*Quinn's POV*
Santana, Rachel and I are still in the room. I can't believe what just happened, Brittany and Santana kissed. THEY KISSED! But Brittany ran away. God this is crazy. We should probably check on Santana because if we're shocked then she must be too.
"Santana? Are you ok?" I whisper in order for me not to shock her. We've been so quiet for so long. When Santana doesn't reply I give Rachel a look and she gets up and heads to Brittany's room. I have no idea what I do or say now, thank god for Santana.
"Quinn. What just happened?" Santana said, her head was still facing Brittany's door, her eyes wide.
"I believe you and Brittany kissed." I tell her
"God Q! What have I done? What do I do? Do I talk to her? Ask her about it?" Santana began to freak out, she was pacing up and down the length of the room.
"Santana you need to calm down" I say, but she just kept pacing, great, so now we have a run away Brittany and a panicky Santana.
"SANTANA!" I yell as I walk over to her and grab her arms "It'll all be ok. Just let Rachel talk to Britt and then we'll go from there ok? Now would you please just calm the fuck down." I tell her, she tries to speak. That's not happening! "Nope. Go, sit on the couch. Try to write a song or something?!" I suggest
"Ok. Hey Q? Thank you" she says and I nod to her. I grab her acoustic guitar and hand it to her. Then walk away and towards Brittany's room.
I lightly knock on the door before opening it and stepping in. Rachel is sat on Brittany's bed and Britt is stood near the window facing away from the door I'd just entered through.
"She's been like that since I entered here. She hasn't said a word and I think she may've gone into a state of shock, Quinn what do we do?" Rachel asks and Brittany doesn't even flinch, I think she needs some time alone and Santana needs to get some fresh air or maybe she just needs to get away from this apartment.
"Britt?" I walked over to her and gently placed my hand on her shoulder to take away the shock, she still jumped but only slightly.
"Hey Quinn, Rach, sorry I was kind of out of it then" She said putting on a fake smile
"Britt. Rachel, Santana and I have band practice" I tell her, she kind of looks relieved
"We do?" Rachel pipes up from the corner of the room, I whip my head around and glare at her. Thanks Rach. Thanks a lot.
"Yes. We do." I speak through gritted teeth and then turn back to Brittany "So you're gonna be alone for a few hours. That ok?" I ask
"Um yeah. That's fine, actually I think that's really great" She smiles and you can see her face relax.
"Alright. Well we're gonna head out now, so we'll see you later. Oh and Britt, make sure you eat something" I smile as she nods and I drag Rachel out of the room closing the door behind us.
"Santana! Come on, we're going to practice!" I tell her, she just nods and grabs her note pad as well as her bass which (lucky) was already in it's case. We head out and walk to studio.
Turns out Santana had written some great songs recently.
"Hey Santana?" I call out to her from the other side of the studio
"What's up Q?" She said as she was re tuning her bass for this next song
"When did you write these songs?" I asked her and she looked down and paused her tuning and sighed
"Yeah. No offence San, but these songs sound really happy and the stuff you normally write however good it is, it's usually a bit depressing" Rachel tells her
"I wrote these Junior year." Santana whispered
"San? Are these about…" Rachel asked but was cut off by Santana
"Can we just rehearse? Please?" She said
"Sure" Rach and I said.
These songs were really happy, but a lot of them seemed to be about falling in love, I think they're about Brittany. I honestly think Santana was in love with Brittany, maybe she still is. There's a song she wrote called 'Fallin' For You' and it's basically about Brittany.
You like mismatched socks with polka dots
You like your pizza cold; I think that's hot
You like to swim at night when the moon is full
You think that makes you strange; I think that's cool
Since Rachel and I didn't know the song we got Santana to sing it. As soon as the song started I think both Rachel and I realized who this was about, we looked at one another as we played. Santana was stood at the microphone in the middle of the stage whilst Rach and I were on her right and left sides.
And you say you're scared
That I won't be there
Baby, I swear
I'm not going anywhere
You could tell Santana was focused so hard on the song that it almost seemed like she'd forgotten that Rachel and I were near by playing with her.
You can change your hair
Five times a week
You can change your name
Get a little bit crazy
You can dance in the rain
Rockin' secondhand chic
But I live for the day
That I'm calling you baby
'Cause I'm falling for you
For everything that you do
Baby, I'm falling for you
You might be crazy
But baby,
I'm falling for you
By the end of the chorus Santana had her eyes tightly closed, it was obvious she was thinking about all of her memories with Britt. I honestly don't know who I feel worst for, Brittany or Santana. It's honestly terrifying how much they need each other, but at the same time both of them are hurting and it's awful because they're hurting because of each other and also for each other.
I seem predictable, vanilla plain.
And all the mannequins they look the same.
There's no one else like you one of a kind.
And I'm a lucky girl 'cause you're all mine.
And you say, you're scared
That I won't be there
Baby, I swear
I'm not going anywhere
Hold up. Did Santana just sing Lucky GIRL cause you're ALL MINE?! Were her and Brittany together?! I look over to Rachel and mouth "Lucky Girl?!" she shrugs and continues to play.
You can change your hair
Five times a week
You can change your name
Get a little bit crazy
You can dance in the rain
Rockin' secondhand chic
But I live for the day
That I'm calling you baby
'Cause I'm falling for you
For everything that you do
Baby, I'm falling for you
You might be crazy
But baby,
I'm falling for you
Santana suddenly stopped playing. She stopped playing, singing and her face fell. Tears were running down her face and she was silent. She grabbed hold of her bass strap and held the bass by it's neck and ran past me handing her bass to me. I grabbed it allowing her to run out of the studio and onto the street. I sigh and look at Rachel.
"Rach? Should we follow her? Or pack up and go home?" I ask her hoping she'll know what to do
"Well knowing Santana she'll probably go to the library and then home. So I think we should just pack up, she needs time alone. Quinn, I think that song was about Brittany" Rachel said and I just nodded in agreement
"I think they were together Rach, but we're not gonna know unless we ask, Santana won't tell us a thing right now. I know that. So we need to go and ask Brittany" I tell her whilst I shut Santana's bass case and place my guitar in it's own case. I grab both cases and walk towards the exit of the building, I heard Rachel yelling telling me to wait, but I couldn't. Not now when I'm not going to have much time to talk to Brittany before Santana comes back! This can't wait!
We got back to the apartment and as we were running up the hallway towards our door we heard drumming. And not just like a child hitting a drum kit, no. Actual drumming. To a rhythm and doing it well! This drumming was coming from inside our apartment and unless we had a really bad robber who just wanted to play drums then it had to be once person. Brittany. I put my key in the door and opened it quietly telling Rachel to be quiet as I reached for her hand and pulled her along the hall way to our music room. I reached down, twisted the door handle and pushed the door open. There sat at our drum kit was Brittany. She was putting her life and soul into hitting those drums. She was amazing.
"Brittany?" Rachel whispered. She dropped her drum sticks and twisted her body so fast I thought she was going to break.
"Sorry, I-I-I just saw them here and I couldn't stop myself. I'm really sorry." Brittany rushed her words out so fast I hardly knew what she had said
"Britt. It's fine! You're amazing! You're like one of the best drummers I think I've ever heard" Rachel says with a huge smile on her face. God she's cute. What if? No she'd never say yes. But what's the harm in asking.
"Be our drummer" I say interrupting both Rachel and Brittany
"What?" Brittany asks
"Be the drummer. In our band. We need one. And you're amazing. You know us, all of us. You'd be a great addition. We could really use someone as talented as you Britt" I tell her
"I don't think that's a good idea Quinn. Not with Santana" She tells me
"About that. Brittany. In Junior year what was going on between you and Santana?" Rachel asked
"What? Nothing! Why would you ask that?" She practically yells
"Oh come on Brittany. Today in rehearsals Santana showed us a song she wrote during Junior year. Everything she'd written was you and stuff you like!" I told her
"What'd you mean?" Brittany looked at me almost like I had 2 heads or something
"Brittany answer these questions. Do you mismatched socks with polka dots?" Rachel said and I couldn't help but giggle and neither could Brittany
"Well yeah. But what does that have to do with any of this?" Britt said whilst her giggles died down
"Doesn't matter. Do you like your pizza cold?" I now understand what she's doing. These are the lyrics to that song San wrote
"Well duh! Cold pizza is way better than hot pizza. Everybody knows that!" Brittany said rolling her eyes. She did spend a lot of time with Santana didn't she!
"Brittany. In junior year were you worried that Santana wasn't going to be there? Almost scared?" I asked and Brittany looked at me as tears pooled in her eyes.
"Yes. The summer between sophomore year and junior year Santana and I spent everyday together. One day she left me to hang out with Puck, I was jealous because they were together. That evening my parents went out to some sort of comedy show, so I was gonna order pizza and eat ice cream. Then I got a knock on the door, it was Santana, she had tears cascading down her face. I brought her inside and asked her what was wrong. She said Puck tried to force her to have sex with him but she didn't want to because she wasn't in love with Puck. She was in love with someone else. I comforted her and she said 3 words that changed how I felt about her forever. She literally said Brittany I'm gay and then broke down in my arms. It was funny because she didn't know that I was too. It took her at least half and hour to calm down and once she did I just whispered me too. She looked at me, her eyes were so dark. She looked even more beautiful than normal. She reached up and stroked a piece of my hair away from my face she leaned in and kissed me. Honestly it felt like I was in heaven. It was like every single moment of my life hadn't been good enough as I'd never done this before. I fell in love with Santana from that minute. I loved her before but I never was IN love with her. That night we sat and cuddled on the sofa eating pizza, ice cream and watching the Notebook, we shared more kisses each time we met up. It was August 18th when I asked her to be my girlfriend and thankfully she said yes. Santana and I were together throughout Junior year, that's why it hurt so much more when senior year began. I was in love with her. I needed her the way the stars need the moon. I loved her to the moon and back. She was my first kiss, my first time, my first love. Santana was everything to me and senior year broke my heart because I was missing part of it, I've felt like I wasn't able to breathe for so long and then she came back. The light from my world became lighter. My breathing became stronger because she was here. I've never stopped loving her and it terrifies me because I don't know how much more time I can take without breaking down and telling her that I need her, want her, can't be without her. Quinn, Rachel, she's my everything. My rock. My world. I'm in love with her" Brittany tells us and suddenly the door to the music room closes.
Santana walked into the room with tears in her eyes. Santana Lopez was crying. Big shocker. "I'm in love with you too Brittany. You mean everything to me. I'm sorry about everything I did to you, you know I never meant to hurt you. Please just listen to me. When my Papi died I thought I was dead. The light had gone, but I knew you were still there. You keep the light in my world B. You always have, I hurt you to punish myself because hurting you hurt me so much more than anything I could ever do to myself. I tried so many things to join my dad, I tried to hang myself but my Mami found me to soon. Because of that I missed 2 weeks of school and I had to go to therapy. I drank a bottle of bleach, this time my Abuela found me she called the ambulance. I had my stomach pumped and missed 3 weeks of school. I was going to jump off the top of McKinley High School, but Mr Schue stopped me before I had a chance to. I've done so many things to try and loose my life, but they never worked, someone was always there to stop me. Honestly I think it was my Papi protecting me. But he didn't just do it for me, he did it for you too Britt. He knew I needed you and you needed me. I think he knew we were together even though we never told him. He loved you. He loved how you made me smile everyday, the way you made me a different person. But then he left. But my feelings for you never changed. I punished you in order for me to punish myself. But Britt, I've changed. I'm different now, better. I may not be complete yet, but I don't think I'll ever be complete without you by my side. I need you too breathe. I need you to hold me when I cry because the only person I feel safe with is you. You are the only person I have ever wanted to be with. You were my best friend, girlfriend and the only person my heart belonged too. All of those are still what I want, but I know now more than ever that I belong with you. Brittany, you are my soul mate. It's just taken me a while to work it out. I'm in love with you Brittany. Please give me one more chance. I'm a changed woman. I'm not a child anymore. And one day I'm going to get you to forgive me and then we'll live happily ever after, you'll be my wife" Santana whispered those last bits.
"You remember that time when we'd just got together? We went into the photobooth and you looked into my eyes and I looked back and you kissed me and told me you loved me? I do. And I've still got my copy of those photos. The entire time I was living on the streets I kept it with me. I kept YOU with me Santana. Because no matter how hard I try I can never stop loving you." Brittany told Santana. Brittany walked across to Santana with a smile on her face, Santana was crying, tears falling down her face onto her top, Brittany used the pad of her thumb to wipe away Santana's tears.
Next thing I knew Brittany was leaning in and her lips connected to Santana's. It wasn't a heated kiss, but it was so intimate. You could feel the love radiating from both of there bodies. Rachel and I looked at each other and I grabbed her hand, I brought it up to my lips and placed a gentle kiss against her knuckled.
Santana pulled away.
"Is that a yes?" She whispered, her forehead resting against Brittany's
"Yes. I'll try to forgive you Santana. But it's going to be a long time before you have my full trust again. But I love you. I love you so much. Forever" Brittany told her and the tears fell from both of the girls as they placed their lips upon one another, this kiss wasn't as PG as the other one, but still the intimacy level was extremely high.
They're in love.
Always have been.
Always will be.
A.N. I'm really sorry! I haven't updated for ages (or at least it feels like it) I tried to make this chapter much longer than the others because I felt bad. Hope you enjoy it. The song used was Fallin' For You by R5. And I appreciate all the feedback I'm being given, keep it coming please. I'm going away on Saturday but I'll try to update before I leave, Love you guys!