I know it took awhile but here it is

When I woke up I was surprised, Dean was still here with me. He was stroking my hair like he was when we went to sleep. "Finally awake?" Dean asked. I sat up slowly and rubbed my eyes. "You good?" he asked sitting up with me. "Uh yeah, just a bad dream. Now I'm ready for an explanation, and don't leave out the part of you becoming a big ass dog, cause you and I both know that's not normal." I said getting kinda jumpy again. "Oh um….right, and it's a wolf not a big ass dog." He said. "Not making your case any better." I said looking at him. "Well where do you want me to start, I can explain almost anything you want." He said, taking my hand. "How about you start from the part where you left me in bed alone." I said looking at his hand holding mine. "Right…" I could tell he was a little hesitant. "I just don't wanna scare you away. I can't lose you again." He said staring into my eyes and squeezing my hand a bit tighter. "I'm not going anywhere Dean." I said reassuringly. He nodded and continued. "Ok well after I left, I was working for about 2 hours and just as I was about to leave, Lavon showed up with some of his boys and beat me to death and took everything but Lavon didn't think beating me to a pulp was good enough so he stabbed me 5 times and left me there to die.." He said and I as already almost in tears at the thought of him going through this alone. "Believe me I was ready to die, but while I laid there watching my blood run out into a puddle, a man came up to me and asked if I wanted to be saved before he told me all the things that might happen, and all I wanted was to see you again so I accepted and he fuckin bit me and knocked me out before he took me to this ware house where I had to learn how to control what I was. And I missed you to pieces and all I wanted to do was find you. So after I left the first thing I went to do is look for you but when I saw an empty apartment I started to freak out, so I went to go see Sami to find out where you were but I couldn't find him either. So I asked some friends for help and they did. And here you are, after all these years I finally found you and I'm never leaving you ever again, I swear on my life." He said looking into my eyes. I can feel his touch but yet this still doesn't feel real.

"Are you afraid of me…of what I am?" his bluish-gray eyes looked into mine, he looked as though he was afraid of my answer. "…never." Without saying another word, he put his hand on my cheek and brushed his thumb over my face to wipe the tear I never knew fell out of my eye, before he gently pulled me in for a passionate kiss. His hands moved from my face to my hips and I gently pushed him away. He looked at me confused, before I spoke. "We can't," I said silently looking away. "Are you afraid of me?" he said pulling my face up to look him in the eye. "No, I just…we just can't." I said looking away again. "I'm with someone." I don't know why I didn't tell Dean about Jake last night.

Jake was the first guy I had ever been with after thinking Dean was dead, and he was the first person I met in California. Dean's expression changed completely and I could tell he was mad. "I know." He said. "What do you mean you know?" I asked, looking back at him. "I see the marks, JJ I'm not blind." He spoke through gritted teeth. "It was an accident, its not like he meant it I know he loves me, he just has a different way of showing it." I said softly. He looked at me in disbelief. "What happened to you, JJ?" he asked. "You used to tell me all the time that getting the shit kicked out of you was not love, you were strong then, you remember that?!" he began to get heated. "You don't understand him!" I yelled back at him. "No, I don't understand you." He spoke softly and left without another word. I should've went after him but I couldn't.

I laid back down in my bed and cried for what seemed like forever until Jake showed up and he stomped up the stairs. "Jade!" he yelled as he busted through the door. I was already shaking in fear. "Who the fuck was here!" he yelled as he grabbed my arm tightly. "Jake your hurting me!" I cried in pain. "TELL ME WHO THE FUCK WAS HERE!" he shouted over my cries. "What do you mean!" I cried again. "Some guys told me, you brought a man home last night!" all I saw was rage in his dark eyes. His hands squeezed tighter on my wrists and I knew there would be fresh bruises within a couple of hours. "He was an old friend who just needed some help, I swear!" I couldn't stop crying and shaking in fear. He grabbed me by my hair and dragged me down the stairs and to his car. I was so happy the boys weren't here, because I don't know what would've happened. When he shoved me in the car I tried to get out but the child lock was on. When he got in the car he stared at me for a moment before putting the key in the ignition and whipping out of the driveway and speeding away.

I tried to calm myself by mentally escaping from the car. I had done this every time Jake got angry with me, I always knew he didn't mean what he had done. I always had to suffer before I got the moments that I longed for, when he would cuddle me and apologize for what he had done. As we drove I saw what looked like a man hiding in the trees but the figure soon disappeared. When we arrived at his house he got out of the car and ran to the other side to let me out. As soon as he opened the door he grabbed my upper arm tight and dragged me into the house. As soon as he shut the door his lips crashed on mine but this kiss just didn't feel right. There was no passion, no kindness, and no love. "Jake, stop," I said trying to push him off me. "Shut up." He said angrily as he crashed his lips on mine again. I shoved him off again and he looked at me with pure rage. As soon as I saw that look I ran for the door but he closed before I could leave and grabbed me by my waist before slamming me on the floor. Before I could get up again he was on top of me. "Jake, stop your hurting me!" I yelled as he squeezed my wrist. No doubt there would be bruises later.

When I kept struggling, I got one hand free and scratched his face as hard as I could and he started bleeding. "You bitch!" Instead of putting his hands back on my wrist he put them on my throat and started squeezing. He had never gone this far before. "If I can't have you no one can." He said with a crazed look in his eyes. My vision slowly started to fade and the last thing I heard was a loud bang before I blacked out.

Dream/Memory

I lie awake holding Issac because he had a bad dream. My parents were out doing the usual drinking, which men my father was drugging up my mom and passing her around like a meat tray at a party, and probably wouldn't be home for 2 days. "JJ, why don't we go to a foster home?" Issac asked looking up with glossy eyes. "Because im not taking the chance of them splitting us up, I promise one day we will be out of here and I will take care of all of you, I just need more time." I said in a whisper. I never liked when my brothers were hurting, and I could never cry with them no matter how much I wanted to because I'm supposed to be strong for them and crying shows weakness. "No more talk Issac, just close your eyes and go to sleep." I said soothingly while rubbing his head softly, while I made myself fall asleep aswell.