Chapter17

The girl put her head down on the pillow after changing her clothes into a comfortable one pushing all the thoughts of the blonde away. She said that she has to get over him after everything that happened but what he said earlier didn't leave her head and she wanted it to stop bothering her. Wherever she goes and whenever she looks at him the cold face of his that he confessed to her with was popping in her head and whatever she does it never leaves her head. She sighed as she pulled the blanket over her body as she kept looking at the dark ceiling above of her.

She hugged herself and covered the blanket over her nose when she heard the rain's drops outside.

The girl felt really cold because she wasn't able to use her power since she was weakened because of the accident. It wasn't like she had lost her magic but because her body was weak in the moment it was really hard to use magic. She never listens to doctors when they kept insisting at her not tire herself and if she was able to use magic, she wouldn't have listened to them and took jobs but her body has weakened a lot lately and she apparently knows the reason.

The mighty salamander who spent the year in jobs and missions and actually not normal missions but hard ones had finally reached her limit and she can't go over this limit. She was like anyone who believed that she had a limit in her own but she didn't know how to reach it until now and to recover her dead body, she needs month or two so she is going to stay in her house for a while.

Her plan in forgetting and pushing herself once again failed and now she is lying on the bed in a room next to the blonde's room and she can't even talk to him.

In anyone's opinion, they don't really need all this time to recover their feelings but actually both of them had pride and very strong one. At first, Lucas had given up on her because he felt that she can't love because she is acting all tough and mighty. He regretted thinking like that when she was taken away by Gray but he also felt betrayed by her because he felt like she was showing him that can like and love as well so she went to date Gray and that's why he tried to provoke her in going out with the blue haired girl as well. And when he finally talked with Natsumi in that, she was shocked and never wanted to show him her kindness again. She had a pride and never really cared about her feelings like she cared about her pride.

She wanted to act all tough and mighty again but her broken heart never let her do that. Everyone who knew her before felt that she wasn't the same person they knew. They saw a very different person they hadn't seen before and she didn't need to tell them that because they read it in her eyes that showed everything.

And when he left her, she circled herself in a circle and never let anyone into inside of her circle. She tried to do as much as she could of jobs so she could stop thinking of her pained heart thinking with pushing herself will actually make her forget about him but she was wrong because until this day, her heart is still aching and until this day the tears never dried and until this day, she is holding back and trying to push away the thoughts of him.

The girl opened her eyes to meet brown ceiling of the cave. She felt that her body was really in pain and hopeless to move a single inch. She was feeling so cold but it wasn't worse than the first time. She felt that there was something on her forehead then she groaned in pain. She groaned when she felt the pain in her broken arm and leg. She breathed heavily as she felt like she was really dying. She got really sad when she heard the rain's drops out of the cave. Natsumi felt warmer then she realized that she was covered by a blanket and that caught her attention when she realized that she didn't have this blanket a while ago.

She breathed and moved her head slowly to look at her right direction to see the blonde Lucas was sitting there resting his back on the wall closing his eyes. She couldn't bear seeing him like that. He was doing all these things for her sake and she was burdening him more than he could carry but even though when she felt that, she felt also angry because of what happened between them hours ago. She breathed slowly as she tried to remove the blanket from above of her. She took another deep breath as she tried to walk on her broken leg. When she couldn't do that, she fell down on the floor causing the blonde to wake up from the noise.

Lucas saw her lying down on the ground while groaning in pain. She was so hopeless who couldn't even walk.

"Natsumi!"

He quickly walked to where she was and started to help her out to sit up. "What made you up? You have a high fever," her body was like hell. It was so hot but he didn't remove his hand from her back even though when it was burning. For a moment, Natsumi raised her head to look at him in the eyes. She was sweating and her throat was dry, her face looked really pale and her lips were really white. She gulped and suddenly remembered the first day she had met Lucas in. Even though when she was about to forget it because the lots of the problems they had. Her tears suddenly fell off her eyes and she couldn't help doing anything except crying.

That moment, Lucas didn't ask what the reason behind her tears was because he already knew that he was the reason behind those tears. Because he made her sad, angry and upset. She cried, because she loved him. She cried, Because he was the first one to hurt her. She cried, because he was the reason of her sadness, she cried.

"Natsumi,"

"I loved you… so much, I loved… you so much." She cried as she brought her right arm to whip away her tears. "I loved you from… the bottom of my heart."

"I'm sorry,"

"I loved you… and… you brought me sadness!" she was holding way too much that a normal person wouldn't be able to bear. "I…" she raised her right arm and kept hitting him into his chest while he didn't say anything for what she did to him.

"I'm sorry,"

He kept saying these words and nothing else. He couldn't say anything else because he felt like he'd given her so much to bear and that was enough for a normal human to bear.

The pink haired fell asleep while she was telling him she loved him so much and crying. This time, she was serious about what she was saying. She was telling the truth and crying. Her tears, her precious tears were the ones that told the truth. She wasn't crying except when she was really sad and now she was bursting in tears.

The guy wiped her tears and put her down on her sleeping spot. He just discovered that he was a really bad man and didn't deserve her love for him. He covered her with the blanket and wiped his tears away as he kept staring at her pale face trying to think straight.

Natsumi opened her eyes wide to meet the dark room. She just dreamed a weird dream. Actually, it wasn't a dream, it was a memory she had forgotten. She doesn't know how could she forget a memory like that. She sat up on the bed as she wiped sweat away as she started breathing heavily. She was afraid of what she saw earlier. She had said to Lucas everything she had carried in her heart and burst in tears. She doesn't know what to do after her confession.

Despite telling this confession a week ago, it feels like it's brand new to her. It's really hard though. She never confessed her love to anyone before and it really feels weird and so embarrassing.

The girl buried her face in her hands embarrassed of what happened. She suddenly felt the desire to see the blonde but didn't know why.

She suddenly realized why Lucas was treating her strangely these past days. And that was because she had blamed him for falling in love with him. It's really hard thing to feel and to tell. She believes that as much as he was happy to hear her confession he was doubled sad because she told him like that. She stood up on the ground supporting her body on her right leg and started to support her right hand on every wall to reach the wooden door.

Natsumi wanted to go to Lucas's room to see him. She didn't know what was the reason of this visit? But she just wanted to see him and that's all. Natsumi opened the room's door to the outside and moved her body to look at the other wooden door. Natsumi started to knock slowly in his door and no one answered. She didn't give up at the moment and started sniffing slowly near the door to realize that there weren't scent of the blonde in the room. She started walking away from the door while resting her hand on the wall so she could walk and don't fall down on the ground. She started sniffing again as she kept looking everywhere to catch on Lucas's scent it was now like searching for an impossible thing to find.

Following his smell took her to the garden of the hotel to realize that it was still raining outside and now she started wondering how she was able to smell him in this heavy rain. She takes small steps to the edge of the building to look at the blonde who was standing in the middle of the garden and staring at the sky that was full of clouds and was completely gray. She kept staring at him to realize that he was completely soaked with water and started wondering how he ended up this soaked.

"This guy is really weird. He has been in this rain for the whole hour!"

Natsumi moved her head to look at the back to realize that some two people were standing behind her and talking about the guy that was soaked in rain who was Lucas.

"Yeah, is he not afraid of getting sick or what?"

'A whole hour… it's exactly the time she slept in so he was sitting in here since I went sleeping.'

"It seems that he is an idiot, what is wrong with him?" the both of them walked away leaving the pink haired girl to stare at him even more afraid to take the steps to go in order to face him without even talking and she was also afraid of taking the steps of going under the rain again. And thinking of that sent the chill over her body.

She kept looking at the blonde from faraway.

Lucas raised his hands to bring his wet bangs back to the rest of his hair. And while he was doing this thing, Natsumi realized those bandages he had. She suddenly remembered that night and remembered how he was holding her and her temperature was hell high. She brought her hand to her chest and tightened it. Her heart suddenly ached but it wasn't because of her pain it was because of his pain. She wasn't the only one who was holding inside of her and she wasn't the only one bearing everything inside of her. He too, he was also holding a lot of things and never wanted her to know. He too, he concealed inside of his heart and endured things like her and she was thinking that she was the only one in pain.

Without a second of thought, Natsumi started walking as she removed her hand from the wall. She started to walk as fast as she can to reach this guy. The guy that her heart was concerned with and never loved any other person, the guy that was her first love and he will be the last love and the guy who is her happiness and sadness.

While the blonde was depressed of what happened earlier that all changed in a minute. And while he was in deep thoughts of thinking of the pink haired girl, someone came behind him and startled him with a back hug.

"H-Huh?!"

Lucas was so shocked of the sudden embrace he received from a strange person he doesn't know who it was because no one had talked yet. He looked down on the hands that were wrapped tightly around of him to realize that the left arm was wrapped in gypsum and then realized it was the pink haired girl who was holding him this tight.

"N-Natsumi,"

Was this a dream or did he get a fever that made his temperature worse and started imagining things. He raised his hands to grab in both of her hands and remove them from his body but she grabbed into him tightly surprising him.

"N-Natsumi, d-did I do… something wrong… I mean right?" his face was so red and he didn't know what he was saying and this was the first thing to come into his mind and that was the only thing that he was able to get. He actually didn't understand a thing. An hour ago, she didn't speak to him and didn't even look at his face and now she hugs him from the back not letting him go. He wanted to hug her back but he just didn't know what she was doing and why she is doing this. While he was trying to find the words to spell, he heard her taking a breath and letting it out slowly.

She tightened her grip around his body and spoke, "I-I found out now."

"W-What did you… find out?"

"I found out… that I love you… so much… a-and I-I can't forget about you."

It was actually like a miracle to the blonde to hear something like that coming out of her mouth. He felt like he was really dreaming and from now until the next days he will keep thinking that it might be still a dream.

"Y-Your hands were burnt because of me…"

"T-This-"

"You went under the rain to search for me to give me my wallet." She didn't leave him the chance to talk as she kept on talking. "You stayed by my side when I was sick even when I pushed you away." She started tightening her grip again as she buried her face in his wet back. "You were always watching over me when I needed someone to watch me."

"Natsumi," he raised his right hand to touch her right one.

"I didn't have the courage to fall in love before… I didn't find the proper one for me. Since you came into the guild… I didn't see except the pain," Lucas felt a little pain at what she said, "But, you're the only for me and will be always like that." She finally removed her hands from him and kept looking at the back of his head until he turned his body to face her to realize that her face was so red.

"I-I'm going to stick to you like a glue so you have to be careful."

Lucas didn't wait for anything as he folded his arms around the pink haired girl bringing her to his chest and tightening the hug. Natsumi reacted so quickly and wrapped her arms around his neck closing her eyes and taking a deep breath through her nose and letting it go of her mouth relieved to be held by the person she loved.

"I'm… going to stick to you too as well. I'm going to keep staring at your face the whole day. I'm going to keep watching your fights with Gray and laugh. I'm going to hug you when I want. I'm going to take care of you when you get sick and I'm going to go to jobs with you when you get better."

Lucas tightened the hug and touched the back of her head with his hand.

"I'm going to love you all I want."

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Believe it or not, I never planned for this story to be in this way of romance :D

Three years ago when I published the first part I never thought that I'm going to write it this whole thing or even make part 2 or anything. And because I suddenly fell in love with genderbent Natsu and Lucy I made it but thoughts came popping in my head and I couldn't control over them and it happened to be a story like that. XD

Well, it's not the last chapter but I plan to make some other chapters because thoughts keep coming in my head. I can't help it because I love Natsumi as a character and I believe that she deserves some happiness with Lucas after all the tears she had shed :D

Anyway, have a good day and please I need more reviews.

Sayonara