Chapter 2-
Lucifer watched as the look in Chloe's eyes went from the pain and fear to calm hard resolve.
He had to take a breath before he tried again, "Chloe…. How are you?" he asked softly.
He watched as she narrowed her eyes at him and raised an eyebrow. She was refusing to talk until she had to, he had seen her do this before with Dan, he never expected for it to be directed at him. He gently cleared his throat. Ok maybe Ella would be happy to see him. He looked over to see her looking at him with narrowed angry eyes. So, no positivity from there, he felt like the most hated man in that moment.
He closed his and took a breath, "Chloe, can we talk?" he said softly with a half-smile.
She closed her eyes tightly wrapping her arms around her middle as if it could hold in the physical pain, as if her arms could stop the waves of feelings crashing over her. Anger, sadness, pain, the utter joy of seeing his face agine. Then the anger came back, this time like a tidal wave of white hot anger. She would not let him back in, she would not let him hurt her again. "NO." She whispered fiercely. "Anything you wanted to talk to me about is about 2 months to late."
Lucifer closed his eyes, "Please Chloe… its important. A matter of life and death."
Then it dawned on her that he was not back for her, he did not run back because he wanted to beg her to be with him. He wanted something, he was here to ask for a favor and she started to laugh. A broken manic laugh that made both the other people in the room look at her in a wondering fear. She laughed until her eyes started to bleed tears. She had to drop forward hands on her knees because she couldn't stand up.
"Chloe." Lucifer said starting to walk forward but stopped when he saw her stop laughing.
Her laugh turned into a gut-wrenching half sob that she desperately attempted to hold in, making it break half way through. When she stood back up her face was covered in tears, she had been crying while she laughed. Lucifer felt his heart stop, this was his fault, this pain she was in. All he ever wanted to do was keep her safe and loved and instead he had hurt her more than anyone else ever had.
He watched as she shook her head at him, "You…...you." she could barely get the words out because she couldn't catch her breath. "You never cared did you, for just one single moment I thought you were coming back to so sorry… that you fucking wanted ME." She ended with a soft yell. "So, fucking stupid… you came back because you wanted something from me. You want something!" She shook her head in disbelief.
Lucifer's heart shattered, he wanted to tell her that he loved her more than anything else in this world. He wanted to run over and pull her into his arms, his arms literally ached to hold her. Yet he knew that if he did that it would cause more harm than good. He clenched his jaw refusing to agree or disagree with what she as saying.
She shook her head at him softly, "What do you want Lucifer…. What is a matter of life and death?" her eyes narrowed as she wiped her face free of tears. He could see her pulling strength out and wrapping it around her like a glove. She closed her eyes for a moment and he knew that he was deciding if she was going to walk away or help him. After a moment, she looked up at him biting her lip, "Life or death… as people are dying or will." She asked softly.
And he knew in that moment her compassion and caring for others would make her help him no matter how much he had hurt her.
He looked back to Ella because he need just one moment where he was not looking at her, one moment to give his heart a break from the pain of seeing her. Ella was looking at him with narrowed eyes and a face he had never seen from her before. It was a level of anger he had never seen before from anyone… well except Chloe today. He gave her a small smile but she crossed her arms and he swore fire came out of her eyes at him for a moment. And he finally understood that he had hurt more than just Chloe. He had hurt Ella, he had probably hurt the doctor …. even Trixie. Because he had left all of them. Without a word, without a warning …and they had been his friend when he didn't have any. Hell, Dan was probably even mad…even if it was just because he had hurt Chloe.
He closed his eyes again before looking back at Chloe, it hurt just as much not to see her as it did to look at her. He cleared his throat carefully trying to figure how to word this without sounding crazy but still letting her know how important this was. He should have been doing this the last few hours but he had been more worried about seeing her, then what he was going to say. What a fucking mess.
Lucifer cleared his throat again. "Do you remember the knife a few months ago…. the one people kept killing with?" he asked.
Chloe slowly nodded her head, "The death count was way too high. Is it the knife what you are looking for? We never found it."
Lucifer shook his head, "No its worse, so much worse. This…. thing will kill even more. It will destroy people, it will take over…it's hard to explain."
Chloe bit her lip and looked to Ella who shook her head. She looked back at Lucifer, "What is missing, can you tell me what it is?"
Lucifer shook his head, "Honestly I am not sure what the piece looks like. It was my fathers but it can change what it looks like."
Chloe narrowed her eyes, "Like magic?" she asked in disbelief.
Lucifer gave a small smile, "If you would like."
"Are you just fucking with me…." Chloe shook her head, "Why would you do that?
Lucifer shook his head quickly, "No I am dead serious. This needs to be found as soon as possible." Lucifer looked at her carefully, "I would not lie to you."
Chloe gave him a dark fierce look, "You can tell me a lot of things and I will still believe you. But don't say that you never lie to me."
This time Lucifer's eyes narrowed, anger building, "I have NEVER lied to you." He growled.
Chloe gave a bark, harsh laugh, "You have lied to me." She shook her head a him when she saw him start to talk. "You said you cared, you said It was real… you don't leave important real things behind." She held up her hand and shook her head even harder, "I know this important and I believe that what you are saying is real. But do NOT tell me you have never lied."
Lucifer shook his head, they could feel the fury rolling off of him in waves. "I do not lie." He said so softly they could barely hear him.
Chloe crossed her arms, and raised one eyebrow and gave an almost sarcastic smirk, "Do you ever think that you lie to yourself Lucifer…. That maybe you can't even tell what real and what's fake. Well I don't care anymore, I don't care what you think. I don't care what you feel." She took a deep breath and covered her face with a soft half sob as the emptions beginning to pore over her.
After a moment, she looked up again, "I will help you find this and stop people from being hurt … but you, I am done with. You and I do not exist, we are …. we were over before we began. I want nothing to do with you…ever again." The last word ended in a soft sob… "We are done, I will never trust you again." She whispered.
Ella walked over to Chloe and wrapped an arm around her, Chloe gave her a quick squeeze back before looking back up at Lucifer. "I need a break, I am going to my office for a while. You can talk to Ella and start building a profile. I will be back in a while."
Lucifer felt his heart drop when she walked by him like he was not even there, like he didn't exist. But when she told him that she would never trust him again it felt like his world had imploded. How could humans take this much pain … this, this never-ending gnawing pain of loss and fear that it might actually get worse. He fell against the door frame as it hit him how damaged Chloe was… that he was…. that he made them.
It took him a moment to see Ella's face in front of his own. He slowly blinked to bring her into focus.
He watched as she shook her head at him, "I want to be mad at you, but I can see that you are barely holding on right now."
"Ella." He whispered, "I think I ruined everything." His voice catching on a soft breath.
Ella gave him a small smile, "Nothing is ruined forever…. Unless you don't try." She said softly while slipping her arm around his leading him to sit on the stool.
Lucifer shook his head in disbelief, "She can't even really look at me… she doesn't trust me." Lucifer look up at her, "She doesn't trust me." He ended brokenly.
Ella sat down facing him and gave a small soft smile, "Life is complicated and hard." She shook her head before giving him a grin. "The pain is worth the good times Lucifer, even if it feels like that pain is going to shatter you."
Lucifer shook his head back, "This is worse than when I fell, this pain is more than just physical…. It is inside. I feel like nothing in the world is right.'
Ella gave him a smile, "Everything is up that should be down and just seeing her hurts. And the thought of really losing her would kill you?" She said softly.
"Yes." He said softly. Looking at her with a broken expression.
Ella gave him a grin, "That's love sweetheart. Looks like even the Devil can love."
"Well I don't like it." He said softly.
She gave him a chuckle, "It's worth it when everything is good and right…...but you fucked up and now you have to fix it."
Lucifer shook his head, "There are other things… things you don't know about. It's not just that simple. Begging for her forgiveness and everything is right again. No. She had no choice …... in any of this."
Ella shook her head again and laughed out loud a musical sound that triggered a smile in Lucifer, "The one thing that I know without a shadow of a doubt is that Chloe has a choice in everything and NO one tells her to do anything she doesn't want to."
Lucifer looked at her, "Even if God made her into something…... do something?" He said softly.
Ella tilted her head to the side, "God does not dictate anything Lucifer…. We have free will. He might enhance a choice or put things in our path… but it's up to us to decide if we choose it…. Free will."
And in that second Lucifer felt the first real hope because maybe …. Just maybe he could have her. Yes, she was a miracle made for him. But she had free will and she choose him on her own. Then his heart splintered all over again because she used her free will to choose him and he walked away. Without a word, with nothing, just walked away and had broken her. He broke her.