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Author's Note:

This chapter was originally written as a Mature rating for language and consenting adult sexual situations. I took the M rated chapter and made drastic cuts, and added in toned down wording to make a T version. If you prefer the T version, you can find it in the main Disremembered story. The choice is yours.

As always thank you for reading! This is the last addition to my version of the Tobias and Tris love story. Thank you to those of you that comment, it always makes me smile.

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Chapter Disclaimer: This chapter contains adult-intimate-situations and references to sex. If you are uncomfortable with this, please do not continue to read. Go read the T version. :-)

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Epilogue: Our New Normal (M version)

Part I: Time Lapse ~ Two Months

*Tris POV*

As class wraps up I quickly place my tablet and notes in my backpack. I smile at my professor as I run out of the lecture hall. I only have fifteen minutes to make it to my internship that is a few buildings over. It is only my second week and I don't want to be late. I started a six month internship at the Providence Child Advocacy Center, my goal being to contribute while also using this time to decide which area I want my career to concentrate on.

I am working towards a degree in Child Advocacy and Policy at the local university. Laura Grey has followed through on her promise to me; I was able to step away from the Genetic Research Project and follow my own passion. It took some soul searching, but this is what I decided I want to do with my life: helping children who don't have a voice, and stepping in where I can to protect them.

A child advocate may work in a number of different capacities for many types of organizations. I am leaning towards dealing with neglect and abuse. I felt nervous broaching the subject with Tobias. I knew he would support me in any choice I made, but I also knew this career would hit close to home for him.

He was wonderful. He actually got tears in his eyes and kissed me before saying a single word. He then told me I was amazing, and that every day that passes he falls more and more in love with me. We ended up kissing for hours that evening, skipping dinner altogether.

It has been two months since Tobias and I found our way back to each other again. Tobias asked Luke if he could transfer to Providence permanently, telling him that we wanted to start our lives here. Luke made it happen quickly; Tobias has a permanent position with the Providence Security Team, starting in surveillance but quickly was promoted to information technology analysis and coding.

In the spirit of taking it slow, Tobias got his own apartment in Providence. It helps that we each have our own space and we make it a point to not be together at all times. Especially nights, well, at least not every night. There are some times we will end up sleeping over one another's apartment, but it is more of a special occasion than an everyday thing.

We have not been intimate, and we attempt to keep our physical affection to mainly kissing. Tobias likes to mention that he often has to take cold showers. I just smile and remind him I like a clean boyfriend.

After my work day I rush home to prepare dinner. It is Friday night and it is finally my turn to plan a date night. It's like pulling teeth getting Tobias to give me a turn. He loves to spoil me, and I have stiff competition when trying to come up with something creative and romantic.

Thirty minutes later there is a knock at my door, as I am pulling the chicken out of the oven, and I call for Tobias to come in. I hear him use his key to let himself into my apartment. In record speed he is standing behind me, his arms slowly wrapping around my waist and kissing my neck. I feel the butterflies in my stomach do somersaults. I lean back against him and reach my arm up and behind me to slide my fingers into his hair.

"I missed you so much today," he whispers into my ear. My lips instantly form a huge smile. I turn around and look into his eyes, I could stare at them all day and night.

"I missed you too. I'm glad you are here. I hope you're hungry," I giggle.

Tobias leans in and kisses me passionately, pausing to gently bite my lower lip. "I am always hungry for you, Tris." A small moan escapes my lips.

After a moment I push him away playfully and hand him the plates and silverware so he can set the table. "We are not going to burn dinner again! Table, go, please!" He just chuckles as he walks away. I pause to watch him retreat, he is beautiful. In every way. I need to pull the roasted vegetables out of the oven next.

Dinner is delicious, according to Tobias. We laugh and talk about our day. He is always interested to hear about my classes, and now my internship. He tells me he is proud of me, and he wishes more people were like me. I just blush. I am still getting used to accepting compliments from him. I have no reason to doubt him, my doubt comes from within. It is something I am working on.

Although challenging, we still are working through the past. Our hurts, our shortcomings, our words that were not always kind, deceptions – even things that happened before the memory serum release. I have learned that although difficult to talk these things through, I feel better afterward and even safer in our relationship. I am learning to be honest with him, and I trust he is learning the same thing with me.

Even with knowing that he was being controlled by Nita with a serum and then essentially brainwashing tactics, we both carry hurts from that time that spill into our present. Tobias can remember the ways he had hurt me, he remembers the way he would be wonderful one moment and then cruel the next. I love him, and I have forgiven him. He is still working on forgiving himself. It is important for our future that he does. Although I logically understand what happened, Caleb and Cara went to great lengths to explain it to me (I think they feared I would not forgive Tobias), I still carry the fear of the future. Early in our new relationship… I found myself approaching Tobias after a separation, whether a work day or even a couple of days when our schedules were hectic, and I realized that I would brace myself for the possibility that my Tobias would be gone again. He sensed my unease but I didn't want to hurt him so I kept it inside. We are still learning, that by keeping secrets from each other - that is what causes the biggest hurt of all.

I was honest with him, and it did pain him. But we worked through it. Tobias came up with a code word (if via phone) or sign that he was still...him. The code word was cake. And anytime we would first see each other he would discreetly tug on his right ear. It became this cute, but private joke between us. We were able to take a scary and sad situation and turn it around. We took away its power over us.

He is my best friend, as well as my love.

I am starting picture forever with him.

"Tris?" Tobias repeats. I smile sheepishly at him, I was zoned out. "You told me to pack a light coat for the second part of our date, where are we going?"

"It's a surprise, let's go," I smile.

We talk about Caleb and our friends. A lot has changed in the last two months. Shortly after we left the bureau, both Zeke and Christina returned to Chicago. Zeke was so happy to reunite with Shauna and they both visited us in Providence just last weekend. I never knew Zeke was such a little gossip! Tobias just rolled his eyes and didn't say a word. Shauna and I always laughed and encouraged him to keep talking.

I'm going to have to have some words with Christina for keeping me in the dark. I know she still sees me as a prude- especially when I told her that not only are Tobias and I not going to live together, but we also have slowed down the physical aspect of our relationship. She was horrified, as was poor Zeke. During Zeke's visit I overheard him lecturing Tobias on how he should still give me orgasms even though we are not having sex. I cleared my throat before entering the room. Zeke smiled at me sweetly while Tobias was a bright shade of red and was staring at his feet.

Back to Christina, she had mentioned to me that she was really enjoying Chicago and her new position training future Dauntless initiates; her initiates can be any age now as anyone can apply. What she neglected to tell me is that she has been caught on two separate occasions having hot sex in the training room after hours. A different guy each time! Shauna and Zeke thought this was a hilarious story, and made sure to tell us that Christina was fine and completely comfortable with it. Neither guy was one of her students, so she wasn't in any kind of trouble. Tobias, who still doesn't care for her, to his credit kept his mouth shut. But I can recognize his 'disgusted' face a mile away. I was absolutely flabbergasted, but I did make a mental note to ask Christina for the juicy details later.

Caleb and Cara are still dating and happy working at the bureau. I know for a little while there was some drama with Matthew. After he gave up on me, he thought Cara would be open to dating him. He didn't realize that she and Caleb were pretty serious. I think that blew over pretty quickly.

During Zeke and Shauna's visit, I had some gossip to share as well. Tobias smiled at me and held my hand while I told them that through her grief as a widow, Kimberly had reconnected with Luke Clark after many years of friendship, and they had started to date. As Kimberly has a baby on the way, and they have known each other as close friends their entire lives…things got serious quickly. It was nice to see them in person for brunch when they came out to discuss their relationship in person with both sets of parents. I know that John had no living family, but that both Kimberly and Luke are committed his child knowing what a hero he was.

It is funny how things worked out, I never imagined I would see Tobias and Luke sitting at the same table genuinely enjoying a meal together. Luke pulled me aside to tell me how very happy he was, granted he mainly knows Tobias through their professional relationship. Luke told me he approved, and if I had been his actual sister he would give Tobias his blessing. It meant a lot to me.

Tobias and I walk hand in hand to our date, I got us tickets to tour the botanical gardens. I read that they have set up a light show and music to enjoy as we walk the exhibits. It was a wonderful evening, and very romantic.

Tobias is always so grateful when I plan our dates. I love that about him. I had never noticed before that it is almost like it is still a surprise to him when someone does something nice for him. I hope to show him that he will always be able to count on me.

"What are you thinking about right now, Tris." He whispers in my ear as we are on the elevator returning to my apartment.

I blush deeply, he raises his eyebrows, I am sure even more curious now. I sigh and lean closer to him, "I was thinking…that I want to make you happy, take care of you, love you…and that you can always count on me. I hope you know that."

He gulps, his adam's apple bobbing, his face suddenly serious. Before the elevator even opens, he suddenly scoops me up in his arms, as though I weigh nothing. The memory of our time in amity and that stupid serum enters my mind. Now I can look back and laugh. His eyes don't leave me as he swiftly carries me to my apartment, once there he quickly stands me up and presses his body against mine on the wall next to my door. He manages to kiss my lips while simultaneously unlocking the door with his key. I whimper, suddenly feeling weak in the knees.

"Tris, can I come in?" he asks softly.

"Yes," I smile while kissing him lovingly.

As he pulls me into my apartment and locks the door behind us, he stops and smiles at me. "Tris, after I take a very cold shower, may I spend the night in your bed and kiss you passionately until one of us falls asleep?"

I gently touch my thumb to his lower lip, "Yes, Tobias. Yes."

I love him, and he is mine. Just as I am his.

"As long as you sleep with a shirt on," I remind him. He laughs wholeheartedly and kisses me again.

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Part II: Time Lapse ~ Four More Months

*Tobias POV*

I step off the transport and look for Josh and Amy. I see them immediately and wave. My department has a mandatory two day training at the Bureau so here I am. I had really wanted Tris to make the trip with me but she is working on an important abuse case and the child's hearing had been scheduled for tomorrow morning. Her internship team is working around the clock today for final preparations. These will be the first nights we are not sleeping in the same city since I initially followed her to Providence. I don't like it one bit.

Although work was willing to pay for my hotel, Josh and Amy insisted that both myself and Zeke should crash at their apartment for both nights. As soon as we determined that Tris could not make the trip, I asked Zeke if he wanted to make a small reunion of my trip. Zeke was thrilled. I was so relieved he accepted, while we are at the Bureau there is a special project I need his help with.

When Tris and I had decided that we wanted to take things slow, and date, a big part of that was also choosing to be on our own, away from family and friends. Caleb was fine with staying at the Bureau- he has never been one to want to have Tris too close. Evelyn is honoring our original agreement that she needs to stay away from any of the major cities for a two year period.

A few weeks ago I did send word to her, letting her know all that had happened with Nita, the memory serums, and of course Tris being alive. My letter to Evelyn explained that Tris and I were madly in love and working to build a new relationship. I was honest with her- I confided that my hope is that Tris and I will be together forever. Evelyn wrote back almost immediately to tell me she was happy for me, and she also asked me to pass a message along to Tris. She wrote:

"Dearest Beatrice,

After witnessing my son suffer your loss, learning of your return has done nothing short of warm my heart. I know that he adores you, please be good to him. He deserves the best, and you have always been the only person to give that to him. One day, I hope you can forgive the petty and cruel things I said to you in the past. I deeply regret those moments between us. I hope we can move forward one day.

Warmest regards, Evelyn"

I think back to when Tris read the note.

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After reading Evelyn's note, Tris asked me to give her a moment and she walked out of the room while trying to discreetly wipe her tears away. I could immediately sense how upset she was, they were not tears of sadness. After fifteen minutes she returned and asked me if we could just call it a night, and that she wanted some time alone. I felt dread, I knew that my mother's message had an impactful meaning, and I began to imagine the worst. I knew of the tension between them back in Chicago, but I felt like there was something specific that neither woman had ever shared with me.

"Tris, if you need me to leave and give you space…I will. But I am asking you, please don't shut me out. Whatever this note means, whatever specific thing is upsetting you, I want to know. We are a team, I love you, I don't want there to be secrets between us," I urged her.

She closed her eyes. I could just see that she was thinking about what to do. She then smiled at me, and walked over and kissed me slowly. My heart raced, but with fear that time. I began to coach myself, if Tris needs space and asks for it, I needed to honor that. It was part of strengthening our relationship. My instinct had been to push her, to push her into giving me what I needed. I wanted information, I wanted to know exactly what this was about.

I decided I wouldn't do that. I needed to respect her, and trust her. I kissed her cheek, I told her I loved her and that I hoped I would see her the next day. As I got up and grabbed my coat and keys she suddenly started crying. I froze. I was unsure of what to do, did she still want me to leave?

Thankfully Tris ran over to me and jumped in my arms. I dropped my things on the floor and hugged her so tightly that her feet left the floor. "Can we sit down on the couch? I want to tell you why I got so upset…" she had whispered. I sat on the couch and pulled her into my lap, I gently rubbed her back to encourage her to continue.

"When we were in Chicago, obviously you know that your mom and I did not get along. There was a time- and it hurt me a lot- Evelyn told me that she was your family, that she would be permanent in your life. And then she told me that I was only temporary."

The moment the words left Tris's mouth I felt a fire in me. How dare Evelyn have opened her mouth and said that to the woman I loved? The woman I adored more than anything. Especially a mother who had abandoned her own child when he was just a little boy! A scowl on my face, I clenched my fists to help control my anger. I said nothing, afraid to speak as I feel my anger building.

"Tobias, wait! Please listen to me. I need to explain myself to you. What upsets me now…is not what your mother said. I mean, yeah, it was damn rude. But there are two things that are upsetting me. The first, is that I have to accept, even when we were in Chicago before ever going to the bureau…I was not comfortable enough in my own skin to be honest with you. To tell you what your mother had said to me. I regret that. I look back and regret so many of the secrets that were between us." Tris paused to breathe, looking for my reaction.

I felt the tension leaving my body. I did understand what she was saying. Tris was right, I also look back on that time and wish I had handled many things differently. I smiled and rubbed my nose across hers. That always made her smile. "And second?" I encouraged her to finish.

Tris smiled sadly, "After my coma, things between us were so bad. It felt like a hopeless situation. I just remembered your mother's words, and I felt like she had been right all along. That I was never enough, or never really important to you. That I really was just temporary in your life."

I grabbed her by the shoulders and kissed her fiercely, I was determined to kiss her so passionately that she would never be able to doubt how crazy that thought was. My mother could not have been more mistaken- shame on her for saying something so cruel and ridiculous. "Tris…I love you. Just as I loved you then. Please tell me you know how much I adore you!"

Tris slid her arms around my neck and she looked deep into my eyes. "Tobias, I love you. And I trust you. I trust us. I want you to know, I am so glad we talked about this. Evelyn's note was very gracious, kind even. I do want to try with her, when the time comes. But more importantly...as hard as this was for me to talk about, I am so glad we did. I feel better, I feel like we are stronger without this between us."

I nodded and then pulled her close for another kiss, it started slow and sensual. We gently caressed each other's arms and backs while our lips moved together slowly. I was so overwhelmed by my love for her.

It was when Tris whimpered and moved her face to look up, effectively offering me her neck, that I started to feel an incredible rush. I loved her so much, I needed more of her. I laid her down on the couch and gently pushed my body weight on her. She looked in my eyes and she slowly wrapped her legs around my waist. Suddenly our cores were aligned and I slowly began pushing myself against her. Her breathing increased as she frantically began meeting my pushes. We begin kissing again and suddenly Tris was whimpering with need, and I was about to ask her to make love.

"Tobias, shoot. I want you so badly, but not like this. Not after a heavy discussion regarding your mother. Please…we need to stop now," she groaned, while she was still frantically rubbing against me. My pants were painfully tight and I could feel myself throbbing with need.

I sighed, knowing she was right, I sat up while pulling her up with me. We both smiled and tried to calm our breathing.

Tris laughed, but declined when I invited her to take a cold shower with me.

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That was the day we talked about Evelyn. I really hope that Tris and I are still not taking things slow by the time Evelyn returns from her two year hiatus. Unlikely, since I hope to be married to Tris before then.

The special project I have in mind with Zeke, I am going to buy Tris's engagement ring while I am in the Bureau. I have been saving up for a while and I want to find the perfect ring. I let Josh and Amy know ahead of time, and they suggested a couple of reputable jewelry stores at the bureau.

I meet Zeke for an early dinner after my first day of training. He is waiting for me at the restaurant.

"I feel like this is an actual date, Four. Reservations and everything. Anything you want to tell me?" Zeke jokes when he sees me.

I laugh at him, "Yeah, well don't get too excited. We have to hurry and eat. I need your help with something after dinner and I didn't want to risk the stores closing before we made it over."

Zeke scowls, "I hope you didn't invite me to hang out in the bureau so we can go shopping. You should have called Christina if that's what you have in mind. Although I will say, her, um, 'social calendar' is quite full these days. That girl is on a tear!"

I roll my eyes, "Zeke, Christina's promiscuity is of no interest to me. Please, spare me the details."

"It should be, my friend, as she is Tris's best friend – this is the girl that is going to influence and share sexual details with your woman. Which will impact you…one day…when you grow a pair and get that ball rolling again." Zeke laughs at his own joke.

"Yeah, just what I want. My girlfriend to hear specifics of Christina's last three-way, that was her and two dudes. No thank you!" I mutter.

Zeke laughs hysterically, he is really finding this amusing.

After dinner I drag Zeke along. When we arrive to the jewelry store he immediately gets serious. He smiles at me. "Is this what I think it is? Are you going to look at rings for Tris?"

I smile back and nod. "Thank you for being here Zeke, I am very excited to pick out a ring for Tris. I'm also sick with worry that I'll mess this up, and pick out something she will hate. I just want to make sure it's perfect."

"First, let me start by explaining to you that you are about to make my life extremely difficult. Once Shauna finds out that you popped the question to Tris…she will light a fire under my ass. So thank you for that!" he teases.

"But second, I can't tell you how happy I am for you. I know that you and Tris have been through so much, but I also know that you both belong together. And you guys are going to be really happy," Zeke finishes. I smile at him, I am actually speechless.

As Zeke and I look at rings and talk, he does ask me why I am thinking about marriage so soon. I tell him that even though I left Abnegation, there is still a part of me that yearns to have the security and promise that marriage means to me. I want to give Tris what I desperately want from her. I want her to be my wife, and I have wanted that for a while now. I just hope she wants it too.

I admit I am nervous. But I love her, and even if she's not ready- I want her to know that I am. I am willing to wait for her.

I am shocked at how quickly I pick out Tris's ring. The moment I saw it, I knew it was the one. It is simple, yet elegant, a vintage look. A while gold band with side small accent diamonds, and then a cushion-shaped diamond in the middle. It's not the largest diamond, or showy by any means. But I can picture Tris wearing it every day, for the rest of her life.

Zeke actually gets choked up as I am paying for the ring. I smile at him and try to control my laughter.

"I'm not crying tears of joy for you, Four. I'm crying in anticipation of what Shauna is going to do to me when she finds out. I hope you're proud of yourself!" Zeke covers.

I just smile and tell him to start saving for Shauna's ring. He shoves me for that comment.

Training goes as expected, and when we have dinner with Josh and Amy the next day, the main topic of discussion is what grand, romantic gesture I should plan to ask Tris. I listen as the three of them brainstorm ideas. The truth is, I don't know how I am going to ask Tris. I keep drawing a blank on what will be right for us. I do get a great laugh at some of their ideas; one involved taking Tris on a pony ride. Yeah, she would just love that.

There is one last thing that Zeke and I need to do while at the Bureau. We save it for our last day, it was something I promised Tris I would handle. We need to check on Nita.

Because of her physical assault on me regarding the initial memory serum, and then her abuse of power as part of my Rehabilitation Team, and worse – her role as leader of the Rebel Group- Nita has been sentenced to death. Her court appointed lawyer tried to spin her memory loss, after she injected herself, as a reason to avoid execution, but it was Laura Grey who rallied hard against that. I imagine that the brutal loss of Ms. Grey's sister during the Rebel attack was a huge motivation.

Today Zeke and I are being allowed to check on Nita in her current jail cell. We both requested that we did not want to interact with her, we just wanted to see with our own eyes that she was safely behind bars. I need to be sure that she is locked away and unable to hurt Tris and I ever again.

Luke Clark meets us, he wanted to personally escort us. As we walk towards the bureau jail, I congratulate him on his recent marriage. It was a very private wedding, with just his and Kimberly's parents. Tris and I sent a wedding gift and a baby gift. Their daughter is due to be born any day now. Luke thanks me, and he makes it a point to tell me a few times how wonderful marriage is, and he has never been happier. I smile at him, if only he knew about the ring that is burning hole in my pocket.

As we approach Nita's cell window, I feel a mixture of disdain and pity. I know she was an awful human being, but there is a little part of me that pities her – maybe it is because of her romantic obsession with me. But overall, what I would never be able to look past is the hurt she caused Tris. I still shiver when I think about how close I came to losing the woman I love, again. Maybe I am not as Abnegation as I had hoped, but I am relieved Nita will be paying for all of her crimes with her life.

A world without Nita and David is one I want to live in- for Tris, for me, even for our future children. We will be safer for it, and that is what matters to me.

Luke assures me he will be personally making sure there are no issues with Nita's plan of execution. I thank him and leave, ready to put her behind me.

Before I leave for home, I have one last meal with Caleb and Cara. They seem really happy and I would even go as far as to call Caleb…pleasant. He tells me that he is really happy that things worked out with Beatrice and I.

Once I am on the transport to head home to Tris, I can finally relax. Not seeing her for almost three full days has made me sure that I never want to be apart from her. I close my eyes and fall asleep for the journey.

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Tris and I had agreed to meet at my apartment, as I would head straight home. I was walking through the transport terminal when I suddenly felt her familiar arms wrap around my waist from behind. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the warmth of her body pressed against my back. I gently tug on my earlobe and she rewards me with a sweet kiss on my back where her lips reach.

"Tris," I whisper, suddenly there is a knot in my throat. I turn around and look at her, her eyes already glistening with unshed tears.

"I missed you," we both say at the same time while touching our noses together. I suddenly can't wait any longer, I pull her to me and kiss her lips with all the passion I can pour into her. I love her, and I missed her so much. In that moment I know I don't ever want to be separated from her again.

"I know we agreed to meet at your apartment later tonight…but I was desperate to see you. I love you, Tobias," she tells me adoringly.

I pull her to the side of the terminal and kiss her thoroughly. I need to keep reminding myself we are in a public place, so it helps to keep me in check. Finally, when we have had enough we find the strength to pull apart in order to make it home.

I tell her all about my trip, minus the ring part, and she listens thoughtfully when I tell her about Nita. She thanks me for being brave enough to handle that for her. She wants to put that time in our life behind us, and move forward. I kiss her forehead and agree with her.

I was relieved to hear that the child abuse case her internship team was working on went well. Although a very sad situation, the outcome was what her team had been hoping for. I know that Tris is learning to fight hard for the children, while also helping to ensure the best possible outcome. She is an amazing advocate, full of passion and drive. I am in awe of her- this same girl that made it through a war is still working to make the world a better place.

As we arrive to my apartment I start to sense that Tris is nervous. I tickle her and tell her she needs to tell me what is on her mind. She frowns and assures me it's nothing, pushing my hands away from her sides- her most ticklish spot. We have a small dinner, neither one of us very hungry. She offers to clean up so I can unpack and sort my laundry. I quickly hide her special ring box in my dresser, I am excited for my plan.

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After showering I change into my sweatpants and a t-shirt. I am towel drying my hair when I exit the bathroom and join Tris in the living room. I almost trip when I see that she is waiting for me in the middle of my living room wearing a beautiful, short silk nightgown. Her hair is loose down her back and she is smiling at me shyly.

"Hi," she whispers and holds out her hand to me.

My heart starts beating furiously, I smile and step closer to her so I can hold her hand. "Hey."

Now that I am closer to her I notice the small blush that touches her cheeks, she looks so beautiful. Tris guides me to sit on the couch. I notice the lights in my living room are dimmed.

"Tobias, I love you. And I know we agreed to go slow. I just…well I just was hoping you would want to go a little faster," she pauses, "because I want to." She bites her lower lip and smiles at me.

I lean forward and wrap my arms around her to pull her to stand closer to me, I gently kiss her stomach over her nightgown. The material is so thin and soft, I can feel every curve. Tris gently runs her fingers through my hair.

"I love you, Tris. I would like nothing more than to show you…by going a little faster," I say as I slowly move my hands to rest on her butt before giving her a gently squeeze. I guide my hands lower until I reach the bottom of her nightgown that is resting right above her knees. I slowly continue to kiss her stomach as my hands begin to push up the fabric. Once her lace panties are showing I slowly dip my head and kiss the top band, and Tris whimpers. I swiftly move my fingers to dip into her panties and I pull them down her legs slowly. She is softly shaking with anticipation. When they fall to the floor, I hold her hands as she steps out of them.

I lean back on the couch and slowly guide her to straddle me. I can feel my dick is already rock hard with want, straining against my sweatpants, the moment she is sitting on my lap I groan at the contact. My hands slip under her gown and hold her bare hips. She places her hands on my shoulders as we meet halfway to kiss. Our kisses start out slowly, I love the feel of our tongues exploring each other's mouths.

I begin softly massaging her hips, I want to encourage her, but I also want her to take the lead. She pauses our kiss to rest her forehead against mine, we look deep into each other's eyes.

"Is this ok?" she whispers as she rocks her hips and rubs her core against my dick. I groan and tighten my hold on her hips, so that my finger tips are on her butt, I begin rocking my hips up.

"Yes, Tris. Can I touch you, please? I want to feel you, I want to make you wet for me." I whisper in her ear as I begin kissing her collarbone. She moans and begs me to please touch her.

As I slip my hand under her and begin stroking between her folds I am so aroused at how wet she already is. I slip two fingers inside of her and I sit back and watch and she begins moving up and down on my hand. "Fuck, Tris, you are so gorgeous. Keep going baby, tell me what you need."

Tris is panting and making these sweet noises as she whimpers with need, "Tobias, Tobias…I am so close. I am so close." I start using my thumb to rub circles around her clit. She screams out my name, I feel her walls clench around my fingers. I slow my pace down as she rides out her orgasm. I then remove my hand and lick my fingers, as she leans on my chest, panting.

Suddenly Tris slides down to the ground so she is kneeling in front of me, situated between my legs. I watch as she slowly begins rubbing my cock through my sweatpants. I know she can feel how aroused I am. She smiles at me. I sit up so I can pull my shirt off, I know she likes me shirtless. She smiles at me and sits up and slowly pulls off her nightgown. She is now completely bare in front of me. I gently caress her scars with my fingertips, she smiles at me lovingly. She is perfect in every way, and I often tell her that. Her beautiful perky breasts are exquisite, I moan when I see that her nipples are already hard. I gently roll them between my fingertips.

She bites her lips as she watches me touch her, she is still stroking me. We are both panting. "Tris, I love you so much. I…I want you, if you are ready. If not, that's ok baby. This has been amazing." I assure her.

She leans over and kisses me. I suddenly feel her hands on my hips as she starts to pull my sweatpants down. I raise my hips and help her. She kisses my lips, and then down my neck. Her hands are now touch my chest and are roaming down as her lips follow their trail. She begins using her hands to stroke my shaft, and as she slowly starts pumping up and down I watch as she smiles at me and then kisses the tip. I hiss her name and slip my fingers into her hair.

She begins taking me in and out of her mouth, and as amazing as it feels – I want more. My stomach is tight as my sex fills her mouth. I know I need to tell her soon.

"Tris. Wait, Tris. Please," I moan. She stops immediately and looks at me, I see the surprise in her eyes.

I pull her up and hug her to me, so we are face to face. "I love you, I want to make love to you, please – if you are ready." She smiles at me lovingly and nods her head yes. She went on the birth control shot when we started dating, just as a precaution. I start to stand up so we can go to the bedroom.

"Wait," she says. She looks sheepish, "Can we start on the couch? I want to try being on top, if you'll help me."

As I nod eagerly and lean back, I remind her that couches will always have a special place in my heart. She giggles as she stands up to straddle me. I touch her again to make sure she is still wet for me, and I am not disappointed. We kiss sweetly as I lean down and take my shaft and rub it against her to lubricate it. I can tell she is nervous, and so am I.

She slowly situates herself above me and we both fumble to align ourselves. It is only when she slowly starts to lower herself on me that I remember how amazing it feels to make love to her. I feel like I'm dying from pleasure. I let out an animalistic grunt once I am fully sheathed inside of her. I can feel her pulsing around me, God I think she is close already. I slip my hand between us and begin rubbing her bundle of nerves. She starts whimpering and suddenly she is crying out my name as she rides out her second orgasm of the night, she is so receptive. When she calms down, she sighs and teasingly asks me if I am ready to join in.

I laugh, and bite her lip as I begin helping her to pump up and down on my dick. I take her right nipple in my mouth and suck lovingly while enjoying the feeling of being so close to her. I switch to her other breast and she increases her pace. I lean back on the couch and begin pumping my hips up to meet her, thrusting even deeper into her. I feel my balls tighten at the same time she begins quivering around me.

We reach our climax at the same time, I pull her into my arms as she collapses into me. After our breathing slows I slowly pick her up and carry her to the bedroom. We slip under the sheets and hold each other, we kiss, we giggle, we touch each other, and we make love again that night before falling asleep.

I wake up very early that morning and set up the surprise I have for Tris. Once I am done, I lay next to her and patiently wait for my love to wake up.

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*Tris POV*

Before I even open my eyes this morning I smile to myself remembering the night that Tobias and I shared. I have never felt as loved as I did being in his arms last night. I know now more than ever that going slow and building our relationship up was the right thing to do. I sigh and snuggle closer to him, he gently kisses my forehead. I open my eyes and smile at him. He looks so very happy, I am guessing he is equally as pleased as I am.

Tobias takes my left hand and brings it to his lips for a kiss. He smiles at me and wiggles his eyebrows. I then notice that he has slipped a ring box into my hand. My eyes widen, and I look at him and sit up, while holding the sheets to my chest.

"I think you should open it, there is something unexpected inside," he tells me.

With trembling fingers I open the ring box and there is a small spool of thread. I laugh, still unsure what is happening. Tobias kisses me gently and then ties the end of thread around my ring finger. "This signifies the ties that are not meant to be broken."

I smile at him, my eyes glistening with tears. I love him so much. He does not break off the string from my ring of string, instead he begins to gently pull string away from my hand towards him, his fingers wrapped around the spool. For a moment I guess that he will tie the other end to his ring finger as a gesture of our bond. I smile at him encouragingly.

Tobias breathes in and out slowly, I can see how nervous he is. "Beatrice Prior, you are the love of my life. You are my lover, you are my best friend, you are my greatest champion, you are my everything. I want to love you and cherish you for the rest of our lives. I want us to create a family of our own. Will you marry me?"

Tears of happiness spill down my cheeks, "Tobias, yes. A thousand times yes!" I smile at my string ring, I love it. All that matters is our life together. I don't care about material things.

It is then that Tobias allows the string of thread to pull up, then reveal a beautiful diamond ring at the top. The ring had been hidden in his hand all along. He lets the ring slide down the thread and then onto my ring finger. I gasp at the gesture, he has truly shocked me.

I see that he has tears in his eyes as well. Once Tobias helps me place the ring is on my finger I begin to cry and lean into his arms, we kiss sweetly. We stay in bed for hours, laughing, talking about our wedding, our hopes and dreams of a family.

I know neither of us is a perfect person.

But this is perfect, perfect for us.

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