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Callie's POV
I'm standing in a hospital room with my daughter and I promised her she could see her mother tonight. I have no idea where they took Arizona. I'm starting to run out of answers for Sofia's questions and Sofia is getting impatient. Finally a nurse arrived to come fetch Arizona's slippers and I asked her what is going on. The nurse told me that Amelia took her for scans again. He told me not to worry the scans was only because Amelia just wanted to make sure that nothing changed since the last scan. He also told me to stay put because as soon as she is she done in the bathroom they'll bring her over. So Sofia and I stayed put. She teased me and that reminded of Mark. She gets bored real quick and just as she was about to nag, when Amelia and the nurse came with Arizona. Arizona was so happy to see Sofia.
Callie
Sheperd, you should've left a message that you are taking her.
Amelia
I'm sorry. I just got out surgery and I had 30 minutes before the next one. I just needed to make sure nothing changed.
Callie
It takes two minutes to write a note. Actually it takes less.
Arizona
Really Callie? Really?
Sofia
Mamma should play grumpy in Snow White, don't you think so mommy?
When Sofia said that, we all laughed. She just brings a different kind of happiness when she is in the room. After that I immediately was over being irritated with Amelia for not letting me know. I guess I'm still shocked and angry because of the accident and not knowing she is sick. I'm so paranoid when it comes to Arizona. I just wanted her to be okay. I just wanted to take care of her and make sure she is okay but she is so stubborn. It was getting late and Sofia should in bed already. Meredith's surgery ran longer and Sofia fell asleep next to Arizona. Arizona loved having cuddles with Sofia. It also gave me chills to see the two of them sleeping. This was something I could look at all day. I tried calling Penny again just to see if she is okay but she wasn't picking up. I texted her but I don't think she will reply. Mer came to fetch Sofia and then Arizona also woke up. Now it was just me and her in the room. It was late at night and she couldn't sleep again. This is usually the time when she either wants to talk and be silly or get freaky. Since we are in GSMH freaky could happen because we've done it before but she is sick and I'm definitely not getting on that train again. So we started talking but this time she didn't want to be silly.
Arizona
Callie, can I ask you something?
Callie
Of course you can.
Arizona
Earlier when you said that you are leaving Penny, did you mean it?
Callie
Yes I did but I think she already left me because I told her that we slept together.
Arizona
Oh I'm sorry. I really didn't want you to leave or lose Penny because…
Callie
Because of a one night stand?
Arizona
No, Callie! That's not what I was about to say.
Callie
Arizona, we don't need to talk about this. We are two grown woman and like you said I should know how to deal with one night stands. So let's not complicate this anymore okay?
Arizona
Yeah well apparently you will be looking after me. We will be spending a lot of time together so we need to talk about this. We need to straighten things out.
Callie
Well here is what I understand. I was a one night stand. You needed to feel safe and there I was. I'm glad you could use me to help you get over your fears.
I will be taking care of you till you better because you are the mother of my child and I want you to be okay. No hard feelings right?
Arizona
You say no hard feeling but I know you. I can see what you feel.
Callie
You think you know me but you don't.
Arizona
I know you Calliope, you know I do. You believing that you are a one night stand because I said it when I was angry actually shows me that you don't know me anymore.
Callie
I know you. I just don't know what you want or what you are thinking.
Arizona
Right now I want to cuddle with you but I'm thinking you are probably too angry?
Callie
No, I'm not cuddling with you.
Arizona
Okay, so you are angry or are scared that I'd kiss you again?
Callie
Nope! I'm not angry and not scared of your kisses. I can tame you. I know how to handle you.
Arizona
So if you know how to handle me, why are you scared of cuddling Calliope? I mean if you can handle me surely you've got nothing to fear.
Callie
Are you flirting with me?
Arizona
I might be.
Callie
Well don't! I'm not getting into bed with you because I can handle you but I can't handle myself. You are hot and I can't make any promises.
Arizona
Who said I want promises? Besides I'll handle you. I love "handling" you.
Callie
Stop flirting with me.
Arizona
No, I'm not stopping. You said you can handle me, so that mean you know how to handle the flirting.
Callie
Okay Arizona, here's the thing. You are confused right now because you have a life threatening tumour. So I don't want to cuddle with you because knowing myself I will most probably let you kiss me and I'd kiss back. Then we'd probably have sex because you have a private room and we've had sex in this hospital many times before.
Arizona
Is that so wrong? You are single, I'm single.
Callie
I don't even know if I'm single but anyway yes it is wrong. It is wrong because tomorrow when you wake up you might just hate my guts again. You don't know what you want and you can't just use me.
Arizona
I'm not using you.
Callie
You are, you are using me and that's not fair. It is not fair because right now I'd do anything for you.
Arizona
Am I missing something? You keep on dropping hints. Should I be catching them or what? Am I reading these hints all wrong?
Callie
I'm not hinting.
Arizona
Are you sure? In the last 24 hours you told me that you'd do anything for me. You said you almost lost me and you were scared when you said it. You want to look after me. Tell me, am I missing something because I don't want to jump to conclusions and act on it and look like a fool.
Callie
Arizona, go to sleep, you have a long day tomorrow.
Arizona
Answer me first.
Callie
Go to sleep, now.
Arizona
Not before you tell me.
Callie
Well then tomorrow you'll be tired and you'll have chemo. Are you trying to make my job of looking after you harder?
Arizona
That's not fair
Callie
Great! I won! Now go sleep.
Arizona
Goodnight, Calliope.
Callie's POV
Then she turned around to go to sleep and I was really stunned of what she asked. How could she be asking me if I'm throwing hints? She should know. I know I told her I'm not dropping hints but really is she really that stupid or is she just looking for some sort of confirmation. Could it be that she already knows how I feel and she is too scared to acknowledge it? Why would she be scared to acknowledge it though? Is it because she doesn't feel the same way? Has she moved on? Is she over me? Is she over us? All of a sudden I had these thoughts running to my head. She also said she didn't want to jump to conclusions and look like a fool. What does that mean? Is she dropping hints too? Okay so maybe if I can't figure her out, maybe she can't seem to figure me out as well.
She is so hot when she flirts. She reminds me so much of the lady that kissed me in the bar. She is not shy. Back then she knew what she wanted and when she knew what she wanted she'd go for it. Does her flirting with me actually means she wants me. I mean why else would she be flirting? Surely if she wanted me she'd tell me because I'm giving all these hints. Her asking me about the hints must mean she knows how I feel. I cannot think of any reason why she wouldn't be catching the hints. Unless she just doesn't want to complicate things. Or maybe she is just a naïve blond and she really doesn't know. Which I know, she is not. She is a doctor for God sake. Then I blurred something out without realising it sounded as hard as it did.
Callie
One would think a double certified surgeon would pick up on a few hints. Patients give fewer symptoms than I did hints. Do I really need to spell out that I love her?
Then she moved and my heart dropped to my toes. Did she just hear that? Was it that loud? I looked over to see if her eyes are open but they are closed. Luckily for me it looked like she was fast asleep. I made myself comfortable in the chair and I tried to sleep.
Arizona's POV
I heard that. I heard everything she said. I felt her looking over me to see if I was asleep so I fake being asleep. All I wanted to do is say "I Love you too" but then what? What happens next? I really don't want to complicate things. Last time she came to my hotel room and we tried to fix things was because we loved each other and we missed each other. Last time that was not enough. Love was not enough and when obstacles came we fumbled. I'm starting to think that the only reason we overcame obstacles in the past was because of Mark. He used to always tell us that we are busy screwing things up and that we need to get our heads out of our arses. He was Callie's best friend but he never took sides at least not after the birth of Sofia.
I do not want to be with Callie now and then later when the first obstacle come we start falling apart again. I can't do that anymore. The only thing worse than losing the person you love, is having to lose him or her over and over again.