Why are you on the streets?

by brittsanbritt

Santana bullied Brittany in high school really badly and now at the age of 20 Santana is still having night terrors over the thoughts of what Brittany may have done because of her. Santana, Quinn and Rachel live in New York and are in a band together. What happens when they find Brittany sleeping outside their apartment building on the streets?

11. 10 Christmas Eve with You

*Santana's POV*

December 19th 2011, the last Christmas of high school and Brittany came over to me at my locker wish me a Merry Christmas and tell me that she still loved me and would do whatever she could to get me to forgive her and whatever she'd done. I remember taking a deep breath and throwing her card to the ground a pushing her against my locker, I yelled at her telling her that I couldn't stand to see the sight of her in front of me and that I didn't love her. I hate you. Those three small words broke her.

I woke up crying after having a nightmare about that day. I couldn't deal with the pain and so I cut myself even though I hadn't done it for 2 years. I didn't even feel the pain and I went to the music room and began to play Breathe Me by Sia, blood was falling on the keys of the piano. Brittany opened the door and gasped, she helped me clean myself up and then Quinn and Rach came into the bathroom and I told them what the date was. Next thing I knew Brittany was gone. I got out of the bathroom and ran to my room, I threw on a pair of jeans, a plain white long sleeved top and a pair of blue converse. I ran to the door and grabbed my beanie hat and leather jacket and before Quinn and Rachel even had chance to ask me where I'd gone, I was out of the apartment door.

I don't even know what made me think of this place, but I guess Britt and I still have some kind of connection or something. I followed my instincts and my heart to find Brittany. I clambered through the snow on the gross New York streets to the rehearsal studio and just as I thought, the sound of drumming was echoing through the building. I smiled at the thought of seeing Brittany doing what she loves, but then I remember I'm the cause of her being here, it's almost Christmas and that's Brittany's favourite time of the year, I don't want us to be on the rocks this time of year. I don't want to be on the rocks at all!

Suddenly the drumming stopped. I ran towards the studio on the way I grabbed a guitar that was just resting on the door. I began to play and sing through the door

I never saw a reindeer fly

Make it's way across the sky

But I know if I close my eyes my wishes will come true

Like the one I've saved for you

I heard Britt gasp and memories came flooding back. It was Christmas Eve in 2010 and Brittany's family were coming over to stay for Christmas Day. You see our families were extremely close and Brittany and I wanted to spend Christmas together as a couple so our parents let Britt stay over that night and we wrote a song together. It was about us and our love for one another. The whole night we stayed in our Christmas pyjamas and watched our favourite Christmas movies back to back until Christmas morning.

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

Don't care it's cold outside

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

I'll keep you warm tonight

Through the good times and bad

Happy and sad

I'm still holding on

I know what I have

And all that I want is Christmas Eve with you

With you, yeah

I opened the door to the studio and saw Brittany sat at the drums looking at me. I paused my singing and just looked at her. She looked back and then smiled at me, my worried frown turned upside down to a grin, Brittany picked up her drum sticks and played a simple fill and then joined me in singing our song that we wrote.

The simple things like goin' home

And friends they say you're not alone

Songs of joy they keep you strong make everything okay

Oh and Santa's on his way (on his way, yeah)

I walked around to the front of the drum kit and we kept singing to each other

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

Don't care it's cold outside

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

I'll keep you warm tonight

Through the good times and bad

Though happy and sad

I'm still holding on

I know what I have

And all that I want is Christmas Eve with you

Yeah, yeah, yeah

The sleigh bells are ringing

They're getting real close

I think I hear Rudolf

Just up the road

Candle lights

And hearts full of hope

The stars shining bright

Some things never change

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

My arms are open wide

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

I'll keep you warm tonight

Through the good times and bad

Though happy and sad

I'm still holding on

I know what I have

And all that I want is Christmas Eve with you

Let it snow, let it snow

The fire's burning bright

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

I'll keep you warm tonight

It's not just the gifts

Under my tree

The best things in life

I'm totally free

Brittany stopped playing and so did I, we were face to face and the last 2 lines were whispered as we pressed out foreheads together

And waitin' for me is Christmas Eve with you

Is Christmas Eve with you

"You remembered it?" Brittany asked with a smile on her face

"Of course I remember Britt. That was best Christmas I've ever had. Having you holding my hand whilst we opened presents and cuddling whilst watching movies with our families. We were together but our families didn't know at that time" I told her

"How's your arm?" Brittany asked and I looked down at my bandaged arms and just shrugged "Lemme see?" I pulled my sleeves up and she took the bandage off, the cuts had stopped bleeding, she leaned down and kissed all of them.

"Santana? Please promise me that you will never do this again?" She whimpered and I just sighed

"I can't promise to never do it again, but I can promise you that I will try my hardest to not do this again, I don't want to cause myself pain or the people I care about" I told her

"I just I don't want to loose you Santana, what if you'd cut to deep? What if you bleed out and fainted and hit your head and none of us woke up? You could've died Santana and you can't do that! You can't die!" Brittany began to cry, I dropped the guitar and ran to her, I pulled her into my arms cuddling her closely

"Britt, B, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry, I'll stop! I won't do it again I swear! I love you too much to put you through that kind of pain!" I told her. She stopped crying and looked at me

"I love you so much Santana" She leaned in and kissed me. I felt like my knees were going to buckle underneath me when I felt her tongue glide across my bottom lip, I moaned as she slipped her tongue inside my mouth. We battled for dominance until we needed to breathe so we pulled away.

"Can we go home now?" Brittany asked

"I am home" I whispered

"Your home is the studio?" Brittany looked confused

"No silly, my home is you" I kissed her cheek when she blushed at my statement, we walked back to the apartment and when we got there Quinn and Rachel were packing clothes in suitcases

"What the hell are you doing?" I asked while Brittany giggled

"We got a flight to Lima for the 4 of us for tonight, it was the only flight that would get us there for the Glee Club reunion" Quinn said and my face dropped.