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Arizona's POV
Great this is just what I need. She doesn't remember anything. I made such a big fool of me. I know her so well, why I even for one second though that she'd be able to stay awake through my confession is so stupid.
Callie's POV
I remember everything. I remember every single word and every single hesitation in her voice. I just implied that I don't know what she was talking about to see her get uncomfortable. She is so cute when she is uncomfortable. I thought of letting this go on. I thought of only telling her once we get to Seattle but what if she clams up. What if she decides to just pull away from me?
I see this blonde woman waking to the couch to sit. She then gets up immediately as if she has forgotten something. She gets up and walks to the table and back to the couch. I can't help myself. I laughed at her. She looked so missed placed. I loved every second of it because to me this is when she is the cutest. Like before when Mer made assumptions and Arizona got uncomfortable. Her being uncomfortable turns me on. Am I weird? Who cares if I'm weird as long as Arizona loves me? Yup she said she loved me and I'm gloating. I'm smiling inside but I'm also hurting inside. I'm hurting because last night was the first time I realized how much I've hurt her. I think I should put this beautiful blonde out of her misery. She'll probably be very angry but it's time for me to face the music.
Callie
Arizona, come sit here. We need to talk.
Arizona
No Callie, we need to get going.
Callie
Do you want me to make you sit? I can do that, you know.
Arizona
Oh shut up, I'll sit. What is it you want to talk about?
Callie
You know last night when you told me loved me and that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me and that you forgive me.
Arizona
I didn't say that.
Callie
I know you didn't. I know you said you love me though.
Arizona
I did yes. So wait? You heard what I said?
Callie
Every single word! I heard the ones that lit up my heart and I also heard the ones that cut deep.
Arizona
Did you hear everything?
Callie
Yes I did.
Arizona
Then why didn't you answer me when I asked you if I can trust that you won't walk out again?
Callie
I didn't want to answer it whilst I was drunk. I didn't think you'd take me seriously. Also I was a coward because I couldn't handle you being hurt. I was scared of questions that were to follow.
Arizona
So you were a coward.
Callie
And I didn't want to answer your questions when I'm drunk.
Arizona
No you were a coward.
Callie
Arizona please, can we not fight?
Arizona
When I cheated on you, I didn't run. I didn't pretend to fall asleep. I faced the music. I did things on your terms. You walk out on me. You dragged me through a court case and you slammed my name while doing it. Then you say you love me and when I open up to you, you decide that you can't handle it. Why did you even say you love me? Why did you say you'll make it up to me? Why did you lead me to confess too?
Callie
Because I want to make it up to you. I do! I really do.
Arizona
No Callie, you don't. You lost your girlfriend and now you're lonely.
Great she is angry. Well I'll just have to suck it up and try and convince her that she is all I want. She is stubborn but I know how to handle her. I was about to pull her closer to me and to tell her again that I love her and that I need her, when Mer came in. Mer had been waiting for 75 minutes and she got a little worried. She came to tell us if we don't leave now we will miss our flight. She could sense that there was bad vibes in the air. She was never the shy one and when we on the plane she started asking questions. She wanted to know what's going on. I tried to duck and skip the questions but she did not stop. To my surprise Arizona answered her. I didn't even know they had that kind of relationship. I thought Mer was my friend. Arizona told Mer that we both confessed our feelings but I was a coward. She said I was a coward and selfish. She even said I had an ego as big as Texas. Mer got awkward and decided to shut up. Thank God for that.
We landed and took a cab to GSMH. We only showed our faces and then we went home. I went back to her house with her because I wanted to talk to her. She didn't seem interested. So I took the last of my stuff that was at her house and went back to the apartment I've been renting.
I have to be out of this place in about two months. Sofia will only be back tomorrow. So I decide to sleep of this heavy hangover. When I woke up it was Sunday. Arizona had the day of and I had to work so we will only see each other when I go to her place to look after Sofia. We decided that I rather not take Sofia to the apartment as it is not my permanent residence and we don't want to confuse her. So when I watched her at night I would sleep over. We have been on this schedule right through to Friday. She had the Friday night off and I have the Saturday off. Sofia asked me if we could spend it together and of course I said yes. I don't think Arizona would approve since she is still angry and we only communicate when it is about things in relation to Sofia.
I know I have to start to gain her trust. I am going to have to make her feel butterflies all over again. I also feel that giving her butterflies should be easier this time around because I can use Sofia as my pawn. Okay that sounds bad but I'm sure you know what I mean. So I've thought about ways to get her to talk to me. I hope it will work. On Friday she'll probably sleep till it's time to pick up Sofia from school. I'm working till 7 at least and then I'm heading over with pizza. Sofia wanted family night so she gets family night but I'm not allowed to sleep over Arizona said.
My plan is to have two pizza's one box with Sofia's favourite and the other with Arizona's favourite. In Arizona's pizza box I wrote a really stupid message. It reads:
*A please talk to me. If you do I'll consider the chickens. *
She smiled when she read the message. That was not the end though. I let Sofia draw a sad face and on my pizza box we wrote "Mamma is a coward, please talk to her". She smiled at that too but I could see that that alone won't get though to her. I didn't want to drag Sofia into this and also didn't want to confuse her so I decided not to involve her or at least not in things that gives away to much. She is a clever little girl and she asks way too many questions.
We tucked Sofia in and she wanted a story. I decided to make up a really bad story about a Princess who was scared to tell the world that she likes the plumber's son and that she hangs out with him. The princess was a coward because she was scared of the backlash and humility she'd have to endure. The princess was used to having some else deal with her hardships for her. She denied her relationship with the plumber's son and she made him feel really bad. She didn't want to deal with the negativity she'll get and she didn't care who got hurt in the process. In the end though the Princess realizes how stupid she is and we all know the rest. I tried to out as much emphasis on how stupid the princess is.
I could see Arizona is enjoying the story because she kept on looking at me with a smug look on her face. Anyway Sofia was asleep and it was time for me to go. She said I should stay for a night cap. She also made it clear to me that the night cap will be coffee and that we'll stay in the kitchen because she is still very angry at me. She also said that she didn't want to talk. This night cap was just because she was a decent human being. I told her I was tired and I had better head home. I asked for a rain check on the night cap but she said no. As I was readying myself to leave I decided to blunt because why the hell not? We have been through a lot and we don't need this right now. I planned on asking her to talk to me but when she invited me for a night cap and asked that we not talk, I decided to give her time to calm down. Now I think I should just woman up and tell her that I'm not going away. I was already in her door war when I tried talking to her.
Callie
Arizona, I really think we should talk.
Arizona
Not tonight please Callie.
Callie
If not tonight then when?
Arizona
I don't know.
Callie
Well you take your time. I'm not going away. I don't mind waiting for you. Actually waiting for you is the least I could do.
Arizona
Callie…can we not get into this?
Callie
I'm not going away. I'll be here tomorrow, the day after, next week, next month and every other day of the years to follow. So you're gonna have to talk to me.
Arizona
I know.
Callie
The sooner the better, right?
Arizona
I know.
Callie
So let me take you on a date then.
Okay that was not planned. I didn't plan to ask her on a date. We are not even there yet. Oh well that was stupid of me. Her face looks so confused. I don't even know why I just asked her out. I think this is way too much, way too soon. Especially since she is not even talking to me. How do I expect her to sit with me for two hours or more when she is not even talking to me? Dammit Calliope.