Thank you to those of you who have been with me and continued to follow me through all of my hiatus periods- living with several mental disorders is a challenge. Depression, OCD, anxiety, and an almost non existent self esteem had robbed me of the joy and passion I once had for writing. Depression took away my interests, but even when I got the depression under control my OCD and anxiety would always tell me 'This looks like crap. You'll never be the writer you used to be. People used to love what you wrote, but now look at it. Everything that you type just comes out as shit.' Lately I've been trying to work on that inner critic, and work on doing things because I enjoy them not because I'm good at it. I think you guys can probably look forward to updates on my stories for at least a little while. Even though I'm not in the best place at the moment and that I've had a lot of things that have brought me down, at one point in time it was the encouragement of all of you that gave me my purpose in life. Thanks to everyone for making those good times absolutely amazing, those were some of the happiest times of my life. Maybe I'll never be as passionate like I once was, but there's a part of me that wants to create. At work, I'm creating stories in my head and brainstorming ideas for stories I never put into words. I've finished the stories I've started, I've begun new ones. All in my head- if I put them on paper, it would mean I'd be able to see all the things wrong.
Anytime I get an idea for anything in life, I start it only to end up erasing it because it was stupid. Just like I've been doing with my writing. Its something I need to change but that will take time. I think this will be a good place to start working on that.
Wishing you all the best,
Mcfly