Author's notes :
Sorry i'm really late I thought I would be able to write this chapter in times but I was a bit much optimistic... I had exams for a week so I wasn't in measure to write and I also had what is called the blank page. I'm really sorry ! I think that i'll post a chapter each two weeks , this way i'll have enough time to do it propreply. By the way , thank you for all those views and for the fiew reviews I got , it made me happy to see that ! Good reading :)
A week passed since the day my brother came home and discovered the relation between Usagi san and I. When he left Usagi-san and I made love like we never did before : it was strong but also full of love , we did it for the whole night and during this night I said few time to Usagi san that I was loving him so he was even more happier and so I was. Even if it wasn't easy for me to tell him those kind of things it was worth it. If he was happy then I was even more happy.
Today is thrusday , it's 10 o'clock and I am doing the dishes from the breakfast in the kitchen Usagi san is surfing on his computer on the couch and suddenly the phone rings I say to my lover :
-Usagi san could you pick up please ?
-Yes yes.
He says as he stands and head to the cabinet with the phone on. He answers to the phone and says "Oh Takahiro" , my brother is calling , that's strange he called few days ago , what does he want ? Soon my lover says :
-Misaki your brother want to talk to you , come here.
I let the dishes in the sink and I take the phone in my boyfriend's hands. I start talking :
-Nii-san , what's up ?
-I'm fine and you Misaki ?
-Fine thanks, what are you calling for ?
-Can you help me with something ?
-Sure , what is it ? I ask while looking at Usagi with a concerned face due to the incomprehension.
-You see , there's a friend of mine wich has a little sister who will start her college curriculum in Tokyo soon but she doesn't know anyone and don't know where to stay and has no money... And I owe her sister a query so she asked it to me knowing that I had a brother in Tokyo.
-Hm... Nii-san you know it's not my flat , you should ask to Usagi san.
-Fine , give him the phone.
I hand the phone to my lover which is looking at me with a questionning expression. My brother explains him the story. Could someone lives here with us , Usagi san wouldn't like it and will I ? I don't know... After a while my boyfriend talks, his husky's voice breaking the silent atmosphere :
-Listen Takahiro , I don't know if it's a good idea , you see Misaki and I are very busy so it would be like if she was alone
-...
-Yeah I know you owe her something but it's not a reason , why not giving her the adress of the flat we visited last week ?
-...
-Ahhh ok I give up, but only for a month , but please stop with this voice of yours Takahiro. My boyfriend says with a desperate voice. When does she come ?
-...
-Seriously ?!
After a while the call finally ends and my lover looks at me with an angry glare , I talk with a concerned expression :
Did you accept ?
Y-Yeah , I tried everything to convince him but it didn't work. Why does this child have to come here with us ?
When does she arrive here ? I ask with a questioning voice.
After tomorrow , on saturday morning.
My lover's glare seems to get darker after this sentence , he even seems depressed. He heads to the couch and sits , he is looking at his computer but I can guess that this glare is blank. How would us react when she will come ? And how will Usagi react ?! After all , at first I came to get better marks and after a while to be more near to school and that's how we started dating... Could he fall for this girl when she'll come...? N-No... It can't be possible , I would'nt accept it but what if after all it does really happens ?
-Misaki ?
I suddenly leave my reveries and look at my lover wich has came closer to me , he is leading to the cabinet where I stand behind , I was so much in my thoughts that I didn't hear him coming close to me.
-What are you thinking to be in this state ? His eyes meet mines and I only see worry in it. What ? Do I look bad ?
-What do I look like , wich state ? I'm perfectly fine ! A fake smile takes place on my face waiting for his answer.
-You look like you're about to cry. ...What ? Your eyes are wide open and all wet , and your skin is really pale.
Is it true ? I haven't even noticed that I was about to cry , i let out a nervous cry to relieve him but it doesn't work. He goes around the cabinet and takes my chin between his fingers obliging me to look at him. He talks again :
-Misaki I know you , tell me what's wrong.
-It...It's nothing don't worry. I fake a smile to calm him but it doesn't work.
-Is it about this girl ?
-N-No... it's nothing... I reply feeling about crying.
-Misaki...
No , stop with this voice or I won't be able to keep it for me and I don't want you to mock me or even more. I can't tell him what I really think ! He suddenly talks again :
-Please. Misaki , tell me.
-Stop it Usagi-san ! I yell it as I turn around. His hand isn't on my chin anymore.
-Misaki , I love you. It's enough !
-Crap ! Why are you saying that if in one week or less you won't love me anymore ?!
I scream it as I start crying , my body swings on the floor , I feel my lovers body coming closer to me. Why does he act like there was nothing , like if this girl won't change our relationship. I feel my lover's arms surrounding my shoulders and my body taken in a tight embrace. After a while the husky voice of my lover breaks the silence :
-Misaki why do you think about this kind of silly things ; you're the only one in my eyes and in my heart. His husky voice and calm tone makes me cry even more as I answer :
-Don't you remember how you fell for me ? I make a small pause and talk again. At first I was here only just for your tutoring , nothing more. And then I started living here and you started acting strangely with me while you were still loving my brother. And now a young girl will come living in here , you will forget about me and then it will be as if we never lived anything ! Maybe it would be better for you to hang out with a girl than with a brat like me , yeah that's true. Maybe I should just leave it wou-
-Misaki ! Stop it now !
Usagi's voice cut me while I was talking. At first I was only telling him how I was feeling about this girl but then my mouth started saying things that I wasn't thinking about and I couldn't stop it and then my lover yelled at me , it made me sob even harder. My lover pulled me in an embrace and pushed his lips on mines , I felt his tongue carressing my bottom lip and ; unconsciously I let him come inside of my mouth. After a while where we were running out of breath he slowly cut the kiss and he looked right trhough my eyes before saying :
-Misaki you're my everything , it will never change , I fell for you , I lived the most beautifuls moments of my whole life with you , you're the one wich makes me happy wich gives a sense to my life and I never felt that for anybody but you. Don't forget it , There's only one person in my heart and this person is you. Misaki , I love you and that's true and it won't change , not now and not in the futur.
-U...Usagi , I-I'm sorry... I say looking at the floor.
I feel the embrace getting less thight and see my lover standing up , I suddenly feel my body getting lifted. After a while I realise that Usagi san is bringing me to our bedrooms and once arrived he lay me down under the blankets , it's only 10:30 am but i'm already lie in the bed , luckilly I don't have works before 2pm. I start to relax my muscles and soon I feel my boyfriend's body getting glued to mine and two strong arms taking me into a thight embrace. I let myself getting more relaxed into the arms of my beloved.
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Today is the day where our new roomate comes, even if I didn't want to meet her I prepared a sort of welcome lunch and I also cleaned all the flat. I have to say that i'm nervous to see her, what if we don't get along ? But looking at Usagi san it doesn't seems to bother him , of course he doesn't want her or anybody else to live in here with us but he doesn't seem to be worried about what she'll think when she'll start living here. I am in the living room sitting next to my lover on the couch ; my head is press on his shoulder. I am resting ; because of this girl I have been stressing for the whole week and it provocked me insomnias so I was really tired. Usagi's hand was carressing my hairs meanwhile the other was on my tighs. We weren't talking , it wasn't needed , the only presence of each other was enough. Sudenly the doorbell takes us back to the reality ; only a glance with each other makes us know who is behind this door , this girl. I slowly stand up followed by my lover , we head to the door next to each other and my lover's hand in the bottom of my back , normally I would have rejected him but today was different , it was a relieving contact , it was like if his hand was telling me "I'll always be behind you Misaki." after some more foot we arrived in front of this metalic door , Usagi made me a sign to show me that he would be the one opening the door and so he did.
-Good morning , I'm Ameki , nice to meet you ! She says while extending her hand with a bright face.
-Good morning and welcome here , I'm Akihiko. My lover says with a smile while shaking her hand.
-Misaki , Welcome here. My tone is cold and it's obvious to everyone that I don't want her here.
I look at this girl , she is a bit taller than me , her face is round with big cheeks and some freckles but also a very light skin. She has long wavy light brown hair , her eyes are big and the color a mix between the blue and the grey wich makes her glare really deep. She has a childish face but at the same time it was a mature face , her smile was big and sparkling. She seems to be really happy. Under she was wearing a sweatshirt too big for her with a ripped jean and some sneakers. It was a sober style but on her it made everything cute and even if I wasn't liking that I had to say that she really was pretty. And her name , the characters were meaning "Bright Beauty" Seriously , it was too much. How Usagi won't fall for her , I already lost before she even came inside the flat.
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It's already been a week since Ameki started living here , she was perfectly getting along with Usagi-san , with me it was tensed , I was trying the most possible to avoid her but it wasn't really easy. She was constantly talking to me , Usagi had told me that he was finding her nice and pretty when I asked him what he was thinking about her. After that I left the bedroom and I went to the bathroom , it was 10pm , I fell on the ground and held the toilets where I thrown up everything that we had eaten for dinner. I cried and stayed in this room for almost an hour , of course my lover had knocked at the door but I told him that I wasn't feeling well so he would rather stay outside , he listened and after an eternity I went back to the bed , I lie down far from my lover but he took me in his arms so I let him do that even if I was upset. This night I didn't sleep much.
I woke up , my stomach was aching so much due to the fact that it was empty. After a while I stood up and headed to the kitchen , anyone was there , I took a cup where I had poured some tea and then sat on one of the chairs of the counter. My glare was blank , after a while I felt a hand patting my hairs , no need to ask to who this hand belongs to , I know that this is my lover's hand , and at the moment I didn't want to see him , i'm still mad at him.
-Misaki why are you avoiding me ?
Why ? Maybe because you flirt with girl right in front of me without regrets.
-Answer me please Misaki , since a week you are acting really strange...
-Do you like her ? I suddenly ask.
-What ? Who ?
-Stop acting like you don't understand , do you think i'm blind or stupid ?
-I don't do anything with her.
-For now ;but if you keep acting all sweet toward her you'll fall for her.
-Misaki stop telling that ! He had suddenly lost his calm and yell at me. I love you Misaki and it will never change !
-Stop telling that kind of silly stuff if you don't mean them ! I yell back.
-Oh god... Wich part of your head is telling you that ?
-It's all your fault ! May I should try to give up on you this way it'll make your life easier without me.
I feel the sobs coming to my eyes, I can't even control my body and now i'm crying once again. How many time did I cry this week , I can't even count , I can't believe that our relationship had gone so wrong. I need to go out , to breath , I feel like i'm suffocating in here , I go to the door , put on my shoes , I lead against the metal door. I know that my lover might look at me without understanding but after a while I start talking :
-I don't know why I'm still loving you Usagi , maybe I made a mistake , I need to breathe so let me please.
My forehead leads against the door and my eyes were glued to the floor without stopping the tears from falling down my cheeks , I slowly open the door and go outside , I hear my lover calling my name but I don't stop. I start running down the corridors I run until I can't breathe. My stomach is empty wich makes everything more difficult but even empty I want to throw up and I feel like i'm going to faint , I didn't sleep for almost two days. I look around , well , I stopped my rush in a street , but I don't know where I am. Looks like i'm trapped with the buildings around me.
I was alone in an unknown street , I had to admit that I was kind of afraid. Once I was almost calmed down I decided that it was the best for me to go back home even though I didn't want to , I couldn't make Usagi worried. As I slowly went out from the street I noticed ahead from me two person hugging each other , after a better look I realised that it was my lover and our new roomate. At this moment my heart stopped beating in my chest. It was more than over my skills to stay emotionless with this scene in front of my eyes , I realised that I should go back home and once here i'll call Usagi and i'll tell him that I only went for a walk. I walked as discretly as I could and after a while I was finally at the door of our flat , I entered the password and then entered in , nobody was there as expected so I headed to the phone on the table near from the entrance. I typed my lover's phone number , after a moment he answered :
-Misaki where in this world are you !? He sounded concerned.
-I'm home I only went for a walk where are you both ? I ask acting like I didn't know anything.
-We went searching for you , you had been gone for half an hour without saying anything and answering your phone !
-I just needed to go outside it's nothing , it's not like if my absence mattered.
-However we coming back home.
He is avoiding the topic of what do I represent for him ? I cant take it anymore. My tears are starting to roll down my cheeks , I have never imagined myself being as much jealous as I actually am.
I sit on the couch where i'm still crying , after a while I fall asleep still crying , well at least it helped me to find some sleep , thing that hadn't happened in few days.
I'm awaken by a hand gently shaking my shoulder , after a while I open my eyes curious to know who it may be , it's Usagi-san. As he realise that i'm awake he pulls me in an embrace , a very thight embrace , I almost can't breathe because of him, I say breathless :
-Usagi i'm suffocating please let me go.
-Misaki I was so afraid !
He slowly push me away and look through my eyes while saying that. The whole d goes this way, at 9pm as I head to the bedroom a light voice calls me , I turn around ; it's Ameki. Usagi san is taking his shower downstairs , she walked toward me and stopped in front of me. She started :
-Seems like your lovely Usami-sensei is getting bored of you isn't it ?