CHAPTER 5

After Negan took me back to where i now lived he took me straight to his room...which wasnt a surprise. He sat me down on the bed and stood infront of me. "now princess..." he said slowly "im sorry i had to do that to you today...but it had to be done." he took his jacket off and tossed it on the floor.

he looked around, i could tell he didnt have much to say to me and neither did i to him...

"have you eaten?" he asked pacing the floor "no...im not hungry." i said looking down at my feet. Negan shrugged and took off his shirt, it made my heart race... "im going to take a shower...you can join me if you want.." he looked at me with soft eyes and my heart stopped... i had an option?

i didnt respond quick enough so he took it as a no and walked to the bathroom, undressed and got in...after about a minute or so my thoughts got the best of me and i stood up and walked to the bathroom.

when i got in the hot shower his back was to me, i looked at his large muscular shoulders and let my eyes explore his body...before i realized what was happening i slowly wrapped my arms around him and leaned my head on his back, i felt him let out a breath. "i told you...youd warm up to me princess..."

and he was right... he turned around and put a hand in my hair and put the other around my lower back pulling me close to him.

"...let me kiss you." he said in a low voice looking down at me, i looked up at him with inviting eyes as he pulled me in kissing me slowly.

It registered in my head that now the guilt of what i was doing was slowly fading away and the feelings i had toward Negan were intense. it was just something about him that Merle didnt have and it made me want him so bad.

3 weeks later

a few weeks have went by and i haven't gotten to see my family... Negan isnt around alot but when he is hes with me, for a while we only fucked...we talk now...well more than we used to at least.

hes starting to ask me questions about myself and not just sex...i still have to do what he wants when he wants but i dont mind...

"sam?"

i snapped out of my daze and looked at him startled "sorry..." i said quietly "do you want a drink?" he asked as he opened a bottle of wine... "i dont drink... im 3 years sober..." Negan scoffed and raised a confused eye brow "no your not... i think we both remember you drinking that entire bo-" i stopped him.

i was laying on the bed staring at the ceiling "i used to be...until then.." i said. Negan didnt reply for a minute "oh...well why didnt you tell me that silly?" he said laughing...i wasnt, i closed my eyes and took a deep breath not knowing where this next sentence would land me.

"i didnt want you to hit me again..." i said quietly. Negan got quiet "woah okay...this shit got serious real fuckin quick..." he stood up and walked over to the bed and sat down next to me "look...im sorry about that okay? my bad..." he said kissing my forehead.

"Negan...do you realize that im not a toy that you can just bring out of the closet when you need a good time... im a human being and i wish youd start treating me like one...and dont get mad...please i just cant keep things to myself because your the only person i have to talk to..." i heard him huff "i can put you to work if thats what you want... im not letting you go back there...they dont care about you anyways, do you not see what im saying? im helping you out. i could send you back there with that group...no food...no water...i guarentee you if i gave you the chance to walk out of here right now you wouldnt take it...you know why?" i couldnt tell if it was a question or a statment and that scared me because i did know why and so did he. "yes i know why..." i whispered timidly.

"tell me.." he looked at me with soft eyes, enough to even make me think he cared, he tucked a stray hair behind my ear.

"because you..." i said looking into his eyes, i knew he knew exactly what i ment even though he acted like he didnt.

"because i need you Negan..."

As much as i didnt wanna say it i knew it was true...