In the Morning
Chapter Eight: Revelations
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I can't keep doing this.
Nothing helps.
My thoughts and feelings for and of Ladybug won't go away. I sigh as I shut off the now cool water of my shower and grab a towel. I wrap it around my waist loosely and walk out into my dark room. I look at the time, 12:32 pm. Geesh, I was in there a long time. I have a bad habit of using showers as thinking time, it is the one time I know I won't be interrupted.
I really should be getting to bed but I can't get my mind to quiet down. The thoughts of Ladybug and Marinette switching back and forth won't stop. I really thought kissing Marinette earlier would help but it only made it worse. How could it have made it worse? Well you see, I'm turning to a scum bag apparently because as I kissed Marinette I was thinking of My Lady.
Ahg, what is wrong with you Adrien? You are such a jerk. I wipe my hand across my face and sigh. I have got to stop this.
I quickly change into some boxers and a tank top to sleep in before I pull out my computer chair and sit as I click on my monitor, looking at my background. Mom would be so ashamed if she knew about all of this.
Mom.
If she were here she would be able to help me. She would… What would she tell me to do?
She would tell me to tell Marinette, to explain things to her. My feelings for Ladybug and to explain everything. She wouldn't want me to be doing this how I have been. Trying to get over Ladybug with Marinette. Thinking about Mom and how she would handle a situation always helps me clear my mind and remind me who I am. Her Adrien, not just Adrien Agreste the model but her son. A person with feels, a person who is respectful and not a jerk like I was last night.
I know what I have to do to move on now, I have to tell Marinette I love Ladybug, but that I really do want to try and have a real relationship with her.
"Good night Mom." I whisper as I turn off my computer monitor and walk to my bed. I lay down, shifting Plagg over as I do so. I'll talk to her after school tomorrow, I don't have anything then so I'll have all the time I need. I have nothing to worry about, just be honest.
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The school day is over so here it goes, now or never.
"Marinette, can we talk?" I lay my hand on top of hers on her desk softly as I ask my question, my eyes resting on her face as I wait.
She lifts her blues eyes from our hands to my green ones and answers, "Of course," I see a smile play on the corner of her lips, "no talking last night but you want to today?"
I feel my face flush at her mention of my bluntness last night, "Yeah, I'm sorry if that was rude, or to sudden I just, ah yeah." Why am I have such a hard time forming a sentence?
"It's fine Adrien," She smiles, her eyes scrunching as she does, "Let's go to the park and talk." She adds as she stands and grabs her bag.
"Actually, maybe somewhere more private, like my room. If that is okay." I see the girls face change to a look of slight shock with a hint of pink moving to her cheek bones. She really is cute, she isn't Ladybug but she is still cute. "I promise, nothing like last night, unless you want that part." I wink.
Did I just let my inner Chat Noir slip out?
Her blush grows darker and she mumbles something that might have been a "we'll see".
As we walk to my house we talk about our most recent homework assignment and upcoming tests, keeping the subjects light. I love that the topics are light and normal paced because for the first time in weeks, since I confessed to Ladybug and got rejected, I actually really do feel like Adrien again.
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"So, this is my room." I smile awkwardly and nervously as I open the door to allow Marinette into my bedroom.
"Wow! It's amazing! I'm pretty sure it's bigger than my whole house!" she adds as she spins slowly looking around my room.
"It's alright I guess. A bit over the top, but that's what you get when your last name is Agreste." I scratch the back my head.
"Oh," She says as she continues to look around, she stops her turn and faces me, "So, what did you want to talk to me about?"
"Why don't we sit down?" I gesture to my couch. Once we are sitting I take a breath and rub my now sweaty palms on my legs. "I don't really know how to bring this up other than just saying it so here it goes. And this all may sound a bit crazy but I have to tell you. I can't get past it if I don't ever get it out. I have been acting rash and in some definitions rude to you and the reason for that is because I have in a way using you. I haven't really meant to use you but it happened that way. I am and have been in love with Ladybug for a while now and I know I can never be with her, so I thought I should and could try to get over her by being with you. I thought that would be okay but I know that it isn't right. It's not fair to you and I hate that I was doing that to you. I don't want to hurt you. So, I wanted to tell you because I really do like you Marinette. I just don't know how to get over Ladybug. At least without you, you pop up in my thoughts just like she does so I thought I could try to move on with you. I really do want to want give us a chance. If you do. Just please don't hate me or be mad at me…" I finally stop and breathe, opening and closing my mouth a few times trying to see if there was anything else I want to say but I opt no and clench my hands at my knee caps.
I look to Marinette, her mouth a gap. I wait for her to recover and speak, wiping my palms again. "I'm not mad Adrien." Her sweet smile makes my heart contract, "I'm glad you told me. I'm sorry you feel like you and Ladybug can never be." She clears her throat, "But I'm glad to help you in any way I can. I just hope I can be good enough for you."
"Of course you will be Marinette." I smile at the pigtailed girl beside me.
She lets out a relieved sounding sigh and seems to relax. "So," she chuckles softly, "I should probably tell you that I think I actually may have a slight cr-"
Her voice drowned out in the sound of shattering glass. My head snaps to my large panel of window to see an object flying through the newly made hole and heading straight for Marinette. "LOOKOUT!" I yell as I dive for her, pushing her down on my couch and laying over top of her to protect her. I hear the object hit the wall and I lean up and look over Marinette to be sure she is unharmed. I pull away fully and get to my feet.
"I've got to go!" We both exclaim at the same time. We stop and stare at each other, puzzled. "What? Why?" We say in unison again.
"My parents don't like me to be out when there is an akuma attack." Marinette quickly says without a hitch, starting for the door.
"No, it's safer if you just stay here." I say sternly as I put myself between her and the door. "I'll be right back, so just stay here." I turn toward the door my hand touches the door handle when I hear her retort.
"And where are you going?" I hear the sass in her voice before I turn and see her hands on her hips and her unamused glare.
"I have to make sure Par-" I catch myself, but not very smoothly, "People are safe!" I feel myself start to sweat at my blunder, praying she didn't notice.
One look to Marinette reviled she had caught it. And the next few moments moved in slow motion.
Her eyes widened suddenly. "Make sure," she paused, "Paris," Her eyes flick to mine then away, "is safe. Make sure people are safe." Her eyebrows pull together, "In love with Ladybug," she lowered her head with a soft shake, but before she did I caught a glimpse in her eyes, seeing each of the dots connecting. I suck in a breath, feeling the air slowly enter my lungs. Before I can react and stop her next words from leaving her mouth I see it all in her eyes. Her cobalt eyes connect the last few dots as they flick from the large silver ring on my right ring finger, and then to my blonder hair and lastly to my wide green eyes.
Her eyes don't leave mine for a second as she asks the question I knew was on her tongue, "Adrien, are you Chat Noir?"
I feel the air I had just taken into my lungs leave in a swift gust, my shoulders slacking as I stare ahead like a deer caught in headlights.
Hey again everyone! So after that last chapter of Adrien being pretty OOC I decided to get him back to how Adrien normally is. I hope you all still enjoyed this chapter though! I really felt like I wanted to move things along a bit quicker, I didn't plan on there even being a reveal but they always end up happening. But we don't know for sure if this is a reveal right!? Who knows!? :P
Thanks for reading and sticking with me!
PS. I am taking my laptop in to get worked on tonight because it is being some cuss words that I will filter out right now. I will try to be sure things don't get delayed too much! But I feel like I got this chapter out quickly compared to the last, so hopefully that will keep you guys and gals tied over until my laptop is fixed 100%! And I'm back on it!
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xx. Joy