While JJ made her way to Garcia's office she looked briefly out of the window. Outside there was a very big thunderstorm, which pretty much summed up JJ's mood for the last week. She sighed and punched in the code for Penelope's electronic door before entering in. She was greeted by a sight she didn't expect, but frankly couldn't deal with at the moment. Emily was standing in front of her, she looked just as shocked to see JJ as JJ did to see her.
"Oh, no. I can't deal with this right now. I came to see Pen. I did not sign up to see you." JJ said, partly full of resentment and partly out of the pain she felt in her heart when she saw Emily, she turned on her heels, ready to high-tail it out of there, when she heard Emily's voice.
"Jennifer, wait." Emily begged, realizing that she had made a mistake, and she needed JJ to know that. JJ couldn't help but stay, she might not like Emily much right now, but her love was unconditional, and as much as it hurt her, she wanted to know what the brunette had to say.
"Fine. Hurry up though, I don't have all day." JJ said, sitting down on one of the chairs in Penelope's office. Emily copied this action.
"Jennifer, there's something I need to apologies for. You see, I made a big mistake when you told me how you felt about me, and I regret it more than anything I have ever done, I let you go." JJ huffed at Emily's statement, she couldn't believe Emily had the nerve to apologize after what she had done.
"It's too little, too late." JJ said, raising an eyebrow at the other woman.
"I know that, Jennifer, I just. I guess I just panicked." Emily continued.
"What do you mean you panicked? I understand that you are straight, and that I shouldn't have kissed you, but you didn't have to say what you said."
"That's exactly it though, Jennifer. I had to say it, I had to make you think that you shouldn't have kissed me."
"Why the hell is that?" JJ asked, crossing her arms.
"I was protecting you."
"FROM WHAT?" JJ yelled, losing her temper, she felt humiliated by Emily, and she couldn't stand that
"FROM ME!" Emily yelled back, "I was protecting you from me." JJ really wasn't planning on making this easy for Emily.
"Why?" She asked.
"BECAUSE I FEEL THE SAME FREAKING WAY, JENNIFER!"
"That's a lie." JJ said, unable to believe what she had just heard, "If you felt for me even a fractionof what I feel for you, you wouldn't have treated me that way."
"I'm so sorry, Jennifer! It's just I thought I was doing the right thing for you; I love you too much to hurt you."
"Why don't you trust yourself to be with me? I told you I love you, if you feel the same way how would I get hurt?" JJ asked, her tone changing slightly.
"Because, I'm afraid of being in love." Emily's eyes pleaded for forgiveness in JJ's. "You deserve to be with someone who can protect you, but I'm worried that I'm not that person; I'm scared that I'm going to wreck your career, wreck yours and Henry's lives, but worst of all I'm worried that I'll get scared of being so happy and hurt you." JJ looked away from Emily, before turning her head back and giving her a look of anger.
"You already hurt me." JJ moved her chair closer to Emily and stared into her eyes. "You smashed my heart to pieces, then you called me a freaking dyke, and now you want me to just forgive and forget. That hurts, Em. But what hurts me the most, Prentiss, is that you don't trust yourself to love me. I don't need to be protected, I need to be loved. I need you to love..." JJ was interrupted by the lights in Garcia's office going off, she frowned and gingerly made her way towards the door, where the light switch was, but when she got there she realized that the whole department had been plunged into darkness; It was still morning, but the thunder storm had made it dark, and must have been the cause for the power cut. "Great." She exclaimed.
"What is it?" Emily asked, barely able to see JJ's silhouette in the darkness.
"Power cut." JJ said, she rattled the door and it didn't open. "And, Pen's got an electronic locking system, so we're stuck in here." Emily gulped, the prospect of being alone in a closed environment indefinitely with the blonde right now didn't appeal to her, and sent a tidal wave of guilt through over her, she couldn't stay in there.
"I need to get out." She panicked, rushing towards the door in an attempt to get away from the woman whose heart she had broken, but JJ grabbed her wrist, it didn't cause Emily any pain, but she winced at the contact between their skin. JJ hated seeing Emily like this, even after what had gone on with them earlier.
"You're going to be okay, I promise," JJ said, pulling Emily into her arms and letting the brunette rest her head on her chest. "Do you trust me to look after you?" Emily looked up into JJ's eyes briefly before replying.
"I trust you." Emily let the floods of tears she had been holding back for days pour out into the fabric of JJ's top, sure she had cried, but not like this; these sobs wracked her body. She couldn't help thinking that it should have been JJ crying, but JJ didn't seem to care. She just held Emily, her arms wrapped around the other woman's body protectively, soothing the woman she loved. Emily pulled away from JJ slightly. I'm so sorry for what I have done to you, I have never regretted anything as much. I shouldn't be the one crying. I'm going to make it up to you, I promise I will do anything. I promise I will make this right." JJ tilted her head into the crook of Emily's neck, so close when she inhaled she could smell the beautiful smell that was Emily, so close she could feel the Brunette's breath on her, she whispered into Emily's ear.
"I trust you."
