Lost Hope

Chapter 6

Later that night I was starting to make my way through the camp down the shore and I glanced over at Claire and Charlie, they both looked at me with a smile and I stuck my tongue out at them which made them laugh. I knew Charlie catching me and Desmond out in the jungle was gonna bite me in the ass, I had reached Desmonds boat and saw him turn around and got off it coming to me. Before I knew it he pulled me into a kiss, I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled away.

"Close your eyes," He whispered, I looked at him confused but did what he said. He grabbed my hand and put an arm around my waist leading me towards the boat. Once I felt like I was on he moved me a little forward a little more then stopped me, I felt him stand behind me with his hands on my waist.

"Okay open your eyes." He whispered in my ear, I opened them and saw an area on the boat set up with a blanket, food, and lanterns.

"Desmond." I said snuggling my back into his chest, "What is this?"

"It's a date, a least the best I can do with one, I figured out here no one would bother us and we could just be together." He told me tightening his arms around me.

I turned in his arms and faced him, "I love it, and I love you." I kissed him softly and he lead me to the blanket, we sat down and ate our food. Talking and laughing like how we used to, after we were done Desmond stood up and took my hand leading me below deck. I walked around the boat looking at all the pictures he had in there, I looked at one and saw him in a cloak, he was a little different then he is now, his hair was shorter and he had an arm wrapped around the shoulder of another guy. He came up beside me.

"That was when I became a monk." He told me and I laughed a little.

"You were a monk? I find that hard to believe." I turned to look at him, and he smiled.

"Yeah it was a time when I felt like it was the only option I had." He told me, He went through his life trying to prove himself to people who gave him doubt. i put my arms around his neck and moved him closer to me, he put his hands on my hips.

"You know you never have to prove yourself to me right? I would love you no matter where life takes us, even if we are living in a cardboard box somewhere." I told him, it was true, I would go with him anywhere as long as we were together. he pressed his lips to mine kissing me passionately. Something primal had taken over him he pulled me away from the table I was leaning against and lifted me up to set me on top of it and moved between my legs. My hands moved quickly to unbutton his shirt, " Do you have any idea what this shirt does to me when you leave it unbuttoned like this?" I said pulling away form his mouth but not before biting his bottom lip lightly.

He smiled and put his hand in my hair, "Maybe I do it for a reason, myabe I want you to see what is yours." He kissed me again and put his tongue in my mouth and played with mine. He put his hands under my shirt pulling it over my head and dropping it to the floor. My hands caressed his chest and he removed my bra hastily and let his eyes roam over my breasts. His hands wandered over my body, taking in every inch of my skin. He moved his hands up and down my back as he pressed my body into his. I hadn't been with anyone like this before i ended up here it never felt as right as it did at this moment. I was scared, but excited I was ready to be with him. I pulled back and looked into his eyes, there was something in his eyes that I had never seen before. He had a hunger, a desire that I felt as well. He lifted me off the table and we moved hastily to the bed, tripping over articles of clothing that now littered the floor I unbuttoned his jeans and pushed them down his hips. The world outside of this boat, this moment, ceased to exist. We crashed onto the bed together, he traced his tongue over my collarbone and down my front. I let out gasp as I felt his tongue circle my hard, pink nipple. He took my breast into his mouth and bit down slightly as he sucked. Desmond kept his eyes focused on mine, making sure he was pleasing me. He unbuttoned my jeans and slid them down my legs, pulling my underwear along with them. He stopped what he was doing and sat back on the bed and looked at my body. I ran my hands through his hair and pulled it hard in my fingers. He moved his body until he was hovering over me.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked, looking into my eyes, "We don't have to."

I lifted my head and pressed my lips to his, he kissed me deeply as he positioned himself between my legs. I felt his arms shaking as if he was suddenly unsure if this was really happening. He lifted my head and cradled it into his arm. I felt his hand slowly trace up and down my inner thigh, he sucked at my neck and seemed to enjoy it as I let out a soft moan.

His fingers found my moist center and he softly pressed down onto my clit. I gasped and kissed him furiously. He circled it and noticed that I was growing wetter. He brought his arm up and held himself up above me. He looked deep into my eyes, ready to stop if there was any hint of hesitation.

Our tongues melded together passionately. I wasn't going to turn back now, the heat between us was like an untamed fire. I shot my head back head as I felt him push slowly into me. I released a small yelp as he entered me, not realizing how big he was. He quickly pulled out, afraid that he had hurt me.

"Are you okay? Did I hurt you?" He asked me

"No it's okay. Don't stop." I assured him. He moved back in between my legs and entered me again, even slower, I allowed my muscles to relax.

Desmond looked into my eyes as he slowly began moving himself in and out. I had never experienced sex that felt this way: natural, wanted, real. I wrapped my legs tightly around his waist as our bodies rocked together. I moved my hips to match his pace. I had never been filled so well by a man and my moans grew louder as he repeatedly hit my g spot with each thrust. I bit my lip trying to hold back my orgasm, I was determined to finish with him. I was growing wetter with each push, my hands wrapped around his waist as I pushed him deeper inside me. I grabbed his hair and pulled his head close to my lips. My pleasure made it difficult to form a sentence, "Faster….Harder…" I managed to whisper. He pumped into me harder and rapidly. The entire bed was now shaking, he bit his lip hard enough to bring blood to keep himself from finishing, my back arched as my orgasm sent waves through my body and my moans turned to screams of pleasure. I felt him not able to hold back anymore and his body bucked as he came. He grunted loudly as I felt his body convulse. He collapsed on top of me, feeling each pump as he spilled himself inside of me.

He rolled off of me and we both tried to catch our breath, I turned over to look at him and he looked at me. He put his hand on my face before kissing me on my lips, I put my head on his chest and he wrapped his arms around me after pulling the blanket over us.

"Well Mr. Hume I believe this is the best surprise I ever had." I told him looking at him, he tipped his head down and kissed me again. God I loved these lips, I loved them on mine. I pulled away resting my head on his chest, "Is it bad that I dont want to leave this boat?" I said with a laugh.

I felt Desmond laugh as well and pull me tight into him, "I know what you mean, being here is like our own world, no one back at camp coming to bug you, not having to worry about the Others, just being here with you makes it all just go away." I snuggled up to his chest and listened to his heart beat, Can I tell you something and you have to promise not to think I sound crazy?" I looked at him and nodded.

"After I turned the failsafe key I cant explain it but I woke up in the past, I was painting my flat and I must have fell. When I came to I felt like I was trying to remember something but couldnt seem to find it. Anyways later that night after getting turned down by Charles Widmore I went with my mate to a bar in town, while we were there I noticed this git trying to flirt with a couple girls who ended up bing tourists. I walked over to them and told him to leave them alone, he got in my face and told me to mind my own bloody business, I punched him but when he hit me back I fell to the ground, he laughed and walked away, the one girl knelt down next to me and asked if I was alright. She helped me clean up my face and I never saw her again." He put his hand on my face. "I saw you Freya." I looked at him confused.

"What are you talking about Des?" I asked him.

"Think about it. You told me you traveled Europe, think" He said to me.

I layed there and thought back, I did remember going to a bar there with my friend who I traveled with, just then it hit me. I remember this macho guy trying to hit on us and someone telling him to knock it off, I remember helping the guy when the douche bag punched him. Then I saw it, I saw Desmonds face. I looked at him with shock, "How? How is that possible?" I asked

"When I traveled back I found that day and I saw you it all clicked, I remembered you and I remembered this island and ever since I woke up in the jungle I noticed something was different with me, I have flashes, visions I guess you would say." He paused and shifted his body to lay on his back. I looked at him, "I know you think its crazy but-"

"No, no I dont. I believe you Desmond, you dont sound crazy at all." I cut him off, he put his hand on my face and pulled me into a kiss.

"What do you think will happen if we get rescued?" I asked him.

"When we get rescued, I will follow you where ever you go." He said running his hand up and down my arm. I turned and propped myself up on my elbow.

"Same goes for you, I'll follow you anywhere, always and forever." I said and started to kiss him, the kiss got more passionate and I moved my body to straddle his. His hands grabbed my hips and I felt his member wake up again.

The next morning I woke up with Desmond's arms around me like he didnt want to let me go. I moved my face towards him and lightly kissed him on the lips, then I brushed my lips against his, suddenly I felt him press his lips against mine kissing me back roughly. I giggled as he rolled himself on top of me, "Morning." I said and he pulled away from my neck.

"Mornin love." He said, "How did you sleep?"

I moved my hand and got some hair out of his face, "Better then I have in weeks" I went up and kissed him again but he pulled back, I pouted and he smiled.

"If we stay in this bed any longer we are never going to get up," He told me.

"You say that like its a bad thing." I said with a smile and grabbed the back of his head and pulled his lips to mine. The kiss deepened, and he moved his hands up my hips and into my hair tangling his fingers in it, he started to lean up pulling me with him, but it was all a trick because as soon as he was upp he pulled away and got off the bed. I gave him a shocked look and smiled.

"It's not a bad thing, but we got stuff to do today." He said putting on his clothes, reluctently I got up and started to put mine on. After I had just pulled my tank top over my head I felt Desmonds arms around me and he kissed my neck.

"I love you." he said in my ear, I turned my head to look at him.

"I Love you too" I said and gave him one last kiss before exiting the boat.

As we walked back to the beach holding hands and laughing Desmond suddenly stopped and i saw in his eyes he was drifting off.

"Desmond? Are you okay? Desmond?" I said but got know answer, suddenly he looked at me.

"I need to build a lightening rob," He said, I squinted my eyebrows at him.

"What do you mean?" I asked him, he told me about what he saw and we headed over to the camp and I told Desmond I was going to change my clothes, I saw him head over to Claire's tent then Charlie came over. After a bit Desmond came back to my tent.

"What was that about?" I asked him, and he looked at Claires tent then back at me.

"I need to build a lightening rod." He said, I didnt say anything lse I just nodded my head. We walked over to where Paulo was playing golf

"Don't mind me, brother. I'm just going to take one of your clubs. Hurley said it would be alright." He told Paulo who looked over at me then back at Desmond

"Hurley, huh? Does this mean you're off to save the day?" Paulo asked.

"So, uh, I can take one of these?" Desmond said ignoring the question.

"Take the five iron; I never use it. That way when you die in the jungle, doing whatever you're doing, I don't have to go looking for it." I shook my head at Paulos comment.

"Thanks, mate." He said and turns to leave but he watches Paulo take a shot. "You know, you might want to square your shoulders a bit more."

"You play golf?" Paulo asked.

"I'm Scottish. Cheers." Desmond said walking back towards me and we walked away. Later Desmond had finished putting up the lightening rod and I was over at the food center with Hurley cutting up some fruit. Desmond walks over and sits on the table, I finished cutting up my fruit and walked over standing by Desmond who was focused looking at Claires tent.

"Is that - art?" Hurley asked him

"Nope. Just an experiment."

"Okay. You want some fruit salad?" Hurley offered

"Thanks, I'm not hungry." Hurley starts walking out from under the shelter, "You might want to wait a minute."

"Why's that?" as soon as torm causes a sudden downpour. I see Claire getting Aaron out of his crib, and Charlie putting his arms around them. There's a lightning strike which hits Desmond's tower.

I see Charlie look over at us wondering what it was that just happened.

The next day Eko had wandered off after being hurt by the smoke monster and me, Lock, Sayid and Desmond were sitting on some logs. Desmond was eating an apple with a knife.

"I think I know how to find Jack, Kate and Sawyer." Locke said to us.

"Can I ask why he's being included in the conversation?" Sayid said looking at Desmond.

"Is that supposed to hurt my feelings?" He said and I laugh and nudged him, he looked at me with a smile and nudged me back.

"Tell him what you told me." Locke said to Desmond.

"The computer in the hatch wasn't only for pushing the button. I'm pretty sure... it could be used to communicate with other stations." He said, he had told me his before and to me it made sense.

"This is fascinating. But you just told me the hatch exploded." Sayid told Locke

"One of them did."

"You want to try and communicate with the others."

"Yup." Locke said as Hurley and Charlie walk up.

"No luck, dudes. We looked everywhere. Eko's gone." Hurley told us.

"There's no trail." Charlie said, no of us knew how to track except Kate and Locke.

"Not that we, like, know what a trail looks like." Hurley said.

"When you pulled him out of the tent, did he say anything?" Locke asked them.

"Nothing coherent. Just mumbling 'My brother, my brother.'" Charlie informed us, whenever I checked on Eko he was unconsious and was mumbling a lot of random things.

I looked over at Locke and saw the light bulb go off in his head, "Sayid, pack your gear. We're going to that computer."

"Wait! What about Eko?" Charlie asked

"We'll catch up to him. We're all going to the same place." Locke said heading back towards camp.

As I was in mine and Desmond's tent, we decided to combined ours together, he came in as I was packing my gear,"What do you think you're doing?" He asked and I looked at him.

"I'm gearing up to go look for Eko, why?" I looked back at my bag grabbing any medical things I would need. He came up to me and turned me to face him.

"It's dangerous what if something happens to you?" He said cupping my face.

I put my hands on his sides, "What if you guys need me? It's a long distance from here to camp. Plus that Nikki chick and Paulo are going, plus I'm not leaving your side ever again remember?" I leaned up and kissed him and turned away to grab my pack, "Come on lets go." I walked past him and he followed me, as I stood with Sayid and the others Desmond walked over to Locke and they both came back over and we headed out.

After we found Eko and the other Dharma station which Locke said showed a camera feed of a man with an eye patch who covered up the lens. Eko was having hallucinations and ran off calling for his brother and Locke went after him. Next thing we knew me, Desmond, Nikki, Paulo and Sayid ran up and saw Locke on the ground next to Eko, I ran over and knelt down next to him asking Locke what happened, he said it was the smoke monster. Suddenly Eko whispers something to Locke then I see that he's no longer breathing, I checked his pulse and looked at Locke shaking my head, he was dead.

"What did he say John?" Sayid asked

Locke looked at Sayid, "He said 'We're next'"