Love Triangle
Chapter 15. Matter
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Does it matter how many times he has shouted?
Does it matter how many times his tears have fell?
Does it matter how dry his throat is or how painful his heart feel?
Does it matter, at all?
Karma was there, between the ghostly white walls of the hospital. His golden eyes lost all of their sparks, as he looked into the imaginary void.
"Karma, are you okay?" Okuda asked worriedly.
Looking into the distance once again, he replied.
"I'm fine. You should return home before the evening turns late"
"Are-are you sure?"
"Yeah, I'm sure. It'll be okay. The doctor said Nagisa didn't lost too much blood…"
There was only dead silence for a long while. That was all before Okuda said a rush goodbye and went home.
A distinct horizon appeared on the sky, a mark for the setting sun. It was so beautiful, colorful, warm and bright, that it was almost as if it was the one who drained all of the colors out of Karma.
He sat down, his voice has disappear, his words have drowned out, somewhere, far away. His limbs felt separated, his eyes were strained. His heart was tired.
He wanted to see Nagisa.
Even if Nagisa hates him now, even if the whole world cuts them apart, even if their stars won't ever align, even if he has to use the last bit of his life energy, he's sure that his heart won't belong to anyone but Nagisa, and Nagisa only.
He wanted to see Nagisa.
To see Nagisa's smile, to see Nagisa's laugh, to see Nagisa's cry. To see his heart burning with happiness and love. To see his eyes flaring with bloodlust. To see everything that make Nagisa who he is.
He wanted to see Nagisa.
It does matter, his voice, his tears, his smiles. If it's for Nagisa, he's willing to dedicate it all.
He wants to dance, to laugh, to hold hands, to kiss, to hug, to be just a little closer. He wants to be where he can feel Nagisa's breath on his skin, soft hair against his cheeks. To make Nagisa flustered all over again.
Maybe that's why he fought, maybe that's why he was furious, because he's scared he will never be like that with Nagisa ever again.
He only dropped his punches and kicks once he saw how terrified Nagisa was. It was never his intention, to make Nagisa step away from him.
The eyes that Nagisa had that time, they were like everyone else. He's swear it was never his intention.
And now he's here. His guts were frightened at Nagisa's lifeless body, almost like an angel, a still corpse. He started to question himself.
What if Nagisa die?
What if Nagisa never got his memory back?
Will he, Karma, still be able to live?
Or will he just return to the days where his wrists kept bleeding nonstop into the bathroom sink?
Will he live with this regret of not being able to help until his last breath?
He grunted once again, letting his head fall down in a depress manner.
Suddenly, he could hear the sound of running high heels making their way near him.
The all-too familiar face that he has already seen, the face that he hated, yet could not get rid of.
Hiromi Shiota.
Her name was enough to bring someone the shivers, her stern eyes have now turned into something more of a worried-mother, which is what she was supposed to be. Sweats were running down her face, her hair was a mess.
"Na…Nagisa" She huffed, murmuring Nagisa's name. To Karma, even her voice is disgusting. Nagisa's name felt like it has been stained in her voice.
"He's in there" Karma said, pointing at the door.
Soon, she crashed down the chair, having her own little break down.
Karma felt disgusted just looking at her. He wanted to yell at her. All that Nagisa has been through because of her, he remembered it all. Does she even know how painful Nagisa felt, because of her? She doesn't even have the right to worry about him.
Yet, when Karma remembered that he scared Nagisa, on that day, he himself felt like all of his rights to love Nagisa are stolen as well. Who is he to yell at another person?
It's already dark out, but no stars were found.
But does it even matter if the stars appear? He knows he won't look at them anyway.