Struggling to be Honest
JacobxBella
Rated M
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or the franchise, as it belongs to Steph Meyers
Struggling to be Honest
Chapter 8
Bella was relieved when she pulled up to the little red house and saw Jacob walk into the Taj Mahal, alone. Stopping the pickup, he shut it off and clambered out of it, tripping over her feet as she hurried to garage. Making it to the entrance she saw Jacob working under the hood of another car. Taking a breath she said, "Jake."
Jacob's body tensed when he heard the voice of his beloved. Why was Bella here? Why wasn't she at her wedding reception? Straightening up, the young man turned around and looked wide-eyed at the brunette girl. There she was standing in the entrance to his garage, looking at him with something akin to relief and love in her eyes. Wait, love? Bella had claimed that she loved him, just not enough. But the way her eyes sparkled with the emotion was the same way she would look at or talk about Cullen, only intensified.
"What are you doing here, Bella? Shouldn't you be at your wedding reception right now?" Jacob asked, deciding to not beat around the bush concerning her presence. He watched as Bella shook her head and stepped inside the garage, her hand toying with the bracelet on her wrist. It was then that the Quileute noticed that the gaudy diamond that the leech had placed on it was no longer hanging from it. The bracelet looked exactly like how it did when he had first given it to her.
"I'm supposed to be, but I changed my mind," Bella said looking him squarely in the face. "I ran out and left Edward at the altar. Rosalie helped me as well. She said that there was no shame in jilting the groom if I felt that marrying him wasn't right. And, and I kept hearing you tell me that I was making a mistake, that I needed to be honest with myself."
Jacob couldn't believe his ears. Bella had literally left the groom at the altar and ran away from the wedding. Belatedly he noticed that she was no longer wearing that oversized piece of jewelry on her left hand, letting him know that she had given it back. But just to make sure, he asked, "What are you saying, Bella?"
Bella took a deep breath and walked closer to Jacob, stopping just inches from him. Opening her mouth, she said, "I called off the wedding and the engagement. I ran away from a life that I had talked myself into believing that I wanted. I gave Edward his ring and the diamond charm back. I did all of this because I finally realized that you were right. I am in love with you, Jacob Black. I was stubborn to insist that I wasn't, but I am. You once said that if I chose you, it would be as easy as breathing, and it was. I realized that I don't love Edward, not like I had convinced myself I had; I haven't since he left and you patched me back together. My heart already belonged to you and I never knew it until earlier today. I chose you over Edward; I want to spend the rest of my life with you, if you'll have me."
She had ended her speech with tears filling her chocolate brown eyes. Oh, how she hoped that Jacob wouldn't reject her. She had just poured out her heart, now all she could do now in this crucial moment was hope it wasn't in vain.
Jacob's head was spinning with the young woman's confession. Bella Swan, the love of his life for years, had just ran out on her fiancé (ex-fiance at that) to come and tell him that she was in love with him. It was almost too good to be true. He discreetly pinched himself just to make sure that this moment in front of him was for real. Seeing that it was, Jacob backed away from the girl and sat on an overturned crate, his head in his hand. This was way too much for him to take in right now, especially when just hours ago she was rejecting him dressed in a wedding dress. Gripping his hair he looked up at Bella and almost cringed at the hopeful look he was giving her. He was about to ruin her mood with his next words.
"Bella, thanks for letting me know this, but I have to be honest. It hurts me to have to say this, but I don't want to be with you right now," Jacob said.
"B-But Jake-
"I said not right now, Bells; I didn't say 'never'. It's just that this is too much for me to take right now. I mean, just hours ago you were telling me that there was no way that you would ever choose me over Cullen, and now you're here professing your love for me? Give me a break, my head is spinning. But tell me this: is it really true that you're done with Cullen?"
Bella nodded in confirmation, making Jacob's heart beat faster in his chest. His chance was finally here, he could finally make Bella his. However he refused to give in just yet. Standing back up, he walked over to his best friend and wrapped his arms around her in a hug, holding her close to him. The girl returned the hug and snuggled deeply into the boy's warmth. This was where she belonged, where she felt right and safe, here in these strong arms.
Jacob pulled back just enough to look at her, staring deeply into her eyes. It was there he saw that she had spoken the truth to him. She really had chosen him, even if the timing of it was a little late. She had almost gotten married after all. Still holding her, he said, "Just give me a few days to sort my thoughts out, okay? You did kind of spring this on me suddenly."
"Okay," Bella said softly. Remembering about him being with Leah, she asked, "Jake, you aren't thinking of dating Leah, are you?"
"No, I'm not. She's a cool girl and all, but I don't see myself with her romantically or anything like that. I know that she has a crush on me, but I don't have the heart to tell her that I'll never be able to like her the way she likes me," Jacob answered honestly, looking a little sad that that was the case, but he couldn't help how he felt. Bella nodded and gave him a reassuring hug before pulling away and looking him in the eyes once again.
It was then that Jacob felt as if the earth had stopped spinning on its axis and all the pieces of his life had fallen into place. All he could see was a future and it had Bella all throughout it. Surprisingly enough, Bella was experiencing the same exact feeling Jacob was feeling. It was so powerful that she gasped and held onto her best friend as tightly as she could, her knees buckling under her. Jacob held onto her and continued staring into those brown eyes he loved so much, feeling the urge to kiss Bella overwhelm him.
Without hesitating, he bent down just as Bella leant up, their lips connecting in a sweet, intimate kiss. It wasn't like their last one, which was desperate; no, this one was all that he imagined it to be. Pulling away, they looked into each other in the eyes again before their lips slammed back together, hungrily this time and their hands touching wherever they could.
The two of them sank down to the ground of the garage still kissing, and Jacob lay on top of Bella. No words were exchanged, but it was apparent what they both wanted in that moment. Wasting no time, they undressed each other until they were both completely nude. Jacob stopped kissing Bella for a minute and went searching though his tool boxes, looking for a condom. He finally found one and quickly opened it, rolling the piece of latex onto his erection. Jacob couldn't wait, he couldn't take the time to perform foreplay on Bella; his wolf wasn't allowing it. It was as if his wolf was in heat and was in a hurry to claim its mate.
Giving Bella a kiss, Jacob sank into her, causing her to moan loudly into his mouth. The two of them moved frantically, wanting to please each other while also trying to find and reach release. Before long, they both had and collapsed on the ground. Breathing heavily, Jacob held Bella close and whispered, "I love you, Bells."
Bella smiled and whispered back, "I love you, too." She giggled and then said in a teasing voice, "I thought you said to give you a few days."
Jacob chuckled and sat up to look at her, saying, "I did, but something happened and I suddenly wanted nothing than to be with you right here, right now."
The brunette smiled and pulled the Native back down to kiss him again, which he did passionately. However, the sound of a car door shutting caught their attention, and the voices of their fathers drifted into the garage.
Author's Note: Hello, everyone. Thank you to all of you that have been reading and following my story. Now, I know that there are readers who are concerned about Leah and who she could possibly end up with. I have set up a poll dealing with Leah and who she could be with romantically in the future of this story. I would really appreciate it if you all could take the time and vote for Leah's future companion. Thanks so much, and I hope you all continue to enjoy the story! Love, SehunsBae37