~SPENCER POV~
The next morning when I woke up, I could smell eggs and bacon being cooked on the stove. I ran a hand through my hair and saw that she had had a shower and wore a fresh change of clothes.
"Did you get the key to your apartment?" I asked and she smiled as she brought over two plates of food.
"I did." She said as she handed me a plate. She sat down next to me but I noticed that she was slightly more distant than usual this morning.
"Thank you." I said and I took a bite out of the eggs before smiling. "You're spoiling me you know. I usually go by the coffee shop in the morning. I don't know what to make of the home cooked meals."
She laughed then. "Maybe you'll keep me after all."
I leaned over and kissed her cheek before saying "I love you."
"You sure are saying that a lot lately." she laughed as I leaned in and kissed her neck.
"Only because I love to hear you say it back." I teased and moved my kisses up to her jaw.
She leaned in and gently pecked my lips. "In that case, I love you too."
We finished eating our breakfast and placed our plates on my coffee table. When she tried to get up to take them to the sink, I pulled her close to me before giving her a real kiss.
She leaned into the kiss but didn't fully relax. I pulled away from the kiss and ran my hand through her hair.
"I wanted to talk to you about last night." I said and she wrapped her arms around my neck before laying her head on my shoulder.
"Can't we just drop it?" she asked and I could hear the disappointment in her voice.
I put my hands on her back and let my hands trace patterns along her spine before speaking again. "I just wanted to talk to you about something. Well, I guess technically the right word would be explain."
She moved away from me and towards the other end of the couch. "Reid." She had the slightest tone of irritation in her voice.
"You said you didn't want to be like your mother? That you didn't want to abandon your child? Bex, my dad abandoned me when I was extremely young too. That's why I keep getting PhD's. Hotch once told me that there are several ways for sons to defeat their fathers. It's the same with mothers and their daughters." I said and she looked away from me.
She took a deep breath and wrapped her arms around her knees, pulling them to her in the process. I wanted to wrap my arms back around her but I knew that she didn't want to be touched in that moment.
"It's not just the fact that I don't want to be like my mom. Spencer, if I was able to get pregnant and I lost the baby, I don't think I could live with myself. Not only would I take that joy away from you but someone else's death would be my fault again. I can't live with that. I can't have a perfect happiness and it be destroyed." She said and I could tell she was getting more and more irritated and I wasn't even sure if it was at me now.
"Bex… is it because of a genetic thing that you can't have kids?" I asked and she ran a hand through her hair.
She bit her lip before saying "No. As it turns out, you can be beaten to the point of infertility."
"It's less than a 20% chance, Bex." I stated and I saw her face drop and a tear slide down her face.
She wiped it away and then dropped her hand back to around her knees. "13% if you want to be exact. My luck has never really been that good."
I didn't really know what to say to her in that moment. I knew that all I wanted was to hold her in that moment. Before I could say anything, my phone buzzed loudly.
I looked at the phone and saw that it was a message from Garcia. "Your mom is on her way."
She nodded and stood up from the couch. I stood up from the couch and pulled her close to me. I let my head rest on top of hers as she wrapped her arms around my waist.
"I'm not ready for this." She whispered and I let my hands trail down her lower back and through her hair.
I kissed her forehead and said "I'll be there with you every step of the way."
"I know you will, Iubirea mea." She placed a kiss over my heart before stepping out of my embrace. Even if it was just the two of us for the rest of our lives, I would be completely content with that.
As long as I had her, I'd never need anything else.
~BEXLEY POV~
As we walked in through the doors of the B.A.U., I felt my stomach twist in knots and not just from the fact that I was about to meet my mom. The conversation of children had shaken me to my core.
Spencer, Derek, Aaron, and Dave had all gone up to one of their offices to discuss something about the court hearing in three months and how they were going to handle my mom during court.
Ironically, it was the day before Sloane and Tyler's wedding. I had been told recently that I would be the maid of honor in the wedding and that meant helping plan the wedding. Something I had absolutely no experience with.
She walked in a minute later and sat down in Tyler's lap as he wrapped his arms around her.
"You look about as bad as I feel." Sloane said as she moved to get comfortable in Tyler's lap. She had given up on protesting after he'd pulled her into his lap for the thirtieth time.
I laughed lightly before looking down at my feet. "I'm about to see my mom again. Of course I feel bad."
She laughed then and said "Don't worry. If she messes with you, I'll whip her ass. Pregnant or not."
Tyler arched his eye brow and said "I know you will but I would rather you not put Ryker in danger."
She leaned back and placed a kiss on his lips just as JJ and Penelope walked in with Sasha in tow. She walked right over to me and put her hands on her hips.
"Is it not enough that you are the reason your daddy came back into my life? You had to ruin not only my past but my future as well?" she growled and I was completely confused at this point.
"I haven't got the first fucking idea what the hell you are talking about." I growled back and she flipped her hair.
"You sent a summoning to court to my home explaining why I had to be there. My now ex-fiancé found out about my past and dumped me for abandoning my worthless child!" she threw her hands up in frustration.
I let out a humorless laugh at the statement she'd just made before saying "I like him already but I'm failing to see how this is my fault."
"If you're little whore self wouldn't have been fucking an F.B.I agent, none of this would have happened and my life would be completely peaceful." I watched as JJ's, Penelope's, and Sloane's expressions changed from semi-calm and professional to purely pissed off.
"Not that I am a whore but if I were, it'd be pretty damn clear where I got it from." I growled and stood up to walk away from her.
I felt a sting in my cheek before I'd even registered that she'd slapped me. She had a proud smile on her face and put both of her hands on her hips. "Say something smart now."
"If your goal was to hurt me, you're going to have to do a lot better than that after leaving me with Chris for twenty-two years." I told her and she clenched her fist.
I watched as she prepared to strike but had forgotten about everyone else being in the room. I saw a fist meet with Sasha's nose and saw a very satisfied look on Sloane's face.
"Sloane." I heard Tyler groan but he made no move to help her.
Sasha put both hands over her nose and glared angrily at the four months pregnant biker chick. I rolled my eyes at her. "Did you think I was kidding?"
"Sloane, I learned very quickly when I first met you that if you said something you meant it." I said and she simply shrugged her shoulders.
Eleanor had apparently walked in just as I'd been slapped and rushed over to me. "Are you okay, sweetie?"
I moved away from her hand and stood up from where I'd been sitting. "I'm fine. I'm a lot tougher than I look."
"Lady, you must not have children." Sasha growled and I turned to look at her. "They are a bother and nothing special. Though, I'm guessing since you've never had children you had to get someone's left overs."
I didn't think before my fist connected with her eye and I could see it blackening immediately. "Don't you ever talk to her that way."
She was about to say something else when JJ cut in. Her voice was full of irritation and no sympathy as she said "Get out."
"I'll see you in court." She growled and began to walk out of the room.
Just as she made it to the doors I yelled "Damn right you will!"
I heard laughter from behind me and turned around to see that the sound was coming from Eleanor. I turned around and hugged her, feeling guilt from my mom saying something so horrible to her.
"Nice shot, Bex." Sloane said and this caused JJ, Tyler, and Penelope to laugh.
I looked up to see Spencer, Dave, Derek, and Aaron standing on the balcony above the rest of the room.
Derek laughed and said "Didn't know you had it in you, Pretty Girl."
"Reid, your girlfriend is a badass." Penelope said with a giggle and walked over. She let her arms out in a hug and I returned the embrace.
Eleanor smiled brightly at the exchange and I looked up at Aaron, knowing that he was probably more than a little annoyed at the exchange.
"I think I'll let that one slide." He said and Penelope, JJ, and I exchanged unbelieving looks before laughing.
"This calls for a celebration." Dave stated as he walked down the stairs. "Dinner at my place tonight. Hotch and JJ, bring the kids and significant others. Eleanor, I insist you join us."
I laughed as Dave said this. Spencer walked down the stairs and went to stand directly in front of me while everyone else left. He gently placed his finger tips on my cheek but I just leaned into his hand.
"Relax, I don't bruise that easy." I kissed his palm and was glad to see that it least it appeared like nothing had changed between us.
"Bex." He said my nickname barely above a whisper. I looked up at him and waited for him to continue what he was going to say, my heart taking off.
He leaned forward and placed a kiss on my lips before pulling me into an embrace. "You're everything I could have ever wanted."
I wrapped my arms around his neck and felt an unexplainable amount of joy fill my heart. I don't know how long we stood there but I knew that I could have stayed there in his arms for the rest of my life given the choice.
"Come on, love birds!" Penelope called and we broke apart to join the rest of the team to get ready for dinner at Dave's.
***Hey two updates in two days! I hope you are all still enjoying the story and would love to hear from all of you on how you think the story is progressing. A thank you to ahowell1993 for helping be an inspiration for the beginning of this chapter. I had completely forgotten about that scene and when I watched it again I just had to update. R&R and thank you for reading.