And another one before calling it a night, I have no idea where that came from but I hope you'll find this at least a bit entertaining. Don't hesitate reviewing and all that. You might wait a bit before having a next chapter, I need to judge where this story is going before it gets out of control XD Thank you, once again, cheers x)
For once, Adam doesn't even try to arrest the bad guys, he just falls besides her, his hands shaking of fear. What if she is dead? What if he can't save her? What if she never opens her eyes again? Ruzek cannot face that cruel reality so he closes his mind to focus only on the fact she is unconscious, probably hurt and she needs him. Everything else doesn't exist, that's all.
"Burgess! Open your eyes, come on, do that for me, please! I need you here! Come on!" Adam lets his hand slides beneath her head to bring her against him. The other one squeezes her cheek looking for a sign of her consciousness. There's none. At least, she is still breathing, he senses a pulse under his palm and he breathes again, without noticing he stopped for a minute. He cannot lose her, not now, not ever.
"I can't let you go. I'm here to cover your ass, remember? Let me do my fucking job and wake up so I can keep on being an idiot around you. I need you, Burgess, not only to cover my ass when I act recklessly... All the time obviously, I know, but also to make me a better man. I need you to become someone as good and kind as you are. I'm tired of being a jerk who never thinks about the consequences, who loses himself constantly just to avoid making a decision. That's not who I want to be. I want to be the guy who deserves you. I want to be around you... I want to be with you. Wake up!" It's pointless, he needs to think and ultimately, Adam gets he hasn't called 911 yet. What an idiot, seriously. He dials the number while he still can control the frenetic shaking of his hands.
They're on their way, that should reassure him but it doesn't. He feels blood on his palm and when he checks it out, red has made its territory on the back of her head. "Shit! No!" and the ambulance doesn't seem to come quickly enough. "Come on, come on. Kim, stay with me!", his whole body is shaking now and he doesn't even chase the tear flooding from his right eye. Adam is crying. Fact. He doesn't care. Not anymore.
When she wakes up, she feels dizzy and the pain is nearly unbearable. Kim doesn't remember much, not right away, in any case. She opens her eyes, quite slowly with the attack of the light surrounding her. She knows where she is right away: everything is white, gloomy, dead in a way. And then, she sees him and all she can do is smile, even if their last conversation was rough. Adam is here, holding her hand, asleep besides her bed and she tries to squeeze his palm to wake him up. She needs nothing else as he jumps wide awake, grinning like he's used to be.
"If it's your way to cover my ass... I think you need to check your technique on that one... But I forgive you, obviously." She couldn't be mad at him, not when he had those furrowed eyes and she could feel his muscles tensed around her hand. He blames himself, Kim understands it in a heartbeat but she doesn't speak again. She needs to hear his voice, she needs to listen because by the way he acts, something was on his mind.
Indeed, his smile disappears quickly as soon as he is sure she is ok. He lowers his eyes, scratches his temple, trying to hide his thoughts certainly. Kim knows something is up, she always knows these things.
"What's up Ruzek? As far as I know, nobody died. I'm alive and well and I'm not going anywhere... Obviously. Where is your grinning smile that Olinsky hates so much?" Her particular sense of humor is the only thing she has left to cheer him up, even if it seems dumb given she was the one in a hospital bed with a concussion probably.
He looks at her, and her heart beats faster instantly. He has a unique way to plunge his eyes into hers and every time, her body reacts. At that moment, she only wants to be in his arms, the same way she was when her niece was injured. His comfort, that's all she needed. She couldn't move though so she speaks, like she always do.
"Tell me. I can take it. Really. You know I'm a tough one, I always was." His smile appears again when he hears these few words. She earned that one, she believes. Ruzek rises her hand towards his lips and without looking away from her eyes, he kiss one of her knuckles, slowly.
"I know you're strong enough. Surprisingly, that's me who is not. Do you believe it? I'm always the first to run into danger and right now, I can't even move a finger without feeling the pain inside of me..." He stops for a while, trying to find the right words apparently.
"Someone's after us. Intelligence. You're the target at the moment, the first one if we read the message correctly, the last one by the way. The team is working on it though, so you don't need to worry. By the time you're out of here, it will be an old story. For sure." For the first time since she's known him, Kim sees his concern, hidden behind a load of fake confidence, but she doesn't comment. The young woman tries to assimilate the information she's just had. She's been hit, she remembers that pretty well now but for the rest, she has nothing.
"So, what are you doing here instead of working the case?" Kim doesn't even ask why her and why in general someone would attack us. She knows it. They put people behind bars every day, a lot of them want revenge so they just have to figure out who's angry at them right now. Adam swallows and gets closer to her, his hands still surrounding her own.
"I ran after you. I found you, unconscious in that terrible alley, I still have your blood on me and I can't work, Kim. You know why. Deep down, you always knew. I just..." But he cannot finish as his phone starts ringing on the night table and Kim sees the name of the caller. Wendy. The silence comes, Adam doesn't move, incredibly quiet for once.
"Answer it. It's your fiancé, Ruzek. She must be worried, it's..." And Kim looks at the clock at the other end of the room.. "Five in the morning. You're not home. Think about her, please." She doesn't even know why she begs him. Then, she closes her eyes when she feels he lets go of her hand to answer the call in the hallway, too far from her, in her opinion. But still, she knows she made the right thing, once again. Even if she is at the edge of cracking up, for the second time in one night. She holds on. She always does.
"I can't talk to you now, Wendy. Yeah... I know... I'm sorry, I didn't leave a fucking note but It's work, you know... Calm down... I'm at the hospital... No, I'm not hurt... I really have to go... Whatever... See you." Adam stops his steps in the middle of the corridor, hand on his hip, not even listening to what Wendy is actually saying. He has other things to do, Kim needed him so he hangs up without further notice, the voice of Wendy being cut in the middle of her sentence. Whatever. he enters the room once again and sits beside her bed.
"Sorry about that... I apologize a lot tonight, wow, I sound like Jin during his best days." He smiles, his humor is worthless, Adam massively knows it but he can't stop it when the elephant Wendy is in the room between them.
"You should go home, Adam. Go to sleep. You should go to her. Really." Kim looks away once again, not even denying the awkward moment they're sharing one more time because of Wendy.
"If you think I will leave your side for a minute, you're utterly wrong. What did I teach you two hours ago, hum? I'm a pretty convincing monk, if you haven't noticed. I'm gonna stay right here, carrying our memories around, until the bastards who almost took you away from me... From us, are arrested. End of discussion, Burgess. Don't insist, I'm winning this argument." He smiles, victorious, before making himself more comfortable in his chair, ready to stay awake for a whole week if required.
"For a few seconds, I actually thought you were in love with me. I think my concussion is very serious, actually. I'm fighting you and your cartoon robots, I can't let you win with your stupid smile, right there." Adam freezes for a while, his eyes wide open when looking at her, speechless while Kim points her finger towards his face, ironically.
"I heard the doctors whispering it's not that serious... Go back to sleep before they change their mind." And he looks at his shoes because he knows he avoided the crisis by an inch saying that kind of innuendos. Kim smiles before adding something that will probably sticks with him forever.
"Adam?" He looks at her, concerned. "You are perfect the way you are. You were always kind to me, you were always there for your partner, you're generous enough to deserve anything you want. Don't change because she wants you to, change because you want to." He doesn't move at all, his eyes locked on hers. She heard. She knows.
"And that's why I can't let you slip away from me. That's why I have feelings for you that I haven't for her. I never will have for her." He says quietly before fainting he was trying to fall asleep. He won't, of course, but he can't face her at the moment. He might do something reckless once again and Kim will never forgive him if he reacts that way while he's still officially in an engagement whatsoever. When he opens his eyes again, she's sound asleep and he is satisfied with that fact. Before watching over her, smiling at the least of her moves and changes in her features, Ruzek comes kissing her temple, warmly.