Chloe pulled the blanket up over her waist and nestled her back into the pillows that were against the headboard. She pursed her lips as she tried to recall the last entry she read. It was when Emma wrote about Quinn suddenly showing up in Boston after they had broken up when Emma was still in high school and Quinn had moved to LA. Chloe opened the book and immediately noticed some differences from the previous ones she had already read. This one did not contain doodles and sketches on the first page. This one contained what looked like lyrics written in all different directions and she knew the handwriting. It was Quinn's, not Emma's. Chloe flipped the pages quickly. It was a mixture of the both of them. She could immediately tell the difference between entries that Emma had made and Quinn had made. Her interest was piqued. She flipped to the first entry. It was from Emma.

Dear Diary,

She won't leave. I was sure that after she saw me with Caleb at the party two days ago that she would be long gone. I was hoping she would have just left, like she did 9 months ago. But she's still here. I feel like I see her everywhere. That used to happen all the time after she left. I'd see her Quincy market at that stupid bagel shop she loved so much. I'd see her leaning on the railing of a random water taxi and at the coffee shop sitting at our table reading Rolling Stone. But it wasn't her. It was just my imagination. So I don't know if I see her now. I don't know if it's really her or if it's me wishing it was her except for this afternoon. It was her that Sophia slapped in the face and pushed with all her strength. It was her that stumbled backwards and landed against the brick wall of the restaurant. It was her that looked at me with those eyes. It was her that I left standing there without saying a word. Sophia told me she said she isn't leaving until I speak to her which I don't plan on doing and that may be the only way to keep her in my life. The only way I can know she's really there. So she's still here and I don't know why.

Chloe eagerly turned the page to the very next entry.

Dear Emma,

Because I love you. Please meet me at Skip's tonight at 10. I just want to talk to you. Please.

Chloe read through Quinn's messy handwriting quickly. Her hands that held the book dropped to her lap with a thud. She was right in the middle of their relationship. She closed her eyes trying to feel how Emma felt and trying to feel how Quinn felt. She asked herself what she would have done if she was in each of their situations. She pulled the book back up and turned the page again.

Dear Diary?

I don't even know what to say. I have no idea how you got your hands on MY diary. No idea how you even got in my house and in my room. I can't believe you read my personal thoughts. I will NOT meet you. I will NOT speak to you. LEAVE ME ALONE. just go back.

It was Emma's shortest diary entry in all her journals. Chloe could feel the anger coming off the page when Emma wrote 'leave me alone' in all caps and the she felt the pleading from her best friend when she was a teenager and they didn't even know each other. 'Just go back' was Emma pleading for Quinn to not break her heart anymore.

Dear Emma,

So you're saying you're mad?

Chloe laughed out loud at Quinn's response on the back of the page. Then she continued.

Q-

I'm not joking around Quinn. I'm mad that you keep breaking into my house. You better hope my parents don't find out. I'm mad that you keep invading my privacy. I'm mad that you are still here after all these months without a call or a text or a letter, you're here in my room, writing in my diary. But more than mad, I'm hurt. You hurt me. You said that you loved me and then you left me under the disguise of it being for me. So I could live my life, so I could be happy. You were my first love and you hurt me. Please, go away.

Quinn's response was written just below Emma's entry.

Em-

I'll leave. I promise. Just meet me tonight at Skips. Hear me out then I'll leave. 10pm.

The entries went back and forth.

Q-

No. Go home.

Em-

I'm not leaving until you talk to me.

Quinn-

Please stop this. I'm with Caleb now.

Chloe turned the page quickly.

Em-

You're better off without me. That's what Sophia told me the other day when I saw you. Maybe she's right. I don't know. I made a mistake. I told myself that it wouldn't work. I told myself that the right thing to do was to walk away from you. To let you live your life without the pressure of a relationship with me being across the country. To let you be happy. That's all I really wanted for you. I didn't think it would hurt as much as it does. I know that sounds really stupid because I knew it would hurt. It was the hardest decision I ever made in my life and it was the wrong one. I should have fought for you instead of letting you go. I should have called you and I did a few times but I didn't know what to say. I shouldn't have been a coward. I hurt you and I'm so sorry. I can't fix that. I can't change that. I have a job in LA. A good one. A steady one. I'm making music. I'm writing songs. I'm doing what I've always wanted to do. What I think I was always meant to do. But I'm not happy. I miss you. Everyday. I'm so sorry for hurting you. I came back here because I couldn't not see you. I came back here because I couldn't not know you anymore. I came back here hoping I could fix it. Hoping I could make you love me again. You're the only family I have and I know that is not fair. It's not fair to say something like that to you. It puts you in an impossible position. If you're happy, I'll leave. If you love him, I'll leave. All I wanted was for you to be happy and loved by someone who could give you everything you ever wanted. So I got what I wanted. What I set out for. I made a mistake by leaving you. I wish I could take it back. I'll be whatever you need me to be even if that means being gone. I'm so sorry Emma.

The next entry was from Emma written at the bottom of the page. It wasn't addressed to Quinn like the previous entries were but it was in Emma's delicate handwriting.

I won't let you close enough to hurt me.

"Hey" Beca said as she entered the bedroom. "They are both asleep and Poe is in Fin's room."

Chloe folded the page of the diary and closed the book. "I need to talk to you."

"Oh yeah?" Beca asked as she unbuttoned her jeans and slid them down her legs.

"Yeah" Chloe answered.

"Ok but I was thinking that we have probably a couple good hours before Bash wakes up and that it would be a good time for us to" Beca wiggled her eyebrows as she crawled up the bed. "Do some of the things we did in that hotel room a couple weeks ago." Beca kissed Chloe's knee cap and then her leg slowly working up.

"We can do that" Chloe whispered "but after I ask you something"

"Hmm. What is it?" Beca purred as she peppered Chloe's lower body with wet kisses.

"I was thinking about taking a job. A role" Chloe revealed.

Beca stopped and pushed herself up on her knees. "Really?"

"Yeah and I was wondering how you feel about that?" Chloe asked.

Beca sat quietly. "Yeah" Beca said softly. "I mean of course."

"Baby?" Chloe whispered. "If you don't want me to, I won't"

"No, no Chloe. I want you to be happy and I want you to do what makes you happy. I know you love acting. I just didn't know you were thinking about it or reading scripts or getting offers."

"Bree sent one over last week and it's really good. The director asked for me. After three years they want me." Chloe replied.

"Okay" Beca nodded. "Tell me about it."

"Well it's a musical and it's about two people who meet and fall in love in LA while they are pursuing their dreams. The girl in it wants to be an actress and the male lead is a musician. It's about how meet and fall in love and deal with adversity of it all. It's really an amazing script buy this guy who is pretty unknown." Chloe looked up to meet Beca's gaze. "I really want to do it."

"Where does it shoot?" Beca asked.

"Here in LA."

"Wow long?" Beca asked.

"A few months."

"What's stopping you?" Beca asked. "I hope it's not me?"

XxXxXx

"Please take one of them with you" Chloe asked as she poured the scalding out coffee into her mug.

"I'm meeting the contractor today Chlo." Beca whined.

"Okay, so?" Chloe asked.

"I don't have time to watch a kid. I'm trying to build a decent recording studio out of a literal shit hole that my best friend left me." Beca argued.

"I'm seeing Bree later. It would be so much easier to bring one into the city than two Beca. You know that." Chloe argued back.

"And Aubrey won't care that you have them with you. She'll probably want to see them both." Beca replied as she walked to Chloe behind the kitchen island. "You'll be fine." Beca said with a swift kiss to Chloe's cheek.

"That's not the point Beca!" Chloe called to her wife who was already out the door.

XxXxXx

Becs: Just got home. Where R you guys?

Chloe read the text. "Beca's home."

"Good. Go home and talk to her." Aubrey suggested. "She can't expect you to sit at home forever Chlo. You have a career too and honestly" Aubrey sighed. "You've been neglecting if for far too long. I'm surprised I still get inquiries about you."

Chloe looked over at Sebastian who was asleep in carrier and then to Finley who was listening to music with a pair of kids Beats that Beca bought her. They matched a set that Beca had and Finley fell in love with them immediately, especially since her mom had the very same pair.

"This opportunity is perfect for you Chloe and the director wants you for this part. It's time" Aubrey urged.

"I know." Chloe sighed. She unlocked her phone and replied to the text.

Visiting Bree. Leaving soon but need to stop by Whole Foods on the way home. See you soon.

She had just lowered the phone when in buzzed in her hand again.

Becs: WF by the house? Want some help?

Chloe smiled. It was not always easy with a 6 month old and a 3 ½ year old in tow to get all your shopping done without forgetting anything.

Love some. Meet you at the one on Montana Ave in like 30?

"I'll call you tonight and let you know." Chloe said after sending Beca the last text.

"So you'll talk to Beca?" Aubrey asked.

"Yes. I will. But it's not Beca that's stopping me from saying yes. She'll support me in this. It's me Bree." Chloe said as she stood. "Come on bug" Chloe said loudly.

Finley looked towards her mama and gathered her things when she saw Chloe stand and pick up her brother's carrier.

"Like she supported you this morning when you asked her to take one of the kids with her?" Aubrey challenged. "Her career is not more important that yours."

Chloe sighed, "I didn't tell you that so you could use it against me Bree."

Aubrey walked with her to the door of her office. "I'm sorry Chloe. It will be fine. I know it."

Chloe nodded in agreement. She was torn. She loved acting. She loved immersing herself in a role. She loved making herself feel things that were foreign to her. She loved the crazy hours, the sudden script changes, feeding off your co-actors emotions and the night shoots. The problem was, that wasn't exactly easy to do when you were single. It was even harder when you were in a relationship and felt like you were away from the person you loved more than when you were with them. And she couldn't imagine how hard it would be with a family and even harder when your partner is trying to open her own label. She worried that she would fall in love with acting again and that she would have to leave for extended periods of time. And she would miss them. And things would change and possibly not for the better. "I'll let you know." Chloe replied as she carried Bash out with Finley's tiny hand in hers.

An hour later Chloe was trying to maneuver the oversized basket through crowded isles. She hated this basket but it was the only one that was big enough for Bash's carrier and for Finley to sit in and allow room for the food she was going to buy. It was like steering a school bus down a back alley street. It sucked and Beca hadn't shown up yet to help so Chloe was on her own.

"Excuse me miss" Chloe heard as she lifted up on her tip toes to reach up on the top shelf for a soup mix. Chloe rolled her eyes and smiled.

"Have you been eating your Campbell's soup?" Beca asked with a smirk.

Chloe returned her heels to the ground and turned to face her wife with a raised eyebrow.

"Because you're looking mmm mmm good." Beca said with a smile.

"You're an idiot" Chloe giggled. She reached out and grabbed Beca by the shirt and pulled her close. "I love you" she whispered before she kissed her wife. Chloe felt Beca smile into the kiss and pushed the brunette away.

After being released, Beca immediately reached for her son. She unbuckled him from the carrier and picked him up. "Hey dude" She said placing quick kisses on her chubby cheek. Sebastian squealed with excitement. She pulled the baby to her chest as she walked toward the front of the shopping basket where Finley was seated looking down at a picture book. Beca ran her fingers through Finley's hair and gently pulled the child's head up to meet her eyes. She leaned in and gave her daughter a kiss. "Turn that down Fin" Beca said loudly. She could hear the music coming from Finley's headphones as she pulled away.

Finley saw Chloe motion to remove the headphones and did as she was told. She let them hang around her neck. "Hi" She greeted Beca.

"What are you listening to baby?" Beca asked.

"Bwak" Finley replied with a smile.

"Nice" Beca said raising her hand for a high five which Finley happily raised her arm to pull back and wildly swung through the air connecting her hand with Beca's. Finley put her headphones back on and returned her attention to her picture book.

"It's a compilation. But Bach is the only name she can kind of say. The others are too hard for her. She's been listening to it all day." Chloe replied as she started to push the basket down the aisle.

"I wonder when she's going to come out of this phase." Beca contemplated aloud with her lips pushed to one side.

"I doubt many 3 year olds go through classical music phase's babe, so I don't think she's going to come out of it." Chloe answered. "Get used to it."

"I guess." Beca replied.

"It's okay if she doesn't love the same music you love Becs."

"I know" Beca said sadly. "I just don't know how to relate to that. I mean, it's beautiful the things she's drawn to, the music she likes but, I can't make that. I don't even know how to start."

Chloe watched Beca watch Finley.

"I'm just an alt girl with her mad lib beats." Beca teased impersonating Aubrey.

"Oh my god" Chloe laughed out loud.

"Chloe?"

The voice immediately stopped Chloe in her tracks and a shiver ran down her spine but not in a good way.

Beca slowly turned and set her son down in the carrier and strapped him in tightly before turning toward the man.

"Beca, hi" Tom greeted.

The song changed in Finley's headphones. The opening notes of Beethoven's Symphony No. 5 rang loudly through her ears. She watched as her mommy put her brother into his carrier in the basket. She glanced at her redheaded mother who stood frozen like a statue like when they play freeze tag. Then she watched her mommy who looked really mad like she does when Poe goes potty in the house, make a fist and swing quickly through the air hitting a man in the nose. He stumbled backwards and placed his hands over his face. Finley tilted her head to the side as she watched him pull his hands away slightly. He had red stuff all over his hands. She could see her mommy yelling something at him and reaching over for things off the shelf and throwing them at the man. Her mama was also speaking and reaching for her mommy but her mommy was strong. Finley listened as the music narrated the scene that was playing out in front of her. Other people were now around her mommy and trying to give her a big hug. But her mommy was able to wiggle away like when they have tickle fights. She grabbed some things from the shelf that her mama was looking at and starting hitting the man who was now laying on his side on the floor. Finley watched as crackers flew through the air and her mommy continued to grab boxes and hit him over and over again, until two men dressed alike with blue hats and shiny badges finally were able to hug her mommy. And she must have known them because she walked with them down away from where they were. Finley craned her neck trying to watch her mommy but she was soon out of sight. Next thing she knew she felt herself being pulled up and out of the basket she was sitting in and landing squarely on her mama's hip with her brother being pulled in the little basket mama always brought him in in her other hand. They were moving quickly out of the store and people were staring at them. She waved to the people like she had seen her mommy do when people were looking at her and bright flashes were going off. When they made it outside she could see the two big men with matching outfits helping her mommy in a black and white car. She watched it drive away and before she knew it she was in the back of their car being strapped into her car seat.

AN: I mean, I've missed Q and Em so much. Have you guys? Leave me your comments or thoughts. Comments or questions. Thanks as always for reading...