Now they were a couple of weeks away from sending sample pictures and designs and Kurt was getting more and more stressed out about it.
His team was good, they were very good at what they were doing, and Kurt was proud of them for taking all kinds of abuse as he shouted at them.
They all managed to knuckle down and build up a collection, there were a couple of really great designs in them, and he felt his stress level even out as Francois sent the email back saying that he liked them.
They had a plan.
It was going well today, after the email from Francois had brightened Kurt's mood, he spent lunchtime in the break room with Melissa and a couple of other girls, talking about guys and family, when Kurt felt a swirling feeling go through his stomach.
He excused himself as he made his way down the hall from his office to the bathroom, and emptied his lunch into the porcelain bowl in one of the cubicles. Someone had walked in while he was still wretching. A voice came through the door, after a while, a woman's voice and Kurt then realised that he had come into the ladies toilets, he groaned as he put his forehead on his arm.
He flushed the toilet and opened the door, the woman, Kathy or Katy, Kurt vaguely remembered her name, looked up at him with her mouth agape and then her eyes widened as she watched him walk to the sink.
"Are you ok, Mr Hummel-Anderson?" She asked a little worriedly as Kurt splashed some water on his face, and then rinsed his mouth out.
"Please call me Kurt," he told her and she blushed, "and I'm ok."
She hummed as she leaned against the sink next to him and she smiled sympathetically.
"I remember when I had my little girl, I was sick as a dog for days," she said and Kurt tensed up a little at her words, "I had to keep running to my works toilets at least 3 times a day."
"I have to go." Kurt told her quickly, giving her a small smile as he rushed out.
Melissa tried to call out to him, but he shook his head as he ran past and into the lift, she raised a curious eyebrow as he disappeared before Kathy stopped next to her, also watching him go.
"Poor guy, I think he's pregnant." She said and Melissa's eyebrows lifted as she looked at her.
"What?"
"He was just being sick in the ladies toilets, poor thing."
Melissa watched as she walked away before she hurried into Kurt's office and searched through his contact book for Blaine's number.
She dialled it quickly, but he didn't answer, so she left him a message, saying that she was worried about Kurt, that he was sick and then left, and to call her back later and let her know that he was ok.
She hoped he was.
Kurt had walked as fast as his legs could take him, out of his work building, across the street and into a little corner store, quickly running down the bathroom/toiletries isle, he located what he was looking for, and took a few off the shelf before hurrying to the counter. He was a little frantic by the time he got home, and went straight into the bathroom, ignoring Sam's greeting as he called out to him.
He locked the bathroom door behind him, and set to what he was doing. Quickly removing his jeans, he placed the sticks in the stream before he capped them all and placed them on the sink as he closed the toilet and sat on the lid, head in his hands as he waited.
"I can't be, I can't be, I can't be, it's just a stomach bug, it's just a stomach bug." He repeated over and over again to himself running his fingers through his hair, nervously, as he waited for 3 minutes.
When the 3 minutes were up, he tried with all his courage to get up and look at the results, 4 sticks sitting on the side of the sink, waiting to be read, but he couldn't.
There was a knock on the door, after Kurt had sat there, for what length of time he had no idea, and then his husband's calming voice came through the door.
"Kurt, it's me," Blaine said and he could hear him say something to Sam before Sam walked off, "Kurt, please."
Kurt couldn't get up, he felt sick again. It was a good thing he was already in the bathroom.
"Kurt, Melissa left a voicemail on my phone, saying that you'd been sick at work...sweetheart, please let me in."
Kurt gulped and took a few deep breaths before he got up slowly, without looking at the sticks on the sink, and unlocked the door for Blaine.
The door opened slowly as he went back to take his seat on the lid of the toilet, and Blaine came in slowly, cautiously. He eyed Kurt sitting on the toilet lid, running his hands through his hair, and tugging a few strands, before he saw the sticks on the side of the sink, and his eyes widened before they warmed as he looked at Kurt again.
"Babe, are you-"
"I don't know," Kurt interrupted quickly, shaking his head as the tears started slipping out, "I haven't looked."
"Do you want me to?" Blaine asked gently and Kurt thought about it for a moment before he closed his eyes and nodded.
Blaine peeked over the sticks, and then picked up the boxes from the floor, reading the results. Kurt watched him, but Blaine's expression was unreadable and Kurt looked away when Blaine's eyes caught his.
Blaine sighed as he dropped down to his knees, and placed a hand on one of Kurt's knees, prompting Kurt to look at him, his blue eyes shining with tears.
"You are." He said and then gathered Kurt into his arms as his husband burst into anguished sobs.
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"I don't understand, we have been careful." Blaine said as he and Kurt lay side by side in bed that night, Kurt had cried himself out, his face and eyes red, and he just shrugged in response.
"It only takes a little tear or hole in the condom, and then it happens." Kurt replied quietly as Blaine stroked his fingers through his hair, the tears built up again, "I can't do it...I can't...it's too much."
"Honey...look at me...it's going to be ok, whatever you decide, I'll be right there with you." Blaine assured him as he became emotional too, tears building up in his eyes as Kurt choked on a sob.
"But I-, you might hate me for it..." Kurt said quietly and Blaine cried harder as he leaned his forehead against Kurt's.
"Never Kurt, I will never hate you...I love you so much...so much..." Blaine said and they were both crying in earnest now, Kurt buried his hands in the front of Blaine's shirt, and pulled himself closer.
"How can you love me after...something like that..."
"Easy, because you're mine, you're my mate, and my husband, my one true love, the love of my life." Blaine said as he placed small kisses over Kurt's face and lips, "We have beautiful kids Kurt, and you did all that, you gave us them...honey, I will love forever, trust me."
"I do trust you...but-"
"No buts, Kurt, I love you that's it, it's never going to change." Blaine said gently but firmly and Kurt nodded as he tried to quell the tears with a couple of deep breaths.
"Ok...I guess we need to make an appointment...and-" Blaine silenced him with a kiss again, before he smiled gently at him.
"I'll do it...for you...alright?" He said and Kurt nodded as he placed his head down.
"ok..." He said quietly and started to sob again, and Blaine bit his lip as he pulled him closer.
"Come here." He said as Kurt buried his head against Blaine's neck, and released a couple of shuddering breaths, as Blaine's heart broke for his mate.
After Kurt had fallen to sleep, having cried himself into a deep one, Blaine got up and sat on the end of the bed for a while, choking on his sobs, and trying to be as quiet as he could. After sitting there for a while, he got up and started pacing the room, before he decided he needed to talk to somebody.
He walked over to Kurt, who was resting, he placed a kiss against his forehead before he left the room, dialling a familiar number on his phone.
He listened to the ring for quite some time before a groggy voice answered.
"Hello?"
"Coop...I need your help." Blaine managed to choke out and he heard rustling down the line as Cooper probably moved out of bed and then his voice came back through.
"What's the matter squirt? Everyone ok?"
"Not really..." Blaine said and then explained everything to Cooper, through his tears, Cooper was only able to catch a few words, and then waited as Blaine calmed down before speaking.
"Jesus Christ bro, another one?"
"Probably not..." Blaine said sniffling slightly, trying to remain calm, as he spoke to his brother, "Kurt said he feels like he can't do it again, and we've been discussing abor- you know, and ...what would you do coop?"
"Me?" Coop asked, and Blaine could see his brother's confused face in his head.
"If it was Eleanor, and she said she couldn't do it, what would you do?"
After a long pause, his brother sighed down the line.
"...I would respect the decision of my mate." He told him and Blaine nodded.
"Yeah, yeah...that's good." He agreed, before he choked on another sob, trying to remain quiet, as everyone was asleep.
"Blaine...are you ok?" Coop asked, and Blaine nearly burst out in tears again at his brother's concerned voice, but he took a couple of breaths and smiled.
"Yeah...just everything is really tense right now...Kurt thinks I'll stop loving him if he does it though."
"That's bullshit." Cooper said firmly and Blaine hummed in agreement, "You told him that's not true right?"
"Of course I did," Blaine said quickly, "but he's very insecure and emotional right now...I don't think he's thinking straight."
"He's focusing on the negative." Coop said.
"Yeah."
"So you have to keep him positive."
"How?" Blaine asked, desperation seeping through his voice and Cooper spoke gently.
"Talk...tell him you love him...show him how much..." Cooper explained and Blaine sighed.
"I have...I've told him that I love him, that I'm not going anywhere...I'll be here by his side forever."
"Good, that's all you can do, support him."
"Yeah...thanks Coop." Blaine said, incredibly grateful for his brother's words and support.
"I hope everything goes ok, if you need me, call me alright?" Coop said and a couple of grateful tears fell down Blaine's cheeks, and he roughly wiped them away.
"I will bro, thanks...I've got to go now." Blaine said around a yawn, and Coop laughed a little.
"Alright, chin up, kid...Bye, squirt."
"Bye, Coop."
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The next couple of weeks were quiet and tense at home. The guys had been told what was going on, and what was going to happen, and they had become very solemn. Matching Blaine and Kurt's moods.
The older kids wanted to know what was up, but Blaine just told them that their father wasn't feeling too well at the moment, and they left it alone.
The appointment was in the afternoon, so Puck and Sam had to watch the kids for them while they left to go into the city. It was a private clinic near the hospital, and Kurt had a hard expression on his face as they got out of the taxi.
They both looked up at the building as they stood outside, they had 10 minutes until their appointment time. Blaine was clutching onto Kurt's hand, willing his heart to stop beating so hard.
"Are you ready?" Blaine asked as they watched people coming out with solemn expressions, and they both looked away.
"No...but we're here...so-" Kurt said quietly and Blaine grasped his hand tighter, before bringing it up to his mouth and placing a kiss on his knuckles.
"It's going to be ok, my love...I'll be right there with you." Blaine assured him and then he watched as Kurt closed his eyes and took a couple of deep breaths.
"Ok...let's do it." He said and Blaine nodded, and they approached the door, but as Blaine's hand reached out for the handle, Kurt stopped and backed away.
"Wait..." Kurt said quietly as his hand flew to his stomach, and he paled.
"What?" Blaine moved back next to him, as Kurt's eyes filled with tears, and he placed a hand on Kurt's back, as he eyed him worriedly.
"Oh my god...oh god..." Kurt said as the tears came unbidden down his face, and Blaine became more and more worried as he clutched his stomach.
"What? Kurt, what's wrong?" Blaine asked nervously, hovering around him, not knowing what was happening.
"Nothing...it's the baby, I-" Kurt tried to explain, but his voice cracked and he bit his lip against a sob.
"What?" Blaine asked again, worriedly as he placed an arm around Kurt's waist.
"It moved..." Kurt whispered out and Blaine smiled a little sadly, and then placed a hand over Kurt's on his stomach.
"Oh."
They stood for a moment, staring down at their joined hands on Kurt's stomach, and Blaine was trying to remain calm, even as the different emotions were battling in his mind. As he moved to open the door again, Kurt stopped his arm and smiled at him.
"I can't do it...I can't go in there..." Kurt said and Blaine furrowed his eyebrows.
"Kurt?"
"How can I kill something that's so special...that's us? Even though I know that it's going to be tough, I can feel it is..." Kurt explained through his tears, a small smile only getting wider on his lips, and Blaine looked up at him with hopeful eyes, "I can't get rid of it...not a baby...something that we made, together...if I did it now, I'll regret it, I know I will."
"So...?" Blaine let his question remain in the air, and Kurt nodded at him as he reached out to take his hand.
"Let's go home..." Kurt said with a tearful smile, and Blaine broke, his tears coming out hot and fast, and Kurt gathered him in his arms.
"Are you sure?" Blaine sighed against Kurt's neck and he felt Kurt nod against his shoulder, bringing his arms up around Blaine's neck to hold him close.
"Yeah...I love you..." Kurt whispered to him, and Blaine smiled wetly against his neck, placing a kiss against it as he breathed him in.
"Oh Kurt, I love you too." He said and Kurt sobbed against his shoulder as they held each other, clutching at each other's backs, pulling comfort and love out of them, hanging on to what they had with all their hearts.
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Everyone was thrilled when they had returned, Kurt having not gone through with it. They all had a big group hug between them, and then Kurt had told the kids about it, Elizabeth and Alex were old enough to understand what must have been happening because they grabbed onto him tighter than the others.
Kurt and Blaine had sat down with the rest of them and told them all about having another baby. And they had all been excited about it.
Blaine had made a very familiar phone call to make an appointment with their doctor for a checkup, and they had to wait a few weeks for it.
That night Blaine held Kurt's hand, the other rubbing his back, as Kurt emptied his stomach contents in their toilet again, cooing comfortingly at him. He ran his fingers through Kurt's hair as the retching and heaving subsided, and Kurt sat up to look at him.
"At 41, I hoped to never go through this again." Kurt said to him in a rough voice, and Blaine smiled at him sympathetically.
"I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault," Kurt said as he reached out to flush the toilet, but still remained sitting until his stomach settled, "if it wasn't for the sickness it would be absolutely fine."
"Yeah I know," Blaine said with a nod, "But they do say that being so sick, is a sign that baby is healthy."
"I'd like to shove those health care baby books down the authors throats." Kurt grumbled out and Blaine laughed softly.
"Kurt, so malicious." He responded with a chuckle and Kurt just shrugged.
"Well."
"I know baby, it's tough, but once it's over, no more." Blaine said with a small smile and Kurt slowly nodded.
"Hopefully."
"Even if I have to bottom for the rest of our lives, it won't happen again sweetheart." Blaine assured him and it caused Kurt to smile.
"Oh, honey," He said as he grasped Blaine's hand again and squeezed, "I know. Thank you."
"It's ok," Blaine said, "Besides, I like it. You taking control."
"Oh yeah?"
"Uhuh." Blaine nodded with a cheeky grin.
Kurt smirked at him as he got up to brush his teeth and rinse his mouth out, Blaine sidled up behind him and placed his arms around his waist, placing a kiss against the side of his neck before looking into Kurt's eyes in the mirror. Their eyes both heated intensely as they stared into each other, until Kurt had had enough and turned and plunged his tongue into Blaine's already waiting mouth.
They pushed and pulled at each other as they slipped back into their bedroom, kissing each other passionately and moaning into each other's mouths, as the intense heat grew between them, and Kurt pushed Blaine over onto the bed.
Kurt climbed on to Blaine, pressing their cocks together and started to passionately kiss him again as they ground together in their tight embrace. Their soft moans filled the room.
After a little while, Blaine again broke away from their kiss.
"You know, I've almost forgotten how hot you were while pregnant." he whispered.
"Well you don't have to remember anymore." Kurt smiled.
Blaine shifted around, lifting Kurt above him as he slithered down the bed and slowly took Kurt's erection into his mouth. Kurt reached up with his hands and grasped hold of the headboard, firmly, moaning as Blaine's mouth sank around him.
Kurt let out a groan as Blaine's throat flexed and fluctuated around the head of his cock, his husband starting to hum against him.
"God...keep that up, honey...it feels so good." Kurt breathed out and then shuddered as Blaine's fingers ghosted over his hole, and he looked down to see Blaine looking back up at him with amused looking eyes.
Kurt raised his eyebrows in a challenge, before thrusting a little too hard into Blaine's mouth, causing Blaine to choke a little, and his eyes widened as he looked back up at Kurt.
He pulled off, a string of saliva coming out of his mouth, and he smiled up at Kurt.
"That was hot, do it again!" He said roughly then returned to Kurt's cock, taking it balls deep into his mouth and wrapping his tongue around it.
Kurt pushed his hips forward into Blaine's mouth, Blaine moaned around him and took hold of his ass pushing him into him harder, and Kurt caught on and began pushing and thrusting himself deeper into Blaine's mouth, saliva dripping down from Blaine's mouth as it had no where else to go, Blaine's throat was full of cock.
Blaine growled a slight warning before he came, and Kurt felt the splash of it against the back of his legs, and Blaine carried on moaning around him until Kurt felt he was right on the edge, as he kept plunging inside Blaine's mouth.
"Oh Blaine, I'm gonna come...ugh...sweetheart." Kurt moaned out as he wrapped a hand into Blaine's curls and pulled him forward as he thrust in deep,
Blaine took Kurt's thick, hard cock as deep as it could go, gagging a bit as he did then pulling out a little. Kurt's cock started to pulse and unloaded into Blaine's waiting mouth.
He swallowed it down as Kurt climbed off him.
"That was fucking incredible," Blaine said in a used, very rough voice after he swallowed, "Now it's my turn."
Kurt smiled at him as he slid between his open legs, Blaine's hard cock rubbing across his stomach and then down past his oversensitive cock, making Kurt hiss a little.
"Take it easy on me, my stomach is still a little sensitive." Kurt asked as Blaine's hand went into the drawer, to grab the lube, and then he smiled down at him as he connected their lips again.
They laved their tongues lazily against the others, Kurt still tasting remnants of himself on Blaine's tongue, and pulling him closer. Blaine broke his lips away as his fingers found their way towards his hole.
"Don't worry, I want to make love to you," Blaine whispered against his neck as he placed tiny sucking kisses on his skin and Kurt gasped as his fingers penetrated inside him, "And you're going to be mine...forever."
"Yours...mmm...forever." Kurt repeated around a groan and Blaine grinned as he nipped along his neck, while inserting a second finger, then quickly a third, stretching him out.
Kurt's cock was still wet from Blaine's spit, and was already half-hard as Blaine placed a hand around him, and he moaned loudly at the contact. He kissed Kurt again passionately, as he lifted one leg and gently eased his rock hard cock into his hole.
"Ah!...oh...ugh, shit, h-honey." Kurt muttered.
Blaine eased up a bit and slowly guided his cock into Kurt, enjoying the way Kurt's body opened up for him, feeling the tightness wrapping around him and the soft, cushion-like texture of his inside walls squeezing. He slowly started to pump his hips back and forth.
"I love you." Blaine whispered as his hips moved, and Kurt arched his back, running his hands through Blaine's hair, and then back to hold his neck as he brought their lips together.
"I love you too." Kurt whispered back against Blaine's lips, and his husband bent his leg up a little more by his knee and started moving his hips a little harder.
It felt like everything. It was pure love, devotion. It was beautiful.
They made love for hours, bringing each other close tot he edge and then backing away, before repeating the process all over again. Soon Kurt was begging for Blaine to go a little faster, harder, deeper and Blaine would comply, pumping into Kurt at a hammering pace.
"There is no-one...in this world...that I adore...more than you," Blaine gasped out, eyes locking onto Kurt's fixing his gaze on him, unwavering, "You know that, right?"
Kurt could not answer through his moans, as Blaine's hips thrust him closer and closer to that edge.
"And nobody in this world...that I wouldn't give my life for...it's just you," He said and Kurt moaned as Blaine leaned backwards, changing the angle of his thrusts, so that he could run both of his hands over Kurt's hips and along his sides up to his ribs, and then back down slowly, "Just you."
Kurt keened and arched into Blaine's touch.
"Beautiful," Blaine said as he eased his hands along Kurt's abdomen, rubbing the small bump that he could feel there and Kurt threw his head back and whined, "So gorgeous," Blaine said as he wrapped his fingers gently around Kurt's stiff erection.
Kurt moaned again as Blaine played a thumb gently over the slit, and then he was coming with a high pitched whine, accompanied by a growl in his throat and Blaine smiled, before his hips started slamming into him.
"And I will never," thrust, "Stop," thrust, "loving you," thrust, "you hear me," thrust, "never," thrust, "ever."
He thrust hard inside Kurt once more before the coil inside his gut snapped and he let go, with a loud moan of his own, coming inside his mate.
Blaine reached a hand out as Kurt lay breathing deeply underneath him, and ran a finger along his face, over his nose and down his lips, as Kurt laughed and batted him away, before reaching up himself to tug Blaine down and kiss him.
"You are just too sweet, my love." Kurt said and Blaine shook his head and kissed his lips once more as he pulled out of his husband, causing them both to hiss a little in discomfort.
"Everything I said is true," Blaine said as he lay down beside him and pulled Kurt's head to rest on his chest, "I will love you forever...forever and ever."
Kurt smiled as he snuggled into Blaine's chest, placing a light kiss over where Blaine's heart was beating a rhythm into his ear, and then they both drifted off to sleep wrapped around each other.