Chapter 21

I think I'll go to Boston…

"Oh Kai, I'm so proud of you!"

Kai thought of her mother's words and they echoed in her head as she walked the halls to go to the host club.
Her mother had been so happy when she told her about her acceptance to study abroad, and made her get the video of her audition to show her. Boston was one of the major cities her mother often played softball in, and she would get to see her mother very often when she moved.

Kai had spent the entire weekend with her mother, while Haruhi went on her first date with Tamaki.

She had wanted to come along, but she wanted to see her mother off before she went back to America.

It was a tearful goodbye, but she was happy she would see her soon.

Today was the day she would tell everyone about Boston, or at least tell those who didn't already know.

She walked into music room 3, knowing it would be one of the last times she did for a while.

Everyone seemed occupied with what they were doing, and she walked over to Haruhi. Haruhi looked so happy, and Kai felt her something tug at her heart once more.

"Are you ready?" Haruhi whispered, as she grabbed her hand. Kai nodded, and Kouya tapped his glass and everyone looked to him.

"Everyone, Haruhi and Kai have an important announcement for you" he told them, and everyone looked to them in wonder.

The twins looked at Kai, alarm clear on their faces.

"Everyone, we would like to thank you for opening your hearts to us this year. It really means a lot to us" Haruhi told them, and the guests all swooned. Haruhi looked at Kai, and Kai nodded at her again and continued.

"We wanted to let you know that we won't be back at Ouran next year. We are going to study abroad in Boston for a year. I received a music scholarship, while Haruhi is going on an academic scholarship" Kai told them, and everyone who wasn't already informed of this gasped.

The twins looked away from them, pain clear on their features. Hunny had tears in his eyes, and Mori actually looked a little misty eyed.

"I know this seems sudden, but we are leaving tomorrow night after the closing ceremony. Please understand" Haruhi told them, and she and Kai bowed to everyone.

All the guests had tears, but they smiled warmly at the two.

"We are going to miss you so much!" Renge told them, grabbing a microphone and gesturing extravagantly.

The guests all murmured their agreement, and Tamaki stood and claimed their attention.

"My dear princesses! Tomorrow night we will have one last gala to celebrate our wonderful scholarship students! We will bid them goodbye the only way the host club knows how to!" he told them, and everyone was now chattering with excitement.

Kai and Haruhi had tears in their eyes, touched by everyone's warm words and excitement.

Well, almost everyone.

The twins still looked as though the world was coming to an end, and they had no time on their hands.

"Ladies and gentleman, I would like to introduce to you…Your Host Club!" Tamaki said, as he addressed the crowd of ladies.

Each Host walked down the stairs, finding a girl to dance with. No sooner had it begun; Mori picked up Haruhi and Kai and took them to the changing room to get dressed.

Haruhi had asked Kouya and Tamaki if it would be okay that they tell the guests that they were girls, and they had agreed.

After putting on their dresses and hair extensions, they slipped on their shoes and walked out to the ball room. All the girls squealed at them, telling them they knew they would look amazing in a dress. They stood there for a few minutes, chatting and shedding tears before Tamaki came over. He gave Haruhi a soft smile that spoke volumes, and she returned it knowingly. He grabbed Kai's hand and led her to the dance floor.

"What is it, Tamaki?" she asked him, not bothering with the sempai since he was dating her best friend.

"If you're going to leave the twins with one last goodbye, I think you better tell them how you feel before you leave later tonight" he told her, and she gave him a confused look.

"I already told them Tamaki. What more can I say to them?" she asked him, and he shook his head softly at her.

"Sing to them. One last time" he told her, and her eyes widened.

Thinking for a moment, she nodded at him.

"Good, I have a few lists of songs that Haruhi gave me from your music collection. Just pick one and show it to our band" he told her, and then left her there to gather her thoughts. Kai walked up the stairs quickly, disappearing through the doors.

Looking through her stack of music, she found the perfect song to leave the twins with.

She took the song over to the band, who surprisingly new the song. Apparently American music is very popular in Japan. It was no matter; everyone at Ouran could speak English since it was a required class.

She walked over to the stage, and waited for Tamaki to announce her.

"Ladies and Gentleman! We have a special treat for you all. I had asked a special someone if they could sing and leave us with one last goodbye! May I present, Kai Mirasaki!" he told them, and everyone cheered. The curtains opened and Kai smiled at the crowd.

The spotlight hit her, and she looked at the band. They nodded to her, and then started to play the music softly. Kai looked into the crowd until she found their faces. Yes, it was her last goodbye.
(A/N: If I were you I would play this song, it will add to the moment)

Cry by Kelly Clarkson

"If anyone asks
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
What do I care if they believe me or not
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry"…

When she had finished the song, she had nearly the whole room in tears. Yes, she would say this was her last goodbye. She was in tears as she bowed, and the room erupted into applause and cheers.

Kai exited the stage and went back to the music room to use the restroom. She wiped her tears away, and tried to get a hold of herself. 'This is for the best' she reminded herself, and exited the bathroom.

After returning to the party, she didn't see the twins anywhere. Maybe that was good; because she wasn't sure she could face them again without breaking down.

Sooner than she thought, the party ended and all the guests were hugging her goodbye. Even Renge came over to hug her, and she nearly kicked her when she poked her breasts.

"What do you know, Kai? They are bigger than mine! You must tell me the name of your plastic surgeon!" Renge teased, and Kai laughed testily.

"Goodbye Renge" she told her, and waved as she left the building. Once everyone had gone, Kai and Haruhi quickly gathered their things and changed. They loaded up in Kouya's limo, and made their way to the airport.

Ranka was there waiting on them, all of their stuff packed and ready to go in color coordinated suit cases. That was Ranka for you.

"I want you both to call me when you land, okay?" Ranka asked of them, holding them both and letting a tear or two fall.

"Of course! We love you" they told him, hugging him tightly before letting go. They looked over at Kouya, Hunny, and Mori. All were smiling as they hugged them, and Kai tried not to cry as she waved goodbye to them.

The twins were nowhere to be seen, and neither was Tamaki. Haruhi looked a little worried as she tugged her bags through the hallway. Not surprisingly, Tamaki stood ahead of them. He was staring at Haruhi lovingly, and Haruhi tried to suppress a smile.

Tamaki scooped Haruhi in his arms, surprising her. She had already guessed that he would be going with her, but didn't tell Ranka that small detail.

"I'm coming with you, remember?" Tamaki told her, and she laughed.

"How could I forget?" she groaned, but she looked so happy that she obviously wasn't angry. They looked back at Kai, as they were about to board the plane.

"Coming?" they asked her, smiling gently as they looked at her.

"Yep!" she told them, not looking back as she stepped forward.

Haruhi and Tamaki went on ahead, but voices stopped Kai in her tracks.

There were only two people who would call out to her.

"Kai! Please wait" they said, and she turned to face the two faces she had come to love.

The twins stood there in the hallway, still dressed in their tuxedos they had worn earlier. They looked out of breath, and Kai's heart began to race at the sight of them.

"Hikaru? Kaoru? What are you doing here?" she asked them, her voice breaking as realization dawned on her that this was the last goodbye.

"We didn't want you to leave without saying goodbye!"Kaoru whispered, tears welling in his eyes. Kai's heart ached at the sight, and she wanted nothing more than to reach out to them both.

"You should have told us you were leaving sooner. Why wouldn't you tell us?" Hikaru asked her, his voice shaking as tears welled in his eyes as well. They looked so angry with her.

They had the audacity to ask why SHE was leaving.

And just like that, Kai became angry.

"Tell you? Why would I tell you two anything? You obviously don't reciprocate my feelings, since you sleep with me than leave in the middle of the night. I think if I leave Japan it will be best for all of us, no matter how much I love you both. We have been through so much, and I'm going to miss you so much it's going to hurt like hell, but I have to go" she told them, hot angry tears rolling down her cheeks. She wiped them away, dropping her bags in the process.

The twins simply stared at her, shocked.

"You really love us?" Hikaru asked her quietly, as if not believing what she said.

Kai wiped more tears, trying to get a hold of her emotions.

"Of course I love you both. I think I loved you the moment I met both of you. And that was my mistake, because now I'm sitting here crying in an airport embarrassing myself and-"

She was cut off as arms came around her, and lips crashed to hers. She wasn't sure who it was, but she guessed it was Hikaru. She tasted that familiar spice, and she kissed him with fervor. She put all her anger in the kiss, and groaned when he pulled away.

Kaoru put his forehead to hers, his lips gazing hers ever so softly. That was how they were; one was sugar and the other spice. Both complete opposites, but in reality they were one entity. And she wanted so badly for them to be hers.

In fact, she wanted it so badly she thought she imagined their next words.

"We love you too, Kai" they both told her softly, and she gasped. It was as if time stopped, and she cried harder, as she shook her head at their words.

She wanted to believe them, but she just couldn't.

"It's true, love" Kaoru told her, putting a finger to her lips to stop her cries.

"We are so sorry we didn't say it before. We were so scared you didn't mean it, and you had just said it in the heat of the moment. We had never felt this way about anyone, and love was such a strong word for us to swallow" Hikaru explained, looking to his brother then back to Kai.

"We know now how we feel. We love you, Kai Mirasaki. We didn't want you to leave without telling you that first. It would be entirely selfish of us to want to keep you here with us, so if you're going to go to Boston than we will support you" Kaoru told her, voice trembling once more.

The intercom went off in the background, alerting them that the plane was about to finish boarding.

Kai's eyes spilled more tears, but she couldn't help but smile.

She was snuggly between the twins, clutching onto both of them for dear life.

They soothed her cries, comforting her as best they could while trying not to lose it themselves. They were running out of time for their goodbyes, and they knew it.

They pulled away and picked up her things for her, wiping her tears away.

She kissed them both quickly, letting her hands rest on both of their cheeks.

"I guess this is goodbye for now" she told them softly, and they nodded.

"Not for long, we promise" the twins told her, and she smiled softly.

She walked towards the tunnel of the plane, but not before looking back at them. She blew them a kiss, letting her eyes memorize their faces before entering onto the plane.

She quickly found her seat next to Tamaki and Haruhi, who were grinning at her.

She smiled back, as she leaned her head against her seat and closed her eyes.