Author's notes :
Thank to you already for the views ; I didn't thought that there will be so much views , Good lecture ! Thanks to Dorito who sent me a review that motivate me enven more to continue :)
Cr : I don't own Junjou Romantica.
-I think you should move.
-What ? I said not really sure to understand.
Yeah , you want to become a real adult don't you ? Then take a flat , rent it by yourself. If I say it , that's because yesterday I saw an ad in newspapers , it's a nice, cozy and not much expensive flat near to your work I called the the landlord and he agreed to let us go visit it tomorrow.
My eyes grown wide open and my jaw dropped , why was he saying that , did I made anything wrong , did Usagi san called him to complain about myself ?
But I'm being well here and I don't think I disturb Usagi-san, do I ?
I look in my landlord's direction with a questioning look , he just replies me with a denial movement of head and start to talk.
-Takahiro , Misaki doesn't disturb me at all , he stays because he makes the chores and that's why he doesn't need to pay a rent and I don't want him to pay one either.
-Usagi , listen , to visit this appartement tomorrow won't hurt anybody , will it ? If you want you can come too , I swear it will open your eyes Misaki , you'll want to live immediately in it ! If you don't mind i'm going to go too , let's say that I come here at 10am tomorrow and then we go together ?
I make a small movement to show him that I nod and then I realize that a tear is going to fall down my eye as my vision becomes blurred. At this moment I look right in Usagi's eyes and he seems to realize my state and says :
-I'll take you back to the door , Misaki please begin with the dishes.
I nod my head and am about to say good bye to my brother but I feel that my troath is dry and if I talk , even a bit , my voice will break and he'll see that i'm about to cry. I just go and embrace him for a second and then I start to pick the cups and head to the kitchen.
-Goodbye Misaki ! He says with an happy tone.
I don't answer. When I hear the door being closed I realise that i'm finally alone , I let myself fall against one of the cabinets of the kitchen , my body is heavy. I put my head in my knees , I feel tears rolling down my cheeks and sobs all in my body. Why am I crying ? Is it because of what Nii-san said , that I should move ? But I don't want to move , I can't. Could Usagi san live -without me , Could I live without him by the way ?
After a while I feel something patting my shoulder, I lift up my head a little and see my lover with a very worried face , soon he kneel next to me and start to hug me and whispering in my ear thing to calm me , I look in his eyes and see that he isnt feeling well either. As he sit next to me still huging me tightly I roll my arms around his neck and let myself cry completely on his shoulders. He says with a soft voice :
-Misaki , don't worry everything will be alright tomorrow , you don't want to leave me right ?
-Y-Yeah... But we have to tell him if I want to stay or he will ask why I want to stay with you.
-I know , that's why I can tell him about us if you allow me to.
-No.. No , I am the one who have to tell him , he is my brother and that's my choice so it has to be me.
-Are you sure that you can handle it ? He asks pushing me a little to see my face.
-I'm sure , I have to be brave , to show him that I want to stay with you !
Usagi-san's face seems to bright at my last words , I see an happy smile forming on his lips and he talk once again :
-Misaki can I kiss you ?
I don't answer but I close my eyes to show him that I allow him. Right after I feel larges and softs lips being settled on mines. This kiss is so different that the ones we usually have , this one is sweet and full of love. We stay like this for a moment and we stop the kiss to take our breath back.
We weren't in the mood to do anything else , that's why we headed to the bedroom were we layed next to each one and we fell asleep in a loving atmosphere hugging each other.
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-Allo ? Sir , can you open us please we are downside ?
My brohter , Usagi and I were at the interphone on the door of the building where my brother found me "an amazing flat" . Few seconds later we entered and went at the 5th floor where was the appartement. We began the visit , the landlord was kind but I and Usagi-san were awkward. After maybe thirty minutes of visit we went in the living room and my brother and the landlord started talking about the good things about this flat , I heard a little bit of the discussion
-You know , this appart is calm , the neighboords aren't noizy or disturbing and most of all , you have an amazing view on Tokyo. The last occupants renovated all the flat like six months ago so it's clean.
-Your hear that Misaki , you won't have any work to do in it it's amazing isn't it ?
As yesterday I felt the need to cry , my breath was rushing , and a ball full of anxiety was forming in my troath. I mumbled in Usagi-san's ear :
-I need to go outside please...
-Takahiro , I have to smoke. Misaki do you want to come ? Said Usagi
-Hmm... Yeah sure.
We fastly headed to the elevator and went to the roof. The cold wind hit me and I let myself cry and I started yelling against my lover :
-Anyway it's all my fault If we are here today ! Everything began when I said to my parents to drive faster to come home earlier ! That's because of my selfishness if they are dead today ! Next , it's my fault if Nii-san wasn't able to go to college ; it's my fault if I started living with you , if I hadn't meet you I wouldn't have started loving you and I wouldn't be sad about leaving you ! Shit ! I hate myself !
I said everything without breathing and my body fell on the tough ground and I started crying even more. I was kneeling not looking at my boyfriend but I felt him kneeling next to me , the following seconds he kissed me. He wasn't moving his lips , the kiss was just for calming myself and it was working , I stopped crying after a while and when we separated my lover softly said while taking my cheeks in his large and cold hands :
-Misaki , it's not your fault , everything that happened had to happen you're not the one who caused it. Misaki you're someone amazing , youre so kind , so unique , you don't deserve to be sad and to cry , I promise i'll always be there for you , no matter what happens , i'll always stay by your sides and i'll protect you. When we will say to you brother about us i'll be right next to you if you need me to help you for telling him , if he want to tear us apart i'll make everything that is possible to keep you with me , i'll follow you if he takes you with him. Please , Misaki don't worry i'll always be there , I love you.
Right after we kissed again and I realised that Usagi-san really was the one i'll ever need in my life , he was the other half that I needed to complete myself. His words really helped me to get strenght.
I start to get up and say to my lover :
-Thanks for everything Usagi-san.
-It's normal Misaki you don't have to thank me. You ok , can we go find your brother ?
-Didn't you said that you would smoke ? I ask with a questioning look.
-I don't want to smoke now.
-Thanks Usagi-san.
An happy smile grow on my face as I realise that Usagi san can not smoke only for my own good. Usagi-san put a light kiss on my lips and then we go back to the appartement.
When we enter Nii-san and the landlord are talking and my brother says :
-Misaki , I really think that this appartement will please you !
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After a while we leave the building and we go , the three of us in Usagi-san's car as we head home. I sit in the back seats as my morale is once again down as my brother don't stop talking about this flat , and as if it wasn't enough he starts to talk about it again in the car. I say with an angry tone :
-Can you please stop talking so loudly i'm tired , I think i'm gonna sleep.
This says I close my eyes and lean my head on the window.
After a while I wake up and realise that the car has stopped , I look around me and see my brother and my lover going out of the car and I recognize the parking of our building. I slowly open the door and hang out of the car , my eyes meets my broyfriend's and I make a small smile to show him that i'm okay. We go in the elevator and press the button to go to our floor. Once arrived we enter in the appartement and we sit on the couch. My brother starts the conversation :
-So what do you think of this flat Misaki , seems good no ?
-Well... I think I-
-You'll be very pleased to move in !
-Can't you let me talk ? I said that I don't want move in this appartement.
-Huh , Misaki , what do you mean ? My brother asks with a questioning look.
Crap , because I started I have to continue...
-Well Nii-san I don't want to move because I love someone...
-What a good new ! But why don't you want to move , it would be better to have your own appartement then ?
-I... Well this person already have an appartement.
I look in Usagi san's eyes and he makes a glad smile with an encouraging look. I look back at my brother who says :
-Why didn't you told me before about her ?
-Well it's kind of complicated... I look at the floor
-Why telling me that you have a girlfriend would be hard ?
-Because i'm hm... I'm not interested with girls...
-What do you mean , you must be kidding me right ? He says with a nervous laugh.
-I am not i'm serious. I have a boyfriend.
-Usagi-san did you know about that ?
-I did Takahiro.
-Then why didn't you stopped him ?
-I think that you shouldn't judge someone for who he loves you know.
-Anyway Misaki , who do you hang out with ?
-I... I am in love with U-Usagi-san... I look at the floor and wait for my brother to yell at me.
-Wh-What ?! He screams. How can you two …? You're 10 years younger than him ! Since when ?
-But he is the only one I love and it's since 4 years , it's serious , I don't want to move you know.
-Usagi san , how could you do this to me , you were my best friend ? You took my brother in a debauchery lifestyle I thought you were someone reliable but it seems like I was wrong. He says with a mad tone.
-He hadn't made anything , it's only me ! I chosen to love him ! I say yelling against him.
-See , I love him and he loves me. Usagi san says while putting a hand on my thigh.
-I … How could you do this Misaki ? He asks me with a pout
-I can't change my feelings Nii-san !
-I think you should come home with Manami , maybe you just forgot what is it to be with a family and after you won't feel this way about Usagi-san. I will take you home with me today go make your lungs.
-But Nii-san... -Takahiro. Says my lover.
-Usagi-san it's none of your business stay away. Misaki do it.
Tears start rolling down my cheeks , how could he do it to us !? We are in love with each other , why does he want to tear us apart ?! I cry without carrying about how I look in front of my brother. I run in Usagi-san's arms and I cry even harder.
-Misaki stop playing. How could I accept your relation , do you know how it feels to discover that your little brother is hanging out with your best friend ?
-I... I don't want you to accept us ! Just let us living together
-Misaki , is it really what you want ?
-Y-Yes ! I want to stay with Usagi san ! I yell with a determinate tone.
-May I should let you if it's what is making you happy.
-Th-Thanks Nii-san !
I slowly get off my lover's embrace and I run in my brother's arms and then my cries become joy cries. I hug my brother and thank him a thousand times.
-Well I think i'm going to leave guys. I'll see you soon. He says after a while as he stands up.
-Once again thank you Takahiro ! Usagi san get up and start embracing him.
My brother left the flat and let us relieved and happy even if cries were here a moment before.
Author's notes.
Well sorry i'm a bit late but for you I made a bigger chapter , I hope it's understandable because it was quite difficult for me to write it.
See you soon for the chapter three !