I'm not really proud of this story, I'm not liking what I'm writing, so I think I will finish it quickly. I've written this chapter a long time ago and while I was transiting it, I realized that I hate it but I couldn't think of a way to fix it :(

Tyson's POV

'I like Tyson, Are you happy now that I have said it aloud?'

What? Did I hear that right? Did Kai just say that he likes me? Was it real? Oh god, I'm so confused, I don't understand anything.

(Tyson heard Rei saying something but he couldn't comprehend what he was saying)

Oh, I better get going, I wasn't supposed to hear that.

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Why it doesn't bother me that Kai likes me? Why it doesn't make me feel disgusted? Why should I feel like that anyway? I'm not homophobic, ahg, I don't even know what I'm saying, but, knowing that he likes me doesn't bother me at all and I don't understand why. Agh, I'm so confused right now, I don't know what to think, what I should think, I don't know what to do or how I'm going to look at him in the face after this.

But, nothing makes sense, maybe I heard wrong, why would he be so cold to me if he likes me? None of this makes any sense, I'm really confused. But, I know I didn't hear it wrong, I heard him perfectly clear, I heard Kai saying that, I'm 100% sure.

Oh god, I don't wanna get out of here, what should I do? Tell him I know? Tell him I don't feel the same? Do nothing? Agh I'm so confuse right now, why did I have to hear it?

I think that doing nothing is the best option; I mean, tell him the truth and tell him I don't feel the same would be a really cruel thing to do.

Wow, I can't believe Kai is gay; I would've never imagined it, never in my life. Maybe that's why he is always so cold and distant with people; maybe it's for hiding something as big as his sexuality, maybe it's his way to 'protect' himself and hid it, well I guess.

The good thing about it all is that at least I know he doesn't hate me.

Agh, I have to leave this room before someone comes and asks me why I'm taking so long. But I don't know what to do, I have to pretend I didn't hear a thing, I think I will try to ignore Kai as much as I can, maybe that will give him a sign that I don't feel the same way without having to be so direct, or maybe he doesn't even realized I'm doing that, after all, it's what he always does with me, acting as if I didn't exist.

Normal POV

Tyson came back to where his friends where, Rei and Kai were back as well.

The day passed as if it was another normal day, but it was hard for Tyson to look at Kai or even to talk to him, he felt… he didn't feel uncomfortable he just felt a little embarrassed.

No one really noticed the change in Tyson's behavior or at least they didn't think it was weird; after all, he had said a few days ago that he thought Kai hated him, so, keeping his distance wasn't a crazy thing to do.

And Kai, well, he just felt a little awkward because he knew Rei knew the truth, but he didn't even imagine that the one he likes knew it as well, one of his biggest fears came true, and he wasn't even aware of that.

That same day, at night

Kai's POV

I'm not going to lie and say that talking with Rei didn't help me at all, but I won't admit that aloud. On the other hand it's true that it feels good to know that there is somebody that is willing to hear me without judging me for begin what I'm, however I don't plan on talking with him about this ever again, because I just don't like to talk about my feelings or about myself and less about this topic in particular, but at least I know that if someday I need or want to talk about it, Rei will be there to hear me.

It's not every day that I'm as sad and depressed as that day Rei saw me crying, the majority of the time I can find inside me, the strength and the courage to be strong but there are other times, like that day, that I just can't and how much I hate it when that happens, I really hate the fact that Tyson makes me feel like that, I really hate not being able to suppress my feeling, I wish I could do it, it would save me so much pain, because I'm a human and even if I don't show it, I do have feelings and I do suffer because of love and I also suffer because I can't control what happens to me, I didn't choose to be like this, it just happened, no one can choose who to fall in love with, it just happens, and it happened to me with a man, who is also my friend.

I'm passed the stage of denial, I've been for a long time now, denying it to myself wasn't going to solved things and ignore my feelings didn't help at all either and the truth is that I don't really know what I should do to make those fucking feelings I have for him vanish, because that's all I want, I really don't want to feel like this.

Tyson's POV

Why can't I stop thinking about what I heard? What's going on with me? I feel weird and I think I'm playing too much attention to something I shouldn't or maybe I should. I mean, I just found out that one of my male friends likes me, it's impossible not to play too much attention to that.

But if it was a girl instead of Kai, I wonder if I would be feeling like I'm feeling right now or if wouldn't even care about that, agh, I'm so confused, it's not the first time I found out someone likes me, but it's the first time the subject won't leave me alone, I can't stop thinking about that phrase I heard and it's not because Kai is a boy that it happens to me, or maybe yes, I really don't know, but I've realized that the difference doesn't really affect me, as I said before, I'm not homophobic, but for some reason what I heard just won't leave me alone.

Maybe it's because that person is Kai and not anyone else but, why? Agh, I don't even know what to think. Would I be feeling like this if it was Max, Kenny or Rei instead of Kai? Maybe yes, or not, agh, I don't really know, and, if it was Hilary? Maybe it'd be the same; maybe it's because of the bond of friendship that exists between us that I can't stop thinking about it. It's weird, but at the same time it isn't, I'm really but really confused so I prefer to think about something else till I can processes all this new information and think about it in a calmer way.

However, the only thing I know, and I'm sure about It, is that I don't want to ruin that strange friendship I have with Kai, knowing that he likes me doesn't change what I think about him and I won't stop being his friend just for that, but the problem is how will he take my rejection if one day he finds the courage to tell me something about it, I would feel like shit if that really happens.

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