Hannah had never had sex with anyone else other than her cousin. It was… different. She wasn't at all comfortable. She felt so self-conscious. Hannah felt like she'd just given her virginity to a stranger. And Jinx was Alois' friend. Jinx wasn't even his real name- it was Justin. She learned that when he made her say his name.

Hannah slept with Mina that night. She didn't want to sleep with Alois because then he'd make her feel guilty simply by looking at him or hearing his voice. Hannah tried to avoid him, but he lived here. It wasn't that simple.

Hannah sat on the front step, her sweater around her as she stared at her feet. She wasn't thinking, she was just zoning out. The door opened, but Hannah didn't register that. She registered the fact that Alois sat next to her on the steps.

She pulled her sweater tighter around her and looked at her feet again. "Hi…" She said softly.

"Are you mad at me?" Alois asked curiously.

Hannah shrugged. "No…" She said.

Alois nodded and looked at his feet. He had on socks. "Did I do something wrong? Didn't I give you what you want?" Alois looked over at Hannah. "Why are you acting like that?"

Hannah sighed and closed her eyes. "I'm just thinking. I need to be alone."

"About what?" Alois asked.

"Nothing."

"Then how can you be thinking?"

"Go away." Hannah sighed.

"No, I'm not going anywhere. I live here." Alois said flatly.

"You're annoying." Hannah scoffed.

"Thanks," Alois said.

They grew quiet for a minute. The cool air buzzed with life all around them.

"I had sex," Hannah said randomly.

Alois quirked his eyebrow at her. "With?"

"Jinx," Hannah said quickly.

Alois blinked. He could have sworn his vision was shook. He felt as if he couldn't breathe, it was hard. Alois inhaled then exhaled, closing his eyes.

"Why. The. Fuck. Would you fuck my friend?" Alois said slowly. He opened his eyes and locked them on Hannah. He clenched his jaw and gritted his teeth. It took all of his willpower not to slap the shit out of her. He wasn't even angry. Alois wasn't even pissed. Alois was furious.

Hannah sighed and looked down at her feet. "Because you made it clear you don't want me." Hannah said softly. "So why am I still holding on? Sure, I'll be your cousin- I'll still love you but I'm not gonna chase you…" Hannah blinked back her tears. She sniffled and swiped her hand at her eyes.

"But that's my friend! What? Are you retarded?!" Alois snapped as he made wild motions with his hands. "And I don't want you?! I don't want you?! The fuck is that supposed to mean, Hannah?! You never even fucking asked me- you went out and fucked my friend!"

Hannah gave him a nasty look. "So now you know how I feel when you go fuck those other girls then you still come back to me as if nothing's wrong!" Her voice rose from a whisper to a strong reprimand. She stood up to face him, her anger growing by the second. "You don't even make it clear! Your Bipolar ass keeps sending me mixed signals and on top of that you don't even realize it when I so gently hint my feelings for you, so fuck you!" Hannah reached out and shoved Alois with one hand and then walked away, leaving the front yard and walking down the sidewalk.

Alois blinked. Then he ran to catch up with her. "Don't you walk away from me! You got my white ass on this sidewalk with no fucking shoes since you wanna argue!" Alois screamed from behind her, attracting the attention of others. "So let's argue! If you take one more step pray to go I won't fucking drag your ass by your hair back home!" Alois was literally doing the most. Walking in socks on the sidewalk and yelling at the top of his lungs at her, making a spectacle.

Hannah whipped around and screamed "You act like I wanna argue with you! You got me out here in these streets looking like a fool!" Hannah slapped her fist into her hand. "I fucking care about you and this is how you repay me?!"

"You're saying it as if you made your feelings clear! You said nothing, you do nothing! If you really wanted me- if you really wanted to be something, then you'd stop ducking around the fucking bush! Until then Hannah, don't say shit about me, my ho's or my love life!" Alois screamed, slapping his own fist in his hand.

"Nah! Nah! You're not gonna stand there and spew bullshit!" Hannah took a few steps forward. "I bust my ass, I bend over backwards! I gave you my virginity! I literally go to war for you and you're gonna say I don't hint my feelings for you!? I don't do anything?!" Hannah shrieked. "Square the fuck up because you're pissing me off! Square the fuck up!

"I'm saying it like it is!" Alois snapped. "If you don't like the truth then I guess you're not ready for the real world! On top of that, I would have damn sure said something if you told me! Not get mad and petty!"

Tears came to Hannah's eyes, a sharp wave of emotion crashing down on her. Hannah gritted her teeth and balled her hands up. She stomped up to her cousin and pulled back before posting a stinging slap on him.

"Shut up." She whispered.

Alois gritted his teeth. He reached out and wrapped his arms around Hannah, pulling her into a bone crushing hug. He sighed and closed his eyes. "I can't fucking stand you." Alois whispered. He kissed her head. "I love you.

Hannah let loose and cried into his shoulder, ruining his shirt with snot and tears. She wrapped her arms around him, digging her nails into his back and trying to pull him closer than humanly possible. They stood there in silence. Onlookers filmed the dispute on their phones while others 'Aww'd' or kept it pushing.

Hannah sniffled and took a deep breath. "I like you." She whispered.

"You do?" Alois asked in a mere whisper.

Hannah dug her nails harder into his back. "I really do… and it's hard for me… to come out and say it." Hannah whispered. "So don't ask…"

"Do you want to be with me?" Alois asked.

Hannah was quiet for a second. She was trying to register this. The argument replayed in her head repeatedly. She wished she could have said different things, maybe it wouldn't have gotten so heated.

With a shaky breath, Hannah said, "I do…"

Alois pulled back to see her face. Hannah tried to avoid looking at him, into his intense blue eyes. Alois gently took Hannah's chin and tilted her head upwards before pressing his lips to her own. Hannah's eyes fluttered close and she kissed him back before she could even register she was being kissed. Alois' eyes fluttered close as he got more into it, their tongues tasting each other, mouth on mouth, as they swapped saliva.

The kiss broke, their breaths ragged. Their eyes locked, sapphire on baby blue.