They stared at each other and contemplated a family.
"Do you want a big family?" Alfred asked.
"After my brothers? Not really…it's not like children really like me anyway," Arthur muttered.
"I loved you, you were my best friend even then," Alfred said softly, using his hand to caress Arthur's cheek as the other man blushed.
Arthur playfully swatted Alfred's chest. "You've always been an exception. I think the problem is too many males. Maybe we could adopt little girls?"
Alfred smiled. "They'd be beautiful. We could name one of them Alba."
"After my grandmother?" Arthur asked, slightly surprised.
Alfred's smile grew as he nuzzled into Arthur's shoulder and pulled the smaller male closer. "She was one of the first to accept us. She's a good woman and a strong role model."
Arthur smiled as well. "In that case we should also name one of them Aiyana."
"I think my grandma would love that," Alfred said.
/Flashback End/
Alfred wasn't so certain he could move on like Arthur had. Certainly not as easily. Alfred snorted. He'd loved Arthur for so much of his life he couldn't see himself falling in love again and moving on until the desert floods and the grass turns blue.
He was like a ship without a moon, without constellations, Arthur had taken his light. He wasn't sure he'd ever get it back either and the very thought was breaking his heart, but he could get through it. Of that he was certain. He just had to figure out a way to live his life without Arthur.
He shuddered at the thought. Arthur had been such a large part of his life the only way to escape that would be to leave. To leave behind his friends and family…a new start somewhere else, maybe a big city or perhaps an isolated country. He was due to start his residency as a doctor, maybe he could volunteer for a foreign country relief aid and spend his time like that?
Someday he would stop loving Arthur, but right now there were just so many reminders everywhere. He had put everything on the line for this love of his, but it hadn't been enough. Watching Arthur leave had been one of the hardest things he had ever done and he had to start letting him go somewhere. But could he really leave his life behind?
The more he thought about it the less he wanted to do so. But he needed this. Needed to leave and get away, needed time to deal with the situation so he could move on too. Like Arthur had.
No matter the thought still sent pain through him, he would stop loving the other man someday. Right now it broke his heart, but he would get through it and someday when he stopped loving Arthur, maybe he could find his own happiness.