CHAPTER 18
(Negans pov)
the sun was just beginning to set as she lay silently beside me, my arms around her and her back against my chest.
i could feel her soft breathing and her heart beat as i leaned in and kissed her head.
i felt her take a long breath and roll over to face me, she was beautiful.
She had me... not just in whatever kind of relarionship we had, but mentally.
She had me, like no other...and i knew i wanted no one else.
no matter what i did or how i felt toward the girl, she fucking had me...
she'd make me want to take lucille over Merle Dixons head more than i can count on two hands but it was obvious who she wanted...who she needed.
she didnt say a word, i could see her watching me as i was in deep thought.
i reached up and tucked a stray hair behind her ear.
how could i live with out this girl?...
"youre so beautiful..." i whispered as i gently ran my hand down her tiny arm.
i could feel her scars deep in her skin as i took her wrist to my lips.
"Dont leave me...not for him..." i said quietly not looking her in the eyes.
She was my Lucille... I never thought i could feel so strongly toward a woman in any way that wasnt sex, not like i did with Lucille...
Only Samantha Alexander was caught... she wanted Merle but she needed me... I wanted so hard just to shake her and tell her not to worry about him because what they had was over, shed just tell me it was because of me...
although it was i knew neither of us regreted it...shed tell me she had a child with him...
i couldnt argue with her...not on this... she didnt want to seem like she had given up on her family thats why she keeps "trying" for him...
Even though shes not really trying anymore, she just says she is so she wont feel the guilt.
I saw her smile a little bit as she looked at me, as i placed her small hand to cup my jaw.
"im not going anywhere Negan..." she whispered as she slowly leaned in and left a light kiss on my lips.
i took a long breath...taking her and all her glory in... i was in love with this girl and i was finally realizing it.
i pulled her in, wrapping her in my arms.
"i love you..." i whispered in her ear.
Everything froze and went black as i jolted awake, my heart pounding.
"what the fuck!" i said to my self as i sat up running my fingers threw my hair.
i let put a scoff at the stupid dream and layed back down in my empty bed.
I knew my mind was playing tricks on me, because id never say that...it was fucking stupid...
i didnt believe it...not one bit.
i got no sleep that night...