What cuts the deepest
"WHAT?" Dipper exclaimed angrily.
"They've DISOWNED us. Why are they coming down? What for?" Dipper ranted at his great uncle.
"THEY'VE MADE IT PERFECTLY CLEAR THEY DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH US AND I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH THEM"
"Dipper..." Mabel interjected, a little bit frightened of her brother's reaction.
"Mabel, come on... Please" Dipper turned to her.
"I.. I... I don't know Dip, I kinda miss them" Mabel admitted, looking away from her brother's gaze.
"Dipper, Mabel is right. Trust me kid you don't want to go through life angry with your family. It NEVER ends well, if you're ever going to listen to me about anything listen to me about this. Maybe it won't be so bad, your parents, like Mabel may want to build bridges. Please kid, trust me" Stan pleaded with him. Dipper looked into Stan's eyes and knew that this was something he felt strongly about.
"Fine, I'll hear them out at least" Dipper agreed hesitantly.
"When are they coming down?" Mabel asked
"This weekend" Stan confirmed.
"Okay, I hope that we can all make up now" Mabel sighed.
"Hopefully kid, hopefully" Stan replied, not wanting to get her hopes up, he knew how hard it was to end a huge family fued, even if Dipper and Mabel would never find out.
"Now come on you two, you've gotta get off to school" He added. The twins nodded and finished off their breakfasts before leaving to go and get washed and dressed.
Dipper took Mabel's hand as he normally did on the walk to school, but instead of pressing her fingers up to his knuckles to tighten her grip she just let her hand hang loose.
"Mabel? You okay?
"Dipper... Did you really mean what you said before at breakfast?"
"What about not wanting to see Mom or Dad again? I dunno"
"But they're our parents"
"I know that but they're the ones who said they didn't want anything to do with us. I was just trying to do what was best for us"
"But Dipper... Exploding like that... That wasn't you. That's not the person I fell in love with"
"I know"
"Maybe what's best for us... Is showing Mom and Dad how much we love each other and make them see that this is for keeps"
"Y-You- you're not mad at me?"
"No of course not silly! Why would I be mad?"
"I dunno. My heads been a bit funny these past few days"
"Because of school?"
"Yeah" Mabel squeezed his hand gently and gave him a reassuring smile.
"We'll be fine, we just gotta stick together" Dipper shot her a small half smile and pulled her into a tight hug.
At lunch later that day Dipper and Mabel had made themselves comfortable under their favourite tree when Pacifica and a small gang of her friends walked from behind them to tower over them where they sat
"Hey guys... No don't worry, we're not gonna start today" Pacifica lied, seeing the twins faces
"Yeah, we just wanted to ask you both a question" Stacy, a red headed girl stood to Pacifica's left added.
"When you finally shit out this deformed mutant baby you're carrying... Who is going to be the first to try and shag it?" Pacfica spat the question out with venom. Mabel sprang to her feet ready to once again push Pacifica but Dipper was just as quick back to a vertical base, grabbing Mabel's arms and pinning them to her side
"Mabel. She's not worth you getting expelled for" Dipper hissed in her ear, beyond angry with the girls stood in front of them but not wanting to see Mabel in any more trouble than she's been in lately due to Pacifica and her friends. Dipper picked their lunch bags up and led Mabel away.
"GOD I HATE THEM" Mabel yelled once they were on the other side of the playing field to them
"I know. But do you think that they're right?" Dipper asked, sliding down to the floor, crossing his legs
"How do you mean?"
"I mean that inbred kids don't stand much chance of a long and healthy life. Are we being selfish?"
"Dipper... What are you saying?" Mabel's voice was cracking slightly.
"Nothing bad" He reassured her
"I just think that we've got to think about the whole situation, and then once we know more then we can decide what to do okay? We're not gonna rush into anything" He promised her.
Like the night before Dipper lay wide awake, staring up at the ceiling, feeling worse then he did last night. He turned his head to look at his bedside table, spotting the nail he used to cut himself with last night he bit his lip, not wanting to use it again but needing to feel something, anything was better than this emptiness that had settled deep inside him. Fighting his own mind just made him feel even worse.
"Just do it Dipper, you know it makes you feel better. You want to feel better don't you?" A small voice asked him, it didn't belong to Bill but again it was familiar to him.
"Nobody needs to know, you can always hide it, just you and me will know. It'll be our little secret. The voice whispered to him. Dipper sighed and began to bargin with himself
"This is the last time I do this" He told himself, sitting up and grabbing the nail. Making sure Mabel was still asleep he crept quietly towards the bathroom and locked the door.