Author's Notes: Sorry for the late update, I've been trying to improve a lot. I hope it's seen here! If not, shout some advice back at me. I'd really appreciate it. c:

Anyway, I feel like Karma's gonna go backwards to avoid this contact soon. It terrifies him, and I want to show that through him trying to get with girls. As if to say, I don't have these feelings for you. ;w; And during that time he spends away from Nagisa, Nagisa would end up bullied again by Asano. ;w;

But y'know hopefully he figures out what those feelings are by spending time away from him.

Weh, I'm mean I know.
But Karma does have a good heart, he's just too awful to show it.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy this. And if you like my idea, please let me know! I love you all and thank you so much for the support.

Karma didn't notice the silence they shared, he was too busy admiring one of his favourite YouTubers. The YouTuber discussed a detailed theory about The Walking Dead game. He loved to binge watch these types of videos, as they made him feel more empathic for the character he'd played as. Karma would then go back into the game and consciously feel more for the character.
Video games are Karmas saviour. That feeling to escape and breathe in another world was phenomenal to him. If anything, his passion for the other characters made him feel alive and in touch with his own emotions.

Although this video was interesting to him, he wondered if it was to Nagisa. Karma glanced at the bluenette beside him and noticed how concentrated the boy seemed, but not on the video game… His eyebrows were furrowed, eyes off in the distance. Karma knew that look, it was the look Nagisa did when he was in his own world. His hands were fidgeting, toying with his fingernails and thumbs like there's an invisible ball between them.

Should I interrupt him?
Karma thought it made him gulp away the nervous lump in his throat… His posture became slumped in uneasiness. Over the last few days, Nagisa had become very dependent on him and though he kept thinking it was his mother, it was completely different...
He loved his mother unconditionally. She deserved safety and she needed his reassurance. They were family.

Whereas, those feelings he felt for Nagisa had developed into an unknown connection. It felt like a strange sensation pooling in his heart and it was uncontrollable. Whenever he grasped onto that emotion, it spiralled into mysterious light in his stomach. He definitely couldn't stop it now.

Well, it wasn't that, Karma didn't want to.

As the redhead tried to focus on those feelings, he didn't realise Nagisa was talking. He felt a gentle nudge in his hip, making him snap back into reality.
"Huh?" Karma questioned, confused as to why.

"Sorry to interrupt you, I didn't mean to make you... um, shocked" the blue haired boy said ignoring how Karma seemed out of it. Karma watched Nagisa take a deep breath, almost ready to brace something. He easily recognised how hesitant he was with how gentle the voice spoke.

"Karma, we need to speak about what's been happening" Nagisa went on. His hands constantly rubbing his fingers out of nervousness. Eyes jolting to and from Karma's concerned ones. He wanted to be as genuine as possible, despite how his guts were tumbling over each other from the tension.

Karma kept his eyes drawn on blue ones, giving a scowl instantly against the subject. Though he could tell Nagisa was being mindful, it unintentionally put him on edge… Karma had built too many walls around himself... They forced him to divert away from the question.

"What's happening…? If I knew myself, I would have an answer…. It's all shitting new to me… Kind of… I fucking guess" The last words became a whisper like he'd just seen a ghost.
His mind began a confliction between confusion and being scared, it tore over his mind like a whirlwind. Karma hated the thought of being open with his emotions, he refused to even for his mother. Karma leant back on the sofa, to tear his gaze away from Nagisa's.

His brow furrowed in his frustration, almost twitching in annoyance. But Karma held back his defences by biting his lip. He didn't want to lash out at Nagisa, it was a perfectly reasonable question. But for once, his brain couldn't crack the answer. His hand tried to massage his head in comfort.

Nagisa keeps the silence between them, he knew Karma needed it to think. By observing his friend, he saw the battle in Karma's eyes against the frustration. It almost made him look defenceless. But Nagisa knew they were so far apart from each other that he understood nothing.

He knew nothing about this boys ambitions, he knew nothing of his past and more so he knew nothing about his emotions.

That feeling was one of the reasons why Nagisa had to understand.
Whenever an episode began, it felt like he was drowning in a sea of emotion during a storm of distort. Lighting and wind had broken into his sanity.
But then Karma became the light and calmness that stopped him from drowning. Although he was constantly being saved, Karma never brought raft because he never wanted to stay.

Nagisa desired Karma to either be close or keep away, not throw these cruel messages and then disappear.

The YouTube video had stopped, that was more obvious to Nagisa because now he could hear their breaths in the silence.

Time became slow…
The more he watched, the more Nagisa felt daggers jab into his heart. Karma was now showing isolation like the unknowing was sucking the life out of him. His hand grasped onto his shirt as if to tell his heart to stop hurting. Nagisa knew it must be hard on him. Karma was direct with everything but his emotions.

It hurt him… and by watching him in the foreground it also hurt Nagisa.
He knew he couldn't let this happen any further… If anything, knowing it was hurting Karma made Nagisa feel more scared. Instead, his arm leant out to stroke Karma's straining hand on his chest.

"I'm sorry… I understand it's difficult… You don't have to right now, okay?" Nagisa's voice barely spoke, he didn't want to force this... So instead, he shuffled along their small sofa creaks added in their silence, it was painfully obvious he was going to embrace Karma. Maybe it was to make the silence comfortable, maybe it was to reassure him. All Nagisa knew was everything seemed to feel better when they were closer.

Karma doesn't react to the shuffling, he felt the same way. Golden orbs watched Nagisa's hand dance from his own hand towards his stomach to rest on his hip. Fingertips gently continue those pitter patter motions and strokes. He also felt soft strands of hair brush into his face as Nagisa rested on his shoulder…

That smell…
As soon as Nagisa's head was closer, he was able to get a whiff of mint and Nagisa's scent... It was calming like this boy was his light as well and it made those dark emotions disappear. It was so comforting almost like a baby and their mother, it was meant to be. Karma automatically rested his head on top of those locks, immediately noticing how soft they were.

Their embrace made Karma very wary of Nagisa's calm breathing, in… pause, out…. Pause, in…. pause. They went along with the heart he could feel beating with his own...

When did Nagisa become such a comfort?
It smoothed him into joining their breaths together and relax into the aroma of Nagisa that shifted in the air.

Karma decided on playing relaxing music (in love with a ghost - I thought we were lovers w/ basil) for the gentle mood. His music taste had become more open due to Nagisa, Nagisa preferred music that either motivated him or chilled him out.

Though they are close at the best of times, he still wasn't used to it.
What was he meant to do? Hold Nagisa? Play with his hair? Put his arm around him?

It confused the inexperienced redhead, so rather than experiment he shifted into a position to get comfy. Then he noticed that though he had moved Nagisa's hand didn't.

Was it almost cuddling him?
Was that what they were doing?

If anything, that thought made Karma embarrassed. His heart felt like it was jumping star jumps at that feeling…

What the fuck is this?
Fuck. What do I do?
The more Karma thought, the more he felt heat bouncing off his cheeks from shyness. He felt light butterflies dance in his stomach and Nagisa's touch felt more satisfying. Although it wasn't unpleasant, the unknown thoughts were causing him to scowl in frustration.

An accidental sigh came out of him, almost like he gave Nagisa a hint.
"Shit" Karma cursed in annoyance, immediately he tore his face to look the other way. In hell, would he let Nagisa see that from him.

"What is it?" Nagisa felt his curiosity peek, confused at what Karma could be feeling. It was hard enough to pick at his expressions, let alone guess what he felt. He tried to peer around at his face, maybe to see something. But unfortunately, Karma seemed desperate to hide how he felt.

"T-this… What is this? What the fuck am I meant to do?" Karma tried his damn hardest to hide the embarrassment by purposely making his voice deeper so Nagisa wouldn't know. As if that was going to work… Then again, asking that probably wasn't the best question. He heard Nagisa hold back laughter and as a giggle escaped him. Not only that, but Karma could feel Nagisa's body giggle from what he wanted to let out. Karma couldn't help but tsk as he felt more flustered.

"Shit… Sorry… I just wasn't expecting you to say something like that" Nagisa tried to excuse himself for the laughter. Now thinking about it, Nagisa had never known Karma to beat around the bush. This at least made Karma look at him, Karma's eyebrows were furrowed unimpressed but there was a hint of colour in his cheeks. He honestly couldn't help but smile, it made him happy that no one else had seen this from him before.

"I'm being serious… c-can you explain it?" Karma's voice was as serious as it was embarrassing, so rather than putting him through more, Nagisa placed his head back on his shoulder. His other hand going in front of Karma's vision to brush those red velvet locks. They were surprisingly soft like recently washed sheets, but regardless he carried on.

"It's just a hug, Karma. It can be friendly... Well, it could be anything you want it to be. I've never been asked to explain it before so I guess you could do what I'm doing and have your arm around me? Or I dunno, we could change it into a proper hug? Have you really not done this before?" Nagisas hand fell from those red locks once he asked that question, Karma must have had a girlfriend before or someone… right? It baffled his mind if he hadn't as Karma was everything he wasn't. Karma had the looks, the bad boy charms, the grades and he even knew how to talk to girls…
Just everything that he wasn't, but admired.

"No, I guess not... I usually avoid unnecessary contact" Karma tried to scoff out of his embarrassment. Hiding the fact that yes, he hadn't had a proper girlfriend before.
Nagisa had been the only one who'd wormed the most hugs out of him.

He sighed to himself and felt like it was probably a stupid thing to ask. Karma wanted to avoid any other questions so he took the boys advice and decided to wrap his arm around Nagisa's side.