Lost Hope
Chapter 18
We walked to the back of the church. Eloise opens another squeaking door and flicks the light switch.
"Shall we?" She asked
We walk down a spiral, metal stair case and through a dim, stone hallway with a metal door at the end. We see a DHARMA logo on the door. The door-wheel squeaks as Eloise opens it. On the other side, we hear a loud whooshing. It's revealed to be a large pendulum at the center of the room. The walls are covered with old computer equipment. The room is fairly dim. There's an odd clicking noise, which Jack looks towards. We see a panel with a series of coordinates changing its numbers. They all inspect the map over which the pendulum is swinging. Sun sees a chalkboard with a photograph on it.
"What is this place?" Jack asked her.
"The DHARMA Initiative called it the Lamp Post. This is how they found the island." She told us and Desmond grabbed my hand.
"Did you know about this place?" Jack asked Ben
"No. No, I didn't." Ben told
"Is he telling the truth?" Jack turned and asked Eloise
"Probably not." She answered with a chuckle
Eloise opens a drawer and pulls out a binder, "Aha. Here we go." She said. I see Jack inspect the photograph on the chalk board. It looks like The Island. The bottom of the photograph reads "9/23/54 - U.S. ARMY - OP 264 - TOP SECRET - EYES ONLY".
"All right. I apologize if this is confusing, but..." She stopped and looked at Jack, "Let's pay attention, yes?" Jack turned and looked at her, "The room we're standing in was constructed years ago over a unique pocket of electromagnetic energy. That energy connects to similar pockets all over the world. The people who built this room, however, were only interested in one."
"The Island." Sun said.
"Yes. The island. They'd gathered proof that it existed. They knew it was out there somewhere, but they just couldn't find it. Then a very clever fellow built this pendulum on the theoretical notion that they should stop looking for where the island was supposed to be and start looking for where it was going to be."
"What do you mean, "Where it was going to be"?" I asked her.
"Well, this fellow presumed, and correctly, as it turned out, that the Island was always moving. Why do you think you were never rescued? Now while the movements of the Island seem random, this man and his team created a series of equations which tell us, with a high degree of probability, where it is going to be at a certain point... in time. Windows, as it were, that while open, provide a route back. Unfortunately, these windows don't stay open for very long. Yours closes... in 36 hours." Sh said and handed the binder to Jack.
"Um, I'm sorry. Excuse me." Desmond said, "Am I really hearing this? That's what this is about? You're all going back to the Island? Willingly?" He said and looked at me, they were out of their damn minds.
"Yes. Why are you here, Desmond?" Sun asked him.
He sighs then scoffs, "I came here to deliver a message," He looked at Eloise, "Daniel Faraday-your son-sent me here. He wanted me to tell you that he and all the people on the Island need your help. He said that only you could help them. He didn't say Jack. He didn't say Sun. He didnt say Freya. He didn't say Ben. He said you." Desmond told her. A week ago Ben kept trying to get in touch with me to convince me to go back to the Island, I blew him off because there is no way in hell I was going back.
"But I am helping, dear." She said to him
"Consider the message delivered." Desmond said and started to leave lightly pulling me with.
"I'm sorry to have to tell you this, Desmond, but the Island isn't done with you yet." She said, "Or you for that matter Freya."
He turns and walks back, letting go of my hand, "This woman cost me four years of my life-four years that I'll never get back because you told me that I was supposed to go to the Island! That it was my bloody purpose!" He walked towards Jack, "You listen to me, brother, and you listen carefully. These people-they're just usin' us. They're playing some kind of game, and we are just the pieces," He stopped and looked at me then back at Jack, "Whatever she tells you to do... ignore it," He looked at Eloise, "You say the Island's not done with me or Freya? Well, we're done with the Island."
Desmond grabs my hand and we leave slamming the door behind us and headed back towards our boat. I thanked Penny for watching Charlie and after I made sure he was still sleeping I walked into mine and Desmonds room shutting the door quietly and saw him sitting on the bed with his head in his hands. I walked over and knelt in front of him putting my hands on his face and he looked at me.
"Hey, whatever she says, she's crazy, there is no purpose to us going back. Not that we would want to, our lives here are all that matter." I told him and he lifted me up and set me on his lap.
"You're right, I'm sorry I followed this Freya. Our family is more important then that island." He said and I pulled him into a kiss. Later that night we got ready for bed and went to sleep.
I was on the top deck of the boat getting things put together for us to leave, I had seen the car Desmond rented pull back up to the marina, he went to get some food and stuff for the trip.
"Hey! What are you doing here?" I hear Desmond yell and suddenly there was a gunshot
I turn around and see Desmond fall to the ground, "Desmond! Desmond! Des?!" I yell and I see Ben standing there pointing a gun at me.
"Don't move. Not another word Freya. You're going to listen to every word I have to say." Ben told me and suddenly I hear Charlie call for me.
"Mommy!" He said and I turned my head to look at him.
"Charlie, go back inside, babe. Go back inside." I turned back to Ben, "Please. Please, whatever you do, don't hurt my son. Please don't hurt my son."
"Mommy? Mommy?" Charlie called to me.
"Charlie, go inside!" He nodded and went back inside the boat
I see Ben lower the gun, and is suddenly attacked by Desmond.
"Aah!" Desmond yelled and they were both grunting and Desmond beats Ben, knocking the gun away, and throwing Ben into the harbour. Desmond falls to the ground and I run over to him.
"Desmond? Desmond!" I yell and put pressure on his wound and grabbed out my cell phone and dialed 911.
Desmond is rushed down a corridor on a gurney after being shot by Ben, I followed behind carrying Charlie
"He's coding!" a man who was pushing the gurney said and we got to the doctor, "Gunshot wound. He's crashing!"
"Bay 7. Now!" The doctor said.
"Is he gonna be okay?" I asked the doctor
"You're gonna have to wait here, ma'am." She told me
"Where are you-where are you taking him? What's happening?" I asked her still following
"Please, ma'am, wait here. We'll let you know as soon as we know anything." She told me
"Well, what's happening? Is he gonna be okay?" I asked fighting back tears.
"We're going to do everything we can. Please just wait."
"Daddy!" my son said sniffling and I hugged him
"He's gonna be okay. He's gonna be okay."
Later on I was sitting in the waiting room with Penny who I called and told her what happened, Charlie's head was on my lap and I was running my fingers through his hair.
"He's going to be okay Freya, he's strong." Penny told me putting a hand on my shoulder.
"I hope you're right" I said to her and I look up and see Ben standing there all bloody from Desmond beating him up.
"Penny can you stay with him for a bit?" I asked her and moved Charlie's head of my lap carefully and she nodded taking my place. I walked over to Ben and pushed him against the wall out of sight.
"What the hell are you doing here?!" I shouted quietly at him.
"I'm sorry it had to go down that way but I needed you to listen to me." Ben said and I punched him in the face.
"You have 3 minutes to explain before I call security." I told him keeping him there.
"The people on the island need you Freya, they are all going to die if you dont go back." He said and I pushed my arm into his neck.
"So you shot Desmond?! How is that suppose to convince me?!" I yelled at him.
"I didnt want to shoot him, but I'll have no choice but to harm anyone else who stops me from bringing you to the island, even if that means your son." He said and I saw nothing but rage and I punched him again this time knocking his head into the wall and he fell down.
"Mrs. Hume? Are you okay?" I heard a nurse ask from next to me and I turned to look at her.
"This man came up to me when I was getting a snack for my son, he just started attacking me." I said lying to her and she picked up the phone on the wall and called security, they arrived and took Ben away.
"Your husband's in the recovery room, and he's asking for you." The nurse said to me after the security gaurds left.
"The recovery room? Is he-" I asked
"He's doing fine. Come with me." She said and I looked back at Penny and gave her a nod and followed the nurse to the recovery room and she shut the door.
"Hi." I said to Desmond fighting tears.
"Hi." He said back and I went over to his bed crying and put his face in my hands.
"I thought I'd lost you." I told him and he placed a hand on my cheek
"I promised you, Freya. I promised you... I'd never leave you again." he said and I leaned down and kissed his lips.
"Are you okay? Charlie?" He asked me pulling away.
"We're fine, we're fine." I told him then I thought back to what Ben told me.
"Are you alright love?" He asked me and I looked at him.
"Ben was here, he told me that...that everyone on the island will die if I dont go back with Jack and them. He said he'll stop anyone who gets in his way, even Charlie." I told him and I saw anger in his eyes.
"Where is he?!" He yelled.
"I knocked him out and security took him away, Penny is with Charlie in the lobby." I told him.
"Freya you cant listen to him. It's just like Eloise, he's crazy" Desmond said and brushed a piece of hair out of my face.
"I know, I know. How about I go get Charlie?" I asked him and he smiled then nodded.
I left the room and told Penny Desmond was fine and I woke Charlie up and brought him to the room. We all stayed there and Charlie was laying on the bed with Desmond and they both fell asleep. I sat there in the chair looking at them with tears in my eyes, I got up and grabbed a piece of paper writting Desmond a note. I leaned over and kissed both of them on the head and placed the note under Desmonds hand carefully then headed out the room and took one last look at them. Tears fell and I walked out the door, I was doing this to protect them, to protect our son, I got into a taxi and left heading to the boat then to the airport Ben told everyone to go to.
As I sat on the plane staring out the window I glance up and Jack walk down the isle and goes over to Kate who's sitting right on front of me.
"You made it." He said to her
"Yeah, I made it." She responded and Jack continues walking to his seat he sees me and gives me a small nod, I turn my head and look back out the window, Hurley enters, carrying a guitar case in front of him.
"Hold up! Wait, please! Thank you for not closing it." I hear someone yell, I look and see Ben getting on the plane and my blood boiled, Hurley and Sayid both look up and Ben. Hurley jumps up.
"Wait! What's he doing here?!" Hurley yelled
"Hurley, hey-" Jack said stopping Hurley
"No, no! He can't come!" Hurley told Jack
"If you want to get back, this is how it's gonna have to be." Jack said
"No one told me he was gonna be here." Hurley said calmer this time.
"Who told you to be here, Hugo?" Ben asked Hurley and the flight attendant comes over
"Is everything okay?" She asked
"Yes. Yes, everything's fine. Right?" Jack said and looked at Hurley
"Yes, Jack. I'll be fine." Hurley said and sat back down.
"Are you Jack Shephard, seat 8C?" She asked him
"Yes."
"Security found this while screening your cargo." I see her hand him a piece of paper. "Now if you two don't mind taking your seats, we are gonna be pushing back for takeoff." Ben and Jack go back to their seats and I looked back out the window and we take off.
"Good afternoon, ladies and gentlemen, and welcome to Ajira Air. This is your captain, Frank J. Lapidus, and on behalf of the entire flight crew, welcome aboard. Currently we're right on schedule, flying at a very comfortable 30,000 feet. So sit back, relax and enjoy the in-flight movie" I hear the captain say over the intercom and I see Jack get up and go to the cockpit doors.
Later on that night the lights flicker and there's some turbulence. It stops for a moment, then starts more violently, the fasten seat belts sign comes back on, the flight attendant walks through the isle and looks at me, "Fasten your seat belt, ma'am. Sir? Please put on your seat belts. Seat belt, please."
The plane starts to shake more violently. Lights flicker, objects start falling out of the overhead compartments. A bright light starts shining and we hear a familiar magnetic buzzing. The flight attendant is thrown from one side of the cabin to the other. and the light and noise grow more intense, then it stops.
I wake up and see Lapidus staggering towards us, panting. Ilana tries to get up with Caesar's assistance. Her legs fail her, but he catches her. Caesar groans as he puts her back in her seat.
Sun tries to pull herself up from her seat, "Frank?"
"Sun." He grunts as he offers his shoulder to her and helps her pull herself out.
"You all right?"
"Oh, my God. What happened?!" She asked
"I don't know." Frank said and looked around the cabin before his eyes land on me. He walks over, "Are you alright Freya?" He asked me
I nodded my head, "I think so" I said as he helped me up.
"Where's everyone else? Jack and... Kate and Hurley-where'd they go?" I shook my head.
"They're gone." I hear someone say and Frank whirls around, aiming his flashlight. Benjamin Linus stands, not even winded, at the front of the aisle.
"Gone? Gone where?" Frank asked him
Ben shook his head, "How would I know?"
I moved over to Ben and punched him in the face and Frank pulled me back.
"Whoa whoa whoa, calm down" Frank said and I walked away.
Later on we were on the beach, Sun clutches Jin's wedding ring and looks out to sea, I'm sitting next to her, Ilana approaches us.
"Did you lose someone?" She asked
"Excuse me?" Sun asked and I looked at the woman
"I just saw you looking around. I thought maybe you lost someone on the plane." IIana said
"No. I was traveling alone." Sun said.
"Can I get everybody's attention?!" I heard Frank yell, "Everybody, please! Listen up, folks! Here's where we're at. The radio's dead, so I haven't been able to call in our situation. But that's all right. Soon as they figure out we're not where we're supposed to be, they'll come looking for us. So best thing to do right now is just stick together. Stick together, hunker down and just wait till help gets here."
"And where is here?" A mand named Caesar asked
"What's that?" Frank asked him
"Where is here? What is this place?" He asked again
"I don't know where "here" is because this island's not on my charts." Frank told him.
"Really?"
"Really."
"Because there are some buildings over there... and animal cages. Down the beach, you can see a bigger island across the water. So maybe you should get some new charts." Caesar said. I see Ben get up and wonder into the jungle.
"Right now, I'm just trying to keep everyone here safe. So let's gather up some firewood." Frank said
"If he wants to wait, let him! I say we search these buildings! Maybe they have a radio or some food! Who wants to help me?!" Caesar said to us.
Me and Sun follow Ben and Frank decides to follow us, in the jungle we follow Ben from a distance until we lose him.
"Why are you following me?" We hear from behind us and see Ben standing behind us.
"Where are you going?" I asked him.
"Back to our Island. ...You wanna come?" He asked us.
Ben is walking through the jungle and Sun runs after him with me behind her.
"Wait!" Sun yells after Ben
"I'm sorry, Sun, but waiting doesn't interest me much right now. There are three outriggers near here and I'm gonna take one. So you can come along and help me row..." He sighs taking off his sling, "or you can stay here. Frankly, it makes no difference to me."
"Why are you leaving?" Sun asked
"Why are you staying?"
"The main Island... is that where Jin is?" Sun asked him
"Honestly, I don't know. But that's where I'd start looking." Ben told her
"Sun! Freya!" I hear Frank yell as he catches up
"Over here." I said
"Hello, Frank." Ben said to him
"You two all right?" Frank asked us
"Yes, I'm fine." Sun said and I just nodded my head.
"I got worried when I couldn't find ya. I saw him leaving. What are you doing out here?" Frank asked us.
"Ben knows where there's a boat. I'm going back to the main Island with him." Sun said to him.
"You don't think you can really trust this guy, do ya?" Frank asked her.
"I have to trust him." Sun told him and Ben walks on ahead amd they reach a beach with three outriggers.
Ben throws down his bag and uncovers one, "You're ready?" He asked Sun
"Yes." Sun answered and Frank pulled her arm a little
"Sun. I want you to think about this, okay? This guy is dangerous. Sun, that boat I came here on-it was filled with commandos whose only mission was to get him." He said
"And how'd that work out for everyone?" Ben asked him
"Don't do it." Frank told her ignoring Ben's question
"Why don't you come with us?" She asked him
"I can't. I got a group of people I gotta look after."
" I have to stay too, I'm the only doctor here, I want to help find Jin I do, but right now these people need me."
"That's right, Frank. A captain's first responsibility is to his passengers, and Freya I have people I have to take care of, too. There's a small dock about a half mile due south across the water. It leads directly to a town where I used to live. There are resources there. So, if anyone can help you and the rest of the plane get out of here safely, it-" He was cut off when Sun hit Ben over the back of the head with an oar and he falls to the floor unconcious.
"I thought you trusted this guy." Frank asked her
"I lied."
Nighttime came and Me, Sun and Frank arrive at the dock.
"You wanna remind me why the hell we're doing this?" Frank asked Sun
"Ben said if my husband is on the Island, the best place to start looking for him is here." She said
"Oh, I see, that's some advice you took before you whacked him in the head." Frank told her, as we walk along the dock, leaves rustle.
"Whoa." Frank said and leaves rustle, branches snap and we hear a skittering noise.
"Tell me you saw that." Frank asked us.
"Probably just an animal." I told him
"Animal. Right." He says and we arrive at the barricks which look very run down.
"I'm sorry to say, Sun, but... I don't think we're gonna find your husband here. Maybe we oughta just head back." Frank told her and a sign creaks in the wind.
Suddenly there is whispering, and I see a light come on inside one of the houses and the door creaks open and a shadowy man steps out.
"Hello."
"Who the hell are you?" Frank asked the man
"My name's Christian." Christian? Wasnt that Jack's fathers name? I thought to myself
"I'm looking for my husband. His name is Jin Kwon. Do you know where he is?" Sun asked him.
"Follow me." Christian said we enter a dark room with photos on the wall.
"What is this place?" I asked him and he examines the photos.
"'72... '76, '78..."
"Where is my husband?" Sun asked him again
"Uh, here we go. '77. He's, uh... he's with your friends." Christian told her
"What are you talking about? What friends?" Sun asked him and the door creaks, and the wind blows loudly. Christian hands Sun a photo and I look at with her. It's a new recruits DHARMA photo. Jack, Kate and Hurley are present in the photo.
"I'm sorry, but you have a bit of a journey ahead of you." Christian told her
Later that night me and Sun are in a bedroom of the house, it looks like it belonged to a teenager, we hear someone enter the house and walk down the hall and when they get to the room we are in we both jump and turn around to see Ben standing there.
"Sun? Freya?" He asked and Frank entered the room.
"What are you doing here?" Frank asked Ben
"This used to be my house. I saw a light turned on. What are the two of you doing in here?" He asked us.
Frank hands hands Ben the DHARMA Initiative new recruit group photo from the Processing Center.
"That was taken in 1977." I told him
"Are you trying to tell me that your friends were in the DHARMA Initiative?" He asked.
"You don't know about this?" Sun asked him
"Of course not. Where did you get this? Who gave this to you?"
"We met some crazy old man outside." Frank answered
"He said his name was Christian. He told us to come in here and wait." I told him
"Wait for what?"
"He said if I ever wanted to see my husband again, I had to wait here for John Locke." Sun told Ben
"But considering he's dead, we ain't holding our breath." Frank said
"Well, you might want to look outside." Ben told us and Sun and I look out the window and see John Locke, who waves. Locke is now in the house, Sun and I are staring at him and Frank and Ben remain silent.
"What you're saying, it's... impossible." I told Locke
"But here I am. I don't know how, I don't know why, but I'm sure there's a very good reason for it." Locke said
"As long as the dead guy says there's a reason, well, then I guess everything's gonna be just peachy. And forget about the fact that the rest of your people are supposedly 30 years ago... now the only ones who are here to help us are a murderer and a guy who can't seem to remember how the hell he got out of a coffin. Sun, Freya please, let's just go back to the plane, see if I can fix the radio, and maybe we can get some help." Frank said and I looked at Sun
"If you leave with him, you'll never find your husband again. I'm all the help you need." Locke told Sun
"Are you saying you know how to find them? How to find Jin?" She asked him
"I have some ideas." Locke said
"I'm sorry to say, but I'm leaving with or without you." Frank told us
"If there's any chance of finding my husband, then I have to stay." Sun told him
I nodded my head, "I have to go with her, I dont trust this Island anymore then I trust Locke," I said and looked at him, "No offence"
"None taken" He said
"All right. Well, for God sake, watch your back." Frank told us and leaves
"All right." Sun said to Locke, "How do we find Jin?"
"Ben has something to do first. Isn't that right, Ben?" Locke said looking at Ben
"Yes, John. That's right."
"Better get to it then." Locke said
Few minutes later me and Sun are sitting on a bench outside Ben's house and Ben comes outside.
"Where did John go?" He asked
"He said he had something to do." Sun said
"Did he say what it was?" Ben asked her
"No, I didn't ask. Jack must have lied." She said
"Excuse me?"
"About Locke being dead? I don't know why he would, but that's the only explanation." She told him
"Jack didn't lie. John was dead."
"Just because he was in a coffin doesn't mean that he couldn't have faked his dea-" I started to say but was cut off by Ben
"Trust me. I'm sure." He said
"So you knew this would happen to Locke if we brought him back here?" I asked him
"Freya, I had no idea it would happen. I've seen this Island do miraculous things. I've seen it heal the sick, but never once has it done anything like this. Dead is dead. You don't get to come back from that, not even here. So the fact that John Locke is walking around this Island... scares the living hell out of me." He said just then we hear a familiar crackling noise.
"You may want to go inside." Ben told us
"Why?" Sun asked
"Because what's about to come out of that jungle is something I can't control." Ben said and we hear footsteps approach and Locke omes out of the jungle.
"Any luck?" He asked
"It hasn't shown up yet." Ben told him
"Last time we didn't have to wait this long." Locke said
"It's not a train, John. It doesn't run on a schedule."
"Well, if it's not gonna come to us, then... I suppose we'll have to go to it."
"It doesn't work that way. I only know how to summon it. I don't know where it actually is." Ben told him
"I do" Locke said and starts preparing a torch, "It's weird for me, too."
"Excuse me?" I said.
"I realize how strange this all is-me, here. But I assure you, Freya, I'm the same man I've always been." He told me and Ben comes outside.
"Are you ready?" Locke asked Ben
"Lead the way." He answered.
Locke is leading Ben, Sun and I through the jungle.
"May I ask you a question, John?" Ben asked him
"Shoot."
"How is it that you know where you're going?"
"I just know." Locke said
"I mean, how does that work, exactly?"
"How does what work?"
"The knowing. I mean, did it come upon you gradually, or did you wake up one morning suddenly understanding the mysteries of the universe?" Ben asked
"You don't like this, do you?"
"What?" Ben asked and we all stop.
"Having to ask questions that you don't know the answers to, blindly following someone in the hopes that they'll lead you to whatever it is you're looking for." Locke answered him
"No, John, I don't like it at all."
"Well, now you know what it was like to be me." Locke said
"We should keep moving." I told them
"Yes, we should." Locke said and we continued walking.
"I think I know where we're going now, John." Ben said to him
"Do you?" Locke asked
"It's the same place they brought me as a child. It's where the Island healed me." Ben said
"Well... let's hope it's as generous this time around." Locke said and we came upon a temple wall
"What is it?" Sun asked
"It's the wall around our Temple." Ben said
"What Temple?" I asked
"About a half mile from here. We built this wall to keep people like the two of you from ever seeing it." Ben answered
"We're not going into your Temple, Ben." Locke said and looked down into a hole, "We're going under it." He said and Ben moved closer to the hole, "After you." Locke told him.
"I need to ask a favor of you, Freya. If you can ever get off this Island, find Desmond, tell him I said I'm sorry." He said and I just looked at him.
"Sorry for what?" Sun asked him
"He'll know." Ben told her and enters the hole, followed by Locke.
Later on Locke told us we were heading towards the Others camp to talk to a man named Richard. We walk into the camp and Locke is carrying a boar carcass across his shoulders.
"I brought dinner." He said and sets the boar down in the sand.
"John?" The man who I saw exit a tent asked.
"Hello, Richard. It's been a while." Locke said and they shake hands.
"It's-it's been, uh, three years. What happened? What-where-where were you?" Richard asked him
"I'll explain on the way." Locke said
"On the way where?"
"It's gonna be night soon. You and I have an errand to run, and we don't have a lot of time." Locke told him not giving him an answer, "What's wrong?"
"Something different about you." Richard said
"I have a purpose now." Locke said as Ben, Sun and I walk further into camp.
"What's he doing here?" Richard asked indicating to Ben
"He helped me get back." Locke said
"Why did Locke say these were his people?" Sun asked Ben
"When I left the Island, John stepped in. He's the leader now." Ben told
"Who's that man he's talking to?" I asked him
"His name is Richard Alpert. He's a kind of... adviser. And he has had that job for a very, very long time." Ben said and I was about to speak when I saw Sun making a beeline for Richard.
"Sun? Wait. What are you..." I said to her but she made it to Richard before I could stop her.
"Were you here in 1977?" She asked him
"Excuse me?"
Sun takes out the 1977 DHARMA Initiative Welcome New Recruits photo from the Processing Center, which she has removed from its frame, folded up, and carried with her, and shows it to Richard.
"These people... Jack Shephard, Kate Austen, Hugo Reyes. They were here with my husband-Jin Kwon. Were you here? Do you remember them? A-any of them?" She asked him again
"Yes, I was here 30 years ago. And I do. I remember these people. I remember meeting them very clearly, because... I watched them all die." He said and I looked at him in shock.
Me and Sun were sitting on the beach and I see her looking forlornly at Jin's wedding ring, I looked back at the ocean twirling mine on my finger, I missed Desmond and Charlie so much right now, I regret leaving but I had to, I had to do it, for them, but I wiped my tears away. I needed to focus on helping Sun find Jin. Locke walks up and offers us a water bottle.
"Drink of water?" He asked us, I shook my head declining the offer
"Do you think it's true? They're all dead?" Sun asked
"I don't think we went through all this for nothing, Sun." Locke told her and Richard walks up.
"I'm ready, John." He said
"You still have that compass I gave you?"
"A little rusty, but she can still find north." Richard told him
"Ben, I'd appreciate it if you'd join us." Locke shouted at Ben
"What, John, don't you trust me here with my former people? Afraid I'll stage a coup?" He shouted back
"I'm not afraid of anything you can do anymore, Ben." Locke told him and Ben nods
"Well, in that case, I'd love to come."
"Good." Locke said to him and looked back at us, "Stay here. We'll be back in a couple of hours. I'll see what I can find out. But whatever happens, Sun, you have my word-if there's a way for you and Jin to be together again, if there's a way to save our people... I'll find it." Locke said and him and Richard walked away from us.
I went up to one of the Others and and asked if there was anywhere me and Sun could sleep, they directed Sun to one tent and me to another. I went into the tent and laid down on the cot, next thing I knew I was asleep thinking about Desmond and Charlie.
I wake up and hear indistinct conversations and I get up exiting the tent as Richard, Ben, and Locke approach the Others' beach camp.
"I'll have a tent prepared for you, John. We'll get going first thing in the morning." Richard tells Locke
"I thought we could leave right now." Locke told him
"Now?"
"I'm eager." Locke said
"We can do whatever you want, but maybe the two of us should go to my tent and talk about-" Richard started to say but Locke cut him off.
"Is this everyone?" Locke asked
"Well, there's another group at the Temple, but-"
"Well, if you don't mind, I would like to talk to everyone here now."
"Of course. Be my guest." Richard told him
"Hello, everyone. My name is John Locke. I've been told that..." He stopped and sighed, "for some time, you all have been accepting orders from a man named Jacob. And yet, oddly enough, it seems that no one has actually seen him. Now I'm sure there are very good reasons why his existence and whereabouts are secret. I just don't know what they are." Locke turns and looks at Richard, "And to be honest with all of you, if there's a man telling us what to do, I want to know who he is."
Sun steps forward from behind me, "This man-Jacob? Can he tell us how to bring Jin and the rest of our people back here?"
"Absolutely. Richard has agreed to show us where we need to go. So I'm gonna go and see Jacob right now. And I'd like all of you to come with me." Locke said and the Others murmur general agreement and nod their heads.
Me, Locke, Ben, Sun, and the Others are trekking across the beach. Locke stops, taking off his backpack and pulling out a canteen and holds it up in the air, "Take five, everybody! We've still got a ways to go to get to Jacob."
I stop and grab my water bottle, Sun looks at Ben, "Who's Jacob?"
"He's in charge of this Island."
"You said John was in charge." I said to him
"No, I said he was the leader, a title that I've discovered is incredibly temporary. But everyone answers to someone, and the leader answers to Jacob." He said to me and I took a sip of my water.
"What's he like?" Sun asked him
"I don't know, Sun. I've never met him." He said and walked away
Later we continue up the beach and arrive at the remains of the beach camp, which are abandoned and in disarray.
"This is our old camp." I said
"Home sweet home." Locke said and looked at the group, "Alright, everyone! Richard tells me we should get to where we're going by nightfall. So why don't you all take this opportunity to rest up and catch your breath. Considering what I have planned for you, you're gonna need it." He said and I looked at Sun with a confused look and walked over to a familiar broken down tent, it was mine and Desmond's, I fought back tears as I sat down on the ground next to it. After we all rested we moved on and arrived and what looked like the remains on a giant statue but all that was left was a foot. Richard takes the torch he just planted and leads Locke away.
"What happened to the rest of the statue?" I asked Ben
"I don't know. It was like that when I got here."
"Do you expect me to believe that?" I glared at him
"Not really." He said and Locke walked up.
"All right, Ben, let's go."
Later I was sitting on a rock, Richard approached me, "Water?"
"Do you have any alcohol?" I asked turning my head to look at him.
"No. Sure wish I did." He said with a chuckle, just then Ilana and her team arrive carrying a crate and the Others cock their guns, I got off the rock and Richard walked forward, Sun walked up next to me.
"Don't shoot." she said holding up her hands
"It's okay. It's all right." Richard said walking closer to them.
"Which one of you is Richardus?" She asked
"It's Richard, actually."
"What lies in the shadow of the statue?" She asked him and I looked at Sun and she shrugged
"Ille qui nos omnes servabit." He who will save us all
"Richard...I'm Ilana. I have something you need to see." She said and shouts something to her team, "Open it up."
The Others cock their guns again, "It-it's okay. It's okay. Let them." Richard said holding his hands up to the Others.
They open the crate and tip the contents onto the sand. Richard, me and Sun peer over the crate to see a body.
"Where did you find him?" Richard asked
"In the cargo hold of the plane we came here on...in a coffin."
I look back down at the body of John Locke, "I don't understand. If this is Locke...who's in there?" I asked looking back at the temple.
"Who are they?" Sun asked Lapidus as we watched Richard argue with a guy from Ilana's group named Bram.
"Other than the fact that I know they were on the Ajira flight with us, all I know is they knocked me out and dragged my ass to some cabin, which they promptly burned, then... brought me here along with the dead guy in the box. They say they're the good guys." He said and we contiued to watch Richard stop Bram from going in the temple and I looked at Lapidus, "I'm not buying it either."
Ben steps down the rocks onto the beach, "Richard." He said panting and we walked back over to them.
"Ben. What happened in there?"
"Everything's fine. John wants to speak to you." Ben said to Richard
"Is Jacob all right?" Ilana asked Ben
"I'm sorry. Who are you?"
"Answer her question, Ben." I said to him standing in between her and Richard, Ben looked at me.
"Well, of course Jacob's all right. They're both together inside. John just wants to talk to you." He said to Richard again.
"John wants to talk to me?"
"That's right." Richard grabs Ben and pulls him along the beach, "Richard, what are you doing? I don't understand."
"Well, I'm happy to talk to John. But before I do, maybe you should talk to him first." Richard said and throws Ben down on the sand next to where the body of John Locke lays half-dumped out of the cargo container.
"Ben, you need to talk to me. I can't stop them unless you tell me what happened in there. What happened to Jacob." Ben is silent. "You and I have known each other for 30 years Ben, I'm asking you this as a friend."
"You wanna know what happened Richard? Why don't 'cha go inside and find out." BEn said and Bram grabs him roughly and pulls him along the beach.
"What are you doin?" Richard asked him
"We're goin in, and he's comin' with us." Bram and three others go with him and they entered the temple and I just shrugged my shoulders at Richard and walked away.
aswe all stand around waiting a flare is fired from temple is visible in sky, I stand up and look at Sun then walk over to Lapidus and Richard, who looks back at the temple.
"What the hell is that?" Frank asked him, Richard looks scared, I hear rifles being cocked and pointed at Locke as people see him and Ben walking toward them.
"Don't shoot him! Don't shoot him!" Richard shouted at them and pushed me behind him and Frank grabbed my arm.
"I'm seein' it - But I'm still not believin' it." Frank said and Locke walks up to Richard.
"Hello Richard. It's good to see you outta those chains." Locke said and I see Richard's eyes widen.
"You?" He asked, I was beyond confused now.
"Me." Locke immediately hits Richard in the throat, then knocks him unconscious and I fell Frank tug on my arm to pull me further back, "I am very disappointed...in all of you." Locke puts Richard on his shoulder, and walks right past the corpse of Locke in the Ajira cargo box.
Back on the beach, Frank covers Locke's body with a tarp.
"He's gettin' pretty ripe!" I said and Ilana exits the foot of the statue.
"Where is everybody?"
"They left. They said they were going to the temple." Sun told her
"Right now, that's the safest place on the island. We should go there too." Ilana said
"Are you alright?" I asked her
"I'm fine. Come on, let's get out of here!" She said to us
"What makes you think that I'm going with you?" Sun said to her
"Because...you want to find Jin."
"What do you know about my husband?" Sun asked
"I know that if he's on the island...and if he's alive...then he'll be at the temple. Let's get moving!" Ilana begins to walk away.
"What about John? We need to bury him." I said to her then looked at Frank and Sun.
Moments later, Ben and Frank are digging a grave while Me, Ilana and Sun prepare Locke's corpse, then we all lower Locke into his final resting place.
"Does anyone want to say anything?" Ilana asked but none of us responded, "Didn't any of you know him?"
"Alright, I knew him. John Locke was a...a believer, he was a man of faith, he was...a much better man than I will ever be. And I'm very sorry I murdered him." Ben said and I held a scoff.
"Weirdest damn funeral I've ever been to." Frank said and I put a hand on his shoulder.
"Try being trapped here for the amount of time we were, some pretty weird ones happened." I said to him, Frank and Ben then start to cover the body with dirt.
After what seemed like forever we made it to the temple but we saw everyone was being attacked by Locke aka the smoke monster. When we enter the temple Ilana looks at Miles.
"Where are Shephard and Reyes? And Ford?"
"Who the hell are you?"
"Just answer the question!" She said
"They're gone, everyone's gone. I'm the only one left. Kate and I got separated." Frank, Sun, and Ben enter the room, "Lapidus? How did you..."
"We'll play catch up later. You wanna live, you better move your ass!"
"What about Jarrah? Is he here?" Ilana asked him
"Yeah, he was headed to the pool room."
"I'll go get him." Ben darts out of the room.
"Linus, wait!" Ilana yelled after him but he was gone, "Alright...the rest of you with me, come on!"
Frank, Me, Miles, and Sun follow Ilana through the Temple.
"Where's your husband?" Miles asked Sun
"What?"
"Your husband. He took off yesterday." Miles told her
"Jin was here? He's alive?"
"Last I saw of him, yeah."
Me and Frank watch as Ilana examines hieroglyphics on the wall. The smoke monster howls nearby, "You do hear that, right? You got a plan or are you gonna keep staring at the wall?" Frank told her, Ilana presses a specific brick and it sinks into the wall.
"Yes, I have a plan." She says and a passageway opens, "Everybody inside, now."
We make it out of the tmple and are walking throught the jungle and all of a sudden Ben comes stumbling out of the woods.
"Where's Jarrah?" Ilana asked him
"I'm fine. Thank you."
"Where is he?" She asked again
"Considering that he just killed Dogen, I don't think he's going to be joining us."
"Who's Dogen?" I asked
"The guy in charge at the Temple." Miles told me
"Sayid killed the interpreter too." Ben said
"Are you sure?" Ilana asked him
"He was standing over their dead bodies holding a bloody dagger, so yeah, I'm pretty sure." Ben told her and Sun turns to Ilana.
"You said we would be safe at the Temple!" She shouted at her
"That's what I was told..."
"Well, what about the beach?" Ben asked
"What beach?" Ilana asked him
"Where we buried Locke. Where they lived. At least we'll have the water at our backs and it's familiar territory. Anybody else got a better idea?"
"No. The beach it is." Ilana said
"That way!" I told them
"Move." Ilana said and we made our way to the beach.
"How about you tell me what that thing back there was?" I hear Miles ask Ben
"That thing's what killed her friends back at the statue."
"And Jacob, right? It killed Jacob too." She asked him
"Yeah, of course, and Jacob-"
"Of course." She said cutting Ben off and looked at Miles, "You're Miles, right? Miles Straume? You communicate with the dead?"
"Not technically. I... I can tell you how someone died, pick up their last thoughts before they check out, but... I need to be near their body."
"This is what's left of Jacob's body." She said to him and hands Miles the pouch full of ashes, "So tell me, Miles... how did he die?"
Miles kneels down, clutching the pouch and concentrating, "Linus killed him." Miles said and we all looked at Ben, I really wasnt that surprised, he shot my husband just so I would come back here.
"What? That's not true!" Ben says an Ilana looks at Miles.
"Are you sure?"
"He was standing over Jacob's body with a bloody dagger, so... yeah, I'm pretty sure." Miles said mocking Ben's tone from earlier.
"Thank you." She looks at Ben, "Jacob was the closest thing I ever had to a father."
Miles looks at Ben, "Uh-oh."
We arrive at the beach once again, "I'm gonna look for some tools and get to work on some shelter. The rest of you see what food's left. Maybe get a fire going." Ilana told us
"Yeah, a fire will fix everything..." Miles said and I smacked him on the arm and walked back over to mine and Desmond's old tent.
Sun and I approach Ilana, who is still gathering wire, "Excuse me...how long are we going to stay here?" Sun aske her
"I told you. I don't know yet."
"I need to find my husband." Sun said to her
"Trust me, if anyone wants to find him, it's me. But I don't know where to look."
"Why do you want to find Jin?"
"Because your last name is Kwon. So is his. And I don't know whether I'm supposed to protect you, him, or both of you." Ilana told her
"Protect us? What are you talking about?" I asked
"You're candidates. To replace Jacob."
"Replace him? To do what?" I asked crossing my arms
"If you're the one selected, I imagine you'll find out."
"Wait...you said candidates. How many are there?" Sun asked
"Seven. There are only seven left."
Later on, Jack, Hurley and Richard returned and we were all sitting around a campfire.
"Candidates? Candidates for what?" Jack asked me and Sun
"To replace Jacob. She said I was one of them, so are you, so is Hurley, so is Sun" I told him.
"Well, that's great. So what do we do now?" Frank asked
"I don't know." Ilana said shrgging her shoulders
"Then, who does?" Jack asked
Ilana tells us about what Jacob told her
"Who's Ricardus?" Hurley asked.
Ilana points to Richard, "He is. So, Richard, what do we do next?"
"Uhh.. I have no idea what we do next. You didn't tell your friends that I was trying to kill myself when you found me? That sounds like someone who has a plan?" Richard said
"Why would Jacob say you knew what to do if-" I started to ask but he cut me off
"Because everything he ever said is a lie."
"What are you talking about?" Jack asked him
"You wanna know a secret, Jack? Something I've known a long, long time. You're dead." He said and I looked at him in shock.
"You mean that figuratively right?" HUrley asked
"No, I mean literally. We are all dead, every single one of us. And this, this, all this, it's not what you think it is. We're not on an island, we never were. We're in Hell. So, I'm not interested in what Jacob said. In fact, maybe it's time to stop listening to him, and we started listening to someone else, and that's exactly what I'm gonna do." Richard gets up, takes his torch, and heads toward the jungle. Ilana loads a gun.
"What are you doing?" Jack asked her
"I'm going after Richard."
"Why? You heard him he doesn't...doesn't know what we need to do next." Jack said
"He knows! Jacob told me. He has to know."
"Alpert has lost his mind. He thinks that we're, we're in hell. If he cared about what Jacob said, he wouldn't be talking about, about listening to someone else." Jack told her and she walks away toward the camp.
"Wait, you know who he meant?" Jack asked her but she was to far away
"Oh, this should be interesting." Ben said to him
"What?"
"He meant Locke." Sun said
"Locke is dead." Jack told her
"If it's any consolation, it's not exactly Locke." Ben said and I got up and headed to my tent and laid down. I couldnt stop thinking about Desmond and Charlie, I missed them so much and all I could think about was getting off this island..again, so I can go home to them. I held up my hand and looked at my ring, I laid there and remembered the day Desmond asked me to marry him.
"Hey you are anything but a disappointment, especially to me. I dont care what society says I do what I want, and right now I want you and nothing but you." I said and pulled him into a kiss, we stayed like that for a few minutes then he pulled away.
"I know that, and thats why I love you, and that's why I want to do this." He said and pulled away from me reaching into his pocket and got on the ground and I looked at him in shock, "Freya Johnson, will you marry me?" He asked and held a ring that looked like he made it from a tree branch, I couldnt even believe what was happening but I got down in front of him.
"Yes," I said and he smiled, "Yes Desmond I would love to marry you." He put the ring on my finger and was surprised when it fit then he pulled me into a kiss that left me breathless. We kissed for a few more minutes then he pulled away.
"Once we get off this island, I will get you a proper ring and then we can get married." He said to me but I shook my head.
"I dont need a proper ring, I dont care about that, I just need you." I told him and he kissed me again.
I had to get off this Island, I had to, I need to be with Desmond and our son again, I closed my eyes and fell asleep. The next day I was finishing cutting up some fruit partially paying attention to the conversation that was going on when I was snapped out of my thoughts by Sun stabbing her knife into the table ans storming off, I followed her out to her garden.
"We'll find him Sun," I told her as I knelt down next her and she looked at me, "You and Jin are meant to be together, nothing is going to keep you two apart forever." I said and she smiled.
"Same goes for you, you'll see Desmond and Charlie soon."
"I sure hope so." I said and stood up, "I'm gonna look for something to dig these weeds up." I walked away from her just as Jack went over to her, I didnt hear what they were talking about but I noticed Sun was crying and Jack walked away, I was about to head back over there but the next thing I knew I was hit on the back of the head and everything went black.