Author's note: Please note that this is in a diary/journal format. Basically, Stella's the one writing.
March 5th, M.E. 736.
Apparently I'm supposed to be writing down my thoughts because I have 'anger management' problems. I just think this is just Cor's way to mess with me through Dad. So, here we go.
How do I even start a journal anyway? Did anyone think to tell me that? I just said that out loud, by the way. Cor just walked in my study room and told me to introduce myself. I don't get it. Why should I introduce myself to my own journal?
Ow… Cor just hit me upside my head and said not to over think things and just write.
Here we go, my name is Stella Lucis Caelum, princess to the Kingdom of Lucis. Daughter of King Regis and Queen Aulea. I am currently 5 years old as of two months ago and my only friends are the Crownsguards. Well, some of them. Mostly the older ones who have children and don't really mind talking to a precocious 5-year-old princess.
Now, how exactly am I able to write let alone think so articulately at this age? People definitely wouldn't expect a 5-year-old to be so well spoken. Or even write legibly for that matter… I definitely shouldn't be able to understand let alone know some of the words I use. Well, the answer to that question is…
This is not my first life. Six, I hope Cor was telling the truth when he said no one will read my journal.
So, this isn't my first life. It's my second. I was reincarnated after my death in my first life. My name was Alice and I died in a shoot-out at school when I was 17. But that doesn't really matter much in the larger scale of things. Because not only was I reincarnated. I was reincarnated into a game.
Final Fantasy XV to be exact. I wonder if all that time I spent playing that game bit me in the ass in this reincarnation roulette thing.
It really sucks because I know what's going to happen. Everything from my future little brother's destiny to my parents' deaths. It's painful to think about so I tend to just ignore it. There's nothing I can do right now anyway. Besides I'm not even sure I should change things. Everything worked out in the end, after all. Somewhat. I would prefer if my family could live at the end of this fucked up story. But I know that's not possible, no matter how much I wish for it.
But if there's anything I learned in my current life as a princess, it is that my life belongs to the kingdom and not myself. It's how the royal family faces death so bravely and even with my extra years of life experience, mom has somehow managed to brainwash me into believing that.
I was no longer Alice, seventeen-year-old high schooler. I am Stella, Crown Princess of Lucis. And I have a duty to my kingdom and my people. I would live and fight for their sakes before I would ever fight for myself…
Is what I want to say, but I love my new family dearly. Mom and Dad love me a lot and I just can't imagine putting them before hundreds of other people. Even my yet to be born little brother. I don't want any brother of mine to go through the things in that game…
Oh dear Six, enough with the depressing things. I'll probably talk more about it later. Oh, yes! Mom is 4 months pregnant with my baby brother! I can't wait till he's born! He's bound to be adorable considering what he looked like as a kid and at 20. I've already met Gladiolus and wow is he a big baby. Adorable for a future shit head. But I'm hoping I'll be able to teach him to be just a little bit more empathetic. What he did in the future after Altissia always did piss me off.
Huh, I didn't expect to somewhat enjoy journal writing. I think I'll keep it up. For now, I'm going to bug Dad to let me begin training. I don't want to be caught off guard or unprepared later on.
…Am I supposed to end this in a specific way? Ugh, I don't care. Stella, over and out!
Yeah, okay. I'm posting these little snippets of Stella's early life that I wrote before starting Carpe Noctis because I wanted to get rid of some nerves 'cuz I'm starting my first job in my long career so... . These will be sporadically posted between chapters and probably well after this fic ends.
Yeah. Enjoy!
Oh and I made a public discord for fun. If you've got discord and want to ask any questions or headcanons or just talk about whatever, head on there! "https [colon] [slashslash] discord. gg / 3H7NcA3" (please replace the colon and slash and delete the spaces)