Lexa had mixed feelings about returning to Polis. Of course, she was thankful that her fight against the mountain men was finally over, but on the other hand, her people never lived without the constant threat, and she was worried that things may go wrong in this time of peace.

With the warless times her people were having, Lexa had a lot of time to think about a lot of things. She disliked it, and tried to keep herself as busy as possible. She went to visit as many villages she could, to show them some moral, support and also to point out that in this times of peace, there was no need for violence, that not every scared sky person they see is a threat. The commander also spent time with the conclave, teaching them to fight, to survive and to become the best commander they can possibly be.

None the less, the grounder didn't allow herself to get cocky. After finding out about the deaths of the people in Mount Weather, she sent a few of her warriors to destroy anything the sky people can use against them, she also placed a squad to keep track of the situation in Arcadia, and to report directly to her, but she believed that they would not cause any trouble. The brunette also knew that it wasn't safe to leave their alliance like that. She knew she needed to establish the peace.

She couldn't go there and look Clarke in the eyes. It didn't matter that she was sure of the decision she made, and it didn't matter that she would have done the same thing if she was given the change. It didn't matter that she was now risking a war to occur between them. The only thing that mattered to her was the Clarke's face when she found out Lexa had betrayed her.

Lexa knew better. She knew to never let people get to her, she knew it very well, and yet, she felt safe here, in her room, creating imaginary conversations with Clarke, where she knows exactly what to say, where Clarke understood perfectly. She can't handle the fact that the blonde would hate her, she just can't.

After spending the better half of the last hour deep in those thoughts, the girl decides to get herself out of bed and join the rest of her ambassadors at breakfast.

She wears a simple black pants, and a long sleeveless shirt, putting her hair as usual, with many braids, she places the circle between her eyes and moves to look in the mirror. Now that they are not at war, she doesn't need to use face paint or to wear an armor, she is dressed rather causally, and she likes it a lot.

When she joins her people at breakfast, everyone becomes silence, waiting for her to take her place at the head of the table. When she sits down, she gestures them to begin to eat.

"Commander." The ice nation ambassador begins.

Lexa lifted her eyes from her untouched yet food and look at the man. "Proceed". She tells him, interested in what he has to say.

"Well, it's been quite some time since our enemies have been vanquished by wanheda." He stopped, his voice not heard over the sound of people cheering. Lexa thought to herself how much Clarke wouldn't like the nickname, and the meaning behind it. "Yes, well, I wanted to know, what are we going to do with them?" He finished, sounding quite clam.

"Well, right now there is peace as you all know. We are not killing them, and they are not killing us, we need to consider the possibility, that talking to them would only make the situation worst." The commander said with an assertive tone, eliminating anymore question on the matter.

A few hours later, when Lexa was sitting in her chair, her thoughts was once again wondering to the sky princess. She almost couldn't remember how the other girl looked. Well, she of course remembered the deep blue eyes and her blonde wavy hair, but she couldn't remember how she looked like when she smiles, or when she's angry. She was beginning to get upset with herself, she was the commander of twelve clans of grounders, she shouldn't spend her time trying to make some girl face. But on the other hand, she didn't care, because it wasn't doing anyone harm, well, anyone but herself.

Noises from outside her room brought her out from her thought. She sat patiently, waiting for whom ever it was to come in and explain himself, she was even excited, back when they were at war, her room was flooded with people in all hours of the day. Titus walked in, looking rather upset, Lexa already regretted feeling excited, a glimpse of panic flashed her features, but before some worries followed the flame keeper inside, it was already gone, and her aloof, serious place was in place.

"What is going on?" She asked, after no one seemed to speak up.

They didn't say a thing, and instead signaled someone to come in the room. A young warrior, lead into the room a girl. It took Lexa a few seconds to come to the realization that the girl standing in front of her, is no else than Octavia. Octavia, a sky person, Bellamy's sister, Clarke's friend, Indra's previous second.

Two thoughts came to the commander's head, the first, was what the hell had happened to her. The black haired girl was bruised, her left eye severely swollen, and she could barely walk on her right leg. "Tell me that this is how she was found, and that you didn't defy me." She stood up, hoping that she would receive some good news.

The young man who brought the sky girl in explained. "It was the ice nation. We were out hunting, when we saw them beating her almost to death." The others nodded along. "We fought them, in order to bring her back to you. We didn't capture none of them. I am sorry."

"Leave us." Lexa ordered. Sounding angry. All but Titus left the room. "You too."

Knowing that one of the twelve clans was defying her word had shaken the grounder. She knew that there must be retaliate against the ice nation, it was not the first time queen Nia was trying to undermine her, and this time she was not planning on letting this slip by. None the less, she was now alone with Octavia, someone who may have spent the last few months in the Arcadia, and right then, Lexa had needed information, about what they plan next, will they consider peace, and, well, Clarke. Maybe she can tell her something about Clarke.

"Octavia." Lexa said softly, stepping down from the podium.

"Commander." Octavia said in a sharp tone, doing her best to stand up.

"I need you to.."

"Well too bad." The girl interrupted her, "I needed you to stay in that mountain and help us, but as you taught me, even without me asking," A small evil laugh escaped her lips, "don't trust anyone to be there for you when you need them." She walked a step further, coming closer to Lexa with an intimidating look in her eyes, and then added. "I will be a hypocrite to choose to help you now."

Lexa looked at the girl in front of her. She saw how strong, and how driven to stand have for what she believed in she was, and the commander wanted to believe that she could understand her. "You would have done the same." She simply said. "So, please, help me help you, tell me what you know, tell me how you got here, tell me what your people think right now, and I, in return will get you back to them, and attempt to correct all the wrongs the ice nation made in the process."

They looked at each other for a few seconds, no one daring to look away, "I don't know." Octavia said, looking to the floor.

"What don't you know?"

"Everything. I left a week after we returned to camp. The only reason your people find me, is because two days ago Lincoln decided he wanted to return to my people and help them." She said bitterly. "Without him, I was more noticeable, and, as you can see, here we are."

Lexa knew that the conversation has come to an end. There was not going to be an open chat about feelings. "I will have someone escort you to a room where you can eat, clean and sleep. After I make last arrangements, we will travel to your camp."

The girl left with a nod, signaling to the brunette that they were okay for now.

When Titus returned to the room a second later he simply asked, "what's now heda?"

"I will go with her to camp Arcadia, and try to make a final peace."

"And about the ice nation?" He asked, not questioning her decisions.

"I want you to kill their ambassador, to send a message. I shall go to the sky people, show them the work of Nia, show them what she had done to Octavia and make them join me in the battlefield." Lexa ordered. "Also, arrange five horseman to be ready to leave in first light."

She left after that, going to her room. It looked like she didn't need to get used to times of peace after all, tomorrow she will be wearing her armor again, and if things will go as planned, she will be rocking war face colors for the weeks to come. Lexa knew it had to be done. Her people has a change to raise their children without the shadow of death, they could live in a world of peace and happiness, this time Lexa was going to fight for exactly that, using any means necessary to make her dream come true. She didn't feel scared to break the coalition, or to risk her role as the commander, she knew what the right thing to do was, and for all she cared, she would die trying.

The only thing that scared the young girl, was Clarke.

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