Chapter13

'Tears...'

"You might hate yourself for showing people your true self but," he paused looking into her eyes that stared at him with sharp eyes trying to deny all what he was saying but of course, her tears betrayed her. "Hiding your feelings is not gonna be a solution."

Natsumi was about to explode because of what he said. What does he know about her to say something like that? What does he understand about her inside to say that? The most painful thing that doesn't want to admit was that he was telling the truth and she couldn't deny it. The painful thing was that he was telling her that not one of her guild mates. The pink haired girl wiped her tears that had fallen down on her cheeks then she kept staring at the table.

"You might love a person and hide your feelings from him but you might regret doing this later." She was hearing what he says but she didn't want to change her reaction. "So if you have something towards someone, you should just go and tell him no matter what."

His words were right. Natsumi really wanted to do that. To go and tell Lucas about her true feelings but, Sting already said it. It was already too late and she regrets it already. She was too late and Lucas was too late. If they understood each other at first, things like that wouldn't have happened at all. Natsumi moved her head to look at the blonde guy and forced a smile on her lips.

"What a great lecture, Sting-kun." She said wiping away the rest of her tears. "You really moved me and brought tears to my eyes."

Sting didn't say anything as he kept staring at her helplessly. He wanted to say another thing but seeing her like that didn't let him say anything. Something was wrong with her and he doesn't know what it was. Something deep inside of her heart made her cry when she heard his words. Something was hurting her heart and she just pretended like it was nothing.

"Would you please bring me food already, I'm so hungry."

Hearing Sting's words really moved her heart and made her cry as well. Something really broke her inside made her explode. But, it didn't reach the point that touches the spot that could force her to spell everything and that's what she wanted exactly. She didn't want to a person who cries and tells people about her own weakness. She never wanted to though.

"Here, eat up"

She ate as fast as she was able to so she could run away before he could lecture her once more. She didn't want to be discovered by people though.

"I'm leaving," she said and waved her hand to the blonde.

"Where are you going?!"

"I guess I should search for the nearest hotel here because I'm really tired."

The pink haired tossed her things on the ground as she jumped on top of the bed that was in front of her. She was really tired of nothing. Her body was really hurting her these days and she doesn't know the reason. Maybe it's because of the negative energy she had because of her mood. She starts to hate her life and wants to get rid of her memories as much as she can.

Natsumi took a deep breath as she let it out a sigh. She opened her closed eyes to stare at the ceiling. She decided to stay in a hotel until the next train be ready. She just doesn't know what the use of that is but she is just following her own rules. She doesn't want to stay outside or wander around the city for too long and in the same time she was tired and she also thinks that she is sick. It seems that she stayed with Gray for such a long time and caught a cold because of his icy body.

She looked like a little child lying in the bed. She missed a lot of people but slept while concealing of herself. She missed Igneel so much. Igneel who was visiting her dreams every night telling her that she is gonna be fine but wakes up with more negative energy because she misses him more. She misses Lucas who she never held close to her. Even when she is a fire dragon mage, she still felt different warmth around him didn't feel through her power. He was the source of her power and never let her feel safety. She misses herself. She misses her smile. She misses her active self. She misses her past. She misses everything that relates to her life before the blonde interrupt.

While she was thinking of what's wrong with her, she fell asleep.

Later at the night, Lucas stretched his arms above his head as he looked at the city before him. He just got out from the station and heading out to the city. He had just arrived the city that had sabertooth inside of it and asked for the next journey to the next city and the answer was that it's after two hours. He was smart and asked if there were a journey this morning and they told him no. That's why he concluded that Natsumi was still in the city and didn't leave.

It will be a hard thing for him to search for in such a huge city and he doesn't even know how to do so. He walked in the streets as he kept looking right and left. It wasn't his first time to visit this city but every time he comes to it, he forgets about the places he had once visited.

Once, he stopped as his eyes fell on a restaurant. He saw a flash of a blonde hair inside of the place. It was Sting that he had once seen. Is it ok if he asked him about her? He doesn't really know if he really knows anything or not but, why don't he give it a try?

The blonde walked inside of the place standing in the front. He exhaled the carbon dioxide and waited for him to focus on the new customer.

"Umm," the man said as he moved his head to look at the person who came.

"I'm Lucas, you remember me?"

"Ah, yeah I do remember you but sorry I couldn't recall your name." the blonde smiled nervously as he looked at the other blonde. Lucas didn't really react on what he said as he looked down for a minute and then raised his head to look at him. "It there something wrong?"

"Actually, I'm searching for Natsumi. Have you seen her?"

"Yeah, I saw her this morning. She came to eat in the restaurant but left."

Lucas felt happy because of what he heard. It wasn't really that hard for him to find her even though when he felt it was the hardest thing to do.

"And where is she now?"

"She is in a hotel near this restaurant."

"Where?" Lucas was confused. As he remembers, there were a lot of hotels in this area and he is not going in every hotel. "Where is she?"

"I really have no idea Lucas-san. She said she is going to the nearest hotel because she is tired." She is tired but tired of what? Lucas whined because he is already tired of the Tom & Jerry game and he can't on playing it anymore. Natsumi was really making him crazy and he had already enough.

"Then where's the nearest hotel?"

While they were searching for the nearest hotel, the rain started pouring the ground.