Lost Hope

Chapter 17

Flashback three years and 9 months ago...

I was in so much pain and when we saw the blood I told Desmond about a doctor on the island we had stopped at when I started to go into labor. I hear Desmond returning followed by another pair of feet.

"I'm coming, Freya!" I hear him yell then he comes and kneels down next to me as Im laying on the bed, "okay, Freya. We've got a doctor."

"Where have you been?!" I yelled, it hurt so bad I just wanted to get it over with

"It's gonna be okay. It's gonna be okay. Okay, here you go." Desmond said cradling my head in his arms, "Okay. Just breathe, Freya, okay? J-just breathe." He told me as the doctor lays a clean blanket down at the end of the bed.

"Oh!" I panted as another contraction hit.

"Breathe." Desmond told me.

"I can't breathe." I said, god it hurts

"You're doing great.

"I can't-" I was cut off when I felt another one.

The doctor was now wearing latex gloves, and removes a pair of forceps from his bag of instruments and gets in closer.

"You're doing great, okay. Okay, just be strong, yeah? Okay." Desmond told me trying to calm me down.

"Oh, make it come out!" I screamed.

"Just be strong."

I moan as the doctor begins to work, "Hold it. Hold it." he tells me but I cant

"I can't! I can't!" I said stammering

"Yes, you-yes, you can, Freya" Desmond encouraged me

"Push! Push!" The doctor said

I screamed

"Okay, push now, Freya. Push. Now!" Desmond said and I continued screaming and large beads of sweat covered my torso and face.

"Come on, Freya. That's it."

"Push!" The doctor said again

"It's coming. Come on, Freya."

"Push! Harder!"

"I can see the head!" Desmond told me

"Harder!" The doctor told me and I tried to push as hard as I could, "One more time! Push!"

"I can see it. It's just coming." Desmond said and I continued screaming, "It's coming! It's coming! You've got it!"

"Last time! Yeah!" The doctor ordered

"Oh my God, Freya." Desmond said and my screams turn into panting as a baby's cry can be heard.

"You got it!" The doctor told me and I start sobbing and gasping.

"You did it. Oh, my God, Freya." He said kissing my forehead, "You did it."

"It's a boy!" the doctor told us holding up our son.

I squinted my eyes and laugh, my sons cries are tiny and I reach up and kiss Desmond.

"I love you, Freya. I love you." Desmond said and the doctor hands me our baby wrapped in a blanket.

"Oh, oh, he's beautiful. Beautiful. Oh, my God. He's so beautiful. Oh, my God." Desmond said touching our sons head lightly the baby coos and I smile.

I look at Desmond, "I love you."

"I love you." He says and kisses my lips, "I love you."

We sat there looking at our baby boy, I felt like I waited my whole life just to meet him and now that he was here I had everything I could ever want, I had Desmond and we had our baby, Charlie Emmit Hume. Everything was perfect.

Or so I thought.

Back to present...

I was down below the deck of our boat cleaning up after dinner and I headed up top hearing Desmond talk to Charlie, our now 3 year old.

"Look. Right out there. Beyond where you can see, there's-there's an island, and it's a very special island. I left it a long time ago. I never thought I'd see it again." He told our son as I was reaching the top deck, "It's called Great Britain. And the most beautiful part of the island is Scotland, and that's where your daddy's from. There's mountains and glens and monsters in deep lochs, and... and it's where your mummy and daddy first met"

I leaned against the railing and looked at them smiling, "It's also where he protected her from a rude guy" I said and Desmond looked at me smiling

"I thought I'd leave that bit out" He said and I walked over to them

"Why are we here Des?" I asked.

"We are here because of Daniel Faraday." He said "What he told me-that everyone on that island is in danger, and I am the only one that can help them. I have to do this, Freya."

The next morning our boat was docked on the Thames. I opened the door to the master sleeping quarters, and saw Desmond sitting our bed putting on his socks and shoes. and I close the door.

"Did he finish his breakfast?" He asked me tying up his shoe

"Yeah. Gave me a bit of a fight, but he listens in the end..." I told him putting my coffee cup down on my end table, "...unlike his father." I sit down on the soft bed.

"Look, honey, all I have to do is find his mother, tell her he's still on the Island, and then I'm done with this for good." He told me facing me.

"Why now? I mean, if he told you all this on the Island, why didn't you remember it until two days ago?" I asked

"I don't know. Look," He said holding my hands, "I don't understand how any of this works any more than you do. It..." He stopped and sighed, "Look, I know it happened. Daniel Faraday knocked on the hatch door and told me to go to Oxford... everyone was in danger, and I was the only one that could save them. I know how insane it sounds."

He gets up and puts on his coat. He walks over to me, "I'll be back by dark, and then I'm done... forever. I promise." He leans into me and kisses me on the lips.

I pulled back and looked at him, "If you're gonna promise me something, Des, can you promise me you'll never go back to that island again?"

"Why in God's name would I ever go back there?" He scoffed getting up and open the door and walks out, looking back.

A few hours later I layed curled up on a little couch with Charlie below deck and I was holding a stuffed animal.

"...and the fishy suddenly peeked out, but it saw the bear so that it ran away again." I gasp and whisper, "Where-?"

I look up and see Desmond, "Hi." He whispered

"Hi."

I get up and Desmond enters taking off his scarf and I begin folding some laundry.

"Good day?" He asked me

"Yeah. He wanted to go fishing in the Thames. We were unsuccessful. And you? Did you find Faraday's mum?" I asked not turning around

"Ugh. There was no one to find. She, um... she died a few years ago." He said and I looked at him.

"Why are you lying to me?"

"What? I'm not." He said

"Where is she?" I walked closer to him asking him

He sighed, "She's in Los Angeles."

I turned away from him and continued to fold, "Look, Freya, you've got nothing to worry about. You know, this was a mistake. No, I... I made a promise that this would be done in a day, and now it's done. It's not our problem anymore."

I stopped folding and sighed "And what happens if you wake up tomorrow and remember something else?"

"Then I'll forget it." He said coming up behind me wrapping his arms around my waist.

"And the next day?"

"I'll forget it. It doesn't matter, Freya." He said and turned me around to face him cupping my face, "You're my life now-you and Charlie. I won't leave you again... not for this... not for anything."

"You'll never forget it, Des. So I guess we're going with you." I said to him and I put my hands on his hips and give him a peck on the cheek then hugged him.

He tightened the hug, "I would never go anywhere without you Freya, I love you."

"I love you too Desmond, always have and always will." I told him and kissed him on the lips again, this time more passionate, he put his fingers in my hair and pulled my face closer. Luckily the door to our room was shut and he moved me over to the bed and as the back of my knees hit the bed I layed down with Desmond falling down on top of me. I tugged at his shirt undoing the buttons and he worked on my pants, with being parents we had little time for anything like this so it was best not to waste it. We finally got each other undressed and Desmond hooked my legs around his hips and entered me pumping in and out of me slowly at first then picked up the pace. I dug my nails into his shoulders and bit back a moan as he pushed into me harder and kissed my neck and bit it at the same time. He moved his mouth down my neck to my breast putting one in his mouth and his hand grabbed the other.

"Oh...god Desmond" I moaned not able to contain it.

"Say my name again love." He growled against my breast.

"Des..mond." I said and I felt myself getting closer to the end and he moved his hand away from my breast and gripped my hip with it and pushed into me a few more times and we both finished at the same time. Panting he kissed me on the lips then rolled off laying next to me, I turned myself and looked at him while propping myself up on my elbows.

"How did I get so lucky to find you?" He asked me and I placed a kiss on his chest.

"You crashed my plane remember?" I said with a smile and he put his hand on my face.

"I wish that never would have happened, I trapped you on that island for days." He said and I kissed him.

"I'm glad that it did, it brought me to you, I wouldnt have it any other way." I said and he kissed me again and I smile into the kiss when he pulled me on top of him straddling him.

Later that night I heard Penny was in the town we were in and we brought Charlie to her so she could spend some time with him while we went to find Daniel's mother. We walked up to where she was and saw Sun, Jack, and Ben standing outside.

"What are you doing here?" Desmond asked them as we walked up to the group

"I assume the same thing you are." Ben said.

"You're looking for Faraday's mother too?" Desmond asked and Ben stares at him then turns around and walks briskly into the church and we followed.

"Hello, Eloise." Ben says to a white haired woman who lights a candle and turns to face us.

"Hello, Benjamin." She stands there and looks at all of us, "I thought I said all of them." She said.

"This is all I could get on short notice." Ben said to her

Eloise sighed, "Well, I suppose it will have to do for now. All right! Let's get started"