tw: self harm and ptsd mention

It was a flurry of activity for Tsuna the next few weeks. Apparently a side effect for the pills Verde gave him was he'd have a severe asthma attack once they wore off. That put a damper on a lot of things as the police were angrily trying to get in touch with the entire group. Mukuro and his family had successfully gotten the group back to their own family owned hospital before the police caught wind of everything that had happened.

Reborn wasn't put inside of an ambulance after he was looked over by paramedics. He, even in his hazy and half asleep state, had a firm grip on Tsuna's shirt and refused to let go. One paramedic tried to pry his hand off but Tsuna heard him let out a small whimper. After that Tsuna had to have Reborn sitting against him for the entire ride to the hospital. The first aid Reborn had been given was enough to hold him, one paramedic said, so that was the only reason it was even allowed.

Tsuna nervously ran his hands through Reborn's hair, feeling him breathing become calmer as they started driving. Reborn wasn't asleep but he definitely wasn't awake enough to even be able to participate in a lengthy conversation. He mumbled some stuff to Tsuna occasionally but that was the extent of his conversation.

They were taken to one of the hospitals and Reborn was immediately taken away. Tsuna was pushed off into another room so he could be looked after by nurses as well. Everybody else mulled around in the waiting room, on the edge of their seat. The nurses refused to say anything and by the time morning was around, they had all been forced to leave so they could get sleep and food.

It wasn't like it mattered though as Reborn had been put in a medical coma. They weren't sure how long they would have him under but the extent of his injuries and how much pain he had been in was a problem. The doctor was shocked that Reborn was even alive with how much blood and bruising there was.

"There's so much stress on her heart, this kid shouldn't have made it this long." A nurse muttered in shock to nobody in particular as he worked on treating Reborn.

It was more likely that he'd be in a coma for almost a week though. If he was allowed to be awake, he would keep fainting anyways. Some of the nurses were almost glad he would be under for so long though as when they had tried to treat the cuts along his labia, he shifted and started thrashing at the nurses.

Two nurses had to hold his arms while a third tried to talk to him. He was delirious and not even thinking, just acting on pure instinct. Whenever anybody had been near him that looked like a doctor they had hurt him. He didn't want anybody near him.

"He came in and had to be pried off a kid! Somebody go find him!" The nurse holding Reborn's arms yelled.

The one trying to talk to Reborn sprinted away, coming back a minute later with Tsuna being dragged. He had bandages half on his lip and cheek and looked confused at the situation. He seemed to understand though as he was pushed towards Reborn and everybody backed off. Reborn's chest heaved as his eyes flicked open. They looked unfocused as he stared at the ceiling.

Tsuna stepped forward and got into Reborn's line of vision, giving a small wave. "You don't like doctors", Tsuna said. Reborn nodded even though it wasn't a question.

"Hurt me...too much", Reborn muttered thickly.

Tsuna smiled knowingly. "Do you want me to sit with you while you calm down?"

Reborn nodded again. Tsuna moved forward and carefully pulled the blanket bunched at the end of the bed on top of Reborn. Tsuna had no idea why there even was a blanket when Reborn most likely would need stitches again and all kinds of medical attention but he knew that Reborn would appreciate being covered. It gave him something to focus on and a sense of security.

"These doctors aren't like the ones you've seen before." Tsuna muttered. He ran his hands through Reborn's hair, sitting near Reborn's head. "They might hurt you a little now but in the long run it's supposed to help. You need...a lot of help, Reborn."

"Know...I know", Reborn said through pants. He was starting to calm down with Tsuna there though and he managed to move his head so it was buried in Tsuna's stomach.

"Is it okay if they put you to sleep now? I'll be here the entire time, don't worry. When you wake up, I might be asleep myself. I can feel an asthma attack coming as my chest is tighter. So don't panic too much, okay?"

Reborn nodded and let his arms drop to his side again. Tsuna motioned for one of the nurses to come forward but blanked when he tried to explain what he needed.

"Sleep", Reborn called out in Italian.

The nurse looked confused until she asked, "You want to be put to sleep?"

Reborn nodded and gave a soft hum in approval. She walked around the bed with a syringe and stuck it into the crook of Reborn's left arm. He gave a soft sigh before he became completely limp.

After that, the nurses shunted Tsuna out of the room and continued working on Reborn. He was in stable condition by the end of the night and had managed to get him a personal room where a cop stood guard outside at all times.

Like Tsuna had predicted, he had an asthma attack right as the nurse had finished bandaging him. He had a sprained wrist and two fractured ribs along with almost black bruises along a lot of his body. She was nice and knew immediately what to do, giving Tsuna some of the best medical service he's had when he had an asthma attack.

He was out of commission for a few days though. None of his immediate family was near him so he was alone with his thoughts whenever he was awake. He tried to avoid that though as he got too overwhelmed and just slept a lot.

When he was finally up and walking, he tried to go see Reborn immediately. He walked around the entire hospital until he saw the policeman that was stationed outside of a top floor private room. He walked over, peeking through the curtains and saw Reborn asleep and somebody sitting at his bedside. He had never seen the person sitting there in his life but Tsuna had a vague feeling that Reborn and the person were related. The little Tsuna could see of their face, they looked strikingly familiar to Reborn, having the same high cheekbones, slim nose, pointed chin, and slanted and small eyes. Her eyes were bright blue though. She turned to look at the window, smiling coldly.

He heard somebody coming down the hall and looked behind him curiously. Somebody was rolling themself down the hall, looking just as confused at Tsuna being there then he was. He stopped, looking up at Tsuna asking in Italian, "Who are you?"

"I-I don't understand", Tsuna said in Japanese.

The person seemed to understand and quickly switched to Japanese, repeating, "Who are you?"

"S-Sawada Tsunayoshi?"

"You don't sound so sure!" The person laughed raucously, clapping Tsuna in the back. "I kid, I kid. I'm Rin Sinclair. Are you a friend of my son?"

"Y-Yeah, you could say that", Tsuna said nervously. "Reborn said his parents weren't allowed to see him for safety reasons."

Rin frowned, his eyes flicking to the room. He turned so the person inside couldn't see his face as he said, "I would prefer to have called Reborn instead of being here. He doesn't trust us, as he shouldn't. I didn't know my wife did what she did until it was too late. But we got a call saying we were the next of kin on the list. She jumped at the chance to see him again, dragged me along."

"Why are you still…"

"Together? Oh, can't afford to divorce her. Marriage is the curse I can't quite get rid of yet. I'm paralyzed from the waist down so I can't exactly just leave with no consequences. Gotta plan it in advanced. In the meantime, I'm here to make sure she doesn't hurt nobody else."

Tsuna blinked in shock before he gave a shy smile. Rin smiled back, turning to the door. "Let's go in, I'll let you say hi to Reborn. What was your name again, son?"

"Just call me Tsuna, please."

"Alright then, Tsuna. Nice to meet you. I doubt you've heard much about me so good to know we're starting fresh."

"Reborn said you were nice but not much else. He doesn't talk much about when he was younger."

"Can't say he even remembers it very well. He'd been showing signs of depression long before puberty and was always staring off into space. Never managed to get him correct help before he was gone."

"He has medication...he hasn't taken it in weeks though."

They entered the room and the person, Reborn's mom Tsuna guessed, stood up with a smile. It was warm but Tsuna wasn't fooled knowing what this woman had done. He didn't return the smile, just walking past her to the other side where there was a second chair. He sat down, gently taking Reborn's hand for a minute. He squeezed Reborn's hand and he felt a soft squeeze back before he let go. Reborn was barely conscious.

"And who might you be?" The woman asked in Italian. Tsuna looked up questioningly and Rin translated what she said.

"Sawada Tsunayoshi. Call me Tsuna."

"And why are you in here? It's immediate family only, little boy."

"He's friends with Reborn, dear." Rin butted in.

The woman stared at him in annoyance, snapping, "It's immediate family only! He's not allowed here. I want him gone!"

Tsuna looked at the woman in confusion, hearing the back and forth. He had no idea what was being said but he knew it wasn't pleasant. Her face had morphed into an angry grimace but Rin didn't seem phased, like he was used to this treatment. It took a few minutes before she finally grumbled and sat back down, huffily starring Tsuna down as he talked with Rin.

Rin apparently was the one to teach Reborn half of the languages he knew. He used to tour with the Canadian military, going to different countries to talk about history of the military. When he was in southern Asia, he had contracted a disease that left him paralyzed from the neck down. He had only managed to regain full mobility from his waist above, leaving him stuck to his wheelchair. He didn't seem bothered by it though as he brushed off the thought that it was hard.

"Life's hard, just gotta make the best of it. No need to mope when I had to take care of Reborn here." Rin said cheerfully.

Tsuna felt a little more welcome to go back into Reborn's room thanks to Rin being there. Reborn's mom, who Tsuna later learned was named Veronica, still seemed determined to have him gone but Rin being there was the only thing keeping her quiet.

It really had been a week that Reborn was left to sleep though. Tsuna was told that he would probably try to move too much, disrupting the healing he needed to do. Everything needed to scab more before he was allowed to move around so having him sleeping and still was the best option. When he was set to wake up though, a nurse came in and put padded restrains onto Reborn's limbs.

"Why are you doing that?" Tsuna asked.

The nurse looked up, not understanding, before continuing to tighten everything.

"Reborn would probably try to hurt some of the nurses if he was groggy and they were taking blood." Mukuro said from the doorway.

Tsuna flinched, looking at the door fearfully. Rin and Veronica were gone somewhere so it was only Tsuna in the room. The nurse left without a word, having checked Reborn's chart quickly and refilled all the IVs. Tsuna clenched the bars to the bed, looking at the blankets determinedly.

"There's no need to be like that, Tsunayoshi. This is my family's hospital."

Tsuna didn't answer. Mukuro would keep trying to push him no matter what he did. Mukuro seemed to stop caring about pushing his buttons though as he walked off soon after that. Tsuna sank to the ground, leaning his head against the railing. He breathed out shakily, his legs shaking as he crouched there.

He wasn't sure how long he stayed like that but he only realized time had passed because he heard Reborn pull against his restraints.

Tsuna stood up, leaning over so he was in Reborn's vision. He looked tired and his eyes were furrowed as he pulled his arm against the bed.

"They said it's better for you to be retrained." Tsuna said.

Reborn sucked in a shaky breath, staring straight above him as he said, "Take them off."

"What?"

"Please, Tsuna." Reborn mumbled. "Please"

Tsuna hesitated, his hands hovering over the clasps. He looked back up and saw Reborn almost crying though, his chest heaving in his attempt to stay calm. Tsuna hurriedly undid all of them pushing them off the side so Reborn couldn't even see them. Reborn seemed to breath easier but he was staring unfocused at the ceiling.

"Do you want to be alone?" Tsuna asked.

Reborn shook his head, shifting just slightly so Tsuna could sit down. He did and Reborn buried his face into Tsuna's chest, quietly crying.

Tsuna hugged Reborn to his chest, running his hands through his hair to try and calm him down. Tsuna couldn't stand the thought that Reborn was so broken down. This was the first time that Reborn had ever actually cried around Tsuna and he knew that it was directly linked to Angelo. He felt his blood boil at the thought that they had hurt Reborn so much.

It took almost an hour for Reborn to be able to calm down. He kept thinking about how scared and tense he had felt the entire time he'd been gone and he couldn't breathe and he was shaking and crying and felt his entire stomach twist at each memory. Tsuna didn't ask what happened or what was wrong though so Reborn could finally tell Tsuna what had made him this upset.

Finally, Tsuna pulled away gently so he could grab some tissues. He offered them to Reborn so he could wipe his face and he gave a watery smile.

"Thanks", He muttered thickly.

Tsuna smiled brightly, giving Reborn a small kiss to his hair. He froze, pulling back immediately. He looked horrified and said hurriedly, "Sorry, you probably don't want to be touched too much or anything; should've asked what you're comfortable with since you were just-"

Reborn pulled on Tsuna's shirt, catching him in a kiss and cutting Tsuna off. He leaned his forehead against Tsuna's, muttering, "It's fine, Tsuna. Don't be afraid of touching me. Nobody else can but...you're fine."

Tsuna felt his face burn as he mumbled, "Alright, Babe."

They pulled back and Reborn flopped back against the pillows. "What's there to do?"

"I don't know. I've been forced to stay here for days though and they have yet to let me copy the wifi password."

"What's the name of the hospital?"

"I'm not sure. I didn't pay attention as I walked in because the staff just picked us both up and put us on a stretcher until we were near a room. Then they had to pry your hand off of me because you wouldn't let go."

Reborn snorted, shaking his head. "Do you have your phone?"

"Yeah? Why?"

"They took mine and destroyed it so I'll help you get internet."

Tsuna shrugged, digging his phone out of his pocket. He handed it over to Reborn, sitting back on the bed. Reborn fiddled around in the settings for about a minute before he handed Tsuna's phone back.

"Find a site so we can watch something for a bit." Reborn said.

Tsuna rolled his eyes. "We're in the middle of watching Descendants of the Sun last time I was in the hospital. Do you wanna keep going with that one?"

"Sure", Reborn tugged on Tsuna's sweater, "Lay down so I can fall asleep easier."

"You think that's a good idea considering how many tubes are on you?"

"Yes, just for a bit."

"Reborn…" Tsuna said anxiously. "I don't want your healing getting messed up from this."

"I'll be fine, Love. I am on so many painkillers, I can barely feel my legs. Just let me lay against you for a bit until I fall asleep...I don't want to have a nightmare."

Tsuna sighed, cupping Reborn's cheek. "Are you sure you'll be fine?"

Reborn nodded almost enthusiastically. Tsuna laid back, curling up in the space underneath Reborn's arm. He shifted so Reborn could push his head into the crook of Tsuna's neck, his arms firmly around Tsuna's waist.

"Do you wanna still watch Descendents or are you too tired?" Tsuna asked softly. Reborn gave a soft, unintelligible mumble and Tsuna laughed. "I don't know what you said, silly."

Reborn kissed Tsuna's neck, relaxing completely. Tsuna smiled and reached back so he could scratch at Reborn's hair.

"I'm not a dog, Tsuna." Reborn said sleepily.

Tsuna couldn't help but laugh again. He let his hand drop so it was over Reborn's forearm. He traced idly on Reborn's skin, feeling Reborn relax more and more as he fell asleep from it. He kept tracing softly even after Reborn fell asleep. It was comforting for Tsuna knowing it helped Reborn at least a little bit.

It was a peaceful atmosphere. Tsuna couldn't remember the last time it had been this calm. He had been encased in terror for so long he forgot what it felt like to be almost alright for a bit. Reborn seemed to feel that same peace as he had went almost limp and he was snoring softly. Tsuna couldn't help the small flutter at the site of him. He loved Reborn so much…

A nurse breezed into the room. She gave a start at the site and Tsuna had gone to move. She waved her hands, shaking her head frantically. This was the first time Reborn had been so relaxed while sleeping without medication.

"Only here to check her vitals", the nurse said patiently. At Tsuna's blank look, she pointed towards Reborn's left arm. Tsuna made a soft sound, nodding.

The nurse hurried around, drawing blood again and monitoring Reborn's heart rate. She left, closing the door softly behind her. As if on cue, Reborn opened his eyes, staring at the door angrily.

"Nobody on the staff ever uses my name." He muttered angrily.

"What?" Tsuna asked. He didn't process what Reborn said from his shock at seeing Reborn was actually awake.

"Everybody uses my birth name, Viola. They, for some reason, have my old file. I should've had one with my name changed so this wouldn't happen. I hate that name."

"It's not like very many people here that we know even use it." Tsuna muttered, frowning.

"You know my mother", Reborn said 'mother' with so much venom, Tsuna couldn't help the surprised look he shot at Reborn. "She was no mom to me. She's the reason I was ever there in the first place. My dad couldn't have done anything as this was around the time where he needed a surgery in his hip; the entire time he was in the hospital. Needed the money so badly that I had to be sold to get it."

"How did your parents stay together long enough to have you", Tsuna muttered, rubbing his forehead.

Reborn snorted. "I honestly have no clue. I guess my mom didn't want my dad to be in so much pain. He could barely move because his bones had fractured and gone out of place. She didn't like me a lot because I knew early on I was transgender. My dad was fine with it but she made a fuss about it and forced me into dresses and skirts at home."

"Thats horrible", Tsuna said in a whisper. Reborn made a soft sound.

"Tell me about it. I spent a lot of time at Bianchi's thanks to that. She was okay with me being trans at first but after a while she got frustrated because she thought I'd grow out of it." Reborn rolled his eyes. "It's why we broke up. She had moved onto outright saying I was wrong for tricking people about my gender. She's gotten better since we broke up, done more reading up I guess. But I couldn't handle what she was saying."

He sighed, balancing his head back onto Tsuna's shoulder. There was a noticeable tenseness to Reborn, at least to persisted for days and even though people often came in and out throughout the day, they never noticed it. Tsuna was sure that Reborn was hiding something though.

One of the people that came inside, they drew Tsuna's attention away from Reborn though.

They looked just as beat as Reborn did, having yellowing bruises along his neck, wrists, and face. They were smiling shyly as they came in though, their arms crossed tightly across their chest. Reborn was half asleep and on too many painkillers to process much but his eyes perked up more at the site of this person.

"Hey, Vi-"

"-Reborn," He cut in, in French. Reborn gave a hard stare to them. "I don't use that name, don't call me it."

They flushed, looking ashamed. They said in French, "Sorry, it was all I heard, I'm dumb. But I didn't know you were awake."

Tsuna ducked his head, messing with his phone for something to do. He was nervously trying to ignore this person as he didn't know them or want to interact with them. Reborn blinked, waiting a beat before he realized what they said.

"I'm on too many medications to be considered alive, Sand-castle." Reborn answered wearily.

"You're still calling me that? I thought you would've forgot about that. Who's this?" They pointed at Tsuna.

"Tsuna. His full name is too much to say right now so he'll tell you." Reborn looked over at Tsuna, switching back to Japanese as he said, "This is Sandy. They want to know your full name."

"Sawada Tsunayoshi."

"Oh, hey, was he the kid that saved his parents and teacher from a fire?"

Reborn furrowed his eyebrows in confusion. "How do you know about that? It only made small waves into other towns, that story."

"I, uh, read news stories from all over a lot." Sandy shrugged with a small nervous smile. "Has anybody told you about what's been happening?"

"No, I'm too tired to even sit up so most people are in and out within a few minutes." Reborn narrowed his eyes in suspicion. "Why? What's there to say?"

"The, um, head boss or whatever of Angelo?"

"Chris; what about him?"

"He...escaped custody. They had gotten hit by somebody and he was taken away. Cameras captured it on the next block but nothing that would help the police ID whoever got him."

"They got away; what do you mean they got away?" Reborn said, his voice rising. Tsuna looked up in concern, reaching out and putting a hand onto Reborn's forearm.

"I know. I thought somebody would have told you for safety. But be careful, Reborn. We can't have you being taken again. You've done enough for all of us."

Reborn waved off their remark. "It was sheer luck I got out the first time and purely Tsuna and his friend's this time."

"Either way, it's because of you. So thanks." Sandy winked, waving at Tsuna before he walked back out of the room.

"Who was he?" Tsuna asked quietly.

"They. That's Sandy. They're nonbinary."

Tsuna blinked, staring at Reborn in confusion. "Am I supposed to know what that is?"

"You should," Reborn said with a sigh. "It's when you don't fit into the gender girl or boy. You aren't solely just one of those two genders. Sandy's genderfluid-"

"-I don't know what that is either." Tsuna interrupted but he blushed, looking at his lap hurriedly. "Sorry, sorry that was rude, I shouldn't have interrupted, I'm sorry."

"Don't worry about it", Reborn muttered. He cupped Tsuna's face gently, running his thumb along Tsuna's cheek. "Genderfluid is when you have multiple different genders. There's no set number but some days you can feel more like a boy, another a girl, another neither, and even some days you can be a mix of both boy and neither."

Tsuna opened his mouth, comprehension dawning. Reborn dropped his hand back into his own lap, leaning back against the pillows.

"What did he have to say that made you so upset?" Tsuna asked after a moment.

"I'll tell you later. Too tired for this." Reborn stared bitterly up at the ceiling. "Can't believe I have to stay here for another month."

"Hopefully it doesn't cost too much."

"Oh, we aren't paying." Reborn snorted. "The government is paying for all the expenses in my recovery because they want me to go away."

Tsuna raised an eyebrow, shaking his head. Reborn had to stay so long because, since he was on bed rest, he wouldn't be able to walk. He'd need physiotherapy to help him gain that mobility and muscle again. If he walked, he'd tear the scabbing that had built up, making everything bleed, so bed rest was the only option.

"Hopefully this month doesn't seem as long", Tsuna said lightly. He got up from the bed, stretching his back out. "At least I'm here to keep you company for some of it instead of you being alone."

"You being here at all makes it better automatically." Reborn muttered. Tsuna turned in shock but Reborn was almost asleep by now. Tsuna smiled and leaned over, giving Reborn a small kiss. "Stop, 'm trying to sleep, Tsuna", Reborn mumbled with a laugh against Tsuna's lips.

"Then go to sleep, I have to go find everybody but I'll be back soon." Tsuna said. He started to pull away but Reborn caught his arm.

"Stay here...until I fall asleep…"

Tsuna's shock turned to a gentle smile as he sat gently on the edge of the bed. He reached over, running his hand through Reborn's hair. Reborn gave a soft sound, barely awake at this point. He pressed his lips against Tsuna's wrist, frowning. He blinked himself awake, catching Tsuna's arm again.

"You don't want to see that…" Tsuna whispered. He covered Reborn's hand that had fumbled for the edge of Tsuna's sleeve.

"Why…"

"Mukuro was...he was unbearable. I kept panicking because everywhere I turned it felt like we were dating again when I was scared of my own shadow." Tsuna blinked back tears, looking at the ceiling. "Luce told me to get over it, too. It made me feel like I was faking it or-or I didn't deserve to be upset. It got too much. I didn't know what else to do because the doctors were talking like you were going to die and I heard them using the wrong name and I felt so helpless because what can I do?"

Tsuna closed his eyes, trying not to cry. Gokudera had heard some of this but that was it. Everything had moved so fast that both had ended up talking together one night when Tsuna woke up in tears. Gokudera heard him and managed to calm him down. Yamamoto was out of the room and came back when Tsuna was calming down more. Tsuna didn't want to repeat what he said again and Yamamoto understood.

Reborn sat up again, wiping Tsuna's face. "It's okay...He can't hurt you anymore."

"I-I know that but it's so hard to remember that when I get so scared and I can't think straight-"

Tsuna buried his face into his hands. Reborn pulled him into his chest and Tsuna grabbed the fabric of his shirt. Tsuna's breathing was uneven and shaky and he was crying. Reborn wrapped his arms around Tsuna and ran his hands through Tsuna's hair. Reborn felt a vague sense of deja vu as he had done this before. He couldn't help but smile a little. This felt like they were back to normal, like Reborn had never been taken and he was just in the hospital for pain again and Tsuna was just having another panic attack. It was a sense of normalcy that was most likely odd to others but to them, it fit. It was what they were used to.

After a few minutes, Tsuna managed to calm himself down. He pushed Reborn down gently. He didn't look at Reborn as he wiped his face. Reborn laid back again and rubbed his eye. He was trying to stay awake so he could talk to Tsuna as him being alone could be dangerous.

"I'm sorry", Tsuna mumbled. "I-I shouldn't be dumping this on you. You're recovering from something worse-"

"-It doesn't matter what I went through, Tsuna. You and I are different people with different experiences. You're dealing with your trauma still, of course you're going to be upset." Tsuna looked like he wanted to argue but Reborn gave him a hard stare. "I'm...here for you, Tsuna. I want to know if you're upset, regardless of what I'm going through. Don't apologize because you asked for help."

"How are we together", Tsuna said, smiling at Reborn.

"Because an amazing person came into my life and made it worthwhile for the first time in a while."

"You're half asleep aren't you?"

"Of course I am. I would never say this out loud if I was one, awake and two, not drugged to the moon and back on painkillers."

Tsuna laughed. He nuzzled his face into Reborn's hair, feeling Reborn wrap his arm around his waist. "You're tired, go to sleep already."

"Mmm, don't do anything stupid while I'm asleep." Reborn muttered against Tsuna's back. "Stay safe for me."

Tsuna shifted, pushing Reborn against the bed. He smiled brightly. Reborn gave a sleepy smile back and grabbed Tsuna's hand. He squeezed gently before he closed his eyes; finally asleep for the night.

this has like no editing but i want this posted because i crave attention so what up!