Hello dear little humans who I have not forgotten, rather you are always on my mind that I tend to forget what I was thinking about... Crazy, I know right... But that's not what I must discuss with you, I recently reread my story and purely, I thought it was really bad... This was my first fanfiction, but that was no excuse for such a wild and crazy plot... That you just got to... I am NOT discontinuing, but I will be rewriting it. It will be in 3rd person so you get a better understanding of what is going on around the character and not just the characters input on it... Some plot will be added in the beginning or some just might stay the same... I will give you a new chapter as a 'parting' gift... It will be crap... I warn you... this is why I am rewriting it... I AM NOT DISCONIUING IT! JUST REWRITING! Got it! So without further adue~

Recap!~

I pushed the girl off of me, and she landed on the ground with a 'kya'.

"I killed them. Do you hate me? I killed your Mama, Papa, family, village."

"...yes." She mumbled

"Do you resent me."

"..yes."

"Do you want to kill me."

"Yes."

"Do you want revenge."

"Yes!" She stood up and ran towards me with much more hate that I built up. I just pushed her down, and she glared at me.

"Then come kill me. Come and fight me, and stand victorious. For you will have your revenge." And you will live

"Now that I think about it, those rumors could have started because of her. Now I'm not one to point fingers, but I really am starting to think she is the cause of that. See, after a couple of days had passed, everything around me started to change. People whispered as I walked down the streets, they would stare, point, snicker, and tremble. I heard someone whisper,

"I'm sure that's it, that's the monster that slaughtered the village."

"That was when I thought, no, I knew nothing would be the same… The humans were afraid, so I can't blame them, but the more I tried to ignore it. The more it continued. I didn't want to be judged because of my look, because of my powers, because of what they thought if me. I didn't want it anymore! Just when I had finally thought that place came, it was all an illusion. I thought the stares would stop, but they didn't. I thought the whispers would stop, but they continued. I thought I was finally able to he free, but it was all a lie. Everywhere I turned, even in Fairy Tail, I would hear them whisper, see them staring, find them pointing. I just couldn't take it.

"I just wanted a place that could accept me for me. Just when I had given up hope, and accept reality. He showed up. He told me, if I were to complete a simple task, he would give me some information on my father, but that wasn't all. There was something he said to me wore he told me that. He told me, in return for completing his task, I would have in return a place that will accept me or me. Someone who will care, and not look twice because of… Well me in general. I wanted that, and without thinking twice. I accepted."

I finally decided to look up, only to be met with a couple of surprised looks. "But if that was all, I'm sure fairy tail-" I cut off Romeo once more.

"But that's not all. I couldn't accept being in fairy tail. I, myself, could not live up to the reputation of Fairy tail. I knew just having me there will damage it. I just couldn't live with the burden it also came with. Having to protect someone, many people, from a disaster. See, even with Iris, I couldn't protect one friend! My only friend, that had done me nothing but good! I couldn't protect… I just couldn't live, knowing another person got hurt because of me. I couldn't do it. I just wanted someone to have my back, just like I'll have theirs, and know I could protect it." I finished. I didn't know I was crying from both eyes. I didn't know the tears and blood were pouring from them like waterfalls. I didn't know I had just poured all my chained up emotions onto them. All I knew was that I was warmth had flooded me, accepting me, welcoming me, and I gladly welcomed it back.

"It's okay, we're here for you..shh shh." The words soothe me, effectively calming me down. When I had decided it was time to look up. I came face to face with a crying Gon. "I had no idea you went through that. I just loved it when you smiled and grinned, and I didn't want anyone to take that away, so I just never asked. Because I knew whenever someone brought it up, you would look sad, broken, and alone. I didn't want you to feel like that, so I avoided asking. I'm sorry you had to go through that all on your own. I'm really sorry, Rin." Tears kept pouring out of his eyes as well as mine. I gladly accepted his warm embrace, seeing as we both needed it.

"I know it has been hard to you, Rin, but something doesn't add up." I partly look up from my warm embrace.

"What?" I ask.

"Growing up in my environment, you tend to hear stuff you're not supposed to, but not once have I heard about a village being completely macerated by a child. Nor have I heard of a child like you. Not to be mean or anything, but in the underworld, a person such as yourself will hold a hefty bounty, and there are people who will do any mean necessary to kill you. I can't help but wonder, Rin. Who exactly are you or better yet, what?"

"Well, I'm Rin Kaijuu, daughter of Lucifer and unknown. Newbie hunter, former Fairy Tail member, and for what I am…. You'll have to figure that out yourself." It was silent after that, and I was hoping what i said didn't put any of them in a bad mood or ruin their mood. I just hope they won't think differently of me. You know what, I'm going to be strong. Even if they think different of me. I know, I'll always be their Rin, and nothing can change that.

"Ahhh I forgot!" Gon suddenly exclaimed making me jump from his arms from the sudden burst I noise.

"What is it, Gon?" Killua asks slightly surprised too.

"We have training to do at Wing-san's place today!" Shit! I completely forgot about that. I ran towards the door of Gon's room before running into mine. I looked through the closet, trying to find my clothes but finding none in the process. I ran back towards Gon's room.

"Killua! I'm borrowing some of your clothes, since I can't find mine!" I ran back towards my room and locked the door before he could come in. As soon as I reached for an outfit, a loud banging sound erupted from the door.

"Rin! Stop wearing my clothes!" Killua shouted.

"I can't find mine, so it's okay if I borrow yours!" I yelled back slipping into some black shorts.

"No! You can't wear my clothes!"

"Why can't I!?" I shouted back after putting on the blue tank top.

"Because I said so!" He yelled back. I'm probably sure people would be gathering outside seeing what the loud commotion on was about and trying to stop it, but oh we'll cause I'm wearing his clothes and nothing can stop me.

"Too late I'm already wearing it, BAKA!~" I shouted back with a smug grin, after putting in the teal plaid button up shirt, leaving it open.

"Rin!"

"Killua! We both know each others name. Isn't that wonderful!" He groans and I put my hair up into a half bun leaving the rest to cascade down my back to my knees. I love my long hair~ I hope it gets longer before I see Father.

"Let's go, we don't want to be late to Liar-san's lesson," I said with a smile walking towards the elevator.

"Bye Romeo, we'll see you after our training lesson." Gon says.

"Oh yeah. We're going to Liar-san's house, to practice." I told Romeo who was standing behind us.

"Can I come?" He asks, but before I got to answer someone cut me off.

"No!" I look at the sudden explosion of noise. "You can't come," Killua says.

"Why?!" Romeo asks

"Because you can't. Four eyes already have to teach us, and we're not going to be behind because of you. So no."

"We're going to be behind if we don't leave. Sorry, Romeo, I don't know if you can come. We can ask him. Do you want to ask him?" I say to the purple haired pyromaniac. He nods frantically while sticking out a tongue at killua. I sigh, kids.

"I don't mind having another student, but he has to know what Nen is and how it can be used." Liar-san says. I pretty sure Romeo knows what Nen is… Right. I sent a look to him, he seemed to not understand what I was trying to tell him so I just told him.

"Do you know how to make your aura surround you like you do before using that." That referring to magic, hoping he got, and he did.

"Yeah, wait let me try." Honestly, I know how hard it is to contain your aura once you release it. Because you depend on it so much, you just get used to it being out, but if father thought I did that. Hell would break through and the devil himself would destroy me. He was troubling with containing it in a steady flow, and I watched in anticipation as it flickered and flowed out of restraint. After a while, he got it, and I smiled. Liar-San nods, and looked at Gon. He took a quick glance at something, before saying,

"I see you kept your promise." Gon looked confused, then immediately brought up his tied up pinky.

"How do you know that Gon didn't break his promise, and just changed the ribbon?" Killua asks.

"I fused it with Nen." The answer was simple.

"Really?!" Gon shouts astonished.

"That was a joke." We all fell.

"That was also a joke." I just sweat drop at his antics.

"Gon why don't you try using Nen?" He asks, and Gon obliged. As soon as his Nen was activated, the string broke. We stare in awe at the broken string. I didn't know that adding such a small amount of Nen would break it.

"By applying my own Nen, I tied the thread such that if you broke your promise and used Nen, it would snap." Wing explains to us.

"Ne Wing-san, did you watch Kastro and Hisoka's match?" Killua asks him.

"Yes, I did."

"What was the ability that Hisoka used? Could we send limbs flying around?" He wondered. That would be cool, but at the same time, kinda weird. Ohhh like that girl Robin, from that show. What was it called, one treasure? One pirate? Oh, One piece. Yeahhh, she was a weird one.

"Hmm, that's a difficult question. Gon-kun, have you seen the fight on video?"

"No, not yet."

Wing then grabs a disc and held it. "Then I'll explain while we watch." He inserts it inside the TV and played the recording of Hisoka's match. "Can you see the threads of aura extending from his left hand?" He asks us. "Threads of aura?" Gon asks, squinting.

"Yes. Do you see them?"

"N-Nope."

"I can't see a thing."

I don't answer, wanting to know why I can see it and they can't.

"Are there really threads of aura coming from Hisoka's left hand?" Gon questioned.

"Yes, Hisoka is using a technique that makes his aura difficult to perceive." Wing explains. "It's a high-level application of Zetsu, known as In. When you use In, even the strongest opponent will find it hard to see your aura. The most effective counter to this technique is to focus the aura created by Ren into your eyes, a technique called Gyo. The method Gon-kun used in his fight with Gido might work as well. However, you couldn't take offensive action, so ultimately, you'd throw your life away."

"Right." Gon confirms.

"My assignment for you three is to practice Ren until you can see through Hisoka's In."

"Eh? Uh, master? What should I do?" Zushi looks at him curiously.

"Zushi, you should already be strong enough to see past his In."

"I should?" Zushi asked with a tilt of his head. He's so freakin cute.

"Show them your Ren."

"Osu!" Doing as instructed, Zushi engulfed himself in a white thin blanket. His Nen moved from around his body and onto his eyes. Wait... What?

"Gyo!" He shouts. Gyo?

"So, can you see the aura that emanates from Hisoka's body?" Wing asks.

"Yes."

"And how many threads are there?" Wing asks again. "Twelve... No, I think it's thirteen." Zushi squinted even more. I could have sworn there was more than that.

"Not quite. But you were close." Thought so.

When Zushi couldn't do it any longer, he stopped his aura and breathed for air. "I could really see them!"

"You're making excellent progress, Zushi."

"O-Osu... Thank you very much."

"By channeling all your power through Gyo, you achieved a level where you could see through Hisoka's In. But with enough training, you'll be able to use Gyo while fighting. Do you understand? First practice Ren, and master the Ren application known as Gyo. Then you'll discover the true nature of Hisoka's ability. And will you be able to use that same ability? My answer is both yes and no. Regardless of what Hisoka's precise power is, so long as it uses Nen, you can learn it. Nen powers depend on the particular individual. Each of us possesses different specialties and preferences. Thus, Nen differs for each person.

"If you are serious about mastering Nen, you shouldn't merely copy others' abilities. It's important that you first identify your own strengths. You've only just begun to develope. You haven't settled on one form yet. Initially, try to grow as much as you can. That is the purpose of this training. Train hard, play hard, and enjoy life."

"Osu!" The four of us say.

"The final day of Rin-kun's window to fight is June 8th, Killua-kun June 9th, and Gon-kun's is the tenth, correct? I'd like you three to register for your final day. In the meantime, you'll train. You must learn Gyo before it's time for your battle."

I think I already mastered it, but just in case he makes me do more work, I won't say.

"Osu!"

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"Your Ren was impressive, Zushi." Gon compliments. "You moved way ahead while I was resting."

"No, I still have a long path before me." Such an honest boy. I laugh as the two exchanged words, they are so cute! Like a puppy and a chipmunk.

"So," A voice from behind me says, scaring me out of my own clothing.

"Oh, Romeo. I forgot you were there," I say turning around to look at him. "Were you always here?" I ask with a tilt of my head.

"Yes!" He exclaims, probably hurt that I forgot him.

"Sorry, sorry. So what were you going to say?"

"Oh that's right, I was wondering if you wanted to talk to someone," He says.

"With who?"

"Wendy." As soon as the name left his mouth, my body went rigid. My eyes went wide, as my mouth dropped open.

"Wha…"

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The elevator ride was tense. There was a dark presence waiting for us, and we all knew it, well almost all of us. "You guys..." Gon looks at us.

"Osu/Yeah…"

"We have company."

"I wonder who our stalkers could be... " I ask sarcastically.

When we stepped out of the elevator, there they were. The three people who never seemed to leave us alone. "Well, well, I'm assuming that these guys probably aren't here for our precious pictures." I sigh and folded my arms.

"You guys don't know when to quit." Killua remarks. "That's why no one likes you."

"Oh, don't be so harsh." The armless one replies. "Tell me when you're going to fight, because I'd love to be your opponent."

Killua touched and he looks at us. "I guess they specialize in hunting newbies. They want to rack up wins by beating us up."

"We're getting desperate... Because our deadline is nearing." The armless one says. "Come one, let's fight. I'll even demonstrate my power right now."

"Don't want to, don't need to. Plus, if you're going to flaunt your powers, I'll know how to beat you in a more nicer way," I chuckled with a smirk, that makes the ugly one start to sweat.

"I'm fighting on June 10th." Gon blurts.

"Hey, Gon!"

"That won't work. My deadline is May 29th. Fight on that day."

Killua glares irritatedly and continues walking. "Who cares about your deadline, moron?" Then, he turns his head towards us. "Let's go."

"Gon-chan," Armless-dude calls out. "You and I will fight. I guarantee it."

"Gon, ignore him," Killua says.

"Man, guys like him make Hisoka look attractive," I comment irritably with a click of my tongue.

OoO

"Visualize the energy building in your body. Power gathers in each cell, and grows. Then you force that power out!" The four us us activate our Ren, then stop.

"I'm getting used to this." Gon comments, looking at his hands.

"Learning when to shroud the boosted aura with Ten was a little tricky." Killua added.

"Yeah... we don't need to keep training." I say while mumbling the last part to myself. I look at Zushi, noticing his down expression. It's the same as that time. That time with Fairy Tail. Realizing you need to get stronger to help everyone around you, but just not wanting them to help you instead. It's the same.

"N-No, that's enough! Learning to rest is part of training. Let's call it a day." Zushi says nervously.

"Really? I can still-"

"No!"

I laughed and collapse on the floor. "I guess we can continue training tomorrow!" Zushi was the first to leave Gon's room. Before I even got to leave, Killua stops me. "Hey, I have something I need to do. So don't do anything while I'm gone," He says to me, but I feel like there was a deeper meaning behind it.

"Okay, you don't have to worry about me. Rather on the contrary I'm worried about what you might do," I say with a chuckle as I watch him walk away with a lazy wave.

"Yeah yeah, nothing, Baka~" He says with a chuckle before disappearing from my sight.

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"I'll be right back," I say waving at Gon. "Romeo wanted me earlier, so I'm gonna go over there for a second. Don't be too lonely without me," I say with a smirk, while closing the door, not even waiting for his response.

I make my way a couple door down to my room, which currently held a guest. "So, how are you going to contact Wendy?" I ask while closing the door. I make my way to the floor and get comfortable.

"With a lacrima, obviously." He says as if it was the simplest answer.

"Oh….Oh yeah!" I exclaimed putting my fist into my palm. "I forgot about those."

"Really?" He sweat drops before pulling out a crystal orb. "Wendy," He mutters pouring magic into it. It takes a while before static and ruptured images began to load.

A white furball's face was in it, "Carla?" I question getting closer to the orb and boy.

"Romeo? What are you calling- R-Rin?" She stuttered with wides eyes while looking at me.

"Hey."

"Don't 'hey' me! Do you know how sick and worried we were when-" I cut her off before she could give me a headache.

"Yeah, yeah. I got the whole idea from Romeo." I know it might have sounded rude, but I wasn't up for another trip down guilt lane. "Where's Wendy?" I ask the feline.

"She should be coming soon- oh here she is. Wendy!" She called out, waving her paw towards the figure motioning for her to come closer. "What is it Carla?" Oh how much I've missed your soft and melodic voice, Wendy.

"Someone wants to see you," She huffs before looking away.

"Who-" She lets out a gasp as her hands fly to her mouth. "Rin!" Her eyes glossed over, and it looked like she was about to cry.

"Hey," I say with a wave and a small smile.

"Where have you been? Everyone is worried sick! Rin please come back!" She pleads.

"I'm sorry, I cannot come back,"

"Huh? But why-"

"I cannot come back because I have something here for me to accomplish, and once I accomplish that task, I might never return. Sorry," I say not meeting her gaze.

"Rin," She says sullenly. "I got it, but make sure you return, okay?"

"Wendy!" I exclaim in happiness. "Romeo, why can't you be more accepting like Wendy."

"I have my reasons," He mumbled while looking away.

I raise an eyebrow at him, but didn't question. "Besides that, Wendy. How has it been at Fairy tail?"

"It's good," She said not looking me in the eye.

"Wendy." I say sternly. "What's going on."

She sighs before saying, "Well, to be honest. We have a new enemy." I let out a gasp, but let her continue. "They are part of the tree strongest Dark guilds. They are also apart of Zeref's book, so from the we can tell they are incredibly strong. We don't have much besides that, but we do know who they are going to target and we are trying to see if we can prevent it from happening. Luckily they haven't done as much damage as we expected sp we are using this time to find more information" She said in a serious tone. My heart sunk, Fairy Tail's new enemies, Zeref's book? Just how much shit is my guild in?

Sensing the gloom in the area, Wendy decided she would brighten it up by asking her how she's been and such. You know, small talk.

"As much as I want to continue our chat, I have some people I need to meet up with. So for now, bye bye," I say waving to her as she waves back. Watching the connection slowly die out, I let out a sigh. "Things are getting more hectic," I mumble to myself. "Well Romeo, I'll be right back. Don't be to lonely without me here."

"Not possible," He mumbles as I close the door, not even hearing his reason for response, knowing it was going to deal with more trouble.

I sigh while walking back to Gon's room. "I can't believe this, this is just too much for me to handle," I mumble while bringing my hand up to push all my bangs to the back of my head and let them fall back into place. "I can't, I just can't, useless, annoying, monster, freak, mistake… broken," I mumble more horrendous words under my breath as I make my way to Gon's room.

Stopping at the door, I could only let my feelings roll off of me.

Like a mirror reflecting one's self

Like a glass looking through one's soul

All is broken and left to pieces

Nothing is left

I open the door and was met with a grin that slowly but surely lifted up my spirits. "Hey Gon," I say while closing the door behind me and sitting on the bed next to him.

"What did Romeo need you for?" He asks across from me.

"Oh nothing, he just wanted me to talk to someone," I say while averting my eyes, not wanting to remember the main points in the conversation we had earlier.

"Rin," He says softly, making me look up. "It's okay. We'll always be with you, right!" He says with a grin that causes my heart to skip three beats. God, I think I felt that in the throat.

"Hey Gon," I say, "You wanna hear a poem." He nods his head fruitlessly with a grin.

"Yeah!"

Don't judge my outer shell Don't judge the marks or scars on my back Don't judge the look in my eyes as you spit the words of sin Don't sear your ideals in my brain Yeah okay, you think I'm insane I hope you know that this inner pain doesn't, The pain you cause and from many more, So don't judge when tears don't stream down my face Like you so hoped it would A devil doesn't cry Even if a devil tries So don't judge my outer shell Don't judge my outer shell Don't say I'm mental and insane You don't know what has happened to me or what I've been through So don't judge my outer shell Till you've looked within me Maybe then you'd see why I'm like this Maybe then this will shatter your killing spree And set the devil inside me free

"Did you like it?" I ask with a smile.

"Yeah, but for some reason, I won't judge you, because I like you," He says while clutching the area of his heart.

"Mhmm."

"But you know even if you're sad and feel alone, you are not, and you need to be happy because you have a bunch of friends to back you up and we will always need you. And even if you feel like everyone is watching, no one is, only the people that care, the people you trust, and we have your back. So you can make as many mistakes as you want, but we will always have your back! So Rin," He suddenly grabs both my hand making me stare into his lovely gaze. "Be happy!" He exclaims with a grin and tinted cheeks.

"Mhmm!" I return the smile. Our moment was cut off by the doorbell, this little piglet thinks they can ruin my happiness by such acts, well think again- I cut my thoughts off when I noticed what was at the door. It was a shoe, more specifically, Zushi. Why was Zushi shoe here?

The phone start ringing, This is just like those movies! I exclaim in my head with excitement. By the time Gon's hung up, I'm really mad, no furious.

"We have to follow their instructions…."

After Gon and I signed up for our matches, we headed our separate ways. He wanted to gain a better control on his Nen, and I went for a walk. I had a lot on my mind, and this was the best thing I could do to ease it. Well not the best, flying would be the best, but I can't risk getting caught here. Especially with that long ass tower.

I had my earbuds in along with my music player playing 'castle'. With all of the events going in, I almost forgot how peaceful it was just being by yourself surrounded by nothing but the cool breeze and the night sky. Again, when you get too used to it, it becomes pretty lonely. "Rin!" I heard a familiar voice call out to me. Turning around I was met with my favorite albino.

"Killua, what's wrong?" I ask as he gets closer and we start walking together.

"Nothing, just wanted to take a walk and I just happened to bump into you," he says shoving his hands into his pocket and slightly averting his eyes. I smile at his actions.

"Really, thanks," I say before letting silence fell over as we continued our walk. Some time later, we decided to stop by a bench and take a break. Killua decided to buy something to drink, to which I was not complaining. He came back a few second later with a can juice and soda. "Thanks." I say grabbing the soda.

"So," he starts after a few moments of silence again. "Can I ask you a question?"

"I don't mind."

"What was your father like?" The question was so unexpected that I had started choking on my soda.

"Why so suddenly?"

"Well, I just feel like asking okay." I thought for a second before saying.

"Well, father was a strong and kind man. He was always there when I needed him, since he took care of me from birth, I hold deep respect for him. Because it is not easy taking care of a child like me. He taught me how to fight, he taught me how to fly, he even taught me my rights and wrongs." Even if some of them were reversed, "With all the hurdles that came his way, he faced them with a flick If his wrist. He's very smart and knows how to clean. Father is just a perfect father to me and I couldn't ask for another." I finish with a grin. Killua stares at me for a while before clearing his throat and opening his mouth.

"He sounds pretty cool," Killua mumbles

"He is. Once I find him, I'll let you meet him. I promise," I say leaning my head on his shoulder.

"Then what about your mother?" The very question made me go stiff and straighten back up.

"Hmmm, mother huh. Don't know. Never had one. Or rather, she wasn't there enough for me to consider her a mother. The old hag ups and leave as soon as she gives birth to me!" I exclaim throwing my can on the ground with so much force. A chuckle came from the boy behind me before a full blown laughter escaped him. "It's not funny!"

"Yes it is! She leaves as soon as you are out if her! That's hilarious! You wanna know why it's hilarious," he says after calming down with a serious look on her face. "Because she was stupid enough to give you up, that's why it's hilarious." A few moments of silence went out before a grin made it's way into my face and I jumped onto him.

"Thanks Kil! I needed that," I say with a chuckle settling down once again next to him. I found myself staring at killua's blue orbs that glistened even brighter under the night sky and was drawn in. Without realizing what I was doing, my eyes closed and I found my lips pressed against his cheek.

"Thanks Killua. You've really helped me," I say as I pull back. My eye opens only to be met with cherry cheeks and wide blue eyes. I don't get it. All I did was kiss his cheek, nothing big, I mean. It's not like I kissed actually kissed him. But I kinda want to.

"R-goodnight!" He stutters while holding his cheeks before bolting away. I think that might have been a good thing. Any second longer, and 'I would have taken him as my own' as Erza would say.

I bit my lip in anticipation? letting a string of blood roll down my lip. I wonder what he would have tasted like. Licking my lips I make my way back to my room.