Lost Hope

Chapter 4

Freya's POV

I dont even know how long we had all been trapped on this god forsakin island but a lot has happened since we found the hatch. Shannon, Anna Lucia and Libby were dead, Michael finally reunited with Walt and the Others let them go and sail away from the Island, and Jin and Sawyer had returned, and Sun was pregnant. Jack had assigned shifts to press the button but I didnt want anything to do with that thing after seeing how much it drove that Desmond guy nuts, he bailed after giving Jack the numbers. Just then I see everyone on the beach running toward shore, toward a boat, I got up and went over to the shore.

"Are we rescued?" Charlie asked behind me.

"Perhaps it's them." Sayid said

Just then Jack, Sayid, and Sawyer jumped in the water and swam out toward the boat while we all stayed on the beach I looked through a pair of binoculars.

"You see anything?" Charlie asked me.

"No. Nothing" I answered I watched as the guys got closer to the boat.

"Maybe it's a trap?" The brit said

"What do you mean a trap?" Hurley said looking at him

Jack, Sayid and Sawyer reach the boat and climb aboard.

After a few minutes Jack, Sawyer, and Sayid returned and I was with a group of people asking me questions.

"Okay, okay, just wait one second, okay. I'll be right back.' I told them and went to approch Jack, "Everybody needs to know what's going on, Jack. There's a boat..."

"Just tell them Desmond's back until I find out the rest, okay." Jack told me, and I couldnt believe what I was hearing. How was Desmond back? Why would he come back?

Jack walked away and approched Desmond who's sitting near a fire, drinking. I looked aver at them and Desmond turned his head to look at Jack but before he saw him Desmond looked over at me. I dont know why but I gave him a small smile and walked away.

The next day I woke up, got dressed and headed towards the little food set up we had and grabbed a protein bar. I walked over to the part of the beach that I always sat at when I needed to be alone and sat down.

"Mind if I join ya?" I heard someone ask from behind me, I turned my head and saw Desmond standing there.

"Oh Umm..sure, pull up some sand." I told him as I took my shoes and socks off putting my feet in the sand.

Desmond sat down next to me and I pulled my knees to my chest.

"Something on your mind lass?" He asked me crossing his legs and resting his arms on his knees.

I looked at him then looked back at the ocean, "Just taking a moment before I head back to camp and get bombarded with questions."

"What kind of questions?" I looked at him and smirked a little.

"Well look at that its not even 8am and I already have my third question of the day." I said with a laugh and Desmond laughed a little too.

"Sorry" He said.

"It's fine," I looked back at the ocean, "People keeping asking me why your back, How far did you make it, stuff like that."

I heard him chuckle, "Believe me it wasnt my intention to come back. All I remember was being happy that I had finally left this island and was going to find my way home, last thing I remember was drinking a bottle of cheap whiskey I had on the boat then waking up hearing Jack and them." he said uncrossing his knees.

I leaned back on my hands, "i'm sorry you winded up back, especially after being here for three years. Do you have anyone waiting for you back home?" I asked him, why would I ask him that?

Desmond looked at me and smiled, "Now look who's asking questions." He said and nudged me a little, " And no, no I dont have anyone waiting for me back home. I was never able to find someone, I was to busy trying to make a life for myself."

I dont know what happened but I put my hand on his shoulder and he looked at me, "Still, I'm sorry your back here." He gave me a smile and I pulled my hand off his shoulder, "So were you able to get what you needed to make a tent for yourself?"

He shook his head, "No, I spent three years underground, I slept under the stars last night."

I laughed, "I get that but what if it rains?"

"Then thats just another thing I'll enjoy after being in that hatch." He said looking up at the sky.

I stood up shaking my head, "Get up you crazy Scottish person we are gonna go get you what you need to build a tent, and I will make sure you can still see the stars."

He looked up at me and laughed but got up anyways, we headed over to camp and got water and my make shift tools I used in the jungle and headed out. As we were walking through the jungle we talked a little more about each other, he asked how I knew he was scottish, I had spent the summer after I graduated college before starting my residency traveling Europe.

"So when you and Locke first came to the hatch he told me you were a criminal. What did he mean by that?" Desmond asked me as we gathered some palm tree banches that fell and put them in a pile.

I stopped and took a drink of water, "Back in my senior year of high school I was a bit of a rebel. I went to parties that the so called stoners would have, skipped class, got suspended at least 5 times, and always started fights." I told him and he put his hands on his hips and looked at me. He was wearing a blue button up shirt that he hadn't buttoned all the way and boy was that distracting but I worked really hard on ignoring it, "Well one night I was hanging out with some other people who I thought werent that bad, we drove around and eventually got bored so we stopped at this gas station, I was sitting in back with a guy who I wasnt dating but we were fooling around. Anyways I went in to use the bathroom and as I was washing up I hear shouting and then a gunshot go off. I ran out of the bathroom and saw the guy I was with holding a gun and standing above the cashier who was laying on the floor dead." I paused and looked Desmond who just looked at me and I continued, "I started shouting at him asking what he did,he just grabbed my arm and pulled me out the door and to the car and we left. Basically after all that happened I was arrested because I was seen on the security tape and was an accessory to a robbery and murder. I spent 10 days in jail until I was finally asked to give up the people involved in the robbery, which I did and my sentence was shortened and I was free after that. After all that happened I turned my life around and finished school, had to take a a lot of summer classes, got accepted to a college in San Diego then went to Austrailla for medical school and finished up my residency. Now here I am trapped on an island." I put my head down feeling ashamed of my past.

"That's quite an interesting story there lass," Desmond said and continued pilling up the branches, "Dont ever feel like you should be ashamed of that. You turned your bad decisions into good ones, I wish I could have done something like that."

I looked at him with a questionable look, "What do you mean?"

"Story for another time. Now what else do we need?" He said walking over to me, I turned and pointed at the tree next to me.

"We need some strong branches from up there." I said heading to the tree with Desmond right behind me.

"You're not gonna climb up there are you?" He asked standing next to me.

"Of course I am, I did it when I had to get the ones to build mine, but if you wouldnt mind giving me a boost it would make it easier." He looked at me and after a short pause he folded his fingers together and held them down so i could put my foot in, as I did I used my hand that wasnt holding the lower branch and put it on his shoulder and pushed up, when I reached the branch above me I felt Desmonds hands quickly go to my hips lifting me up further, the sudden touch from him there sent tingles down my side but I focused on getting up and not on the good looking scottish man's hands on me. I climbed up a little further and propped myself on one branch and started sawing on the others near me.

Finally I got enough to set up his tent and I started to climb down, misjudging the distance from the tree to the ground I slipped and started to fall and as I did I felt Desmond grab me but it wasnt quick enough and we both fell to the ground. I landed on top of him with my back on his chest, after we stopped laughing and me apologizing we got up and brushed ourselves off. He told me with a smirk it was fine and we making our way back to the beach. Suddenly we stopped and heard a noise that makes my blood turn cold.

There was smashing sounds and a chicka chicka sound coming from the distance, we all feared whatever that was and tried our hardest to avoid it.

"What the hell is that?" Desmond asked looking around.

"Something we don't want to run into," I said as it got closer, I was looking around for a place to hide and saw a hollow tree that the monster never seemed to go near, "Come on over here" I told him leading him to the tree.

We got inside as we heard it getting closer to us, me and Desmond were so close to each other I could feel his breath on my hair. I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest, not just because I was scared of the monster but because I was trapped inside a tree being pressed against a man who's good looks were enough to make me melt.

We finally heard the monster pass and gave it a few more minutes then climbed out. Desmnd went first and hld his hand out for me to grab.

"What on earth was that?" He asked

"I honestly dont know, we met a french woman who told us it was some sort of security system for the island, all we know is that it's black smoke and you dont want it to get you." I said sounding crazy, he just nodded his head and went back towards our pile of stuff.

"Well then no use hanging around here, what do you say we head back." He said grabbing an arm load of stuff, I nodded and grabbed the rest. After we got back to the beach we talked about where he wanted to set up and to my suprise he wanted to set his up next to mine.

After about a half hour we were done, I helped make him a canopy type tent so when it was nice out he could keep the flap open and if it rained he could pull it down and tie it inside his tent. He was pretty impressed with it and told me thanks.

The next few days I walked around camp doing my normal routine, doing laundry, helping Jack out, but I added a new thing to my routine and that was talking to Desmond and hanging out with him. We went on walks down the beach and got to know each other, I found out that he was turned down and humiliated by a rich rich and powerful man named Charles Widmore when Desmond went in for a job.

I couldnt help but grow more and more attracted to him, which was strange to me because I never felt like this before, but he woke something up inside me that I never thought was possible. I was crazy though because there was no way he would ever feel it too.

As the days past I knew something was starting to bother him but I didnt press him to tell me, if he wanted to he will, its his choice.

One morning I woke up and thats when everything changed, Locke was in the hatch and i didnt know what was going on with Jack. Suddenly I saw Desmond walk over to me,

"Hey can I talk to you for a minute?" He asked me, I nodded my head and followed him into the jungle.

We stopped after a while and he kept his back to me, "Hey what's wrong?" I asked him.

He turned to face me and got closer to me, "I have to do something important, and I want...no I need to do something else before I go."

I looked at him confused, "What do yo-" I was cut off as I felt his lips press against mine, I tensed at first from the shock but started to relax and before I knew it I was kissing him back. He put one hand on the back of my head and another on my back pulling me closer. Could this mean what I think it means? Was he feeling what I felt? What felt like forever was only a few minutes and he pulled away. Sunddenly I missed the contact and wanted more.

"I'm sorry, I wanted to do that before I left." He told me and started to make his way further into the jungle.

"What do you mean? Leave where?." I asked but he didnt answer and kept walking, "Desmond? Desmond!" Nothing he was gone, I was a mess of pissed off, worried, and sad. We had finally kissed and it was amazing and now all of a sudden he was gone.