Chapter 9
I scream and scream and cant stop
"shoo" I hear a familiar voice "shoo it's ok I'm here" caius sitting right up beside I panic my heart going so fast I can't breath I really can't breath my hands shoot to my neck not a bite mark nothing I look at my skin human skin I look back at caius alive safe I jump at him with my hands feeling his face running my hands through his hair down his neck "it was just a nightmare a nightmare" I keep repeating to myself "your ok Isabella your ok what is it" he puts his arms around me and pulls me towards him pressing me against him "your ok" I say to him repeating his words to him "I'm ok I'm ok don't leave me" I say sounding pathetic but holding onto him he kisses my head then my forehead and my cheek then my mouth "never" he says as I kiss him back "I'll stay with you forever" he says reassuring me I kiss him now holding him closer to me than he ever was but he stops us and looks at me my tears I feel them running down my face "tell me" he says wiping them away as quickly as they came "I can fix it" he smiles his sadistic smile I came to love "you have already your hear but you where gone" I stop the image flashing through my head a permanent scar in my memory "you where gone for forever" I say to him he smiles at me and pulls me closer to him and we lay down we lay there until the sun came up I couldn't close my eyes without that image haunting me he gets up he's been called to the great Hall "come when your ready you can sit with us today I won't tell them" he says to me kissing me goodbye not long after he left I showered and he left and Maria showed up with breakfast we ate together at a table Caius had brought in for me "about yesterday" I say to Maria she shakes her head at me "you don't have to explain everything is calm caius looks his usual self but you look tired" she says I nod "rough night" I said laughing a little trying to lighten the mood she smiles at me nods and we finish breakfast and we walk towards the great Hall but I pass it she just follows me to the courtyard I sit on a bench for a while and get some air she sits with me and waits patiently with me
An hour later we walk back towards the great Hall aro Cauis and Marcus are all on there thrones I walk to aro and bow he kisses my cheek and I kiss his "good morning child your joining us today" he says with a small smile not his usual self he must of touched caius and realised what's worrying us all "Yes" I say bowing again "if you would be generous enough to allow it" I say he laughs "Isabella you are family you shall do as you please" he says with a smile so broad I can't read it he gestures to my usual table and I sit near the top and Maria comes with a tray with coffee on it and wuthering heights layed on the table for something to read they sit on there thrones looking rather intimidating and splendid as I sip my coffee and read my book I hear someone talking but don't look up until I realise it's Edward I hear my name being said so I put my book down and stand he sees me then caius is leaning forward towards him looking very angry I walk forwards not sure what is going on aro stands gesturing for everyone to calm down I'm a feet away from them when Maria puts a hand on my arm "Bella no" she says but I walk towards them "what is going on" I say determined to know why my name is said aro looks at me now "there is just a small disagreement my child" aro says resting his hand on my shoulder "but maybe you can enlighten us on this situation" he smiles
now I look at everyone waiting on who will explain "Well Edward here has come to ask a favour" aro says letting it sink in I look at Edward who nods "we all know you shall be turned and he wants to do it" aro says with a smile I look at aro not sure if I'm hearing this Edward wants to turn me my dream comes back in flashes in my mind "but" aro continues "Cauis also wants to turn you such a dilemma" aro says looking at the two men smiling "what do you think Bella" asking me is this happening really happening
"why are you doing this" I turn to Edward accusingly "why" I demand voice rising "why now after everything" my voice echoing the hall around me fear I feel it rapping around me my dream flashing in my mind the pain of seeing Cauis gone forever from me "Bella you don't understand" he says "understand what that you turn me I leave here and go back to being a Cullen and living my life my eternity happily with you" I interrupt him I say it calmed so calmly it's sadistic like Cauis I don't want to be harsh to him but doesn't he see I don't love him he hurt me to much far to much "I love you Bella" he says "so much I left to protect you I know it was wrong I hurt you I thought you died I couldn't live without you then you where alive then you then you where here I told you out there I told you" he says caius is beside me now standing around is watching us watching the drama unfold "your here I can change you we can be together we can stay here be part of the volturi we can live here and be happy" he says so convincingly "Edward" I say I can feel caius beside I look up at him and see his red eyes he's not drank today the images of him is layed out in my head I put my hand on his arm "it's ok" I tell him and aro and caius sit on there thrones Edward is now in the middle of the room somehow I never saw him move "Edward" I say again I don't know what I'm saying or feeling I feel so confused everything is muddled but "I love you Bella" he says again "Edward" I stop looking right at him walk closer to him "I don't love you" I say as much as I know this is going to hurt him he needs to hear it again he needs to believe it "you loved me once you can love me again let me change you let me show you" he says to me I turn to look at caius who is watching me and turn back to Edward "please Bella we can do this I can do this" he says his eyes are gold his hair is messy and he's standing alone in a room of vampires he doesn't like to be with me "Edward please listen to me" I say calmly "Bella I have joined the volturi I will be here forever for you forever be with me" he says I feel the fear of last night's dream overcome me "no I can't" I say confident of my answer but he shakes his head at me "can we speak a moment alone please" he says "it won't make a difference Edward the answer will stay the same" I say to him can't he understand my feelings towards him now they have changed "Bella you don't know what your doing you don't understand why are you doing this Bella" he says exasperated but I do understand and know what I'm doing and I'm getting angrier at him for not letting me have this choice he walks closer to me pulling my hands in his there's no electricity shooting through me like I do with Cauis no jump start of your heart "please Bella" he says again "but I don't love you Edward not like I did before" I say to him please just stop Edward please I can't do this not here not now I just can't I think to myself "why, why not Bella just listen to me" he says again "I am but your not listening to me Edward your not listening" I say my voice raising "I love you Isabella swan" he says pulling me towards him I hear voices behind me but Ignore them "be with me forever" he repeats "no Edward I don't love you" I say nearly shouting feeling angrier and angrier at him how can I feel so angry at someone I used to love "why not why can't you give me a chance please" he says again I feel it rising inside me bursting out and I can't stop it
"because" I shout "that's not an answer Bella" he says smiling the smile just makes me explode "because I don't love you" I say shouting at him throwing my hands in the air he goes to talk but it's too late "I don't love you your not going to change me Edward why can't you listen to me" I shout throwing my hands up in the air don't care who's watching me act like a maniac he "Bella please" he says again "no no I love him ok I love him" I shout at Edward "I'm in love with caius" I scream at him I stop everything stops the talking behind me Edward myself I'm shocked I said it I actually said I turn to caius and he's staring at me now aro is laughing and I feel my face on fire I turn and walk out so embarrassed I said it and it wasn't even to him every vampire in the castle heard it and I never said it to him I screamed it at my ex vampire boyfriend I keep walking I hear talking behind me and laughing I pass Edward who is just stood and out into the hall and to a open window I need air I can't breath I can't believe what just happened
I feel cold hands turning me I look up to see caius standing over me he pulls me towards him and kisses me so passionately I don't want it to stop but he pulls away "say it again" he says whispering "I love you caius" I whisper to him "and I love you Isabella" and he leans down and kisses me again my body is alight with Love and passion but he is gone he is laying on the floor on the other side of the room I scream and run towards him but he's up and it's so fast I can't move I can't see he's gone then reappears Edward is on the floor in pain I look up and Jane is standing at the door two men lift Edward and pull him away Jane following behind with a smile on her face I rush to caius but he looks fine he turns to me and smiles "I should of seen that coming" he says he leans down and kisses me on the head the flashes of the dream last night flashes through my head a scar forever imprinted in my head caius on the floor head apart from his body the image will be with me for eternity
We head back into the great Hall aro is standing smiling "Well child caius shall turn you" he says to me "if you are sure" he continued I nod looking at caius who smiles then sits on his throne so does aro Jane returns then and gives me a smile almost laugh really I feel my face going red "Edward is confined what shall we do with him now" she asks aro he sits thoughtfully "give him time to calm down if he wishes to leave allow him to if he wants to stay here and join us he shall" he says to her and she nods and leaves "aro he is a danger he turned so quickly on us" Caius says to him "tut tut tut don't worry he wouldn't risk it again it was a shock for him well for everyone really he thought our Isabella was his mate which you both disagree" he looks at me but I just stare at them I walk back to the table and lift wuthering heights and leave to my room and allow them to argue it out