Why Sam Wears Boxers

Chapter 3: Itell the truth

A/N I don't own ICarly. But I do own my OC so please don't take them. Also just to clarify italics are Sam's thoughts and quotations are actual dialogue

Sam's POV In a coffee shop of some-sorts.

"In 3...2...1... Heya Doc it's me Sam." I say with a great smile at the camera. "Are you ready for me to continue my story? Well if you're not well too bad, because I'm telling it anyways."

"So anyways she pulled me into the apartment and..."

Flashback- Sam's POV Outside Carly's Apartment

"Sam we need to talk, NOW." She tells me, giving me a stern look.

"What about Carly?" I ask, as I plop down on the couch with her following suit.

"Us." She says. Shit, that's all she's giving me? Well it was going to happen sometime.

"Okay... what about us?" I question. Don't tell her, my brain tells me.

"Well you've been acting different since you came back from camp." She says, Camp? Oh yea when I was with my Uncle Carmine. During that time we had sat down and had a long talk about my sexuality, but I wasn't about to tell her that. After all it's when I finally admitted to myself that I loved her.

"I haven't noticed any difference." Liar, I had been more conservative since then.

"Sam you've been staying over less, and you've been really jumpy when we're alone. Add that to today I'm just scared about our friendship." She says her voice changing halfway through it.

"Carly, it's nothing you did I just-"She cuts me off

"Then what is it Sam? Why are you so scared to tell me?" She looks like she's on the verge of tears. "I, I, I can't lose you Sam if I do then I might just break." That last sentence breaks my heart. I have to tell her, but I'm so fucking scared right now.

"Listen Carls-"

"Don't "Carls" me, just tell me what the FUCK is going on." She snaps. She never cusses. Uh oh she's mad, no getting out of this now.

"Okay, I'll tell you, but no more interrupting me." I say not wanting a fight. Just tell her you love her. Shut it brain.

"YAY!" She breaks into a smile and crawls onto my lap. "So what's going on Sammie?"

What...The...Fuck... One moment she's going to cry the next she's acting like it never happened. "I, uh, I love you Carly." I manage to get out before my brain shuts down my speech center. Fuck you brain and your mixed signals.

"I know that silly." She says slapping my arm. "Now what's the real problem?"

"No Carly you don't know, I don't friend love you. I Love you, love you." Yay my brain is working again. Her face changes into an unreadable look. Somehow she has this ability to do that, while I'm an open book.

"What do you mean?" She asks, her sad face is back fuck. "Love me how?"

"I, uh, um, ugh, brain... I...can't...words..." I sputter out. "bbbut, I...I...can... s..show.. you.. you"

I reach my head down to hers and kiss her on the lips. It was everything I dreamed of. 1 second...2 seconds...3 seconds why isn't she pulling away?. After about ten seconds our lips part with a smack." I uh... I'm sorry Carly."

"No Sam I'm sorry I even asked" She says with an upset look on her face. Oh no

"Carly?" I whimper. "Don't leave me." My biggest fear is being abandoned.

"Sam I need..." She takes a moment to compose herself. "I need you to go home tonight, and not come back until I call or text you."

"What?" My voice cracking. It's exactly what I was scared of, she wouldn't accept me for who I am, and now she was going to leave. "Please Carly... I...I can't leave"

"Yes you can Sam, please just go now." She's crying now, and I know that I can't stay to comfort her, because this is all my fault.

"Okay I'll see you" I croak out tears running down my face. I run out of her apartment, shoving a confused Freddie aside and don't stop running until I get home. When I got home I went straight to my room and cried myself to sleep.

End Flashback

"That was the worst day of my life doc." I tell him. "I know however that Carly also had a bad day and so to give her account of the day, she sent me a video clip to add on to this. Enjoy!"

Flashback- Carly's POV

She kissed me...kissed...me. I think to myself. It was everything I thought it would be, I want more. No Carly she's your best friend you can't think like this. Damn my brain, it never wants what I want.

Now she's apologizing telling me she's sorry about it, but I don't want her to. "No Sam I'm sorry I even asked."

She's scared, I've seen that look on her face before. She's afraid of abandonment, her father left her, her sister did as well. Now all that's left is her mother and me, of the two of us she preferred to stay with me.

"Carly, don't make me leave" She says

"Sam..." I'm crying now. "Just go home please, I'll see you in school."

"I...I can't leave Carly" She whimpers. I don't quite remember what happens next, but the next thing I know she storms out the door crying.

"Carly? What's going on in there?" It's Freddie, I just leave him and run up to my room.

When I get there I slam shut my door and flop down on my bed. Then it happens. I want to cry, but I can't. I can't stop thinking about the kiss and how it felt so right. My brain keeps telling me that I can't feel this way, but the rest of me is saying the opposite. My last thought before I fall asleep is I have to tell Sam.

End Flashback- Sam's POV

"Well that concludes today's segment doctor. I have to get going before this Skybucks closes. My next stop; Hollywood where I hope to find a place to work." I say diligently. "So talk to you next week, bye"

That concludes today's chapter, but don't worry a new one will be up next week. Also I'm sorry this one was short, but I have two essays I had to write so I didn't have enough time to write a full chapter..

Please review it helps me get better at my writing.