Hey guys! I *finally* learned how to write an authors note. I hope you all are enjoying this story so far! I've been consistently uploading once every other day. In order to write future chapters I'm going to have to reread The Bane Chronicles, so chapters might be a little delayed after this one. I have hella auditions and exams coming up, but I will try my best!

Disclamer : it goes without be said that I don't own any character or concept in this story! All credits go to Cassandra Claire.

"By the angel," Alec gasped when he first opened his eyes. He noted that he was now on his old bed, before he had moved to Magnus' loft. Around his bed was his parabatai, sister, and of course Clary, all looking down at him with concern, "What happened?"

"Once Clary put the rune on you, you just collapsed. Your heart stopped and it was like you were dead." Izzy said, gripping Alec's hand tightly.

"I felt our bond break, Alec. That was terrifying," Jace added, putting his palm over his parabatai rune, "But it just came back."

"What did you see? Was it about Magnus?" Clary said, almost seeming uncomfortable in the situation. Alec couldn't blame her, it must be a little odd being in the middle of such a tight sibling bond, especially because of the demon her brother turned out to be. Alec couldn't imagine living without his siblings by his side. He wasn't even sure if he would be living.

"I- uh- yeah, it was. Remember the story he told us at his party? About his mom? That's what I saw." That was all the detail Alec would go into. The details of Magnus killing his step father was most certainly not Alec's secret to tell.

"Oh, Alec I'm sorry. I can call Magnus if you want...?" Clary suggested, not wanting to interrogate the conversation any further.

"No, it's okay, Clary. I'll go see him right now. It's about lunch time anyways."

Alec made his was out of the institute and towards Magnus' loft. He wasn't sure what he was going to say once he saw him. While it's nothing he didn't know, it was still enlightening to see his boyfriend in this way. It made him feel closer somehow.

Alec wasn't even sure if he should tell Magnus what happened. What Magnus didn't know wouldn't hurt him. Plus, it might make Magnus uncomfortable. Naturally in relationships, you want to put your best self forward. So, it might make Magnus uneasy to know that Alec saw a moment that was so personal to Magnus. But, Magnus did say Alec was the first of so many things, so wouldn't him being the first to see his past be okay too?

Alec pulled himself out of his thoughts as he approached the loft door. He put the key Magnus had gave him into the lock and let himself in. He opened the door to find Magnus sitting on the ground, his hair all about the place, his cat eyes, wide and alert, looking at Alec with terror and sympathy.

"Hey, what happened to you, are you okay?" Alec asked curiously, closing the loft door and walking towards his partner.

"I'm fine but- oh lord, Alec, I'm so sorry," Magnus said softly, looking up at Alec with soft eyes.

"What for?"

"I don't really know what happened. One minute I was making a potion, and then the next I was in your childhood bedroom. I heard... what you dad said, Alexander. That wasn't okay-"

"It's okay, Magnus. My dad already apologized for being so closed minded in the past. I saw your past too, but it was because of Clary's rune." Alec said, point to the new rune on his wrist that Clary has drawn.

Magnus looked curiously, then looked down to see the same rune looking up at him from his wrist.