I'm not dead! So sorry for the very, very delayed update. I have been super busy with classes (college is long and hard yo) and my old computer crashed, so I had to wait to get a new one to get back to writing! Hopefully updates will be more frequent, I have a break coming up after my exams in a few weeks.

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Bellamy paced furiously outside the council room, waiting for Abby, Clarke and the rest to finish deliberating. He had only ever experienced true fear back on the Ark. Hiding Octavia, keeping her a secret from the rest of the world, his mother being floated when they were found out had kept him on edge for much of his life. But on Earth, he felt nothing but calm.

If Jaha wanted him dead, so what, risking going back to Earth was a death sentence already. Fighting grounders and for his and his friends' daily survival gave him a sense of purpose and something to focus on. He thought being on Earth should've made things easier. Hunt, eat, sleep, make sure your friends don't die, survive. But then again, the ground turned out to be full of surprises including the grounders themselves, who were decidedly going to kill them.

Since Mount Weather, Bellamy had felt the panic and fear rise back up in him, causing him to think that survival might not be an option for him any longer.

No, no, can't think like that. I have to keep fighting. They're depending on me, Octavia, Raven, Mont, Jasper, Clarke-

With the thought of Clarke, he calmed down ever so slightly. They had become team, working to combat the problems that might be their ultimate end. Bellamy no longer felt any ill will towards her, he trusted her, was even her friend now. Maybe one day he could even lo-

But this wasn't the time for it, one day maybe, but not now.

"Bellamy!" Raven almost yelled, causing his head to snap up and to stop pacing. "I've called your name out five times dude."

"Sorry, just lost in thought." He apologized.

"I get it. They still talking it up in there?" Raven inquired, nodding her head to the council door.

"Yep." Bellamy grunted, he had been pissed, to say the least, when he hadn't been allowed to attend the meeting.

"C'mon, let's take a walk. You need to get out." Raven said, starting to walk slowly with her crutch towards the door leading outside.

"I want to be here when they end, I need to know what the plan is for-"

Raven cut him off. "Clarke is going to tell you no matter what. Now come on before you wear a hole in the floor."

Feeling there was no point in arguing with her, Bellamy followed Raven outside and around the old section of the Ark without a set destination. They made small conversation, both trying and failing to think of things to talk about that weren't relating to war, Finn, or anything other of the near-death experiences that had consumed their lives. Bellamy had asked Raven how her leg was doing but she replied with small "It's alright", and a scowl.

They had walked slowly around the inner perimeter of the Camp twice when Clarke and a few others exited the building, indicating the meeting's end. Clarke made her way over to them with look of utter exhaustion on her face.

"That bad huh?" Bellamy asked, almost dreading her response.

"All they did was argue about whether we should stay and fight or leave or try for peace. My mom said that we needed to regroup tomorrow to try to think about it more clearly."

Bellamy wanted to say something to reassure her or try to start figuring out a new plan but nothing came to mind. The feeling of exhaustion that Clarke had exuded had spread to him and he wanted nothing more now then to try get some sleep before clusterfuck that would be tomorrow hit him. He bid the two girls good night, at left to find his bunk.

As he walked back around Alpha station to his assigned quarters, he saw someone in the corner of his eye jogging towards Raven's gate. Despite his heavily drooping eyes and slowly forming migraine, his curiosity got the better of him and he followed the person towards the small opening in the fence.

Bellamy quickly and quietly caught up to them and grabbed their shoulder turning them around.

"Que demo?! Bellamy, what are you doing here?" Sonja had been caught off guard, swearing in another language and very nearly hitting Bellamy in the nose.

"I could ask you the same question." Bellamy interrogated.

Sonja paused, seeming to carefully chose what she was going to say next.

"I was trying to leave, I need to get back to Aguatri." She said slowly.

"Why?" Bellamy couldn't tell if he was relieved that this grounder was leaving or mad because they were losing a potential ally.

"I'm not…" She paused again, trying to grasp at what she wanted to say. She started to rub her thick leather bracelet on her left wrist, a motion he had caught her doing a few times. "I'm not strictly supposed to be here."

"What do you mean? I thought you said that you were sent as ambassador for your clan's chief or whatever?"

"I was but Trikru doesn't know I'm here or any of the clans, and my people aren't really supposed to pass through their lands without their permission." Sonja said quietly.

Bellamy decidedly angry now, "What?!" He half yelled, half whispered.

"Keep your voice down!" Sonja shushed him. "I did what I had to do, I'm sorry Bellamy. But if Trikru finds me here, then it means trouble for all of us."

Bellamy didn't know what to say. He felt betrayed, angry, confused and just so tired that if wished that this was all bad dream.

"That's not an explanation." Was all he could manage to get out.

"I know. I'm sorry." She looked away abashedly. "But I need to get back to my people, I have my duty to them and I need to protect them. Can you at least understand that?"

"Yeah, I can." Bellamy whispered. Sonja shouldered a small pack that had been lying near the fence and started to go but paused and turned back to him.

"Stay safe, Bellamy. I hope this isn't the last time we see each other." She said. Bellamy merely nodded in reply, watching her make her way through the hole in the fence and into the darkness of the surrounding woods.

Sonja felt both guilty and relieved when she could no longer see the lights of Camp Jaha through the thick foliage. She honestly did not want to leave but she had to. She was a dead man if Trikru found her. She trudged along through the woods silently, collecting her thoughts.

The Sky People hadn't been what she thought. They did have weapons that seemed more dangerous and terrifying than anything she had ever seen but they seemed as scared and terrified as anyone to be in a new place, struggling to just survive. Some of them had warmed up to: Abby, Clarke, even Bellamy, and Jackson.

The thought of Jackson made her smile a bit. For whatever reason, she had a good feeling about him. Sonja didn't know if it was simply because he had been kind to her or that she was just overthinking things but it made her smile nonetheless.

It's silly. I shouldn't be worrying about it-

Sonja stopped. She had thought she had heard the slightest crack of a twig being broken. Turning in the direction of the noise, she swiveled in the darkness to see two looming figures, feel a sharp blow to the head and then darkness.