~SPENCER POV~
"Hotch, it was self-defense and she saved my life. How can you sit here and tell me that she might go to prison?" I growled and stood from the chair I was sitting in and began to pace around the office.
He looked down at the file papers and said "I understand you are upset but it all falls into the fact that he's dead and I'm not saying it's certain. Her mother is going to have to sit in as a witness and that is where we have trouble."
"This bastard beat her for twenty-two years and now that she's free from him she might go to prison. How is that right?" I asked and slammed my hands down on his desk.
He stood up from his desk then and gave me one of his solemn looks. I was so angry that I couldn't see straight in that moment. "Reid, calm down. They may trial that as a reason for revenge which is why we have to make sure that we do everything we can to show it was self-defense."
"Her mother is going to lie through her teeth if she gets behind that stand. You know that." I said and looked out towards the main room where the rest of the team and saw Bexley talking with Sloane. She laughed at something and I couldn't imagine losing her after all that we'd been through. To never hear her laugh, to not wake up in her arms, to never see her smile, and to never kiss her again would be too painful and at that moment was all too real.
Hotch sat back down in his chair and said "I know this and that is exactly why we are going to attempt to catch Sasha in a lie. If she's caught in a lie and we prove that she warned Chris ahead of time before the arrest, we can put her away for life on account of accessory to murder, child abandonment, interfering with an arrest, and perjury."
"Hotch." I could hear the hopelessness and fear in my voice but couldn't bring myself to care. "I can't lose her."
Hotch's voice was full of comfort and understanding as he said "I understand. I truly do, which is why we are going to do anything and everything to help. We sent out for her mom today and the rest of the team is going to do everything they can to help. It will be a while for us to put together a trial so don't worry about anything and spend time with her now."
I nodded before walking out of his office and saw her looking at Sloane's hand that was resting on her four month pregnant stomach. On her hand was the engagement ring Tyler had given her last week.
It'd been two months since Sloane found out she was pregnant and a little less than two months since Bexley had killed her father. It was strange seeing the two different paths of their lives but how they tangled together as well. Sloane had become Bexley's best friend and had also been the reason that Bexley had made it to the hospital on time after her father attacked her in the music store.
I was very grateful for her being there for Bexley when I couldn't be and was glad to see her happy. Eleanor stood on the other side of Sloane and smiled when she saw me.
"Don't be so stressed, dearie." Eleanor said and I couldn't help but laugh at the words.
"That's like telling me not to breathe." I told her and noticed that my tone was barely above a whisper.
Bexley rubbed Sloane's stomach once more before getting up and walking over to me. She kissed my cheek before wrapping her arms around my neck. "It's going to be okay. What's going to happen is going to happen."
She pressed a kiss to my lips before I could answer her and decided to simply trust Hotch. As I looked to see Tyler had walked over to Sloane to put a hand on her stomach to feel the heartbeat of his unborn child, I realized there was something else on my mind that I wanted to talk to Bexley about.
"Hey Bex, did you want to hear the baby name we've come up with so far?" Tyler asked and Sloane groaned the moment he said it.
Garcia, JJ, Morgan, and Rossi all looked over from their desk as this was asked and Bexley smiled. "You know I do."
"Ryker Amadeus Hale." Tyler said proudly and I saw shock cross Bexley's voice just as Sloane put a hand to her head.
Bexley seemed to be considering what to say before speaking. "It's unique and definitely not the worst-"
"It's awful but it was Amadeus or Sebastian." Sloane growled and Bexley covered her mouth to quiet the giggle that escaped.
"Is the reason why you didn't want to call him Sebastian because of the possibility of you calling him something else?" she asked and Sloane nodded.
I smiled and said "It suits. Tyler has a love of classical music and you have a love of unique names. Plus, isn't classical music something that you both have in common?"
Sloane smirked at me and her green eyes were bright with irritation and amusement. "You have a point, Einstein. Is that going to be a name option for your kid?"
This caused everyone on the team to start laughing as well as myself but I could see a flash of guilt cross Bexley's face.
"Let's go home." I told her as I kissed her forehead lightly.
~BEXLEY POV~
As I sat on the sofa in Spencer's apartment, I couldn't help the nervous feeling that had been with me since the mention of him having a baby of his own. Sloane had meant it as a joke but a million thoughts had rushed into my mind before I'd had time to stop them.
He wanted a baby and I didn't really know what to say. Whether to tell him the truth or not was weighing on my heart heavily in this moment. He walked over and sat next to me before gently kissing my lips.
I nipped his bottom lip before deepening the kiss. I needed the comfort that his kiss provided and I was thankful that he was more than willing to give me this comfort. I grabbed his hand and let my fingers tangle with his.
"I love you." He said softly and I felt my eyes drop to the floor.
I kept my hand in his but couldn't look into his eyes as I felt the words spill from my lips. "I'm worried that's going to change after tonight."
"Bexley, why would that change?" he asked, worry was thick in his tone and it made me feel guilty.
I pulled my hand from his and sat cross legged on the sofa. "Do you want kids, Spencer?"
He seemed puzzled but didn't hesitate to say "Of course I do."
"Spence, I can't have children." I said as tears began to slide down my cheeks. He didn't say anything as he tried to pull me into his arms but I had to say the rest of the truth first. "I'm not sad that I can't have them. I don't want to bring a baby into the world in any way."
I finally looked up into his beautiful brown eyes and wished desperately that I hadn't. Hurt, anguish, and hopelessness crossed his features all at once and guilt began to crush my heart.
"Bexley, if this is about my family's history with schizophrenia..." He started but I couldn't let him think that was what was wrong.
I gently placed my fingers on his lips to keep him quiet before moving them to his cheek. I softly rubbed the pad of my thumb along his cheek as I spoke.
"You would make an amazing father, Spencer. I'm not even worried about your family background because that's something we can work through. I'm worried about my family background." I said and his expression became very confused.
"Spencer, my dad beat me all of my life and my mom abandoned me without a second thought. The only people who were truly worth anything to me were killed or died. I don't want to be like that. I don't want to be my mom." I finished and dropped my hand from his face.
He put his hands on either side of my cheek and carefully brushed away the tears. "Bexley Valerica, you are nothing like the rest of your family. You are strong, beautiful, brave, and would make an amazing mother. If you don't want children, I'm not going to force that on you."
"I don't want to take that away from you." I could barely finish the sentence before I felt a sob choke me.
He pulled me into his arms and I let him this time. "I love you and as long as I have you, there's nothing else I could possibly want."
"I love you." I said and he kissed me before pushing me lightly on the couch.
We didn't make love but instead I just enjoyed the feel of his lips against mine and being in his arms all night long.
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