A/N Hello my loves. I am so so so sorry that i have been MIA for so long writers block is a real thing. But i think i got some good idea for the rest of this story. I will not give you a time table because life can make hard to stick to it. but i will be doing better to update more often. Please review i love hearing from you all. Please enjoy

Chapter 8

Arizona POV

I had just had the best day with my son today. I am still not used to the concept that i even had son but Luke was the best. I know most moms say that about their kids but it was true. We had gone to the movies and then to an arcade with a pizzeria in it. I found out that he is just as competitive as me. We had a shootout and loser had to eat what looked like death in a cup. Luke gave me a run for my money unfortunately for him i won. We got back the table and he was already to take the full cup to the head. I know he's nervous it's all over his face. I just couldn't watch him but i thought i would play with him a little bit.

"Alright Luke you ready for this. I thinking we have everything edible on the table in that the cup. We have salt, black pepper, red pepper flakes, tomato sauce and think that you put cheese bread in there. Ewwww"

Luke makes eye contact with me brings the cup to his lips. I eye him making him believe that I am going to make him do this. As the cup sits on his lips he plugs he's nose and his eyes. Just as he tips the cup back I put my hand on his forearm to stop him.

"No no Luke you don't have to do that baby. I think your mom would be made if I send you home with a stomachache."

He set the cup on the counter faster than i had ever seen a nine year old move. He turns his head laughs so hard. In that moment i know that i would give anything to hear that sound everyday for the rest of my life. He laughed so hard that he snorted which just made both of us laugh even harder. Once our ribs were sore and our stomach muscles were screaming he said" I can't believe I thought you were going to make me drink that. You really had me going arizona" his laughter once again filled my ears again and my face split into a huge smile. I wish he would call me mom or mama but I knew that would take time.

"oh God no I think we both would have thrown up if you had. What a mess that would have been. You ready to go little man. I'm sure Callie is missing you." He nodded his head and we headed back to his place.

The drive back to Callie had been full of silly jokes and singing along to the radio. Today had been the best day of my life. It kinda sucks that I would have to drop Luke off and go back to an empty house.

"why weren't you around when I was little? Mom says that you love me you just couldn't be with us. Is that true or did I do something to make you leave?"

I was not ready for luke to ask me that question. I mean I knew it was coming but I didn't think it would be today. I thought that maybe just maybe I could get through today without it. I had no idea how to answer that. As we pulled up into Callie's driveway, i looked at Lucas and said" Honesty i didn't know that you were around. I hurt your mom when we were younger and i understand why she didn't tell me but i didn't know. But i need you to know that i will do what i have be in your life and your mom's life for as long as possible."

Luke took a moment and said "guess I understand that. But you can't hurt her again. When I was little I would see her cry all the time I don't want that. I like hangout with you today it pretty awesome, but if you're gonna hurt us by leaving or anything please just go now." I could see that Luke was about to cry, i cautiously put my hand on his shoulder. "I need you to look at me. I am not going to walk away from you baby. I will not leave you i give you my word." He nodded his head and started to get out the car. I had no idea how i was going to do. This was my son and i wanted to be here for him i just needed to talk to callie about all of this. I also had to figure out what i wanted. I mean came back to Davis for Callie and now that i knew about son i wanted nothing more than to be with both of them. The question was would Callie ever really want to be with me again. I hurt her so much when i left.

"Hey monkey did you have fun with Arizona today." Luke had a huge smile on his face and said "yes mama. Arizona is pretty cool. I'm gonna go watch tv now or mama? Arizona thank you for today i had fun. Please keep your promise ok?" Callie had a confused look on her face and eyed me as i bent down to talk to Luke. I give her a look that says that i will explain in a minute. "Luke i promised you that i would not leave you again and i promise i won't ok. Now be good for your mama ok."

As Luke went into the house Callie started to walk into the house, i grabbed her wrist to stop her. This rush ran through me. This was the first time that i had touch Callie in years and that feeling was still there. I knew that Callie felt it too as looked the my hand on her wrist. I wasnt sure if i was allowed to really touch her so i removed my hand very quickly. With a sheepish look i asked her "Callie can i talk to you for a second?"

"Sure Arizona whats up?"

We moved so that we were sitting on her porch. I didn't know what i was going do with her but i needed her to know that i was not going to anywhere. I turned my head and looked into her beautiful brown eyes. Those eyes that i would spend hours staring into when i was younger the same eyes that i had dreamed about for years now. I shook my head to bring myself back reality.

"I just want you to know that i don't plan on leaving I want to be here for both of you. I think that we should have discussion about what that may look like. I don't mean today i just mean soon. I had so much fun with him today. He is a great kid and i want to get to know him more. I also want to get to know you more too."

Callie had tears in her eyes as she said "I agree we need to have a conversation about all this. What are you doing tomorrow, you can come here and have dinner with us and after the boy goes to sleep we can talk. Does that sound good to you?"

"Yes Calliope i think that would be a great night. I will see you tomorrow around 6. Can i h-hug you?"

Callie just nodded her head words had always been hard for her when things got too emotional. I stood up and wrapped my arms around her and pulled her tightly against me. I missed this i missed feeling her against me. Afraid that i would do the wrong thing or cross some line i released her and started walking towards my car. This was the first night in a long time that i felt like maybe there was a light at the end of this tunnel.