Hey guys! It's seems like Wednesday it's going to be the day to upload this, so see you all on Wednesday from now on.

Also about the name, I change it since I thought the new one will suit better, so I hope you don't mind!

It was a peaceful afternoon, just like the ones that used to be his favorites a while ago. With his kids outside— probably giving trouble to someone else or breaking some stuff as usual— and even with Sadaharu outside too, the house was alone for him to do whatever he wanted to do, he could watch whatever he wanted without Kagura complaining and he could even eat as much as he wanted without Shinpachi telling him that he shouldn't eat that much.

It was nice to be that peaceful, but it was starting to get really lonely, after all, he had gotten way too used to having those two near him. But even more than that, days like that reminded him so much of Hijikata… Days as peaceful as that were the ones he would call Hijikata to come by, chat a little, drink a little and maybe if he wasn't lazy that day—but to be honest he was never lazy when it came to Hijikata—he would even go out to buy some food and cook a quite decent dinner for them.

The times in where he would come to his house were rare and since they couldn't just go out and have nice dates on fancy restaurants or bars—they never knew when they were going to met someone they knew—at least having a nice dinner when he finally had the time to visit him was the least thing he could do for him and it always make him really happy to see how much Hijikata enjoyed the food and how fast he ate it too, even if he never told him openly that he liked his food, he could tell from the big smile he always had while eating.

Those were definitely some better days.

And even with all that sneaking around, even if Hijikata seemed to be always tense when they met outside, they did had fun and they did have some really good moments together, even when they simply chat or when Hijikata decided to stay for the night, most of the time they wouldn't do anything, but just sleeping next to him, just the simple fact that he was able to hug him while sleeping was something he would never change, even less forget.

Those rare smiles of him, the warm of his body, how well his body seemed to fit in his arms, how soft his lips were, how hard he used to try to hold down his voice… He was really never going to forget all those times, even if it would be better if he could just leave all that behind, his heart would finally stop hurting every time he thought of Hijikata.

But even if he wanted to, he wasn't one to let go of his precious memories with him that easily and even less when he missed him so much…

"I really should stop thinking about him…" He sighed, all that was only hurting him, he knew well that those days wouldn't come back, no matter how much he would give to be able to go back, to try and accept that he was never going to be Hijikata's number one priority, to try and change back what happened on that day. But even that was as impossible as winning the lottery. "If only there was something good to see…" He said to himself, maybe talking was going to help to keep his mind away from those thoughts? "Not even Ketsuno Ana is on, damn it all." He sighed once again before turning the TV off and throwing the remote to the table hitting his cellphone on the process.

To think that after all that time without having one he would end up buying a little and simple one, if someone told him some years ago that he was going to waste his money to get one because the guy he liked make him buy one… He would have laughed until tears came down. But years ago he wouldn't have known how much he would do for that guy.

"He got so pissed when I didn't want to buy it…" He chuckled before grabbing the little phone and opening it just to find the empty screen as always, it's not like he had any other number apart from Hijikata. I probably don't need this anymore, huh? Hijikata didn't seem to have any intentions to call him at all—he hasn't even tried to send him a message for the last weeks—and he… He wouldn't take it well if Hijikata rejected his call or ignored his messages, that would only make him feel worse. Guess I'll throw it away later. Or maybe he could give it to Kagura? He did waste his money buying after all.

"Gin-chan!" He heard a scream coming from outside, and before he could even process what was going on, his door was open in a hurry, and now he could see Kagura on his door with sweat on her face. "I got great news!" She stormed into the room and in just a second she was jumping over his stomach.

"Fu-fuck!"

"I got great news Gin-chan! Really great ones!" She said happily while jumping over him, a really big smile on her face. But he could only focus on not getting crushed by the happy Yato jumping over him. "Aren't you going to ask what the news are about Gin-chan?" She finally stopped jumping to see him with curious eyes.

"Mo-move…" He whispered and she finally moved away, letting him catch his breath again.

"Sorry about that, but I'm sure the news are going to make you super happy!" She sat on the end of the sofa, waiting for him to finally be able to talk.

"What it is?" She probably just won some Sukonbu or something like that.

"I got us a job! Isn't that awesome?" She said proudly.

"A job?! What are you talking about Kagura?"

"And you haven't even heard the best part yet Gin-chan!" She giggled. "Remember how you were all depressed because you couldn't see Mayora?" I wasn't depressed because of that. But she didn't give him time to answer. "So I went and asked the Sadist if he had a job, and he did! So now we have to go to the tax robbers place in the night, aren't you happy?!"

But more than him being happy he could feel how his heart was stopping. "Wait… A job with them?! What did you even tell Souchiro-kun?!" He asked panicking, there was no way he could go to the Shinsengumi! There was really no way! If he meets Hijikata now… No! No! He couldn't!

"I only told him that you were feeling down and that if he knew what I could do to help you. He told me that seeing Mayora would help and said that he was going to give us a job!" She explained happily.

"He knows about me and Hijikata?!" He screamed grabbing her arms, his eyes wide open. Sougo was the least person that should know about all that, the things that boy would do with that secret, Hijikata would never forgive him if Sougo decided to start a rumor!

"I'm not sure, knowing how he is he could just be teasing. But I didn't tell him anything Gin-chan!" She wasn't lying he could tell that easily. "But it's great, right? That Sadist finally did something well!" He let her arms free only to feel guilty by how big her smile was. How was he supposed to reject that idea when she only had good intentions? She was only worried for him, but going to the Shinsengumi was another matter…

"Kagura… I…" He couldn't, he really couldn't. Disappoint her like that when she was trying so hard to help him. "Did he even told you what the job was about?" He sighed, the Shinsengumi was a big place so if he was careful about it, he could avoid Hijikata really well, knowing him he was probably locked in his room, so as long as he was far away from it, he wasn't going to have much trouble, right? He only had to do the job faster, make sure if Sougo knew the truth and go away from that place as fast as he could. It was simple.

"I'm not that sure…" She answered thoughtfully. "I think he said something about cleaning some rooms."

"Cleaning, huh?" That was something he could do fast, as long as Kagura didn't start a fight with Sougo of course. "Fine then." He finally answered and she only smiled even more. "Why don't you go and get ready? We're going to go and read to Granny's place before going there."

"Okay!" She answered happily before running to the closet and getting inside of it in just a second.

He only had to follow that plan, there was really not going to be any to worry about if he did. He was sure of that.