So the past week, Kurt had been alone at night, but if it made him comfortable then Blaine really didn't mind.
But he was a little hurt every time Kurt pulled away from him, or pushed Blaine's hands off of him. The kids though, were overjoyed that their dada was home, and Kurt hadn't wanted to let Justin out of his arms for a whole day. Justin hadn't minded, he was 3 months old, so spending all day in his father's arms was great for him. Especially as Kurt had managed to start feeding him again, he was slowly getting his bond with Justin back.
Elizabeth had asked where Kurt had gone, but Kurt had no answer to give her, he had just shrugged and said it didn't matter, he was home now and changed the subject. She seemed to understand after a while that she wouldn't get an answer, so she stopped asking and just enjoyed spending time with him.
Alex had hugged him and fallen asleep on Kurt's lap, not wanting to be away from him. Isabella had been a different story, she kept her distance from Kurt for a little while on the first day, but after a while she had hugged him and given him a big smile.
Alex and Isabella were still quiet though, they still wouldn't utter a word.
The other thing that upset Blaine, was that in the last week, he hadn't been able to even talk about the baby situation, Kurt vehemently refused to talk about it. Burt and Cooper had both left at the weekend, Blaine promising to keep them updated on how Kurt was doing.
Burt had managed a quick hug with his son, before he left, which is a lot of progress on Kurt's part. But he still wouldn't let anyone else touch him.
Doctor Harrison and the nurse that was with him, came out of the door as Blaine was just about to lose his patience and go and check on Kurt.
"We're done, he was a little stressed out, but he managed to go through with the examinations. You can go in now, try not to push him to talk though, he seems a little stuck in his own head." The doctor said as Blaine nodded, then added, "As I suspected there was some damage internally, but it's not really that extensive, it should heal in time."
Blaine swallowed hard, and fought back tears as the doctor patted his back and left.
Entering the room, he found Kurt with his knees up by his chest, his head buried in his jeans, and he was sobbing quietly.
"Kurt, baby, it's done now, we can go." Blaine said gently as he approached, Kurt lifted his head slightly and looked up through wet lashes at Blaine.
"I don't think I can do anymore of that..." He said quietly and Blaine nodded in understanding.
"The doctor didn't say there would be any more...don't worry, I won't let them touch you again." Blaine replied as he sat on the bed next to Kurt.
He went to put his arm around him, but Kurt shook his head and placed a hand inside Blaine's instead. Blaine smiled at him, and placed a kiss against the back of his hand.
"Let's go home."
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The next few weeks were a testament to Kurt's strength and determination. He slowly progressed to hugs from everyone. And after 2 more weeks, the doctor's were happy enough that his rib was healing well, he wouldn't have to have it wrapped tightly anymore.
Blaine still wasn't sleeping beside him at night though.
But at least Kurt wasn't shutting him out anymore. The therapist session was due in another couple days, and Blaine felt that Kurt was making progress on his own, even though he wouldn't talk about what happened, or about the baby, or anything of real importance. The most conversations he had were with or about the children. He seemed a lot calmer and happier when they were around.
After the first therapy session, he was quiet. But not worryingly quiet, just contemplative. Blaine had asked what the therapist had talked about and Kurt had told him that she had gone over the events that led up to it, which was leaving Justin and Sam in the house, and how he had felt.
But Kurt smiled more, and he laughed genuinely with the kids now. Blaine felt a little bit of relief every time he smiled. He was proud of his husband. But he still felt a little helpless, Kurt still kept him at arms length.
He saw fondness in Kurt's eyes, when he looked at him, but he still saw a little trepidation and fear, he understood, but he was starting to really miss Kurt, even being just a few feet away from him, felt like miles.
The turning point came one night, after his 5th or 6th therapy session, he had come out of her office crying, and let Blaine wrap his arms around him. He wouldn't share what was talked about in there, but it was the very first night that he asked Blaine to sleep in the same bed.
Kurt still kept his distance from him, even as they slept. Blaine remained patient even though it was killing him inside not to touch Kurt the way he used too. Some nights Kurt would reach out to him, and hold his hand, other nights he let Blaine place an arm around him, but if Blaine's arm moved too low, he would tense up and move away.
Another 6 weeks went by, Justin had moved on to baby food, and Elizabeth had started her summer holidays school, Sebastian spent more time with Hunter at the house, and Kurt was still in therapy.
Blaine had had to go back to work, even though he was fairly certain he could leave his assistant manager Tommy in charge, he needed to escape from everything for a little while. Things between him and Kurt hadn't changed much, but at least Blaine could touch him without being pushed away.
Kurt would not allow a kiss though. He turned his face every time Blaine tried, and it hurt every time he did. And still they had not discussed the baby.
Kurt had a scan a couple of weeks ago to try and determine how many weeks he was, but because his body was still healing and the fact that Kurt didn't eat much, so was still underweight, it meant that the baby was small and a proper estimation was impossible to know, but they had estimated between 13-16 weeks.
It played on Blaine's mind, because if he was over 13 weeks, it would mean he fell before he was taken, but because they couldn't be sure of the date he fell, it would make it nearly impossible to know who the father was.
Blaine had made a decision to force Kurt to talk about the baby, he wanted to know how Kurt felt about it, and what he wanted to do.
Kurt was in the middle of bathing Justin, their son splashing around with the little bubbles in his bath, and Blaine had made sure that Elizabeth, Alex and Isabella were all in bed, before he went to stand in the doorway of the bathroom to watch.
He smiled as Kurt leaned over to blow a raspberry on Justin's little stomach and the baby laughed loudly, before splashing more, covering Kurt's face and hair in some of the bubbles and Blaine couldn't help the loud laugh that came out of his own mouth.
Kurt turned to glare at him, with a small smirk on his face as he wiped it off on a towel.
"I'm glad you think it's amusing." He said sarcastically and Blaine grinned before moving to kneel next to him, watching Justin kicking his feet in the water.
"It was very funny...you like getting Dada wet, don't you little man?" Blaine said as he tickled Justin's feet, and Justin just splashed more.
"Well, this little man, won't find it funny when I pull the plug in a minute." Kurt said and Blaine laughed lightly.
After watching the baby splashing in his bath for a minute, Blaine decided to just go for it.
"Kurt, we have to talk."
He saw Kurt tense up out of the corner of his eye.
"Blaine, can we not do this right now?" Kurt said quietly and pulled the plug out of the bath, watching the bubbles drain away.
"No, we need to talk, tonight." Blaine insisted and Kurt picked Justin up and wrapped him in a towel before walking away, but Blaine had no intention to let him walk away form the conversation this time.
Blaine followed Kurt into the nursery, watching as Kurt dried and changed Justin for bed, then making sure he was tucked in properly.
"You're not running away from this, we need to talk about the baby." Blaine said sternly and Kurt's back stiffened.
"Can't this wait?"
"No, it can't, I've been waiting for you to feel a little better to try and talk about it, but every time I bring it up, you refuse to talk about it. But after that scan today, we have to." Blaine said in a demanding tone, "Maybe you didn't fall in that place, maybe that baby is mine."
Kurt kissed Justin on the forehead, before walking out of the nursery and into their bedroom, Blaine following behind after he kissed Justin too.
"Don't you think, that I haven't thought about that all day? I'm hoping, and praying to a god that I don't believe in, that this baby is yours...you think I'm ignoring it but I'm not. It's all I've thought about for weeks."
"So why haven't you spoken to me about it?" Blaine said getting irritated now.
"Because I'm scared!" Kurt shouted at him, and then collapsed to the floor in tears, Blaine was quick to kneel down with him, and wrapped his arms around him while Kurt cried out his frustration, "B-Blaine...you don't understand...how much I wish that I knew...it was yours, do you know...how much it will kill me inside to find out...that it's not?"
"Kurt-"
"I'm scared of being pregnant...I'm scared of growing to love the baby...and I'm scared of falling for something that...that ...that monster made. But mostly, I'm afraid of losing you." Kurt sobbed out and Blaine arms wrapped around him tighter.
"You will never lose me." Blaine said sternly and Kurt pushed him away with a grunt, until they were sitting on the floor facing each other.
"Yeah? Do you really love me so much, that if this baby isn't yours...and I decide to keep it...if I love this baby...and it isn't yours, would you be ok with it?...Honestly?" Kurt said as he placed his hands around himself.
Blaine thought about it for a moment, and Kurt could see he was thinking, he gave him a moment to answer.
"Kurt, we're bonded. If I had to accept a child that isn't mine...I would." Blaine said gently.
Kurt snorted and went to turn away but Blaine grabbed his hands and forced him to look him in the eyes, trying to reveal how earnest his answer is.
"I would, because that baby would be my mates..." He said almost too sternly, and Kurt couldn't stop staring into his eyes, "I love you...I love you...and if it happens, I'd love this baby too."
Kurt broke down in tears again, and Blaine pulled him towards him, shushing him and whispering that he loved him, over and over again until Kurt believed him.
"I'm here, Kurt, I'm here," he whispered as he placed little loving kisses over his forehead and his temple, "I'm not going anywhere, you hear me? I'm not going anywhere."
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Kurt decided he needed to tell everyone, even though both of them knew that Sam had already known from the start. The ones he decided to tell first, was his parents. So one night, when the kids were asleep they had text Carole asking if they were both able to Skype, because it was important, they received an affirmative text in reply and so they had sat on their bed, snuggled up to each other, and Skyped Carole's laptop, and Carole answered almost straight away.
She looked at both of their serious faces, before her smile dropped and she called Burt to hurry up and sit down.
"Hey, guys." Burt greeted and Blaine gave them both a small wave and a little smile, where as Kurt just sat with his hands in his lap, "What's going on?"
Kurt swallowed hard, and Blaine wrapped an arm around him tighter before Kurt spoke.
"Dad, there was something I never told you, about...before." Kurt started and Burt's frown deepened.
"Kurt, are you okay?"
"Not really..." Kurt said as tears started to prickle behind his eyes, and he turned to Blaine, "I can't..." he said desperately and buried his face into Blaine shirt.
Blaine shushed him.
"It's ok, Kurt. You want me to tell them?" At a nod from Kurt, Blaine turned back to the screen, "While we were at the hospital on the night we got him back, erm...they had to run a pregnancy test, because he was...raped.."
Carole had gasped and tightened her hold onto Burt, tears spreading through her eyes, and Burt sat with a ever deepening frown on his gruff face.
"Kurt, are you...?" She asked in a shaky voice, and Kurt nodded at her question, face still buried in Blaine's shirt, "Oh my...Oh, sweetheart."
"But that's not all," Blaine added in quickly, "there is also some stipulation over the date that the baby was conceived, they can't for definite say whether he fell while he was...there...or if he was already pregnant when he was taken."
"So it could be yours?" Burt asked after he was silent for a while.
"Could be."
"Can't they do a test to find out?" Burt asked while he watched Kurt try to bury his face further into Blaine's shirt.
"Erm...no, Kurt hasn't been eating well, and he isn't very healthy right now, physically or mentally for that type of invasive procedure, but we are waiting until after the baby is born, to...test it."
Burt and Carole both nodded their understanding, Carole more than Burt, being a nurse herself, but she would probably explain it to him later. After chatting with them for about 20 minutes, Kurt had to stop talking about it and Blaine said their goodbyes and signed off.
"Are you alright to tell the guys tonight? Or did you want to do it another time?" Blaine asked as Kurt sighed into his neck after the call disconnected.
"I'd better do it tonight, ripping the bandaid off, as it were."
"You don't have to-" Blaine said but Kurt placed his hand against his lips, and smiled up at him gently.
"No, we should." At Blaine's nod, they both got back out of bed and made their way downstairs.
Sebastian was talking on the phone in the kitchen, and Sam and Puck were playing some fighting game, arguing over Puck using the same move again and again.
Blaine coughed a little from behind them and they both turned shocked faces up at them, before Puck paused the game and they both set their controllers down.
"Hey, we thought you had gone to bed?" Puck said as he patted the space next to him on the couch.
"We have to talk to you guys about something, can we just...sit?" Blaine said and Puck and Sam exchanged a glance.
"Sure..." Puck said hesitantly and sat on the couch facing them.
"I think I already know." Sam said as he looked between them, and Kurt smiled slightly at him.
"Thanks for not saying anything Sam." He told him and Sam smiled back at him.
"Ok, now I'm curious." Puck said as Sebastian walked through the door, and he stopped to eye them all curiously on the couch.
"Curious about what? If you want to experiment Puck, all you have to do is ask." He said with a smirk and Kurt sighed and asked for him to sit down with the rest of them.
The atmosphere turned somber as Kurt and Blaine explained everything that was going on, and after Kurt had started getting upset with the mention of everything, Puck had literally thrown himself across the living room to wrap him in his arms, and they both sobbed.
Blaine and Sebastian watched Puck curiously but Sam smiled sadly as Puck continued to shush himself more than Kurt, and Kurt hands were smoothing over Puck's back and shoulders comfortingly.
"So, are you keeping it?" Sebastian asked when everyone had settled back into their seats.
Blaine and Kurt shared a glance and nodded between them.
"Yeah...we are." Blaine said confidently as he took Kurt's hand, the guys all looked between each other with wary expressions.
"But...erm...what if it isn't-?" Sebastian began, but Blaine waved a hand to stop him.
"Then it is what it is," Blaine shrugged, and gave Kurt a small smile, causing Kurt to smile back gratefully, "The baby is staying."
When Kurt turned 18 weeks, he started vomiting. It was actually what woke them both up one horrifying morning, Blaine had been all snuggled and warm with his arms protectively wrapped around Kurt, and he had just regained a little bit of consciousness when he was covered in something wet.
He bolted upright as soon as it happened and heard Kurt gagging and coughing beside him, he wiped a hand over his face, wincing when he realised what he was covered in, and trying not to gag himself, reached over and placed a hand on Kurt's heaving back, Kurt himself hadn't stopped hacking and throwing up yet.
"Oh...my...god, Blaine-" He started but was cut off by more retching, "I-I'm so...sorry."
"It's ok, Kurt." Blaine had said immediately, even though he felt sick to his stomach, he had to be a comfort for Kurt right now, and it's not like his husband could help it.
"B-Blaine...eurgh...I-" Kurt tried to talk over choking and coughing, and Blaine shushed him while he continued throwing up, it had soaked the bed, and both of them by now.
Kurt had rolled out of the bed, when the vomiting had tapered off, and Blaine wrinkled his nose as he eyed the sheets, and his t-shirt, soaked in puke.
"Come on, baby, let's go and shower," He said as he got up to guide Kurt to the bathroom, "And then I'll clean the bed up."
And Kurt's sickness did not let up. He was sick as a dog, all day.
And the next day.
And the next.
Blaine started to worry after the third day, when he woke up to find the bed cold and empty next to him, and the sound of retching and heaving coming from the bathroom. It was worrying because Kurt hardly ate during the day, and with all this sickness, surely he wasn't keeping anything at all, in his system.
He could see Kurt getting weaker and weaker every time, and he was tired a lot. Falling asleep almost the instant he ever had a chance to sit down. He didn't even have the strength to hold Justin for long. Blaine was getting extremely worried. But Kurt had told him, he felt fine after he was sick, and he played it off as the baby protesting to certain foods.
That excuse was wearing thin, and when Blaine had seen him nearly topple down the stairs, too weak to keep his balance, he had made a decision to take Kurt to the hospital.
After a nurse took all of the information and measured his height, checked his weight, listened to his heart, measured the area around his abdomen, she had walked off and had kindly told them she would get the doctor, and they could wait in the room.
"So, Kurt," Doctor Harrison said as he walked into the room, "having trouble holding anything down, is that right?"
"Yes."
"Ok, looks like you are getting dangerously underweight though," he said looking down at his chart with a frown, "have you been eating?"
Kurt looked down a little ashamed and the doctor looked to Blaine instead.
"Erm...he has been eating but his appetite isn't there, not like before, and he has been sick all day for the last 3 days...he nearly fell down the stairs, I don't think he can keep anything down." Blaine explained and the doctor nodded along, before he looked back at Kurt.
"Well, I'm afraid our only option at the moment, looking at your information and your status, you'll have to stay in."
Kurt eyes widened and he gasped slightly, and Blaine frowned sadly.
"Now, I know that it may not be the best option in your mind, but with what you have told me, we will need an overnight observation before making a decision for your benefit. There are certain medications I could give you, but with you being so underweight, it would be dangerous for the baby."
Kurt sighed as he placed a hand over his stomach, before he shot up off of the bed and bolted for the little bathroom, and Blaine and the doctor both watched him go.
"Blaine," the doctor started and Blaine looked towards him, "I've never lost a patient yet, if there is something I do well, it's look after people. I promise you, he will in the best care. I implore you to try and convince him that it's for the best. He looks to you for comfort I know, but while he's here, I can properly observe and make the best decisions for his own health and the health of the baby. Have you spoken about the pregnancy yet?"
"Yes, we want to keep it." Blaine said and the doctor nodded, "But there is some complicated dates around the conceiving part, and we would like a DNA test after the baby is born, to know for sure."
"Yes, I'll put that down in the notes." Doctor Harrison nodded, "I'll leave now, I have all I need, you may leave when you wish, but I want him staying here."
As the doctor left, Kurt re-emerged looking worse for wear, and Blaine smiled sadly at him as he helped him climb back onto the bed.
"Kurt, you have to stay, it's for the best." Blaine said and Kurt had looked up at him in shock, before crossing his arms.
"I'm fine," Kurt sighed and Blaine shook his head.
"You're not, and they need to help you, it can't go on. I won't lose you." Blaine said vehemently trying to get his point across, and Kurt eventually looked over at him with a worried look.
"But I-"
"I'll be here as much as I can, but I have to leave tonight. The others will want to know what's going on." Blaine said as he grasped Kurt's hand in his, "And I have to go and grab a few things for you, so that you don't have to wear that old hospital gown, it's very unflattering."
Kurt laughed a little as Blaine attempted to joke with him, and he wrapped his arms around his husband's neck, pulling him closer.
"Ok, tell the kids I love them though." Kurt said ad he pulled away, and Blaine placed a loving kiss on his cheek.
"Of course I will. Why don't you try to get some rest?" Blaine suggested as Kurt lay down on the bed more, "I'll be back with some of your things soon, ok?"
Kurt nodded and Blaine kissed his head before he left. He could hear little sniffles coming from inside the room and it broke his heart to leave Kurt there, but he knew that he would be in the best place if anything happened.
Although he hoped it didn't.
After 2 days in the hospital, the doctor had decided to put Kurt on a special medication that helped his body absorb nutrients faster, as well as a certain protein shake for gaining weight quickly, liquid food was digested faster and absorbed quicker into the body, so with his shakes and medication he was sent home.
"And rest, as much as you can." The doctor had told him, with a stern but gentle look on his face, and Kurt had nodded at him.
Everyone was glad to see him home, he looked much better than he had a couple of days prior too, the kids had all but swamped him when he walked through the door, Elizabeth had been asking question after question about why her dada was sick, and Kurt had finally made a decision that he had to tell the kids.
He and Blaine had sat them all down quietly and explained about the new baby coming, and because the baby was kicking so much and moving around it had made him sick, but the hospital had a special medicine that kept his stomach happy so that he wasn't sick. Elizabeth seemed to buy it and grinned happily at her fathers before laying her head on top of Kurt's stomach and telling the baby off for making dada sick.
Blaine had laughed and then Alex had joined in, talking to the baby through Kurt's stomach, and after that Kurt felt so much happier, Blaine hadn't seen him look so happy in a long time now. It was great to see, and he wanted to keep that smile on Kurt's face forever.
"What is the baby going to be? A brother or a sister?" Elizabeth had asked curiously as she looked up at their smiling faces, Alex was still laying on Kurt's stomach.
Kurt looked over to Sam, who had grinned when everyone turned to him. He shook his head and leaned over the back of the couch, close to Kurt, who as it happened didn't flinch away, and took a deep breath in through his nose.
After a couple more deep breaths, Sam nodded to himself, and sat up to look at everyone.
"It's a boy."
Kurt laughed as Elizabeth whined about "another brother" and Blaine had been so excited to find out, that he couldn't help himself and kissed Kurt square on the lips. He froze as their lips touched and when he pulled back he was just about ready to apologize to Kurt, because they hadn't kissed since he had been home, because he felt uncomfortable.
But Kurt had giggled a little and had pulled him back in, pressing their mouths together lightly,
"I love you, Blaine Hummel-Anderson."
Blaine had thrown him his biggest, toothiest smile yet and pecked his lips once more.
"I love you too, Kurt Hummel-Anderson."