This chapter is a song fanfic chappie, to a song called I'll Be Here from the broadway musical Ordinary Days. Some of the words are changed to fit my details, just so you know.
We met, of all places, in front of a café
His eyes were perfect.
Some freakishly cold winters day
They could be called brown, from a distance.
I had on several unflattering layers of wool
But as you got closer, they looked kind blue.
And he slipped in the ice with his grocery bags full
But then, you saw they were green.
So I rescued some fruit loops he dropped by the curb
Yes, surely they were green.
And he made some remark that my smile was superb
But as you got as close as possible, so close that your nose touched his and a giggle escaped your lips, you saw the green seems to be infiltrated with yellow, the bright color shooting like a sprout through his eyes.
I thought that was sweet, and I started to go
And then you realized that his eyes changed color, and you'd smile and he'd laugh, and then you'd find yourself just falling in love...
And he said "hey, whatcha doing tomorrow?"
Falling into his beautiful eyes that just changed from color to color while his smile just stayed the same...
Because I'll be here
As long as you stood right next to him, his smile stayed perfect.
On the corner of Bleaker and Mercer tomorrow at seven
And then you'd find yourself tumbling down the hill with him just for fun and laughing your head off as he lay in the grass, making faces at the sky.
If you want to meet up, I'll be waiting right here
And it wasn't even that funny, but you were happy and that was all that mattered.
And in case there are two fellows eating for you my name's August
And then you'd smile, because his clothes were covered in stains which meant you would offer to wash them just so you could press your face against his shirt and smell his scent and smile one more time.
He waved and then he was gone
And then one day he would ask you if you wanted ice cream, his treat, and he knows you love ice cream and you know that he's sad because he just broke up with his girlfriend and your trying not to be happy about that.
Needless to say I went back there to meet him
And then you'd find yourself eating ice cream with him every Saturday and it was your kind of best friend tradition and then one time you kissed his nose without thinking and you couldn't stop smiling for the rest of the day because of the way his face turned red.
Mostly to see if he'd show
And then it wasn't just kisses on the nose it was full on kisses on the lips where you got the perfect view of his eyes.
And there he was
So you became the only couple that kissed with your eyes open because that was just perfect and you loved his eyes.
Out in the cold with his jacket pulled tight
And then one day he asked you out to ice cream like old times and you kissed him on the nose.
He took me to dinner and kissed me goodnight
And then you spotted the box in his pocket and you knew.
The next week we went to this terrible play
And instead of being the couple who did it perfectly, you grabbed the box and ran.
And the week after that drank hot chocolate all day
And then you were both laughing and rolling down the hill again, and that was perfect because thats all life needs to be.
And suddenly eight or nine months had flown by
All you need in life is someone that will make you happy and throw profession and perfect out the window and just love you.
And he said "hey, watchya doing the rest of your life?"
'Because I'll be here
Right beside you as long as you want me to be
There's no question
There is nothing I've wanted so much in my life
This might sound immature but I'm totally sure you're the one
And we had just begun
We got hitched in September, our favorite month
With a rock band that played in this old synagogue
And we bought an apartment on West 17th street and talked about children and getting a dog
Our first anniversary came in a flash
And we promised to take the day off
He had to stop into his office that morning
And so I went walking uptown to this bakery I know
When I heard on the street what I thought was a joke
Till I noticed the sirens and saw all the smoke
So I'm running back home with this feeling of dread
To the voicemail he left
with the last words he said
I'm sorry, I don't mean to ruin your evening by bringing up all of this stuff
You're probably wondering why I even called you tonight
Well today something happened that spooked me alright
I saw this storm cloud of paper fall down from the sky
And I thought of that day
and I started to cry
When as sure as I breath I heard him clear as day
Saying "Hey, you're allowed to move on"
It's okay
'Because I'll be here
Even if you decide to get rid of my favorite sweater
Even if you go out on my birthday
This year instead of staying at home
letting all of life's moments pass by
You don't have to cry.'
'Because I'll be here
When you start going back to the places we went to together
When you take off my ring and you let yourself smile
When you meet some handsome and patient and true
When he says that he wants to go out with you
When you call him one night and he meets you downtown
When you finally answer him yes
Yes
Fitz, I will go out with you
I will give you my heart
It has taken so long, but I'm ready to start
Right now he's whispering 'Congrats' in my ear
cause I finally let myself tell you
That I will be here.
