Chapter 9: Hold On

I felt the first real sting
Right about the time that you let it ring,
Left me high and dry
Now I can see your letting go

I tried to walk these streets
Hoping that my feet wouldn't fail me
Waiting for a sign
Now I can see you're letting go

Hold on
'Cause I don't think that I can save us baby
But hold on
'Cause I don't feel like letting go oh oh oh
We got so high
We can't come down
So hold on
'Cause I don't feel like letting go

- Icona Pop

Bonnie

With my hand clasped tight in Enzo's, we walked back to the house for lunch and it filled my heart with happiness. It also made me more determined to end things with Matt.

For a very long time I'd always feared losing him, but somewhere along the way, that had changed. Over the past few months my attachment had dwindled. I still cared about him, but my love was gone. I thought it disappeared a while ago, except it was only now, after meeting Enzo, that I realized what had been happening.

One thing was for sure, Matt had never looked at me the way Enzo did. I knew it was unfair to compare the two of them, but it was something that couldn't be helped. When Enzo looked at me, I wanted to squeeze my thighs together to stop the ache, but I never had such a heated reaction to Matt.

Being in Enzo's arms had soaked my panties and left an ache that only he could alleviate.

"Earth to Bonnie." He pulled me to a stop on the porch. "Hey, penny for your thoughts?"

I blushed. He noticed and his eyes sparkled. The smile which had been hovering on his lips was growing into a huge grin. "Pretty good thoughts, huh?"

I was embarrassed, but not enough to keep quiet. I took hold of the door and leaned into him. "I was thinking about how wet you've made my panties and how badly I want you between my legs," seeing the hunger on his face, I continued, "and how badly I want to taste you." I quickly pulled the door open and entered the house before he had a chance to respond.

I really shouldn't tease the 'beast', especially since I worked myself up as well.

"Bonnie, are you alright? You look rather flushed," Lillian asked as I walked into the kitchen.

"Ah yeah, I'm fine." I looked towards the table just in time to catch Stefan's smirk.

"I'd ask Enzo what he's been doing to her." His mother smacked him across the back of the head. "Hey, what was that for?"

"Stop embarrassing Lorenzo's woman," she told Stefan, just as Enzo walked into the kitchen. The statement was met by silence.

"She isn't yet, but she will be." He pulled me into him and kept an arm wrapped around me.

"Oh hell, Bonnie. If you get fed up with him come find me!" Stefan said grinning, while I felt Enzo start to tense. I tightened my hold on him.

His mother, who obviously sensed the rising tension between her sons, started to place the salad, meats and bread onto the table. "Let's eat." She shoved a bread roll into Stefan's mouth when he opened it to respond.

I took my jacket off, placed it over the back of the chair and took a seat between Enzo and Stefan.

"Keep your hands to yourself, brother," Enzo growled at a grinning Stefan.

"Does that apply to me as well?" Tyler questioned as he took his seat at the table.

"Shit." Enzo put his head into his hands.

"Lorenzo Dalton St. John, you do not curse at my table, and if you two want to eat," she said pointing to Stefan and Tyler, "I suggest you stop winding your brother up."

"Yes, ma'am," all three replied.

I tried to hide my laugh behind my hand, but no such luck.

Lillian looked at me and pointed the butter knife at me. "And you," she startled me, "whatever you're doing to Lorenzo, carry on. I've never seen him behave with a woman, like he is with you." I smiled and heard Enzo groan.

Stefan choked on his drink. "Mom, we don't want to know what she's been doing to Enzo."

Oh my god. I felt my blush start at my neck and slowly work its way up into my face.

"That's enough. Bonnie is a guest here and I don't want you two frightening her away." Richard managed to shut them up. I braved a look at him and he winked at me.

Enzo placed some food on my plate and I just sat back and watched him, amused. I couldn't remember anyone ever doing that for me before. With a quick glance around the table, they'd all noticed. Enzo realized everyone was watching, looked at me and actually looked embarrassed.

"Sorry," he whispered.

I leaned forward slightly and took his hand. "Thank you. I'm glad you know what I like."

I was about to take a bite out of the French bread, when I noticed Stefan about to open his mouth, so I glared at him. He shut his mouth and winked at me. I started to laugh. He was a gorgeous flirt. But it was Enzo for me.

Suddenly, Enzo pushed his chair away from the table and with his fist clenched, he walked out of the kitchen door and down the porch steps, before anyone could react.

It was so odd. I started to stand to go after him, but Lillian stopped me. "Bonnie, leave him for a short time. Finish your lunch and then go to him. He'll have calmed down some by then."

I didn't know what to say or do. I stayed quiet and tried to eat, but my stomach was in knots. One minute everything was fine and the next, well, I wasn't actually sure.

Unable to finish eating, I took a drink and sat back in my chair. I couldn't stay there anymore. I pushed away from the table and stood up. "Do you know where he went?"

"Probably the barn," his father replied.

"Thank you, Richard. If you'll all excuse me, I need to go to him." I took my jacket from the back of the chair, walked out of the kitchen and headed for the barn hoping Enzo was there.

What the hell happened to make him leave so abruptly? I certainly didn't think I'd done anything to make him react the way he had. I slowed my steps as I neared the barn, feeling nervous. When I pushed the door open, I stepped inside and looked around. Once my eyes adjusted to the dim light, I could just make him out, sitting on a bale of hay to one side.

Slowly, I walked over to him. He was sitting with his elbows resting on his thighs and his face in his hands. Standing in front of him, I decided to crouch down, placing my hands on each of his knees. "Enzo?"

His shoulders tensed. He hadn't known I was there. I went down to my knees and pushed his thighs apart, so I could move closer to him. I smoothed my hands up his arms until I got to his hands and pulled them away from his face.

"Please talk to me? Tell me what happened back there?"

He met my eyes and just stared at me with eyes filled with heat. He pulled his hands free from mine and cupped my head. Perhaps kneeling in front of him wasn't the brightest thing I'd ever done.

"I saw you laughing with Stefan and I just saw red. I left so I wouldn't hit him." He looked so lost.

"Enzo, you can't go around wanting to hit everyone I laugh with. Just because I laugh with someone, doesn't mean I want to do something else with them."

He sighed. "Maggie…. she slept with a lot of guys while we were married."

So that was why he reacted so quickly. Shit. "Oh, Enzo." I reached up and took his face in my hands. "I'm not like her. If I was, I would have already been naked in your bed, although I suppose we came close to….something the other night."

He groaned and started to pull me closer. "Bonnie, even if I'd already gotten you naked, you still wouldn't be like her. I know that deep down. I've just always been one to react first, think second – unless it has to do with work."

"I've only ever had sex with Matt and I've never wanted anyone the way I want you."

"Fuck!" He slammed his lips down on mine, pulled me up and astride his lap. I opened my mouth and our tongues fused together. My blood roared through me as I reached up and wrapped my arms around his shoulders, threading my fingers through his hair. He shivered. I moved my hips closer to his and felt the hardness beneath.

With our mouths and tongues still fused together, I started to rub against him. I was so wet and so close to orgasm. Every time his penis rubbed against my pussy, the pressure would push my panties into my sex – it felt incredible and made me tingle all over.

Enzo

Christ. Bonnie was hot and heavy against me and her closeness was playing havoc with not only my body, but with my intentions too. I never meant for that to happen. Oh yeah, I wanted it to happen, but not while she was unavailable.

She was in my arms and my tongue was still wrapped around hers. All my blood had traveled south, giving me one hell of an erection and if she didn't stop wiggling around, I was going to explode in my jeans.

She continued to rub her pussy against my covered dick. I smoothed my hands down her back and took a firm hold of her hips. I pushed her down onto me as I arched up into her. She started to make whimpering noises – she was close.

I kept her pressed tight into me as I slowly pushed my hips up into her while I kissed the life out of her. She pulled her mouth away and looked straight into my eyes.

Then it hit. "Oh god, Enzo." She came apart in my arms. Her orgasm seemed to go on and on. I just held on tight and tried not to join her.

I held a limp Bonnie in my arms with her still sitting astride my erection. It was both heaven and hell wrapped in the sweetest torture. I breathed deeply just as Bonnie moved her head from my shoulder and looked at me.

"Enzo, you need to…."

I shook my head. "No."

With unsteady legs, Bonnie climbed from my lap then knelt back down between my legs and looked at the obvious bulge in my jeans. She looked uncertain and then she had my jeans unzipped before I could get my befuddled brain to work. I grabbed hold of her wrist. "Bonnie no."

"You've given me the best damn orgasm and you're uncomfortable, so let me take care of you." Grinning, she moved back to my crotch. Hell, I was an idiot.

I stood, forcing Bonnie's hands to fall away. "Bonnie, I want nothing more than to have your hands and mouth on me, but when that happens we'll need a bed and more time than what we have." I held my hand out and helped her up from the floor.

I quickly refastened my jeans and pulled her back into my arms for a hug. "I really didn't mean for all that to happen, you caught me at a weak moment. But I'm not sorry it did. God, I could never be sorry for having you hungry in my arms."

"I'm not sorry either." She kissed my chest and stepped out of my arms. "Do you want to talk about the picnic? It might be safer."

"Um, about that," I met her eyes, "that was the excuse I used to get you to myself for the day, without work getting involved." I laughed at the look on her face. "Although I have to say, I wasn't expecting to react quite the way I did with my brothers over you. Other than to double check there isn't any problems with everyone we've booked, there's nothing to do."

"I should be pissed, but I'm not. I've enjoyed meeting your family and getting a good look in the barn!" She grinned.

"Is it safe to enter?" Tyler asked.

Bonnie quickly passed a glance to my groin and then met my eyes. She smirked.

"It's safe." She shouted back.

Tyler walked in and stopped a distance away, probably wanting to stay safe with how I'd been acting.

He grinned. "Mom wanted me to come and check that everything was alright. I guess she didn't want to catch you with your jeans around your ankles."

Bonnie started to giggle, which ended in a full belly laugh. She covered her face to try and hide the fact, but it didn't help

I couldn't help, but return her grin. "We haven't gotten that far…. yet!"

"I really did not need to know that. I also think Ric is anxious to get back, something about a date with a lady named Jenna."

I looked at him, shocked. The crafty devil, he never so much as breathed a word to me. "Come on." I took hold of Bonnie's hand. "Let's go and embarrass Alaric."

"You'll do nothing of the sort," Bonnie said as I frowned down at her. "I think it's sweet."

I groaned and Tyler laughed behind us. He knew damn well that Bonnie had me wrapped around her finger.

I pulled her with me as I walked to where Alaric was standing to the side of the car with my parents. The sight filled me with both hope and dread. I just prayed Bonnie didn't have second thoughts about anything that was going to happen between us. I was her boss, which I knew bothered her, but I had no intention of letting that come between us. Hopefully after this afternoon, she'd leave Matt. I wasn't going to be able to wait much longer. It drove me crazy knowing she was going home to him instead of with me.

I wanted nothing more than to ask her to move in with me, but I didn't want her to have any regrets. I needed her to come to me on her own without my influence, although I guess I should have left her alone this afternoon. Until she was free, I was going to keep my hands to myself, no matter how many cold showers I had to take.

"Alaric! What's this I hear about Jenna?" He blushed – a lot. I grinned and turned to my parents. "Mom, Dad, thanks for lunch, although I didn't eat a great deal, it was good seeing you both."

"Likewise son." My dad hugged me and stepped to Bonnie as my mom hugged me hard.

"She's lovely, Enzo. Don't screw it up. She's nothing like Maggie," Mom whispered. I kissed her on the cheek before I stepped back and helped Bonnie into the car.

As soon as the car doors shut, I pulled Bonnie back into my arms. "Let me hold you. We'll be back in the real world soon." She snuggled more into me, which made my heart pound. With Bonnie against me, I used my other hand to try and rearrange it to a more comfortable position, but of course Bonnie caught me.

"Would you like a hand with that?" She offered. I chuckled.

"You stay away from there." Just to be sure, I took hold of the hand that rested on my chest and, after kissing her palm, held it against my chest.

"Enzo, will you tell me about your marriage?"

I sighed. What she wanted to know was about what I'd told her about Maggie in the barn. "We were married for three years. In that three years, she slept with more men that I can count, and those are the ones I know about. It took me a while to realize that she was the one with the commitment problem and it had nothing to do with me. I guess I wasn't enough for her to stay loyal. But I didn't love her, Bonnie. I thought I did, but when it all came to a head, I was pissed, but not heartbroken. Although I wanted her out of my life I didn't wish her dead. That happened in a car crash on the way to see the lawyers about the divorce. Her flavor of the month was driving."

She tightened her hold on me. "I'm sorry, Enzo. You didn't deserve all that."

She kissed my chest. "You're enough for me. I feel burned every time you touch me."

Three days. That was all it took for her to get under my skin.

I held her close all the way to her apartment building, not wanting to let her go.

She moved away from me and straightened her ponytail, which had gone lopsided during the car ride back to the city. "Enzo," she said so quietly. She turned her head to look out of the window. I watched her gulp and my heart dropped. She turned back to me. "We can't be close again until I'm free." She wiped a lone tear away. "It won't be easy for me, but I have to keep my distance from you."

I reached out for her and pulled her into my arms. "Bonnie, it's okay. I'll wait for you. Always."

She sniffled into my chest. "I promise you that you have nothing to worry about. We may share a bed but he won't touch me."

"Okay," I choked out. I pulled away and opened the car door. When I stepped out, Bonnie followed close behind.

She took a deep breath and met my eyes. "Thank you for today. You have no idea how much I enjoyed being with you and your family. I look forward to doing it again."

I was actually at a loss for words. I wanted to grab her and take her home with me and to not let Matt anywhere near her. She started to move away from me and caressed my hand as she passed.

"Goodbye Bonnie," I whispered.

I stood outside the car and held onto the door to prevent myself from going after her. I just watched as she walked up the steps and then disappeared through the security doors.

Author's Note:

I know it's been nearly a month guys, TVD has returned and boy oh boy the drama with Bonenzo it's so rich and angst-y. Anyways leave me comments about how you all are feeling for their story this season. I personally love it, I love the foreshadow of them getting their happy ending and going to Paris together, I love the dramatic star crossed lovers vibe they have right now, I love how hard Enzo is fighting and Bonnie's not giving up on him. So what are your thoughts on Bonenzo this season?