Authours Notes: Oh god, my feelings for Karma in this one. ;w;
He's beginning to realise he cares more than he shows. Poor baby, he has no idea what's going on.

He's never felt like this for anyone before!

Nagisa's POV may be all of next chapter, to show what he's thinking. Weeeeh.
I think it'll be a fluffish/comfort next chapter!

I hope you all enjoy like usual! Thank you for support and love, as always your feedback is so appreciated! :'3 If you have any ideas to add to this, please let me know!

Karmas POV

It wouldn't take this long... Would it?
I clenched my teeth shut for what felt forever. I can't hear anything of what they were saying. I couldn't even make out what was going on as their backs were turned from me. As I watched Asano get closer, something felt off.

The more I waited, the more I felt on edge. I wanted to punch something.
I was only doing this for Nagisa's sake. He needed to be alone and overcome this himself. If he didn't he'd never get over his anxiety. But that still couldn't contain my anger.
I still was forced to bite my bark back.

I fucking hated keeping it contained. I wasn't able to.
My anger and stubbornness kept me going to make me even feel something. I did have anger issues... I knew that from the way adults talked about me. But if I didn't have these negative emotions, I'm pretty sure I would be pathetically weak with friends.

I would rely on someone, I would be normal but fucking empty.
I would be a shitty mess on the floor.

Anger drove me into the person I wanted to be. The violence reminded me that I will continue my path of loneliness but I will forever have myself. I drive people away to assure myself I wouldn't be conquered by them.

I tsked at my mind. Maybe that's why I liked Nagisa he knew my bad sides and he was okay them... I was finally able to help someone using my anger and my past experiences. The kid was the completely opposite to me and I liked that about him.

As I wondered in the corridor, I notice the Nagisa had disappeared?

No.
That wasn't a part of our fucking plan.

Something is going to happen... Asano knew our plan. I decide I ain't taking it any longer. Silently I made my way in.

I knew this roof like the back of my hand. I knew how to sneak up on bastards without them knowing. I hid away from Asano's vision so I could listen to what the fuck is going on.

"Don't defy me, there are consequences you need to remember" As the kid spoke, I hear a strange noise and then a grunt who seems to be Nagisa.

Is he in fucking pain?

What a load of horse shit. You are the fucking worse. Getting others to do your dirty work. I bite my tongue, finding myself become more angered. I decide to climb up the building where I usually sat to surprise the fuckers.

No one had clocked on to me being here yet. As I army crawled on the roof I hear a few more whimpers of pain, I know he didn't want to be vocal. Nagisa was straining his voice to stop it.

"If I don't hear the pain, it's going to become much worse" Asano replies to his noises. I barely hear Nagisa reply but he does. I lean up to pop my eyes over the roof to watch him.

"I'm not giving in anymore" I saw blood. His poor face is now visibly punched, it was indented with how hard they were smashing him. He had a black eye and his face was beginning to swell. But Nagisa's expression doesn't tell me the pain he's in, it's telling me the lost he's feeling.

It was an expression I hadn't seen from him before, it was a mixture of sadness and determination. Seemed Nagisa was beginning to feel he deserved it but didn't want to show it for once.

As much as I knew this is what he wanted, I couldn't contain myself as another punch was landing on his gut.

I'm not fucking standing for it.

I took a stance so I could land behind the boy who held Nagisa in place. I was quick so no fucker wouldn't get away. With precision, I land so I could give a blow to the boy in his back and legs so he dropped Nagisa and he fell to his knees in pain.

The adrenaline kicked in and I felt thoughts that were violent. I needed to see blood to make myself feel better.

I needed to let the instincts of the monster out.

I smirked menacingly "Guess who's joined the blood fest and needs to see blood from you disgusting creatures" As the boy dropped, I barked and took the other boy to the wall. Picking him up by his neck, giving him a punch square in the face.

"You're fucking foul to toy with this boy. Fucking look at him" As the boy could only see with one eye, he didn't even look.

I felt my eye twitch as my eyes grew more from insanity. I was going to lose it. I was so close to either choking him or smashing his skull repeatedly into the fucking wall. I had to drop him to go after yet another boy who was close to leaving.

As I took a glance around I realise Asano was gone.
Fucking pathetic scrum bag. He can't even deal with me.

As I grabbed the kid by his collar turning him around I punched him in his gut to be sure I would see blood. I grinned in my delight. But was unfortunately interrupted by the kid I was rescuing.

"Please stop... T-that's enough" I spit at the kid in disgust. Dropping him as they all go past me to leave. I could tell by how horse Nagisa's voice was, he felt emotionally drained. I felt my shivers of my insanity calm as I walk over to the dropped boy on the floor.

"We need to go home, it's been enough for one day" I say walking over and looking at him be broken again... I sigh. He's giving me that look again, was I in the wrong? It was a mixture of disappointment and sadness.

"I'm sorry... If I could control it, I would." I try to reassure him and I lean down to his level. I still get no response...

Though he was feeling those things, the kid looked as blank as ever.

We had to get him patched up before we could go home, unfortunately, I wasn't able to help him in the slightest on the way home.
The school luckily understood our situation... I suppose I was even lucky I was able to get out of that situation.

The silence was always painful with Nagisa. It daunted me on me because I knew he was thinking the wrong hurtful thoughts. I knew right now, he didn't want to be saved.

How? Because the journey home was long and painful. I just wanted to pick the kid up or help him on the way home but he just slapped the help away. Something had turned like a switch on Nagisa…

I honestly couldn't pick him apart.

As I unlocked the door, I dreaded him going to his room.
I even dreading this feeling more of how much I did indeed care. I stood in front of the stairs and in another chance to look at Nagisa.

"If you're not planning to speak to me, at least eat. Please" I gently tried to look into those crystal blue eyes that usually spoke to me. But they kept darting away from me, they looked different shades of broken and loneliness.

It honestly just hurt.

"Nagisa, if you don't. You're only going to hurt more"

I nearly said me….
Fuck that was dangerous...

I wasn't even putting a wall up around the kid anymore, he had broken all my defences. I didn't feel at a safe distance from him anymore. I was showing him all my raw emotions that I kept hidden... I still wasn't spoken to.

What am I meant to do?

I wasn't used to people being silent. I wasn't used to not acting calm and cautious. I felt irrational.

I tried stepping closer….
Maybe then I would have a better chance of letting myself in his world. If he flinches or is scared, I'll stop…