Chapter 20
I sat in the newly remodeled Arkham cell and itched at my fingertips. The healing was finished and now I just had these indents on the tips behind my nails. I felt like crying and this pissed me off. I didn't cry. Ever. I knew that The Joker was not like any other villain I had ever known. I knew that he and Harley had a very intense history. I knew that at one point, they were soulmates. But maybe that never went away. Maybe I was just being used to pass the time while he got her back. I tensed my fists, ready to drive them into the wall next to me. Just then I heard my cell door buzz and Gordon walked through.
"Morning Luna. Have you had a chance to think about what I said?" He said smugly.
"Not really." I said turning my head towards the barred window. He sighed in frustration.
"You're a smart girl Luna. We all know that The Joker and Harley Quinn are and always will be partners in crime. There is no room for you in his life. Just accept that. Get yourself out of here. Tell me where he is and I will sign the paperwork right here, right now." He said. I growled.
"He's…." I started. Then I heard a loud boom outside the cell. Gordon jumped up and drew his gun.
"Stay here…" Gordon said as he snuck outside the door. I stood up in a ready stance. About five minutes later I saw Gordon walking slowly back to my cell with his gun in his now raised hand. He was being held up by Harley Quinn.
"Luna! So happy to see you doll face. Mistah J is on his way and boy did he miss you!" She said cheerfully. I went up to Gordon and grabbed the gun out of his hand.
"Harley." I said softly. Then I saw J walk in with Deadshot. J's face lit up in a terrifying way and he started to walk towards me.
"Stop." I said as I pointed the gun at him. He stopped suddenly and looked at me with confusion.
"Princess, what are you doing?" He asked grinning.
"Is it true?" I asked.
"Is what true, love?" He asked.
"Were you using me to get her back?" I asked as I nodded towards Quinn. Deadshot looked at The Joker in a pissed off manner. Harley looked at me confused.
"Of course not. She and I are done my Queen. You know this." He said.
"Luna honey, I have a new guy now. Mistah J and I are strictly colleagues now. Things change and he's all yours now, I promise!" Harley said.
"Don't listen to em Luna. I wasn't lying to you." Gordon said. J turned around and pistol whipped Gordon.
"Whatever this pig told you, it's not true. Now we have to go." He growled. I pointed the gun at my head.
"I'm not going anywhere. You used me. You never wanted me by your side. It's always been her." I said. J rolled his eyes and Deadshot looked at Harley questionly. Harley shrugged like she had no idea what was going on.
"Okay Princess. I'll prove it." J said. Before I could argue, he pointed his piece at Harley and pulled the trigger. He shot her in the right shoulder and she yelped as she fell to the ground. Deadshot immediately bent down and grabbed up Harley.
"You're a dead man Joker." Deadshot said as he ran out with Harley in his hands. J rolled his eyes.
"She means nothing to me. She and I are ancient history. She was too easy. You on the other hand, are the annoying challenge I thought I never wanted. But ended up craving. Now please come with me." He said. I slowly handed him the gun. He took it.
"Good girl." He said. Then suddenly, he backhanded me across the mouth. "Don't you ever threaten me again." he growled. "Now come on." He said as he grabbed my arm and led me out of the cell. I stepped over the unconscious Commissioner Gordon and held my face in pain. I didn't even have time to fight him back. He had me in the back of a black van within five minutes and sat me down. Crimson nodded at me and smiled.
"Good to have you back Luna." She said.
"How long was I gone?" I asked.
"Three days." She replied. She looked at The Joker who was outside instructing his guys on what to do. "He didn't stop." She said.
"Stop what?" I asked.
"Looking for you." She said. "He didn't sleep, didn't eat. He killed three of our own out of frustration. He got so desperate he called the task force. That was hard for him. For one he hates those guys and then Quinn…" She said. To an outsider, he cared. But I knew I was just a possession. I didn't mind. I was just glad I was out of Arkham.
J got into the passenger side of the van and told his henchmen where to go. Frost was driving ahead of us.
"Is Quinn alright?" I whispered to Crimson.
"Yeah, just a flesh wound. Deadshot is pretty pissed though." Crimson smiled.
"I'm sure." I said. I knew J was trying to listen to what we were saying.
When we pulled up to our headquarters, we all got out and I immediately went up to my bathroom and showered. I didn't even look at J. I changed into boy shorts and a black tank top. I went to J's penthouse and was expecting Frost and Crimson to be up there. I saw J looking out the giant window, smoke a cigar. He heard me behind him and turned. He threw his cigar on the ground and charged at me. He grabbed a handful of my long black hair and pulled me into a deep kiss. He growled into my mouth before he pulled away. I was ready to keep going, then he slapped me hard. Again. I was beyond furious.
"You fucked everything up. If you had just listened to me, Kane would be dead." He growled.
"I don't take orders from anyone. Not even you." I said in a low voice. He grinned that scary grin and tried to slap me again, I blocked his hand and pushed him back. "Are you sure you aren't just mad at yourself for not finishing off Batman when you had the chance?" I asked smiling. My intention was to piss him off more. It was working. He grabbed me by the throat and backed me into the concrete pillar behind me. He tightened his grip on my throat and planted a hard kiss on my lips. Instead of trying to pry his hands off of my throat I rustled my hands into his hair and he growled into my mouth. I bit his lower lip and drew a little blood. I sucked on his lower lip and he slowly released my throat and stood back to look at me.
"What am I going to do with you?" He said in a low tone as he put his hands on either side of my face. He kissed me until I felt like my knees would give out. He yanked my shorts down and lifted me up. He fucked me so hard I felt as though my back was actually digging into the concrete pillar behind me. He bit my neck hard and I cried out in pain but a moan mixed in. I felt him smile against my skin.
"I missed you my Queen." He whispered in my ear.
"As I missed you." I breathed out. When we were done, he buckled his belt then he stepped in closer and pointed at me.
"Disobey me again and I won't be this nice. Understand?" He growled. For some reason, I didn't argue. I nodded in fear. I checked myself and realized what I just did. He left the living room and went into his office and slammed the door. What the hell was that?
The next couple of weeks were pretty simple. I had pretty much taken over the dirty work. I had to release my anger somehow since apparently I couldn't with J anymore. I had assassinated thugs, robbed banks and even had a few run ins with Bat Face. J was proud of me. I was starting to become a very well known and feared gangster in Gotham. I was known as the Clown Princes New Queen. That word "new" bugged me. Yeah we get it, Harley was his first...love? I wasn't sure what you'd call it. The truth was, I was starting to feel for J. In a way that I hadn't felt before, ever. I wasn't sure if it was necessarily love. But when we fucked, I felt...safe. I felt...happy. It terrified me.
Crimson and I were starting to work on a plan to eliminate the Superheroes of Gotham. She was very concerned with getting rid of Wonder Woman. I mean, I got it. But I was scared that her personal vendetta against her would screw this up. I mean Batman killed my sister. Sure I wanted his head on my mantel but I had to think about the bigger picture. J was mostly working on his reputation lately. It was pretty nice. He and I were the more feared gangsters in Gotham and everyone knew it. I still had this weird thing happening with me. Every Time The Joker and I fought, I cowered away from him. I didn't understand why. I had never been scared of him. I still wasn't. But something was stopping me.
I woke up that night and changed into my black flowing dress. It had a corseted bodice and I added my gorgeous Amethyst necklace that J had stolen for me. I ran my comb through my long black hair. I heard Crimson come through the elevator. She stopped in the bathroom doorway and tried handing me my usual latte. I smelled the cinnamon scent and my stomach jolted. I bolted to the toilet and started puking my brains out. She came up and moved my hair out of the way. I jolted forward and when I was finished, I sat with my back against the glass shower door.
"You alright?" Crimson asked.
"Yeah, just didn't dig the smell of that latte I guess." I said back. She looked at me suspiciously.
"Are you pregnant?" She asked. I laughed a loud roar.
"Yeah no. We've only been screwing for a few months." I said back.
"That doesn't matter genius. It only takes one time." She said. I thought for a moment. I hadn't had my period this month. I have been acting weird.
"Shit." I whispered. "I guess it's possible." I whispered.
"Well, let's go see a doctor." She said as she helped me up.
"J can't know. I don't think he would be very thrilled. He is too unpredictable. I don't see it going over well." I said.
"Well, I will tell him we have a business meeting if he asks. I know a doctor downtown that is really good." Crimson said looking down. Clearly this was the same doctor she had when she was pregnant years ago.
"Okay. Let's go." I said.
"They are probably getting ready to close down for the night." She said looking at her watch.
"Yeah, don't care." I said as I walked through the apartment. I sat on the couch as Crimson called Frost and told him about our meeting. Just then, Handsome came in and jumped on the couch next to me. He licked my stomach and laid his giant on my stomach. I looked at Crimson with a terrified look. She hung up the phone and grabbed my hand.
"Yeah we gotta go." She said. We got in my black Corvette and sped off. I pulled up to the tall medical building with rotating glass doors. I pulled out my piece as did Crimson. The security guard at the front desk got up quickly.
"Sit down chubster." I said. Crimson grabbed the duct tape and taped him to his chair and his mouth.
"Okay, what floor?" I asked. She pushed the thirteenth button and up we went. We were silent. This wouldn't be good. First off, I didn't really like kids. Second, I had this weird feeling that The Joker wasn't meant to be a father. We got to the fancy doctor's office and the receptionist didn't even bother looking up.
"We are closed…"She said. I pointed my gun at her.
"I'm aware. I'm here to see Dr…."I looked at Crimson for validation.
"Lanes." She whispered.
"Dr. Lanes. I have a feeling today he will be okay with taking walk ins." I said smiling. She nodded and got on her landline. "Don't even think about calling the cops." I said. She nodded and dialed the office line.
"I have a couple ladies who need to see you." She said. "Trust me, just come out here." She replied. A tall, lanky man exited the back office. Crimson pointed her gun at him and he put his hands up.
"Crimson Dante? Is that you?" Dr. Lanes exclaimed.
"Long time no see Doc. My friend here needs some tests done. She might have a bun in the oven." Crimson said casually. I rolled my eyes.
"I don't help thugs." He said. I pointed my gun at his receptionist and shot her in the hand. She screamed in pain. Crimson handed her a towel so she could wrap it.
"You do now." I said smiling. He backed up and nodded.
"Okay. Fine. Let's get you into the examination room." He said as he gestured towards one of the rooms. I sat on the examination table and let out a deep breath. I was in denial. I kept thinking that this had to have been a flu bug. No way was I pregnant. The doctor had me take off my pants and lie back. He inserted a wand and I watched the screen.
"A lot of wall tears here. I have a number you can call…"He said sympathetically. I rolled my eyes.
"It's consensual doc. Trust me." I said. He shook his head and continued. He looked at the screen.
"Okay there is the embryonic sac. And there is a heartbeat. Looks like you are pregnant. About four weeks. Congratulations." He said with sarcasm. I sat up and looked at the screen. It felt like the wind had been knocked out of me. Crimson put a hand on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry." She said. She knew congratulations were not in order. This was in no way a good thing. But at that moment, I felt like I had to protect this little flicker in my stomach with everything I had. It was mine. It was ours. But I knew there was a chance it wouldn't be an ours type of situation. The Joker didn't...feel. He didn't care. He wasn't a normal person. He didn't feel things like normal humans did. Which in most cases, neither did I. That's why I was so surprised at how protective I felt over this little sea monkey in my belly. I got up and pulled my jeans back on.
"We gotta go." I said in shock. Crimson nodded.
"Thanks Doc. We'll be in touch." Crimson said to him. I heard him follow us and help his receptionist with her wound. I walked fast to the elevator.
"You alright?" Crimson asked. I tried to look at her but I couldn't.
"What the fuck am I going to do?" I asked.
"What do you want to do?" She asked.
"I don't know." I said. We got to my car and Crimson drove. I would get us killed if I tried to operate a moving vehicle right now. We got back to headquarters and I asked her if J was here or not.
"No. He and Johnny are out. They will be gone a while." She replied. I nodded and darted inside. We walked through the elevator and I sat on the couch. Crimson said on the coffee table across from me.
"It'll be okay." She said as she put a hand on my knee.
"No it won't. He'll hurt it." I said as I put a hand on my stomach.
"Luna, The Joker is psychotic yes. But this is HIS child. I think he might be a little happy. Not for the right reasons of course but happy nonetheless." She said.
"I heard Quinn rambling in her cell one night. She was pregnant with twins at one point before her incarceration. She was three months along and he hurt her. Which hurt her babies. She lost them because he lost his temper. That will happen to me. Beating the hell out of each other is sort of part of our thing." I said worried.
"I know but I think J might really wants someone to carry on what you two have created. You two won't live forever." She said. She might have been right but would he really love our kid? Or would our kid just be about carrying on the family business?
"How do I even tell him?" I asked. She sighed.
"That I don't know. He has a very strange temper. I don't know the guy that well though. I don't know how he'd take it." She replied. "But you forgot this at the doc's office." She said as she pulled out a sonogram picture. I saw the little oval in the middle of the picture. It was my little guy. I had this feeling that my little bean was a dude. I smiled slightly.
"I'm gonna be such a bad mom." I said.
"No you won't. You might be crazy, but I think you've got this." She said smiling. I rubbed my stomach.
"I think I am gonna get some sleep. What's on the agenda for tomorrow night?" I asked.
"Um, we have a meeting with The Penguin at 10pm tomorrow and Two Face is asking to set up something with our club. So we are seeing him at midnight." She replied. I nodded.
"Sounds good. I'm gonna crash. If he comes home looking for me, just tell him I am in bed. He probably won't stay." I said. "Hide this." I said as I handed her the sonogram picture. She nodded.
Handsome came out of his new habitat and followed me to my room. He laid down next to me and put his head by my tummy. He purred loudly and nuzzled my stomach. I pet his head.
"You're gonna get a brother, Handsome." I said smiling. Handsome looked up at me and I swear if tigers could smile, he did.