AN/: Okay this chapter isnt really a normal one. Its basically Marceline rambling to herself about all the confusing things in life. If you decide not to read im okay with that but i just have one thing to say. There might be some hints as to what the voice is and why its there.
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When i was younger i always thought that when you killed someone you either had to have a reason or you crazy.
Does that mean I've gone mad?
Obviously i have because i was listening to a voice inside of my head. A voice that demanded the man had to be killed.
Well, i thought he was a man. In truth he was some sort of...hi-breed animal thing that 'needed' to be killed. That was what the voice said.
He also told me to kill bonnibel. Does that mean she's one of him?
No, no. I felt that there was something bad about that guy before he...transformed. It was weird, it wasn't like the voice, it was more like an instinct that i had absolutely had no control over. If i did i think i would've killed Elle already...
The weirdest thing is...i cant get my head around what both the guy and the voice is.
The voice referred to me as an object or animal like he had with the man but..i wasn't like him was i? The man had said my eyes were red right after my eyes stung, that's physically impossible because my eyes were naturally chocolate brown.
The voice also said that i was to eat the dead body which is an absolutely disgusting idea. It also thought of me as some sort of predator because he said that the man was my prey.
Its strange to sit and wonder about the super-natural isn't it? you just cant explain how it works or how it is because it just...is. That probably made no sense what so ever but i bet that at the same time it did, just a little.
See? i could sit here and ramble about all the little things, all the un-explainable's and yet the're all explainable! the impossible thing about the topic is its just not in detail.
The other thing is, is that the voice said i had a obsession with killing and hurting others. Now, don't get me wrong. I'd get a kick out of punching elle in the face but..kill her? I don't think i could bring myself round to it.
But i just killed a innocent man.
When i say innocent i mean that he was absolutely viscous and creepy and horrifying.
I don't know why im thinking all this because..when i was younger i thought Santa and the Easter bunny was real.
Kids are so easy to manipulate.
Jesus im getting a bit sidetracked.
I want to talk with the voice again but ive noticed something that it does, It only appears when some things about to happen or it has something to say about the situation.
Why cant it just be simple!