Struggling to be Honest
JacobxBella
Rated M
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or the franchise, as it belongs to Steph Meyers
Struggling to be Honest
Chapter 5
Jacob sighed as he lay on his stomach on his bed. He had tried, even at the last minute he had tried. But Bella was stubborn and refused to give up the leech and a life of immortality. It was just like she had said, he wasn't enough for her and nothing he could possibly give her or do for her would ever be enough. She was probably already saying her vows and 'I do's' by now. He hadn't been too late, but if he had wanted to try one more time, he would have been. However, Jacob didn't have the motivation to try ever again now. He had given up, it was all over.
A knock on the door caught his attention. Jacob did not want to answer it, so instead chose to ignore it. The knocking person however, not only kept knocking, but knocked louder and harder. Giving a frustrated sigh, Jacob got up off of his small bed and stalked down the hallway to the front door. Grabbing the knob, he twisted it and yanked the door open revealing Leah Clearwater.
"What the hell do you want, Leah?" Jacob asked, irritated that the she-wolf was bothering him instead of leaving him alone. She, like the rest of the Pack, knew that today was his worst day ever. The love of his life was getting married and was possibly already married, and all of their hard work to keep her alive was all for naught.
Leah frowned and answered, "I just came to make sure you were okay. You don't have to get your thong up in a bunch."
Jacob sighed and turned around to sit on the old couch in his living room, silently allowing Leah entrance to his home. The female stepped inside wearing a pair of jeans, black knee high boots, and a grey halter top, and closed the door behind her before sitting down next to her Pack mate. She watched Jacob rub his hands over his face before the hands reached his hair and gripped it tightly. He was taking this really hard and Leah felt she knew what he was going through. It was hard losing the one person you love the most to someone else. She wouldn't be able to understand the 'losing my love to my mortal enemy' part, but she knew heartbreak. When Sam Imprinted on her cousin Emily, and then left her for his newfound Imprint, Leah's heart had shattered in her chest. She cried more times than not during and after that time, and when she finally pulled herself together, she became bitter. And seeing Jacob give his all for someone who would never choose him made Leah's cold heart feel for him. She wanted to be there for him, especially now that he finally accepted that he had lost to the leech.
Reaching a hand out, Leah gently placed it on his back and rubbed circles on his back in a soothing manner. Softly she said, "Listen Jake, you're hurting right now; I get it, okay? Do you think it was easy for me to let Sam go when he Imprinted and chose Emily over me? And do you think it isn't hard for me to have to endure his thoughts about her and their happy life everyday whenever we're patrolling together? It hurt then and it sometimes hurts now, but I've realized that I'm stronger than that. You will get over this, or not, but it will pass and you will move on."
"Then why haven't you?" Jacob asked looking her in the eye. He saw Leah's eye twitch a bit before settling. He apologized to her as he knew she was just trying to make him feel better before laying his head on the older girl's shoulder. Jacob seemed to relax as Leah's hand moved up to his hair and her fingers stroked it and massaged his scalp. He chuckled when his Pack mate told him he needed a haircut.
"Hold tight, let me go find a pair of scissors," Leah said as she stood up and walked to the bathroom. She returned two minutes later with a pair of scissors in her hand before telling him to not move. Jacob did as she said as she began to cut his shaggy hair. Fifteen minutes later, Leah had Jacob's hair looking presentable and somewhat like the way it looked when he had first ran away. Giving a nod of approval, Leah said, "Okay, you are set. Now go change your clothes."
Jacob looked confused and asked, "Why?"
"Because me and you are going out and have some fun. Now go get changed!" Leah said pointing down the hall. Jacob laughed before refusing, saying his clothes were just fine. Leah huffed before telling him to at least get rid of the pieces of hair on his t-shirt. Once the hair pieces were gone, Jacob grabbed the keys to his Rabbit and he and Leah left the little red house, got into his car, and drove away from the Reservation to Port Angeles. However, as they drove away, they both failed to notice the little red convertible in the distance making its way toward the Reservation. And the two people in said convertible also missed the Rabbit as it drove away from their destination.
Minutes later, Rosalie stopped the car and got out before rushing to the other side and opened the door. Helping Bella stand, she turned her around so she could undo the glorious bridal gown, then dropped it to the ground leaving Bella with her jeans just below her buttocks and her torsolette. Bella pulled her regular bra out of the duffle back and put it on just as Rosalie ripped the torsolette from her body. She then put on her flannel shirt, then her socks and tennis shoes before turning to the vampire who was throwing the wedding dress in the back seat of her car.
"Thank you so much for this, Rosalie. I don't know how I could ever repay you," Bella said giving the blonde a hug. Cold arms wrapped around her in a hug before they both let go. Shaking her head, Rosalie said, "Don't worry about it, just go and get your man. Trust me that will be enough for paying me back. Now go!"
Bella nodded before taking off and running over the border onto Quileute land. She never stopped running until she finally saw the Black home in sight. Slowing a little to catch her breath, Bella quickly walked to the porch, stumbling up the stairs, and pounded on the door. She waited a minute before pounded on the door again.
"Jake! Jake are you there? Please answer the door!" Bella called desperately, hoping her best friend wouldn't ignore her and would listen to what she had to say. She needed to tell him she loved him, that he was enough and that she had been wrong. She kept her insistent knocking and calling until her pale hand had turned red and her throat hurt. Sinking down to sit on the porch, Bella leant her head against the door, taking deep breaths.
"Bella?" a voice called out to her. Turning she saw Seth standing near the edge of the woods near Jacob's home. Standing up quickly, Bella rushed down the stairs of the porch and hurried over to Seth, slipping as she reached him. She almost fell, but Seth's quick reflexes allowed him to catch her and stand her back up straight.
"Seth, have you seen Jake? I need to talk to him right now," Bella said breathlessly. Seth wondered what Bella was doing here instead of at her wedding, but then he smiled when he realized that she was here looking for his best friend. Hugging her tightly, he exclaimed, "You chose Jake! Yay, Bella!"
Bella patted his back before saying, "Yes, I did, but you're squishing me, Seth." Once the young Shifter let go and she got her breath again, she asked him if he had seen Jacob or knew where he was. Her heart started beating anxiously when she saw Seth's smile falter a bit. Feeling anxious now, Bella asked, "Seth, where is he?"
Seth looked to the side nervously before answering, "He's hanging out with my sister. She said that since you, quote, 'decided to still continue to be a leech lover, she would take it upon herself to make sure Jake was happy and to forget you' unquote. All her words, not mine. It almost sounded like she was hoping for a possible romance with him in the future, since he seems to have a thing for older girls or something like that."
Bella's heart dropped into her stomach at hearing his words. Jacob was out with Leah? And Leah wanted to be with Jacob? She couldn't believe her ears. She wouldn't blame Seth, his innocent nature made him tell the truth all of the time, but she couldn't believe Jacob would move on with the she-wolf. She needed to find him and tell him what she felt and how she changed her mind before he changed his about how he felt about her. Determined she asked Seth did he know where they may have gone. Seth nodded and said, "Port Angeles. Come on, let's borrow one of Jake's motorcycles. We can probably catch them in time."
The two of them hurried into Jacob's garage and hopped on one of his motorcycles, happy to see it already had its key in the ignition. Bella held onto Seth as he started the bike and revved up before riding out of the garage.
Author's Note: I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! And I hope that you liked this chapter and will continue to stay tuned for more to come.